Chapter 1837: You still go to sleep

Although compared to just escaping from the eyes of my dreams, when I woke up, I saw the same kind of fear as in the nightmares. Now it's nothing, but I still feel like a heavy, crushed heart. Like stones, breathing and heartbeat seem so difficult.
I was silent for a while, and turned my head to avoid his eyes.
"Can I not listen?"
He took a deep breath, as if he hadn't heard me, and said, "By then, you will be my queen."
On this barren, dull wasteland, the thunder that had been brewing for a long time finally broke through the dark clouds of the sky, tore the dark sky, and hit me heavily.
As if sensing a silent struggle between him and me, the faint candlelight on the side of the candlestick was finally unable to support it, slowly falling down, and the flame finally fluttered after the last struggle. It went out, leaving a pillar of light smoke, and the maggot rose.
Everything around him went dark.
My breathing and heartbeat stopped at this time.
I don't know if it was because of the words he just said, or because the pair always followed my eyes and refused to give up. I was silent for a long time before gritting my teeth and slowly saying, "Can I say no?"
"..."
He still didn't answer my question immediately.
But at this time, he didn't seem to be able to completely ignore my words. After being silent for a long time, he slowly said, "Lightness, I'm waiting for this day."
"..."
"I became an emperor and became the supreme world, and you are the woman around me."
"..."
"No one can stop us from being together, and no one can hurt you. We can be the happiest couple in the world. We can live the happiest days in the world ..."
"..."
"I will give you the best of everything in this world."
When he said these words, his tone was still calm, even with joy.
But because of being too close, I can still clearly feel his breath disordered and his heartbeat intensified. He said "happiness" and "happy", but the whole person was so tense, so cautious, and somewhat innumerable And even-pain.
I looked at him for a while and then said, "I don't want to."
The whole of him shook.
Maybe, he thought that I would say a lot of refusal words, maybe it would be sincere, and even painstaking effort, but he never thought that my refusal was only the three most common and simple words.
I do not want.
All emotions, all feelings are in these three words.
I heard the sound of his breath and heartbeat stagnating. The whole man was dead in the darkness, like a stone statue of a deprived soul--even an ice sculpture, because he had lost his temperature. I don't know how long it took before I saw the black figure slowly falling down, as if Yushan had fallen.
However, when he leaned down, he didn't press on me hard, but just hugged me gently, hugged me, and put it softly into his arms.
He said softly in my ear, "You want it."
"..."
"You can't do it."
I was like an unconscious doll, so I was held in his arms, and when I heard these words, I smiled hopelessly.
He continued to say, "My biggest dream is to share everything with you. When you're by my side, we don't care about everything. After spending those years peacefully, you will know that what I did Everything is worth it. "
His words, like a drop of water, fell into the stagnant water that had been so calm that there was no ripple, and it also made my heart faint.
I leaned on his shoulders, eyes wide open, and looked at the darkness in front of me: "You told everyone, will you make me a queen?"
His breath sank slightly.
I immediately understood and said, "No."
"..."
"No, right."
"..."
"You can't tell them now, but even if you don't tell them now, let them know until the day you get to the throne, do you think it's OK?"
"..."
"Even if Han Zitong loves you, you can endure everything; even if Han Ruoshi can't make any waves now ... but Gordi? And her brother, her father, Iron Whip, can they accept it calmly? Am I a queen? "
He said slowly: "They will."
"..."
"Lightness, I said, everything I do is for the future of both of us, and then you will understand that everything is worth it."
"All of this?" The three words repeatedly appeared in his mouth, and it also made me feel a little uneasy. Although I still don't know where that uneasy came from, the feeling of heavyness in my heart has become real. So that I can't breathe.
"You have already entered the capital, and this throne is already in your pocket. Would you do anything else?"
"..."
"What else did you do?"
He probably didn't expect me to be so sensitive, my breathing was sinking again, and I calmly, slowly said in his ear: "You want me to do the queen's thing, to hide from them, but you came to tell Me; what are you hiding from me? "
"..."
He was silent for a long time. In fact, I also knew that I could not get the answer from him, so when he slowly released his hands and slowly put me back on the bed, he even had one hand under my neck. When I was stung when I was not allowed to lie down, I just watched his eyes blinking in the darkness very calmly, and didn't ask further.
His breathing also returned to calm and long.
He said softly, "You don't have to worry about things outside."
"..."
"I didn't want to bother you or wake you up."
"..."
"You go ahead and sleep."
He said softly, blowing on his face with a breath of wine, almost to be drunk, but even then he seemed uneasy and said softly, "You're going to sleep."
After speaking, he even covered my eyes gently with one hand.
I still had my eyes wide and flickering eyelashes trembling in his palm, but he did n’t let go of his hands. The two of them were silent like a confrontation. I did n’t know how long it took before I finally said gently: "Pei Yuanxiu One day, I will wake up. Everything you don't let me see will come into my eyes. "
"..."
"Can you cover my eyes until that day?"
I couldn't see anything, I could only feel him slowly leaning down, reaching into my ear, and whispering, "You can only stay with me until that day."