Chapter 1559: I can not do it

After crying, I slowly stood upright and said to the people around me, "Lift the lady down and set up a spiritual hall!"
Aunt Hong was also in tears by her side, choking at this time, "Yes."
After that, she waved her hand, and the people behind him immediately followed and lifted Xue's body away. I continued to command: "This matter, don't disturb the homeowner for now. When he wakes up, his body is stable. Then tell him, if he wants to blame, say that I ordered. "
"Yes."
"Also, send someone to find, block all around, look carefully!"
Mr. Ma said slightly hesitantly, "Can he escape and stay around?"
I gritted my teeth and said, "He can escape, he should have thought of this retreat in advance, but he alone cannot leave like this. Xichuan is our place. He dare not take this risk. He Someone should also be arranged to meet him before he can leave Xichuan. "
"..."
"Now we are cleared around, so those people should not have entered Gantang Village."
"..."
"He must be somewhere, waiting for his own person to answer."
"..."
"Look, look!"
Hearing almost when I heard the last two words, Mr. Ma nodded and did not dare to be indifferent anymore, and hurriedly turned to command his person to block all the passages near Gantang Village. Look carefully and be sure To find Pei Yuanxiu!
After those people had spread out, I turned around and said to Mr. Ma, "Master."
He looked at me in a hurry: "What else does the young lady command?"
"..."
I gritted my teeth and silently reached out one hand to him: "Give me a knife."


I never thought that I would face another death so soon, and be my elder again.
And it was Xue Yan.
Is mother.
When I walked back to her room and saw Xue's body laid on a wooden board, a few maids were scrubbing her. I waved my hand and let them back away, and then I picked up the parcel in the basin and wrung it dry. Gently wipe the soot marks on her cheek.
Tears burst out again.
I have cried many times because of her. She was scared by her appearance when she was a child. She was intimidated. When I left the family with my mother, I shed a lot of tears. In my young heart, she was like a witch. , Shatter all my good memories, and leave me with cruel reality.
This recognition continued for so many years, until I returned to Xichuan again.
I just understand it a little. The meaning of the mother ’s phrase "New Lady, she also has her own Shura field." I saw the wounds that had not been healed in her heart for more than ten years, and her irritability. Next, that can't be masked of fragility and helplessness.
And now, I understand better, in fact, she has love in her heart.
She didn't get the love of her father, but her heart never dried up, no matter to Yan Qingchen, to me, or even to the wonderful words, under the simple and irritable mask, there was an affection she tried to conceal.
But why?
Why did n’t God give us more time?
I have n’t told her, in fact, I am happy to reconcile with her, not for the overall situation at the time; I have not told her, in fact, I respect her as I respect my mother; I have not told her, in fact, I ...
Tears fell on her face. I wanted to wipe her clean, but I could n’t resist my tears. At this moment, there was no hate in my heart, and some were just regrets. I watched again and again. The person I love is in despair, and even this time, she didn't even have a chance to call for help, so she left me forever!
There are many?
How many more people do I love and those I care about leave me like this?
How many times do I have to suffer?
Hearing that I could no longer cry, there was only a tear-like growl in my throat, everyone around was frightened, Su Su came to tears and came to carry my shoulder: Don't do this, Miss! The old lady will not be surprised if she looks at you like this! "
Aunt Hong also choked and said, "Miss, Madam, she just can't bear to see you in embarrassment, and doesn't want to see your pain, she will help you kill Pei Yuanxiu. If you are like this, how can you let her be on the road? "
"..."
"You let her be a mother, take it easy!"
"..."
I almost bit my own teeth, finally stopped crying in their consolation, slowly raised my head, endured the tearing pain in my chest, wiped her cheeks and body, and then those The maid hurriedly brought them the shroud they had made and replaced her.
I stepped aside, I just felt the blackness in front of me, and almost fell down. Fortunately, Aunt Hong's eyes quickly supported me, looking at my pale complexion, and said worriedly, "Miss, you must go Rest awhile."
"Do not!"
"No way, Miss!" Aunt Hong said anxiously, "There are a lot of things here that need to be decided by the Miss, you can't fall."
"Yeah, you look so good."
The two of them persuaded me for a long time, and I really felt that if I didn't take a break for a while, maybe I would fall down, I could only send them back to my room and lie back on the bed.
However, I couldn't sleep at all.
In my heart, there seemed to be a fire burning, tormenting my internal organs, and the whole body's blood seemed to be dried up by Ao, until my whole body was withered to ashes.
The noisy sounds outside have never subsided. I stayed so quiet until the evening, only slowly stood up with my numb body, changed to another plain white clothes, and just about to turn around and go out, listen At the sound of something, something fell to the ground.
Looking back, it was the short knife that Master Ma gave me.
...
I was silent, squatted down, picked up the short knife, and pulled out a bit, the sharp blade flashed a dazzling cold light immediately, I narrowed my eyes slightly, returned the knife edge to the scabbard, and then returned the short knife Put it in his sleeve.
When I opened the door and went out, there was a gust of wind blowing. Even though the coat on my body kept thin, I still felt the coolness. I closed the door with my backhand and walked towards the Lingtang.
When they saw me passing by, they all stopped.
I went straight forward, knelt down and shook my head at Xue Ling's spirit, and then stood up and looked at them, and they hurried to do their own things again.
At this moment, Mr. Ma came forward and said gently: "The person who went out to find a letter returned and did not find him."
"..."
"Will he already--"
"No." I frowned slightly, directly interrupting his words: "He, he must be fully prepared to do things, let alone put himself in real danger. From here to the river, the road returns Far away, he can't do it alone. "
"..."
"He must be here."
"..."
"Look again, don't miss anything!"
"it is good."
Mr. Ma nodded, and went down and ordered those people again.
Yan Feibai, they saw me appearing in the hall of worship, and they all came to comfort me, and I also spoke to them a few words to let them know that I did not fall down completely, and then I turned around and said to Tang Ting, Do n’t stay here, and head back to Chengdu. The news here may soon return to Chengdu, so that both Mr. Tang and Mr. An will be prepared.

