Chapter 1105: Even if I do n’t come, Zi Ning does n’t say anything?

This morning, early in the morning, I saw those maids in Yang House rushing out. Cai Wei was already familiar with it. While holding a pot of hot water and coming in to serve me, I looked out. He glanced and said, "I don't know what was sent today."
These days, the emperor feeds here all day long, even she is used to it.
I didn't say anything. After washing, I sat at the dressing table and asked her to comb my hair, but today seems a little different. Usually at this time, everything has been sent in. But now, my hair has been combed. , But has not moved yet.
Cai Wei helped me loosely slap me in my head, and just plugged in the bead, I heard a lot of noisy footsteps outside. It seems that there are more people than usual, I do n’t know why, I feel a while Unsettled, I heard Tuk Tuk knocking at the door.
Cai Wei smiled and whispered: "Send something again."
I don't mind, she has put down her comb and quickly ran to open the door.
As soon as she opened the door, she froze in the doorway and said nothing.
I turned my head and saw her look at the people outside the door, her voice lowered a bit: "You, who are you?"
Yang Jinqiao's voice came from outside the door: "Cai Wei, get out of the way, let the mother go!"
Cai Wei was shocked, and immediately took a few steps back, letting her sideways to the side, my heart sank, and I stood up slowly, holding up the edge of the dresser, and saw a person coming in from the door.
The man was wearing a gorgeous but heavy robe, and the robe lay on the ground, dragging it long, all seemed to be embroidered by gold and silver threads, reflecting the colorful light reflecting the sunlight outside the door; In that light, the thin man slowly turned around, his pale and thin face was cold, almost without a trace of temperature, dark, like a bottomless, waveless deep pond.
With a pair of eyes on her, I just felt a trembling in the whole body, subconsciously, and walked slowly.
There were still many people standing outside the door, the guard, the maid, and Yang Jinqiao all holding their breath. At this moment, the atmosphere did not dare to spit out, until they saw me walking in front of the person, and the two looked at each other silently. , But could not say a word, Yang Jinqiao finally called out gently: "Cai Wei come out!"
"Oh, oh!"
This time Cai Wei was very good, probably she also felt the extraordinary identity of the comer. Even Yang Jinqiao, as the young lady of this family, didn't dare to speak easily, and she didn't dare to delay. Qiao said carefully, "Madam, I'll wait outside."
After that, she reached out and closed the door.
There was a squeak of footsteps outside, and those people seemed to retreat.
In the room, only two of us were left.
The sunlight was isolated on the other side of the gate, and the room suddenly became dim. All I could see was a faint sunlight, and a lot of dust flying in the gap between the windows behind her.
Then I looked into her eyes.
At this moment, ripples appeared in the eyes of the bottomless, waveless, pond-like eyes.
Looking at her like this, I finally couldn't say anything more, only slowly kneeling down: "Queen!"
Standing in front of me is Chang Qing, the mother of the world, the woman with the highest status in the dynasty, but at this moment when I look at her, I feel her eyes are horrified. It's all empty.
She looked at me quietly, and there was a streamer flashing in her eyes. At this time, her red lips finally opened, and she slowly said a word—
"Even if I don't come, Zi Ning doesn't say anything?"
When I heard her say this, I felt like I was severely punched in the chest, and it was difficult for me to breathe with a suffocation. I just felt the tears in my eyes, almost tears, but everything Unable to say, only gently said: "Queen ..."
Her gorgeous skirt with wavy arcs slowly appeared in front of my eyes. At this time, a pair of cold and white hands reached out, holding my arms and slowly holding me up, I stood up Looking at her weeping eyes, it seemed that she couldn't hold it up at last. She sighed and said gently, "I know you're fine, I'm relieved."
"Queen!"


I didn't expect that it would be so fast and I would see Chang Qing in such a situation.
She is more gentle than I thought, a gentle but calm woman who always takes a little bit away from her. She now seems to be the same as before, but it is even colder, as if she has become a whole person. Bing Cave, years have not taken away her looks, but also frozen her feelings and tenderness.
When she walked to the table with my hand and sat down slowly, my eyes were still a little red. Although she was a little bit sad, she kept forcing herself to calm down at this time, just holding my That hand has not been released, and when the cold fingertips scratched the back of my hand, it left a light red mark.
"Madam ..."
