Chapter 80: No worries no worries

On the thirteenth day of the lunar calendar, A Heng received a call when he was sorting out the clutter in his home.
The call came from an unfamiliar voice. He said that he had a relationship with A Heng in several ways and he wanted to pass it on to her something as hopeless.
Aheng asked who he was.
He said his surname was Chen, and he was old acquaintance with Yanxi.
A Heng suddenly remembered who this person was. The secretary of the Lu family, who Yanxi is afraid of.
Lin Ruomei was replaced by Lu Liu two years ago. Lu's family has long been named Lu. As for the Wen family, the equity participation in them, but they do not know how much they account for.
She asked him where he was going, Xiao Chen gave an address, and Aheng wrote it on a sticky note and put it in the phone book to prevent any accidents. Later, I was worried that Yanxi would be involved, and tore the paper to send text messages to relatives and friends. Because of Lu Liu, she has no trustworthy people. Her relatives and friends are also Lu Liu's relatives and friends, so why bother others.
Aheng sighed and went to the meeting alone.
She took the 122 bus, then turned 159 and 173, winding around for a long time before reaching the destination.
There are many tall buildings here, and it used to be a very prosperous commercial center, but for some reason, it gradually faded with the changes of the city. The place where Secretary Chen is located is a tall building in the complex, next to the fountain on the square. He said he was waiting for Ah Heng on the top floor.
When Aheng reached the top floor, he was taken aback. The top floor was actually a vast open space, separated by a heavy red rusted iron door, which must have been locked before, but now it was lightly covered and opened with a push. Surrounded by wooden horses, slides, and four-wheel drive lanes, it is clearly a paradise for urchins. Only in the corner are a few pots of withered roselle, hanging down, huge and pitiful.
The few times I have seen before, Secretary Chen wears glasses, a straight suit, and a gentle face. At this moment, she is wearing a denim jacket, sitting quietly on the ground, staring at these dusty toys, still in her hands. Holding a can of beer.
Seeing Ah Heng coming, he nodded slightly and took out a palm-sized red four-wheel drive from his large denim jacket. The car was exquisitely crafted, well kept and well maintained. It was covered with thick paint under the sun. The warm light refracted by the color.
He handed it to A Heng, who was stunned.
Secretary Chen smiled slightly: "Yanxi's childhood toys have been left with me for so long, so I should return him."
A Heng shook his head, turned his back, and looked at him suspiciously, not daring to accept it.
Secretary Chen smiled: "What a lovely child, no wonder."
A Heng is very direct: "You are a bad guy, Yanxi doesn't like you, so don't disturb him anymore."
Secretary Chen's smile became bitter: "For Yanxi, I am indeed a bad person. But not because of the dirty photos."
He said: "I gave you this car to tell you and to remind you that the love and entanglement between Boss and Yanxi is not something you can intervene. And I owe Yanxi, will Take it to the grave and save it for the next life."
A Heng said: "Lu Liu asked you to come."
Secretary Chen took a sip of beer and nodded. He said: "People are the master, I'm just a that moves around."
A Heng squinted: "Why didn't he tell me directly, but let you come?"
Secretary Chen gently placed the small car that Aheng did not pick up on the small winding lane, watching it run non-stop, his eyebrows gradually eased, cautious and gentle. He said: "You took away his cutest toy. He hated you and disdaind you so much, so he naturally refused to come by himself. It's just why I was sent, probably because I was also a participant in Yanxi's past. I know everything about him and Lu Liu."
Ah Heng intercepted the red car and placed it in his palm for a closer look. From a closer look, he discovered that the paint was uneven, as if it had been patched up later.
Secretary Chen smiled: "It has a story."
"So?"
"So, what Lu Liu wants to tell you is this story.
"I'll talk about this incident carefully from the beginning, and Girl Wen can tell the truth.
"The story starts with me. I didn't have a name. I grew up in an orphanage. I only knew my surname was Chen. Later, I was adopted by the Lu family and was always called Xiao Chen. When I was ten years old, because I answered a few intellectual questions correctly. , Was taken away from the orphanage by the Lu family. At first I thought there would be a complete home, but in fact, he has been trained as a chess piece.
"Do you know what a chess piece is? It is the kind of person who is usually a helper and can be abandoned at a critical moment. I was sent to the best business school to study, and there are many children of the same age together. They and I exist only for The only grandson of the Lu family is Lu Liu. He needs a hard chessboard. In fact, many times this is more important than a hard heart."
Secretary Chen paused and laughed. His voice was very soft, with reminiscences, and seemed happy: "And because of my excellent grades, I was sent to Lu Liu in advance to remind him of his usual study life. When Lu Liu was a child , Is a very gentle and kind child, ah, I feel a little like Miss Wen, you are white, like a little jade person, and often referred to by the elders as'Little Lu Buddha'.
