Chapter 40: Open your heart

It’s quite helpless to smile.
He always likes to attribute all the mistakes to himself. I know... Xiao Zhao, you are going back to rest.

Gu Tingchuan likes to work for a long time without restraint. He always has paranoia about some things. His own character is autistic, and his work is an irritating character. Therefore, he is even more reluctant to let her share what.
Yiran was absent-mindedly looking at the empty living room without a trace of anger. Thinking about how many weekends she had been, she could see him eating breakfast here, chatting with her, and then handling the work delayed for one night.
But now Gu Tingchuan has returned to his studio. She saw the brown door of the copper wall, like a place where he was isolated from the world. The fortress has been unbreakable for so many years, and no one has the courage to open it.
The weather outside the house has always been cloudy and uncertain. There are weather forecasts that there may be light snow in these days. The clouds are rolling from the north and whistling over the city.
Not long after, the heavy snow turned out to be underground, and the outside became a silver-wrapped garden. The vehicles parked outside were covered with a thick layer of frost and snow. It seemed that the whole world was asleep.
At night, she still insisted on giving Gu Tingchuan a meal. She took a breath and knocked on the door. Although she did not get a response, she tried to turn the doorknob. Fortunately, she could open the door.
In fact, she had come in this studio a few times before, but I have not observed it carefully. There is a strong coffee smell in the room. The curtains are firmly pulled into several layers and the whole space is better than Their bedroom is also spacious.
Gu Tingchuan stood at a long table with a mess of things on his feet. There was a wall-mounted TV on the left wall, which could be used for video conferences.
She did not have time to look at it. Her attention was focused on the man. Fortunately, he did not look at her indifferently, nor did he drive her out, but remained silent.
Yi Ran tried to communicate with him and urged him with a worried tone: "Your sleep has always been bad, don't drink too much coffee, it hurts the stomach."
"I know, nothing."
Gu Tingchuan has said the same thing to her several times, but his eyes are always in the movie that is playing, or else it is the books and documents in his hand.
She put down the plate and tried to talk to him about some recent events: "Right, isn't my friend a doctor at the spiritual center? She praises you for the preciseness of the spirit and psychology of the characters."
Gu Tingchuan did not look back, only the voice smiled: "Yes."
"I made a new snack, Shuflei on the level of hell, do you want to eat?"
He just nodded: "Well, let it go when you are done."
No matter what she said, the topic is often simply ended by him.
Yiran sighed and swung slowly to the door. Just at the moment he looked up, he saw the white snow drifting out of the window. The gentle, like catkins slowly opened a circle in the half space. Oh, very nice.
She suddenly got a little bit stunned.
The city has not been so snowy for many years, the sky is sinking down, and the branches outside are blown by the wind, and the snow is coming.
She wants to enjoy snow with him, tea ~EbookFREE.me~ just look at the current state, it seems unlikely.
......
The entire studio is now like a
perpetual motion machine
, and there is no stopping for a moment, and Gu Tingchuan has more and more things on the carpet.
In the middle of the night, Yiran felt that the man was still resting on their bed, but he lay down for a while, and could not sleep, but turned and turned.
She wondered if she would say a few words to him. The result was not yet spoken. He went out again.
Gu Tingchuan’s appetite has also become very small. Even if he is willing to send food, when he goes in and cleans up, he hasn’t moved.
He poured a lot of coffee and refreshed. From time to time, she also saw him standing in front of the screen and watching the same movies repeatedly...
For so many days in a row, Yiran can no longer stand this dull atmosphere. On the next day, she stepped into the studio and lowered her voice and shouted: "Gu Tingchuan!"
He is so angry that she toss herself like this.
The character of Yi Ran is actually not so obsessive, but it has always been because of his admiration and admiration for him, which has unwittingly suppressed his temper.
"I have been telling you, I hope you can tell me, your work, your thoughts, anything. But you never seem to be in your heart, are we really so difficult to communicate?"
Gu Tingchuan seems to have recovered from the disordered thoughts. He looked down at the white paper that had been deleted by pens and reduced countless times. He said absently: "No, you don't worry about me, I just have a lot to deal with."

