Chapter 1757: As long as you forget, you will be relieved

"The prerequisite for gaining power is gaining power. I want power and want power. What's wrong with it?"
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I didn't expect that he would suddenly tell me this at this time. His gaze, firm and focused, looked at my eyes without blinking, and seemed to use his own concentration to see through my soul in my eyes. Find out an answer.
I was silent for a while and said, "Why are you telling me this?"
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"Since you have determined what you are doing, what's the point of arguing with me about this right?"
Recalling the right and wrong between Xie Yi and Yu Wenkang in that room just now, I do n’t know how many years have passed, how many people have passed the blood and tears, and finally got an answer, but this answer is for the dead What is the meaning of people to the facts that have already been established?
Pei Yuanxiu said, "Of course it makes sense. I want to listen to your heart."
I smiled slightly: "I'm in your hands now, I can't help but come and go, I can't help but live and die. Will my sincere words have any effect on you?"
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"It's too cold now, and every effort I make, I want to use it to resist the cold."
After speaking, I turned and walked forward.
But as soon as I turned around, the hand still with hot body temperature reached out and grabbed my hand.
I didn't look back, but I was caught by him like that and couldn't move.
He said behind him: "I just said that you are in everything I am determined, and I am convinced that there is you in the unquestionable future, and this future is now. I don't want this knot between us forever, Because we have a long way to go in the future, I want to make everything clear to you before entering Beijing, and I want you to make it clear to me. "
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It seems to be unavoidable.
I took a deep breath and slowly turned my head to look at him.
An umbrella, between two people, although he is holding my hand, but because there is always a little distance between the two people, this umbrella can only cover everyone's half body, the snow fluttered on On the umbrella, although there was no sound at all, and he and I were also quiet, the sound made the noise indescribable.
As in these days, dreams cannot be quiet.
In the noise, he and I were silent, and no one spoke easily.
He is still waiting for my answer.
I thought for a long time and said gently, "You ask me, what is wrong with you."
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"I want to get strength, I want to gain power, I want to achieve my own career, set a goal to fight for it, mud feet can not extricate themselves ... These are all right."
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"Today, you and Pei Yuanzhang have been fighting. You were really dead and dead. At first, you were forced to withdraw from the capital, avoiding victory over Beijing, and later occupied Jiangnan to gain a place to fight for your own survival. If you stand on your side, Nor can it be considered wrong. "
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"When I was marrying you, I accepted all of this."
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"If a man has no ambition, he only knows how to yell at the wind all day, and if he talks about love, I won't look down on him."
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"Everyone has their own last resort. Everyone has done something untoward in order to survive in this earthly world." I said, looked up at him, and smiled lightly: "Just like you used to If I had been persuaded, people are not Buddhas and have original sin. "
He stepped forward subconsciously: "Then you--"
"But," I interrupted him sharply, and said, "You're wrong, you kill the innocent in order to gain strength, and bully after gaining strength. Those lives, a sum of blood debt, are not You sit in a high position, and with power, you can wash the sky with one hand and pay off. "
Seeing that his face was getting paler and my breath was getting more and more disordered, he even broke his hand and couldn't hold back: "Even the young Yue Qingying, my friend, what is she guilty of? ? "
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"A Buddhist disciple, why can't you let it go ?!"
"..." There weren't many expressions on his face, perhaps because it was so cold at this time, the cold wind blew people's faces numb, and could not make any expressions, as if in his pupils I also caught the cold of snow and ice for a while, and slowly said, "Yes, I did lie to you at that time, I promised you to look for her, but I—I confirmed her identity, and then killed. she was."
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"You're right, she is not guilty."
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"She just knew too much."
My heart trembled.
Yue Qingying-Jing Xu, when she heard this person's life from Zhao Shuyuan, she really seemed to be carrying a lifeline, and when I met her, she went to Jinling. That night, the ship, just Like sending her to Huangquan Road, there is no way to turn back.
Thinking of this, thinking of the lonely and helpless woman, what kind of fear and pain experienced in the last years of my life, I just feel that the burst of sourness in my heart can't stop rising, when I speak, my voice is all Husky: "But why do you have to kill her? There are many ways to shut her up, even if you shut her down forever!"
He looked at me and said softly: "If she shuts her for a lifetime, she will also suffer."
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"Nothing can shut a person up better than death.
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"As long as she is alive, there will be flaws and troubles in the end, but that stab will end her pain and make my heart feel a hundred."
When he said these words, he was gentle and calm, like snow falling on the umbrella.
Mutter, as the lover whispered.
It made me even a little bit colder.
"is it……?"
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"So, what do you think ...?"
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"For you, means is only a way to success. As long as you can succeed, you will use any means, right?"
He said quietly: "Lightness, as the Buddhist scriptures say, there is no right or wrong, only cause and effect; there is no righteousness and evil, only difference. If you have been entangled in the right and wrong of these means, how can you achieve great things?"
I looked up at him: "Then ... you killed so many people, planted the cause, have you thought about it, what will happen?"
"..." He froze slightly.
"You haven't thought about it? Do you think that today's relationship between you and me is one of them?"
His expression sank.
I laughed sadly: "You have been asking me to turn back, but who is it that makes me more and more unable to turn back?"
"Lightness!" He suddenly called me, and there was a tremor in his voice, but after calling me, he didn't seem to know what to say, he just put one hand on my shoulder and even slightly buckled it slightly. Lived my collarbone.
I understand that he is also afraid.
After a long time, he said in a deep voice: "I thought you would understand ... lightness, you should also understand."
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"Everyone succeeds. No one who succeeds, no one is stained with blood, and no one is absolutely innocent. Which person in a high position does not have a past that can't go back? Which one's In my heart, are there no memories that I can't see every day? "
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"Why do you only look at what I have done, and why only look at our past? Why can't you look forward and look at our future!"
"Our ... the future?"
I raised my head a little bit and looked at him, and he took a step forward, almost already attached to my body, and the warm breath of his body completely covered me, he looked down at me, He said softly: "Yes, our future. After I became king, I will also be diligent and love the people and benefit the people. As long as this world belongs to me, how can I bear to destroy and kill?"
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"I can see our future, I can see I send everything to you, make up your regrets, and heal your pain, but why can't you see my future?"
I said suddenly: "I can't believe what I see. What do you want me to believe in an invisible future?"
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At this moment, his breath was choked.
No illusory promise is better than the facts he sees. For people like him, he is more convinced than I am.
He looked at me silently for a long time, and then slowly turned his head to look at the white snow scene around us. Such heavy snow is in the south. He has probably not seen it for more than ten years. It can make many southerners ecstatic, and only those who have experienced know that how many filths are hidden under the white as jade.
He said softly: "Lightness, haven't you killed anyone yourself? You are from Hongyan Tower, haven't you ever struck the dead in your hands?"
This time, I was speechless.
I am not unable to answer, but I cannot answer.
He obviously knew that, not only Hongyan Tower, but even the Imperial City, killed more than one person in my hands. I am no stranger to such things as killing people.
He slowly looked at me and said, "Why did you kill those people?"
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"Because you also understand that many things are not you and I willing to do, but we must do it, if we don't, we can't live."
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"Do you think that I have not suffered, do you think that I am such a person by nature, happy for killing and happy for war?"
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"I have struggled, and I have suffered."
When he said this, although the expression on his face was cold, I could more or less see his struggle and pain from those dark eyes.
I said softly, "What about the last? Why did you choose this path?"
He looked at me and said word by word: "As long as people are absolute, there will be no pain; as long as they forget, they will be relieved."