"I watched him secretly, you know, it's not simple for me to come to him. I want to report his every move to Lao Lu, and I want to prevent him from becoming only aware of the beauty of the world, and even the same person is too close. But he would always look at me, and said pitifully: "Brother, let me play with Yanxi for a while. We will do our homework after playing the monster." At that time, I heard from him for the first time. To Yanxi's name."
Aheng smiled slightly: "Yanxi was as sharp as he is now when he was a kid?"
Secretary Chen waved her hand and fell into deep thought of memories: "No, no, it's not the way it is now. I have never seen a child who loves to laugh, with a baby fat on his face, a baby head, big eyes, and a small mouth. He can smile into a heart shape. Every time he sees him, he always wears a pair of pink pig-head slippers, with a bag of milk hanging from his mouth, and runs behind Lu Liu while muttering.
"He grew up with Lu Liu, two people...because of the same loneliness, the relationship has always been very good. There is a word-inseparable from each other, which can often be confirmed by them.
"I often used them to sit on the carpet and play Transformers together, killing the villain with a gamepad, but unknowingly they fell asleep with their little head. Ah, by the way, when Yanxi was a child, he still slept. The problem of thumb sucking is probably because he has not had a mother since he was very young.
"This is what I did for Lu Liu and Xi'er. No one has ever called Yanxi like that, right? Because that is my exclusive name. I call him Xier because he is a child I cherish very much in my heart. This toy car was given to the young kid. He often kept it in his pocket. I called Xier, and he saluted me seriously, then put the car on the track and told me: Sir, everything is ready, please be fair referee.
"He played against Lu Liu and I was a referee. He often lost, so he always thought it was because of my lack of preference that he would lose to Lu Liu. He mistakenly thought I was unfair. But I live for Lu Liu. Loving Xier is already an injustice.
"For Mr. Lu, I chose to remain silent and no longer actively report. I just taught Lu Liu some business skills at the right time, and took him to eat the cheapest but truly delicious food I ate when I was a kid, and told him how gentle the world is. Lu Liuchao It's developing in the direction I expect-close partner, soft heart. But this is no longer within the range that Elder Lu can tolerate. He was furious and wanted to take back everything I had, including one who could be with this child. identity of.
"Lu Liu cried and begged him, saying that Grandpa shouldn't drive his brother away. He would never dare anymore. Since then, Lu Liu has changed a lot. He has self-control and endurance. Although he is gentle, he doesn't like to talk. Relying on me more and more, but getting away from Yanxi.
"At that time, Yanxi was just in junior high school, and the little child grew up to look like a teenager. At that time, the elegance appeared like a pipa, but a smile and a look were clean and exciting. He held a picture clip. I ran around the city, drawing whatever I saw. I once saw him kiss a splendid flower growing in the cracks of the city wall on tiptoe, and I saw him sitting down in the park, drawing a stray kitten. Feeding those kittens, the kittens are cold and never smile at him. Therefore, after a long time, he understands some truths of the world, and he refuses to smile when he sees people again. He said that all those who love to laugh are fools. Fools will be looked down upon hard-hearted.
"Later, he often ran to the places where I went to eat with Lu Liu, came back and told us very seriously:'I have eaten what you ate, it is too sweet, too sour, too bitter and not tasty. Really.'
"Lu Liu looked at him, but he always laughed unconsciously. He was young and arrogant, but he tried to tolerate or endure Yanxi's childishness. He often said to me:'Brother, Yanxi is still too young, yes Isn't it?' He was eager to announce his growth, he would rather teach me how to eat a complicated and gorgeous European-style meal, rather than expose the weak and hold me crying.
"But, he and Yanxi are so strikingly similar, sometimes even like the shadow of each other. No one is happy to lose their shadow. Yanxi is not happy, and Lu Liu is also very abnormal.
"He often said that he had to think of a better way to make Yanxi stronger, so that they could be the best friends in the world again, and even grandpa could not be separated. But even if he thinks like this, But his behavior has shown a naive and ignorant dislike and hatred for Yanxi and his age.
"Yanxi once loved to sing a randomly fabricated song to Lu Liu. The lyrics said, la la la la, the sky is getting dark, the sunflower has lost me. Lu Liu said where I am, and Yan Xi sang Answer: The sunflower has you. Others say that Xi is as brilliant as a sunflower, but he is just the light itself, and he has never relied on the light beside him. The land flow is like the moon and has always relied on him to draw warmth. This warmth is constantly flowing, and he is used to it. I didn't think so. Lu Liu told me, brother, when I turned around, Yanxi was there, which was really annoying."
As soon as she turned her head, Yanxi frowned and pretended not to laugh. It was really annoying to stand so weak and sunny.
Secretary Chen hesitated and spoke softly: "In 1997, I don’t know if you heard from the news that there was an explosion at the southern end of City B. It was caused by fireworks in the bar during the Chinese New Year, which killed a full 33 people. people."
