Chapter 1119: But I want to see you!

As soon as we looked up, we had reached the apse.
This hall is not the most towering in the Taimiao. On the contrary, it is a place to rest and rest every time the emperor prays and sacrifices, so compared to the front hall and side hall, this hall feels much easier. .
However, at this moment, it is not.
In front of the hall, the portal was tightly closed, and there was no guard around it, but it revealed a kind of invisible pressure. Although it was just standing at the door, it felt like it was almost crushed.
I suddenly understood it.
Xiao Fuzi was still standing in front of me. He didn't have much expression on his face, but just respectfully reached out and said, "Madam, please."
I slowly walked up the steps to the closed door.
Although I knew it in my heart and knew that there would be no retreat at this time, the real thing was for me to step into this hall and see that person. From the bottom of my heart, I still refused.
And just as I stood at the door and didn't move, the door was opened from the inside.
Unsurprisingly, I saw the tall, familiar figure appearing in front of him. He was wearing a bright yellow robe, and his hands were still holding the door frames on both sides, as if spreading his arms to embrace what it seemed like. I stepped back involuntarily.
Pei Yuanzhang.
From the moment I walked to this place, I realized that the one who was waiting for me here would not be Chang Qing, or wonderful words, but him.
When I saw that I stepped back, the original cold face added a bit of chill, but he said nothing, only slowly put his hands behind his back, and looked at me silently.
A little footsteps behind him went away, and it was Xiaofuzi who left.
Just now, I remembered that although Xiao Fuzi had been working in Jingren Palace before, but now he has put on the official uniform of the deputy under the leadership of Liupin, he is no longer under the control of Jing Ren Palace.
The current little lucky son is the emperor.
This time it was Chang Qing's arrangement for me to enter the Taimiao Temple, but it was already Pei Yuanzhang's gesture that brought me here. The court lady who led us to the former side hall was completely strange. I was particularly concerned about it She, because if Chang Qing really sends someone to pick me up, I'm familiar with a few of them, but I don't know why a new stranger will be arranged here, so few words.
Now, of course I understand.
I looked up, and Pei Yuanzhang was still standing at the door. His face was still as cold as the weather. When he opened his mouth, his voice was still cold: "Don't come in?"
"..."
I was silent for a while and walked in slowly.
Now that he has arrived in front of him, he has nothing to do, and my purpose is after all good words.
When I walked into this hall, I felt that it was colder than the outside, because unlike the other halls, there was no arrangement at all, and there was no heating stove. I could n’t help but shrink, and was a little puzzled. Since he will be here, the should arrange it in advance. How could he leave a cold place here?
Thinking for himself, he didn't realize that he had come behind me.
"What, cold?"
My breath tightened a little, but it was still silent and shook my head.
However, the fingertips that were frozen and white could not lie to him. He looked down as soon as he lowered his head. My hands were clasped. The pale skin and white clothes were almost integrated. There was no difference. He looked again. Look at my cheek, and then said deeply: "No one knows that He will come here, and the wonderful words are still in the hall. The mage casts her prayers and blesses. Everyone thinks that She and the Queen are with her there."
He seemed to be explaining why it was so cold here and there was no plan at all, but after paying attention to the name of the wonderful words, all my attention was put on my daughter. I suddenly looked up and looked at him: "Well words, how is she?"
"she's fine."
"Her illness, is it better?"
"After the mage prays, I hope there will be improvement."
"..."
The expression of my surprise suddenly fainted.
Although Xue Muhua and Yao Lao had already made it clear to me before, the illness of the wonderful words was not so easy to be cured, but after so long apart, I still hope that a miracle will happen, and I also hope that Pei Yuanzhang is surrounded by strangers. With so much, it can give some good ideas to the wonderful words, so when I heard him say this, my heart was still disappointed.
I lowered my head slightly: "Is it?"
He was silent for a while and said, "You want to see her, right?"
I nodded hurriedly.
He looked at me motionless, his eyes flashing: "But don't want to see me?"
"..."
My breath tightened.