She nodded. "Yes."
"Also," I said, "Chengdu's deployment must not be lax."
"Yes."
She nodded, and conveniently turned and left.
I successively explained a few people and let them go down and do what they should do. When the last thing was explained and everyone went down, I saw Yan Ruoyu standing opposite, and stepped forward with a sullen expression: "Tang sister."
"Ok."
"Cousin, you—"
"I'm fine."
Now I do n’t know who is more embarrassing than her, but I still make myself strong and ask her,
What about the aunt ’s spirituality?

"I put it in. You didn't come back, and no one dared to enter the shrine."
"Ok."
I nodded, walked inside to pick up Yan Yi's spirit, and said to them, "Let's go."
Originally last night, all the rituals had been completed, but they were obstructed by the incident when sending the spirit into the temple. Now everything is still the same. I took them outside the temple and worshipped again, and the door was opened.
I stepped forward step by step, holding the spirit bit. As I stepped into the door, I heard footsteps sounding behind me. Looking back, Yan Ruoyu followed in.
I frowned slightly: "If stupid?"
She said, "Cousin, don't worry, I won't follow up."
"..."
"I just stand at the door."
I was silent for a while and said, "Okay."
She didn't really move anymore, just standing there, I walked in step by step holding the token.
The Ancestral Hall of the Yan Family was built large and deep. The gates in and out of it made the place seem extra quiet and deep. I walked through the gates and saw the ancestral chamber in front. It was built on the high platform. The height of itself is a bit towering even in the night. In front of the open door, there are two thick red cylinders leading directly to the top of the beam. When I slowly walked up, I saw the offerings inside. Ancestor tablets and portraits.
I held Yan Yi's spiritual position on the incense case, worshipped again, and then looked up, and saw the spiritual position of the father on the other side.
I stepped forward and scratched three heads at his spirit.
For more than ten years, I finally had the opportunity to worship him, but I did not expect that it would be such a scene at this time.
When I looked at the words "Yan Xianguo Yan Gongmuzhi", my heart was sore and tingling. All of Xichuan was beaten by him, grandpa, and grandpa, but I don't know what I must do to keep it all.
I reached out and stroked the spirit card gently, saying gently, "If you're still there, that's fine."
"..."
"Father, I can't do it."
"..."
"It's too difficult for me ..."
What if you were always with me? What if you and your mother were not separated? What if you could always protect me?
"Father, I'm so tired ..."