Chapter 1646: I've been shut, always myself!

All the ships were sailing towards the north pole at this moment.
I stood at the bow of the boat and looked at the scene in front of me. I just felt cold, and I felt a little unstable when I grabbed the fence with both hands. After a while, the boat had traveled a long way, and it seemed that Jiangxin was about to arrive, but at this moment, the river suddenly started to fog.
The mist came quickly, and after a while it was like layers of veil, and it soon surrounded us. The mist grew larger and deeper, and even the shadows of the nearby ships became blurred.
When I looked back, Jinling City also became blurred.
The blaze of fire and the thick smoke were all invisible, leaving only the vapor in front of the eyes.
At this time, Xie Ye, who was standing next to him, came forward and said to Pei Yuanxiu: "Son, suddenly there is such a heavy fog on the river, we may have to be careful."
Pei Yuanxiu glanced back at him.
Just now, when he was holding me, his palms were hot and his breathing was short, but at this glance, it was so cold that almost frost formed. All the enthusiasm and passion cooled down at this moment. calm.
He said, "I know."
As soon as the words fell, those at the helm began to shout, "Look!"
"There is a boat ahead!"
"Be careful!"
As soon as I heard it, I hurriedly turned my head and looked forward, and I saw that in the hazy water mist, some tall things gradually appeared. In the mist, the outline like a mountain slowly appeared, and then I carefully identified It was found that they were all boats, and there were torches and lanterns on the boat. The light and shadow came through the thick water mist, and this river surface was like a ghostly magical field!
Those are--
Xie Xuan narrowed his eyes and looked forward. After only a moment, he said, "It's Jiangbei's fleet!"
"..."
"They did know that we were here to meet us."
Having said that, he looked up to Pei Yuanxiu: "Son, please--"
Before he finished speaking, Pei Yuanxiu reached out and grabbed my wrist. I was shocked and looked back at him, and he could not help but hold my hand and started to walk into the cabin.
I was caught off guard for a moment and took two steps, but I was about to enter the door, and I was in a hurry.
"What are you doing?"
"..."
"You let me go!"
"..."
"Pei Yuanxiu, let go of me!"
I was almost already struggling, and he looked at me and said Shen: "There is danger here."
Compared to my panic, his voice was as stable as his hand holding my wrist, but when he looked at me, his eyes had reflected more and more of the surrounding mist. More lights, as if there was something to be lit.
My heart trembled a little, and he no longer had any reservations. The hand holding my wrist was violently forced, and no matter how I insisted and how I struggled, he was dragged into the cabin stiffly.
On both sides of the long corridor, many torches were erected, and he took me all the way, as if the cold on his body was also emanating, the flames of the torches on both sides were constantly fluttering, and I Just looking at his face, illuminated by the fire, then darkened, illuminated, and darkened again, as if his dim and unpredictable state of mind at this moment, as well as the unknown situation of victory or defeat outside.
Finally, he dragged me to a cabin in the deepest part of the cabin, opened the door and pulled me in.
I looked back and saw him standing at the door, and he rushed out in a hurry, but he supported his hand on the door frame, stopped me, and bowed his head, "What on earth do you want me to do?"
"..."
"Isn't I doing anything wrong ?!"
I looked at his dark eyes and bit his lower lip: "What you want to do has nothing to do with me."
"..."
"I can't stop you, it's my own uselessness. Now, I just want to leave here, leave you!"
"You can do anything!"
He said suddenly, his eyes dark and dark: "Even if it stops me."
"..."
"But I won't let you leave me."
"..."
"Lightness, you can't go anywhere!"
All the entanglements and lingering in the past faded the gentle coat at this moment, even if his breathing was hot and long, he could not conceal the truth of this cabin without a window at this moment, which was almost a cage, and he stood at me In front of me, it was like an iron lock, to completely cut off any chance that I might leave.
I suddenly smiled: "You're finally closing me, aren't you?"
"..."
"Same as Pei Yuanzhang?"
"..."
"Build a cage and lock me up, as long as I'm alive, as long as I'm under your control, it's fine, right?"
"..."
"Pei Yuanxiu, who originally said that, as long as I said no, you would stop."
"..."
He looked at me deeply, as if I was dumb, and for a long silence, I could almost hear myself and his heartbeat struggling, and finally heard his deep voice , With a strange hoarse opening-
"I'm closed, it's always me."
"...!"
My heart jumped suddenly, I looked up at his dark pupil, and suddenly felt a tingling in my chest.
I certainly understand what he means.
He has always understood what he looks like in my mind. Although the true he has never been like that, but in order to keep the impression of me, and not to destroy the shadow of the fairy-like man in my heart, he has been Playing as a self who has never been himself.
He locked himself in for so many years.
I understand too well how difficult it is for a person to suppress his own heart. Although apparently calm, the heart like a tiger is always roaring and struggling, hitting the cage.
It wants to come out, want to be wanton, want to fly, want to tell everyone, this is the true self.
But, for so many years ...
He held himself for so many years, and finally at this moment, he had to break free from the cage and be freed.
With a sore nose, I couldn't look directly at those dark eyes at this moment. I could only lower my head, desperately suppressing the pain in my heart, and he stepped forward, looking down at me: It ’s okay, any way, as long as you stay with me. "
I gritted my teeth and choked, "Does it matter if I hate you?"
As soon as this sentence came out, I felt the breath above my head choked.
For a long while, I heard his voice indifferent--
"You don't love me anymore!"