If I just think of him as the father of coquettish words, maybe I can get along with him peacefully, but I just really care about the coquettish words, almost all of them have forgotten me, and when I face them Those cold eyes, some memories were revived in the depths of memory.
I lowered my head and didn't speak, but there are some answers, and it goes without saying that in such a dull air, it slowly flows out.
I do n’t want to disobey him, but to this day, both of them are too familiar with each other. I think that annoying him and deceiving him may not make a difference. Perhaps, simply annoying him, I have already Too familiar, but not so scared.
In such a tense atmosphere, I could feel his eyes burning on me, even though the surrounding air was so cold, but his eyes always carried flames, which would almost burn my skin.
I don't know how long, I heard him sigh long.
Then he said, "But I want to see you."
"..."
"So long, I have a lot to say to you."
I thought about it and said gently, "Yangzhou can only wait a few months, I don't know what the emperor has ordered."
He looked at me: "He said, after leaving from your capital."
"..."
"Do you know how long it has been?"
"..."
My heart tightened suddenly.
If someone else can't fully understand the meaning of this sentence, but I already fully understand what he means-he is going to leave me in the palace to where he is now, what happened to me over the years, what I have Everything that goes through must be erased.
If I had escaped from the palace and left the capital until now, it was simply summarized for how many years, then everything is not so important.
I looked at him silently for a while, and then said gently: "Of course I know, four years."
"..."
What he was about to say, before he spoke, I said immediately: "When I left Beijing, the colossal words were only six years old; but now, she is almost ten years old."
His eyes were frozen.
I looked at him and said calmly: "In four years, I can finally make up for the regret that she left her at such a young age and did not have the responsibilities of being a mother in the slightest, so every day in these four years, I remember everything clearly, and I won't easily forget every memory. "
His expression became complicated.
Every word I say can be reflected on him, but the difference is that even in these four years, he still has not fully fulfilled his father's responsibility. Even in Yangzhou, he has only had a short time together. But at that time, he didn't even dare admit to himself that he was his father.
He is not without regrets.
But when I said the last few words, with my words, his face slowly sank again.
He repeated slowly: "Every memory you will not easily forget?"
"..."
I didn't speak, I just looked at him, but I felt that the apse was very cold at the moment. It was as cold as an ice cellar at the moment. His body was constantly exuding chill, and even his evil spirit, so much that he almost breathed. You can't breathe.
After a while, he said coldly, "Are you trying to tell me, along with the memory of that person, you will not forget it ?!"
"..."
My heart stabbed sharply.
What he said was Pei Yuanxiu.
...
For some reason, I suddenly thought of this person and the memories of him, and I already had a feeling of being like another generation.
I did not deliberately forget him. If I wanted to say hate, I did not hate him. After all, from the beginning to the end, he cared for me and did not let me feel wronged, although he did n’t know that he really made me feel wronged. What is it, but now when I suddenly mentioned him, I realized that I was so far away from him.
Almost back to the origin of me and him-I am in Beijing, and he is still in the far south.
Across the mountains and rivers, the clouds and mists of him, what kind of person he is, even when I was closest, I didn't understand it, and now I have to think about it, it is even more vague.
The only thing I can remember is that when he was in the palace, every time he appeared in the hidden cabinet, he looked quiet and contentious.
I slowly lowered my eyelids.
Pei Yuanzhang's face became more and more gloomy: "Sure enough, you haven't forgotten him."
"..."
I didn't speak, also because there was nothing to say at this time, and just as his breath became heavier and almost overwhelmed everything around him, suddenly, far away, there was a sound of footsteps.
Originally, I thought it was a patrolling guard, but when I got closer, I found that the footsteps didn't seem to be many, at most two or three, and they came to the back of the hall and stopped.
He and I looked at each other, both subconsciously without speaking.
Today, the emperor later went to the Tai Temple to pray for the princess of the wonderful words. The Tai Temple is different from the past, and the guards are more stringent. If it was not for the little Fuzi who brought me here, I would not go to this remote apse. The footsteps I heard were obviously not those of the patrolling team, nor were they around the emperor.