He is too good at communicating with others, his temper is cold, and the two are married in an unfamiliar situation. Such difficulties and obstacles are the time bombs in their marriage. Now... finally Thoroughly detonated.
"You are not at work, you are hurting yourself, consuming your own health!" She almost answered her teeth.
Gu Tingchuan stunned his eyebrows and replied casually: "What has happened these days, you should also be clear, I need some time to consider the plans for the future..."
"You can think about it, but you know, the directors of the bad films have been smashed by dozens of streets!"
Yiran knows that he does not want to talk, then she simply said something more, and quickly said: "Why do you want to force yourself this way? I know that Gu Jia is counting on you. I know that so many fans love you, then what?" ?Failed or something, isn’t it better to start all over again? Are you 'Gu Tingchuan’ not allowed to go back to the streets? Who is stipulated?

She took a big breath and said nothing yet: "And, telling someone to tell others is such an embarrassing thing? I tell you the truth, I have already seen "Homecoming", I can also say where I don't like it. Your main character is dead. Another student is not as good as death. Almost everyone in the film runs counter to their original intentions! Gu Tingchuan, you dare not face up to your problem, how many people Say that your film is too lifeless. Can you change it?"
Gu Tingchuan looked down at the table and didn't see the reddish eyes. He looked sad and said faintly: "I can't think of what else to shoot next."
Yiran slightly, she suddenly felt that he was a little strange in front of him, as if he had lost a layer of glory in the past, only a pair of scorpions black and dark like ink.
"I don't want to manage the "failures" that have passed." He said quietly, sitting in a chair, still not looking up: "But I never felt this way, I lost 'inspiration'."
That is the most terrible nightmare for a creator.
The dullness of the studio is almost breathless, and the cold weather only makes the surrounding temperature more grueling. I can hear his voice is similar to the sigh: "So, I can only find my own way."
His meaning is already obvious. She can't replace him to do anything, nor can he stop him.
"But why not try to change it more, your life is different from the past..."
Gu Tingchuan shook his head. There are many meanings of this movement. It can be explained that he does not want to change. It can also be explained as powerlessness. It can even be impossible to help...
Yi Ran felt that... It turned out that she really was not needed. From beginning to end, they were all just
couples
, but they were not able to share the relationship.
Her fiery heart was extinguished in half, like pouring water from head to toe by a basin of cold water, and the hands and feet simmered for a while, then slowed down and said, "Oh, then you continue to be busy, I know."
Gu Tingchuan realized what he was, but he only saw her thin and soft back, and her heart was touched by emotions. He was very unaccustomed, but he also wanted to accept these, and he opened his lips and was about to speak out. At the time... she has already closed the door with force.
When she left the studio, she felt that she had no strength. She sat on the floor with a soft stomach, both helpless and sad, but what should I do? You can't open a person's heart.
Although you really want to say to him -
Gu Tingchuan, can you talk to me? No matter what.
Gu Tingchuan, as long as you can open your heart, you will know that I am here, even if I can't change the situation of inspiration, but at least it will make you feel better.
She bowed her head and her tears suddenly rolled down like a string of pearls.
The person who lives in her heart is so high, how can you catch up with it, and eventually can't catch up with him.
And an ordinary elementary school teacher knows how much burden is accumulated in the mind of "genius".
Residents felt that their mood was darker than the weather outside the house. It was like all the accumulated darkness in these days. At this moment, they finally could not support it. They swallowed her and could not help themselves.
She wiped her tears with her back and wondered if there was any way to help him.
I also want to be happy about this, so that I can help Gu Tingchuan get out of the predicament... but she can't laugh anyway, and this situation makes her more worried.
Perhaps, it is necessary to adjust the state, otherwise the two people will only drag each other to the mud and slowly sink, and finally suffocate together.
......
In the early morning when the snow was delayed, she went into the kitchen. She almost never slept all night. Now she can cook coffee and omelet quite well. Soon, the fragrance floats in a room with suitable temperature.
While looking at the snow outside the window, Yi Ran saw Gu Tingchuan coming out of the studio with his lingering light. His face was unhealthy white, probably not how to sleep, and the whole person was soft but unreachable.
Her face is very pigmented. In fact, I don’t know the depths of my heart. I am not so insignificant in Gu Tingchuan’s heart. He just hasn’t got used to it.
"I have a few words I want to tell you."
Gu Tingchuan "hmm", then, looked up at her.