A Heng tried his best to think back and remembered this tragedy. The raging flames swallowed and burst, spread wantonly, endlessly melted, screamed tragically, and she had seen it back then, the misery that was magnified in the newspaper.
Secretary Chen crumpled the beer can into a ball and looked at the sky wearily: "At that time, I, Lu Liu, and Yanxi were all there. Lu Liu and Yanxi drank too much, so I watched them quietly. I watched. With the fireworks in the venue, I still felt beautiful the moment before, but the next second I heard the tragic cry, accompanied by the wind."
He said: "I, I only chose one at the time."
A Heng was startled, tears kept falling from the corners of her eyes. Looking at him, she couldn't believe it, her heartache squeezed her breath away, and she couldn't gasp for breath. Finally, she went crazy and knocked him to the ground. She kept crying, mute, and yelled: "How can you, how can you give up him so easily?"
Secretary Chen's eyes were numb, and he wiped the blood stains from the corners of his mouth: "I caught Lu Liu in my first reaction, so Xi grasped his hand and looked at us in fear and pleading. I couldn't carry the two and a half-old children together. .
With the sadness in Yanxi's eyes that almost anticipated the ending, Lu Liu slammed his hand away and said to me, "Don't look back, don't look back." I didn't know at the time, these were just young Lu Liu thoughts. Yes, the conspiracy to train Yanxi's mind.
"But, I turned my head. There were tears in Yanxi's eyes. He fell to the ground, so thin, looking up at the melting sign, and crawling out desperately."
Desperate... desperate... desperate...
He said: "When I bring Lu Liu to a safe place, the bar has become a sea of ​​fire. I can't tell where the fire is and where is Yanxi. I seem to hear him yelling'Brother help me', but I couldn't find him anymore, only the charred car. I couldn't get rid of it. Almost every day was a nightmare. Lu Liu didn't want to face Yanxi, so he went to Vienna for studying abroad."
He lay on his back and shed tears while smiling sadly: "I promised him that I would love him just as I did to Lu Liu. But in 1997, a month after Lu Liu left, I watched. He was insulted by the people Lin Ruomei found, and in order to end his pain, he picked up the camera. I called Xi'er through the camera softly. He hung his head as if he hadn't heard it, clenched his fists, and was dark. Lu Liu and I finally destroyed the stupid child who was willing to give us unlimited sunshine. We destroyed love itself."
A Heng took a deep breath, but tears were all over his face. She kept wiping and wiping her eyes with her sleeves, but she squatted on the ground, crying.
In 1997, Hong Kong returned to the country, and the whole country was in joy; when she grew up, she was able to eat half a bowl; the school sent her to the city for the first time to participate in a math competition, and she was lucky enough to take the first place.
After breaking the index a lot, but it seems that everything has nothing to do with her Mr. Yan.
It was getting dark, and someone gently opened the babbling door.
The man looked at the red car with beautiful arcs on the track, and there may have been cheers around many years ago. Perhaps for the victory of one person, or for the failure of another person.
In this city, some people lose thoroughly, while others win vain.
He quietly walked past the man with glasses, who was tall, not what he looked like as a child.
They all want him to grow up, and look, because of this fad, he is older and desolate than everyone else.
Holding the painstakingly pieced together address in his hand, he gently squatted down and hugged the crying little girl into his arms.
A Heng lowered his head and said with a trembling: "I can't even find a reason to tell them in 1997 that the teenager they abandoned will be another person's heart in 2003. They even use not knowing as a reason. Almost trampled on other people's treasures!"
Yanxi was stunned, staring at the child carefully and looking at the child, only to realize that the sadness and pain in her eyes had been carved into the bones and could not be more profound.
He understood what she was talking about almost instantly.
He felt sad, but he hurriedly stuffed Aheng into his arms: "Baby, I crawled out. Look, I'm so powerful, I don't need others to save me. I understand that the world is unjust, but I just, no Know what other people’s love looks like."
Love is abandoning, love is doing your best and then sitting on the sidelines. For them, love is everything, but not the appearance of love.
"I don't need it, and it's not rare." He pinched A Heng's bone, almost into his own muscle bones, he said, "But Wen Heng, there is only one person in this world, who must just love me. You must only love me."
Wen Heng, you must just love me.
only you.
A Heng looked up at him, looked at him deeply, and after a long time, he nodded slightly.
She promised him justice, for she could only be so partial in the future.
She wiped away the tears and frowned her eyebrows, but looked so serious. She said to him: "Unless the soil is white and bones, I will keep you safe for a hundred years."
Light a longevity lamp and bargain for a hundred lives. Yanxi is ninety-seven, Aheng is three years full.
Swear with the gods, explain with the gods.
She can no longer look back.