Chapter 1310: It's ... I changed my heart

"Well, I want you."
After speaking, he slowly lowered his head and kissed my lips slowly across the thin layer of veil.
I watched him close his eyes almost intoxicated, the hot breath and hot lips were ironed together, as if pulling me into the flames that burned his soul and reason.
He lingering and kissed me unkindly.
But the next moment, I saw those close eyes opened and looked at me.
Those eyes reflected me-separated by a layer of see-through veil, pale faces that could not be hidden, hollow eyes, and some cold air lingering around me, as if a layer of condensation had formed Frost, I made him flustered, even rushed, and seemed unwilling. He clasped my hand that was no longer struggling to resist, and pressed it me, as if to be oppressed. I can't breathe, I can't think in general.
His lips kissed heavily again.
My lips and breath immediately fell, and he was crushed and bitten by him, even the tip of my tongue was not let go, and I was sucked and sucked, but even then, my breathing was not disturbed, and I was even tortured The swollen and numb lips didn't have any fever, but just so calm, looked at him coldly.
Finally, there was a anger in his eyes, and he couldn't control his strength all at once, and I heard a loud noise on his lips.
Stinging, all over the body.
He bit his lips.
The tip of his tongue immediately tasted a bit of salty taste, the breath spread in the mouth at once, and the original cricket was dispelled by this gas. I was awake as before, and his breath became cold all of a sudden.
His eyes also cooled down.
The cold eyes looked at me, too late to recognize the anger and ruthlessness inside, but only felt that his hands slowly released me, and the large and hot body that was close to my body was slow. Slowly backed away.
Finally, he found his own breath.
I was still calm and indifferent, as I had just kissed him, and slowly lowered my head. I could not see what my injured lips looked like, but only the soft veil covering my face. Was blown gently by his breath, a red bloodstream was slowly spreading.
Is it my blood? Or his blood?
I subconsciously touched my lip with the hand that I had released from him. As soon as I touched my fingertips, a hot sensation came over, and the tingling made me tremble.
And his voice sounded coldly at this moment--
"What do you mean?"
"..."
"Say!"
He wasn't so angry, he didn't even growl or roar, except that the sound so low as if from his chest made me feel his collapse, just now, when he kissed me like that, I did not resist as usual Struggling, retreating and refusing, not even a little bit of movement.
There was no response.
No matter how he kissed me or how he lingered, my lips and breath were cold.
This is what makes him most disturbed.
His eyes stared at me as if to become a nail and hold me in his eyes forever, locked in his range, although at this moment, he didn't touch me at all.
I took a deep breath and finally said softly, "Your Majesty forgive me."
"..."
"My life and my identity have not allowed me to change my mind. In fact, no one can make me change my mind, except myself. I have not changed in these years. No matter what happens, as long as it is good I will try my best to do it. If it is bad, I will try to stop it. This is my belief that I have not changed since I was born. "
"..."
"However, although my mind has not changed, my mind has already changed."
His pupils suddenly contracted, and he couldn't see the appearance of me in his eyes, but felt that his breathing and heartbeat stopped at this moment.
His voice trembled slightly, "What do you mean your heart has changed?"
I looked into his eyes and slowly said, "It's ... I changed my heart."
"..."
His breathing suddenly became confused, and his eyes seemed to be caught in a vortex of turbulence. I saw his helpless expression for the first time, and looked at me, again confused. When he looked around and looked at me again, his eyes were already bloodshot and red.
He gritted his teeth: "What did you say? You changed your heart ?!"
I have the illusion that I have been faced with a trapped beast that has been driven to death. Maybe the next moment he will knock me down severely and bite my throat. But at this moment, I am more than ever before. Calm, more indifferent, looking at the already red eyes, slowly said, "Yes, I changed my heart."
At this moment, I seemed to hear the sound of Pei Yuanzhang's heart sinking.
However, I heard my heartbeat finally calm down.
I finally said it.
People I used to love, now I don't love them anymore.
I thought that I dare not speak in this life, and what I couldn't say, finally I could tell him clearly and plainly.
It turned out not to be difficult.
I changed my heart, and after seeing him again, I was afraid, afraid, confused, all emotions entangled, I thought I hated, I did hate him, but entangled in the end, I do n’t even understand it myself What it feels like, until this moment, when I found that I didn't even hate, I no longer tortured myself.
Just-don't love anymore.
"Love lives and deaths, origins die."
I looked at him and said frankly, "Your Majesty, I have experienced it on you."
"..."
He seemed to have been hit hard. The whole person shuddered and took two steps back. The gauze covering me covered him suddenly as he left, and I looked at him pale His face, almost standing unstable, didn't do anything, didn't say anything, just leaned on the cold door and looked at him quietly.
In this way, the two fell into a deadly silence.
I don't know how long, he raised his eyes, and even his eyes became red. The beast-like atmosphere made people shudder. He gritted his teeth and said verbatim: "Aren't you afraid to kill you ?! "
I shook my head: "Not afraid."
"why?"
"Your Majesty will not."
I looked at him and slowly said, "Your Majesty just told me that you wouldn't hurt me. And I believe that Her Majesty won't take it easy."
"..."
"Although I changed my mind, my mind did not change."
He looked at him and slowly stretched out his hand to touch my cheek. At this moment I was not sure whether he should touch me or hold my neck, but at this time there was no retreat at all, say After that sentence, I gave all his decision-making powers to his hands, and only his own hands could decide how his hands were to me.