I was afraid she saw it and reached out, covering her back.
After a long time, she finally said gently: "When did you arrive in Beijing?"
"It's been a few days."
"Have you ever seen the emperor?"
"That day, when I was at the birthday party, I looked around."
She glanced at me: "The emperor knows you are here."
I nodded silently.
After a moment of silence, I asked again, "How did the mother know that I was at the Yang family?"
"In these days, the royal dining room delivers things outside the palace every day. I heard that it was sent to Yang House. Although I heard people say that the big girl of the Yang family has appeared a while ago, there are people from inside and outside, but Yun He told me that the meals sent by Yushanfang were spicy, and the emperor personally explained that the father-in-law would go and ask every day. "
As she said, she sighed softly: "It will make the emperor so motivated that no one else has been in these years."
"..."
I was silent and didn't speak.
"But even then, I can't believe it completely. After all, you escaped and paid such a great price." Speaking of which, I couldn't help but feel a bit embarrassed, she seemed to feel my mood, holding The hand in my hand was lightly applied, and I looked up at her: "How can the queen mother be sure I'm here?"
"That day, Yang Jinyao entered the palace."
"..."
When I mentioned this, my heart moved.
Chang Qing went on to say: "Although I have no intention to talk to her, Yun Yun has always been with her, but when I heard her, I mentioned one of her 'sisters', very gentle and understanding, If it wasn't for that 'sister,' she said, she couldn't figure out many things. "
"..."
"I think staying in Yang's house has always made the emperor troublesome and so gentle and considerate, probably only you."
I lowered my head slightly.
I did not expect that Yang Jinyao would rely on me like this and like me, but her inadvertent words also made Chang Qing aware of my existence.
"It's just that I didn't expect you to return to Beijing, but you didn't say anything to me."
When I heard her say this, my heart was full of shame. In fact, according to my past intentions, even the people of the Yang family did not want to be alarmed. It is just that things on this road are not under my control. Today, with such a big deal as Pei Yuanzhang, my return to Beijing is almost In Beijing, no one knows, no one knows.
I did not expect that this would hurt Chang Qing.
Maybe to me, she is a dependant, a friend in adversity, but I do n’t know what I mean to her, in the harem where everyone is in a fight and there is no tenderness at all, maybe my Feelings are more important to her than many things.
Thinking of this, I lowered my head and said with guilt, "I'm sorry."
She still looked at me: "You should at least tell me peace."
"……I can not."
"why?"
"Because, I am ashamed of my mother."
As soon as this was said, I felt a spasm at her fingertips. I looked up and saw her face pale for a moment, and even for a moment, her expression was almost lost.
But this is the pain that both I and she have to face.
I said softly: "I really paid a great price when I fled out, but the price I was least willing to pay was--"
With that said, I looked towards her belly.
There, it has returned to flatness, and no one can think of it. At first, she also had a belly-like poop, and she used to hope to welcome her own child like that, but I fled, and the fire took all her Hope all burned.
Her face became increasingly ugly.
After a few moments of silence, she said a bit hard: "Don't mention that again."
"Madam ..."
"I said, don't mention it again!"
She was so sensual that she let go of my hand all of a sudden, stood up and turned to the window.
I also hurried to stand up, slowly walked behind her, just watching her thin and thin shoulders trembling constantly, as if I had been suppressing something, and I could almost feel that some of her tears, simply Invisible, can only flow in my heart.
At this moment, I didn't dare to say anything, just stood behind her and waited quietly.
I didn't know how long it took before she finally spoke, with an unexplainable burnout and exhaustion, and slowly said, "I've thought about it many times, who should blame that thing."
"..."
"Should I blame you? Blame Liu Qinghan?"
"..."
"I thought about hating you, hating him, but I don't know why, but I couldn't hold on."
"..."
"Later I thought, I have no way to hate you, because I know at all that this matter should not blame you."
"..."
She sighed, turned her head to look at me, and a faint, almost misty smile floated on her face, and said, "Maybe, this child didn't belong to me from the beginning, maybe he was right to say nothing, I Hitting a childless son, this child should not show up in my life and will eventually return to where he should go. "
When I heard her open-mindedness, I became more and more heartbroken, and tears burst into my eyes: "Mother ..."
But she smiled lightly again, looked at me, and said earnestly: "No matter what, now I see you, see you are unharmed, I am satisfied."