Chapter 584: Misunderstanding, frightened Xiaobai

Inside my mind, there are some sour memories of the intersection of old and new, surging violently.
Gu Youli's body tightened involuntarily.
Yu Feibai stood up and looked at Gu Youli with a deep gaze, "What's wrong with you?"
His complexion was still calm, but his heart seemed to be crushed by a heavy hammer, suffocating him to breathe.
Gu Youli pretended to be innocent, raised his hand and gently stroked the hair, his eyes flickered and said: "I...I'm a little thirsty, I think of drinking some water!"
With that, she lifted the quilt, got out of bed from the other side and walked out of the bedroom.
Glancing at her water glass on the bedside table, he noticed that Yu Feibai was wrong, and immediately got up and followed.
He did not step out of the bedroom, but stood at the door looking at Gu Youli in the living room.
The light was warm orange and Gu Youli's face was scary white.
Instead of drinking water immediately, she picked up the bag she had placed on the sofa, opened it with trembling hands, and then hurriedly started rummaging, and finally took out a bottle of medicine!
Yu Feibai was startled.
Wanting to step forward to stop Gu Youli, she is not allowed to eat.
But then he stopped and turned back to the bedroom, as if nothing had happened.
To this night, he was sleepless all night, eyes open, looking at her silently. Although she closed her eyes as if she was sleeping, Yu Feibai knew that she should be awake.
Because she has no nightmare! !
The morning sun rises, the morning color gradually closes.
The weather is very good today, the snow has stopped, and the sky has a warm sun.
Yu Feibai went to buy groceries, and Gu Youli lay on the rocking chair on the balcony basking in the sun, basking and sleeping.
When Yu Feibai returned home with the vegetables, she saw Gu Youli's peaceful sleeping face lying down under the sun.
He took out a thin quilt from the bedroom and prepared to cover Gu Youli.
Looking down, it was almost frightened.
"Lili~" Yu Feibai whispered to Gu Youli.
The sunlight shone on her pale little face, making her almost transparent, as if it would disappear at any time.
"Gu Youli, what are you doing!!" Yu Feibai was a little uncontrollable, his voice was cold and angry.
He suddenly stretched out his hand to grab Gu Youli's wrist, and then pulled her into his arms.
Stubbornly clasped, motionless.
At the same time, with a "clang" sound, a fruit knife fell to the ground.
Yu Feibai lost his usual calmness, his voice trembled, and threatened with panic: "How can you do this kind of thing, how can you! Gu Youli?"
He held Gu Youli tightly, as if embracing the whole world.
As long as she thought of the scene just now, she held the fruit knife in one hand, and then put the sharp blade on the arm of the other hand, he felt that he had fallen into the boundless darkness.
Gu Youli was suddenly awakened, not knowing what happened.
I only know myself, I am strangled and my breathing is not smooth,
"What's the matter with you?" Gu Youli blinked and asked puzzledly.
Looking down and seeing the fruit knife on the ground, he instantly knew that Yu Feibai had misunderstood.
I wanted to explain it immediately, but the warm sourness came to my heart first, he was shaking, he was scared, she could sense it!
"I just peeled an apple to eat. I didn't want to get up when I was comfortable with the sun. I took a paring knife and fell asleep!" Gu Youli's eyes were filled with a pet's smile.
She stretched her hand around his waist and turned her head slightly to touch his face: "I can't bear you, I won't miss it!!!"
Yu Feibai's eyes gradually deepened, and his voice was uncertain: "Really?"
Gu Youli smiled and raised his hand, and made a swearing action: "I swear that I will never commit suicide, because I am reluctant to be in vain, I don't want to die, I don't want to..."
Yes, she doesn't want to die.
She lives in a day when she may know her limit of death, cherish every day, how could she want to die!
She was really too comfortable just now, too lazy to get up.
It is estimated that when he was sleeping, he accidentally got together to find a support point, which would make Yu Feibai misunderstand.
Sure enough, it is very dangerous to take a knife while sleeping, and you will hurt yourself if you are not careful.
Remember!
Yu Feibai looked unpredictable, looked at her silently for a while, and then said: "Then you have to remember the idea that you promised me not to commit suicide. You must stabilize your mood, overcome anxiety, and ...No more medicine!"
Hearing this, Gu Youli was taken aback.
Immediately, she chuckled and gave a perfunctory "Um," and then quickly changed the subject: "You bought the food, then I'll go to the kitchen..."
After speaking, she gently pushed Yu Feibai away, and turned around.
After two steps, Feibai’s voice came from behind: "You Li, I know you are taking medicine secretly with me behind your back. I saw it, but I didn’t throw your medicine out like the last time. I want you to lose it yourself!"
Gu Youli bit her lip and did not turn around.
Yu Feibai continued: "I don't want you to kill or get any blood on your hands, but I didn't protect you. I made you suffer and make you sleep well every night and have nightmares when you sleep. That's why you have to take medicine again.
If I can, I would rather not suffer from everything, because you have dominated everything about me. If you are happy, I will be happy. If you are sad, I will be sad. Now I have a deep sense of powerlessness. You are like quicksand in the palm of your hand. One day it will disappear completely in the palm of your hand! ! "
Gu Youli's eyes filled with tears, and his heart was surging, sore and painful.
She slowly turned her head and looked at Yu Feibai, tears kept falling. "Feibai... Yu Feibai..."
Yu Feibai smiled faintly, looked at her eyes as deep as the sea, and continued: "I don't know what happened to you before. If you don't want to say, I won't ask you. I just want to tell you that the past It has passed, and the future I will face with you, I will hold your hand tightly, when you encounter a trap, I will hold your hand and jump over, when you are lost, I I will hold your hand to find the right direction. When you are about to fall into the cliff, I will hold your hand and pull you back. In short, nothing will happen. I will be by your side and bear it with you! "
Gu Youli looked at Yu Feibai and his eyes blurred, "Yu Feibai, why? You want..."
Yu Feibai interrupted her: "Why do you know very well!"
Gu Youli raised his hand to cover his mouth, and tears rolled from the corners of his eyes: "I know, I...I...I have something I want to tell you, but I can't tell you what happened before! I want you to know, I want to tell you too, but I don’t know where to start... I am a..."
People who have lived for two lives!
In a paragraph, Gu Youli was so exhausted.
She couldn't tell the rest.