That hand was just clasping my wrist and kissing my hand, and my palms were almost sweaty, but at this moment, only cold sweat was left. When I touched my face, it gave me a pinch. .
He gritted his teeth: "So, after you knew your life, you decided to confess these to you?"
Maybe even he knew that I was a hypocrite.
My ten words to him may not be true. Until I can fully protect myself, I will not say anything unfavorable to a person who controls my life and death power, but now, knowing that even if he has already Knowing that my life did not kill me, I knew that he would not kill me, he needed me.
So I tell the truth.
I looked at his flushed eyes silently, looked for a long time, then slowly lowered his eyes, and said, "Yang Yunhui did not guess wrong."
"..."
"I'm the one who came out of Hongyan Tower."
"..."
"I was supposed to have the best time of my life in that place. I didn't learn anything there, I just determined one thing--"
"..."
"Want to survive."
I want to survive, no matter what I have experienced, no matter how many difficulties and obstacles, I want to survive, this is almost a belief that has been carved into my soul.
His eyes flickered slightly.
He also remembered the words that Yang Yunhui had said in Yangzhou at that time. At that time, I lost my memory and became a person who had no past and knew only to rely on him, but even then, there was still nothing between him and me. Long peace and joy.
He sneered: "So you have to tell me that when you first entered Beijing and entered the palace, you had a purpose. All you did was to get closer to us, the princes. Until one day, any one of us will be crowned Will be like I am now, I ca n’t bear to move you, I ca n’t bear to kill you, but for you— "
"Your Majesty, you are wrong," I looked at him, and said with some difficulty, "My goal is not you."
"……who is it?"
"It's too high."
"..."
He suddenly widened his eyes.
It seemed like a thunderbolt blew above his head. At this moment, he was stunned. I didn't know how long it took before I heard him panting.
He couldn't believe that Pei Ji, he was my goal.
Without Queen Yin, they poisoned him, without the slumber of these decades, and without my stubborn desire to get rid of the fate that others have arranged for me, then after entering the palace, I should rely on my own youth, no The inferior appearance, relying on the seductive methods learned in Hongyan Lou, may also be the favor of Pei Ji and become his queen concubine with the shadow of the princess of the country.
As for Pei Yuanxiu, Pei Yuanzhang, and even Pei Yuanfeng ... we must not get to where we are today.
They will become my junior. If we meet in the palace, anywhere, we will salute the rules. In order to avoid suspicion, we will not have too much intersection. I will not understand his aspirations and Pei Yuanfeng. The mystery of Pei Yuanxiu's life experience will not entangle with any of them. If Pei Ji died early, my ending, or as a queen mother, escape from the world, or ...
Thinking of this, I smiled lightly, and felt a hot wetness overflowing my eyes, all of a sudden covered my cheeks.
Pei Yuanzhang looked at me, and the whole person froze.
I don't know how long, he suddenly smiled.
That smile was just a plain smile, but I do n’t know why, it made me feel that it hurt a lot with just a glance. He seemed to be really hurt. My hands are covered with my tears, sometimes hot, sometimes cold, as if intertwined with ice and fire, making people almost crazy.
He smiled and said slowly: "You finally say it all. You finally say it, don't you?"
I looked at him: "Your Majesty ..."
At this moment, maybe he is mad, but he just doesn't do anything. He just smiles at me, but it makes me more disturbed and scared. I don't know what I will face next time, but, facing him, I have never been sure of victory.
Was I just too confident in myself just now?
Thinking of this, I almost subconsciously wanted to avoid his palm and leave his sight, but he took a step forward, and the sturdy body clung tightly to me again, and also took me away. Breath. I held my breath and looked up at him. I saw that he looked down at my eyes and said, "Tell me how you changed your heart."
"..."
"Why do you change your mind?"
How to change heart? Why do you change your heart?
How do I answer? When did I start to see him no longer heartbeat, no more heartache when hurt by him, and even gradually, even that simple hate has dissipated.
But, what if you know it?
I looked at those dark eyes that were close at hand. I didn't know what he was thinking or what he was going to face next moment. He didn't even urge me, but just came out with a calm and unexpected voice. Ear said: "Say."
"..."
I didn't know how long it was before I finally spoke and said gently: "I remember someone telling me that love is alive, like a seed, you give it dirt, it may sprout, then water it and bask in the sun , Love will grow up. Only if you are willing to love someone, will you do these things and feed that seed. "
He looked at me: "Does the seed between us grow up?"
I looked at him silently for a long time, then nodded.
"When?"
"When in Yangzhou."
"Yangzhou ..."
He seemed a little stunned, and his eyes became a little dazed, as if he suddenly saw me through the time in Yangzhou many years ago.
Famine, refugees, plagues, death, and even the thief's sword ring ...
Some things grew slowly at that time.
I couldn't believe it, and smiled slightly: "Although the environment is so difficult, it seems to me that it has sunshine and water. It grows fast, and I have no way to control it. In that case, it grows so big. "
"and after?"
"later……"
I was a little hesitant, and his vision began to blur, but no matter how blurry, he always occupied my vision and occupied my breath.
He had almost trapped me in his arms, and every breath and heartbeat was occupied by him. He looked into my eyes deeply, and refused to let go at all. He asked him word by word. Says: "What about the seed that you and you are now?"