Chapter 1978: What i want you can't give

How can I be with your daughter ... your only daughter, care?
This sentence seemed to be a sudden blow, hitting my chest heavily, I just felt that my breath was choking, and the whole person shook slightly, his face suddenly turned white, and his eyes widened. he.
my daughter……
My only daughter ...
I almost forgot that my main purpose of coming to him tonight was just to be angry with him and to "settle accounts" with him, but his unintentional words hit me back to its original shape-what is my position , Mad at him in the future, and still settle accounts with him?
Shouldn't it be me who should be tried and crumbled?
He looked down at me suddenly becoming helpless, and even a bit frightened, frowned slightly, subconsciously wanted to say something, and I had raised my head, his eyes met his.
At this moment, as if I really understood something, I closed my mouth immediately.
And I looked into his eyes as if we were about to meet our inevitable fate.
I trembled: "Yeah ... me, my only daughter ..."
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"I, I do n’t understand what she is thinking, and she knows that she managed to reunite with her father and her emperor, a child. Of course, she hopes to be like this forever, and she wo n’t allow anyone to destroy this moment. Her tranquility, and you—she was rejected by you again, will spit all your resentments on you ... "
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"I know……"
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"But I still can't bear it, I can't bear her ..."
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"She is, really, my only daughter ... in my life, there is only this daughter ..."
He looked at me with his eyes wide open, and the hand that was holding me was constantly and uncontrollably exerting force. I could feel that the string between me and him had been tightened to the extreme. Maybe the next moment, my breathing would be a little heavy. With a heavy heartbeat, the string will break.
And at this moment, his eyes were no longer calm at last, flickering like a candle remaining in the wind, and even revealing a shadow that he wanted to shrink back, he subconsciously said: "Lightness, you--"
"Let me say it," my voice was completely hoarse, and the groaning whisper sounded only a short distance between two people: "Otherwise, I don't know if I can have the courage to tell you . But if I don't tell you, my whole life will be in a nightmare. "
He didn't speak, the whole breath was frozen.
I looked into his eyes, took a deep breath, and said, word by word: "Light cold, I ... I won't have any more children."
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"No more."
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"The day before you rescued me from Jiehe, I had a stillbirth in my stomach ... Pei Yuanxiu."
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"Light cold, I won't have children anymore ..."
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"No more ..."
I just feel that the viscera of the whole body is entangled together at this moment, and I have twisted out the words that I have almost no strength, and have no courage to say. When I finished the last word, I only I feel that my body doesn't seem to be my own. When my body is soft, I almost fall down.
But his other hand immediately stretched over, grabbing my waist.
Just a moment ago, his palms were still full of hot body temperature, but at this time, I felt that his breath became cold, and the last light in the eyes, like the residual candle in the wind, suddenly went out. Already.
My tears fell silently.
I finally told him.
As if the dead fetus is still in the body, the news has been stagnating in my heart like a tumor, knowing that paper can't hold the fire, knowing that all secrets have a day of truth, but I still Being able to hold on for a day is a day, and watching the gap between him and him grow wider.
I won't have any more children. The fact that the moment he picked me up from Jiehe was extremely clear before my eyes.
I will not have children anymore, no matter what kind of life he will give me in the future, no matter how much I hope to stay with him, but this fact can no longer be changed.
I won't have children anymore ...
Coquettish words, she is my only blood in this world, so no matter how willful and pride she is, I have no way to leave her.
However, she didn't know that every word she said was like the sharpest blade, adding more blood to her mother's already scarred heart.
Did not see my blood flow into the heart of the river.
Only him, seeing the tears on my face at the moment, I grasped his shoulders with both hands, and slowly pressed my forehead against his chest, sobbing: "Light cold ... sorry ...!"
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"I dare not tell you."
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"I can't tell you ..."
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"I do not want to tell you!"
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"I--"
I couldn't even say what I could say at this moment, but when my tears soaked his clothes, and the cold touch stimulated him to tremble slightly, he suddenly took a deep breath and walked towards me After a step, he slowly held me into his arms with both hands.
There was a rush of warmth, and I shuddered, and my cheeks stuck to his chest.
The wetness of tears was intertwined with his body temperature, as at this moment my whole body was cold, the blood seemed to freeze, but he was hugged by his hot arms again, as if the ice and fire blended together, stabbing me He trembled in his arms, tears burst out like a and could no longer be controlled.
I slowly turned my head, buried my face in his arms, and let my tears swell, soaking his shirt thoroughly.
Sorry……
Sorry……
I don't know how long after that, with a thick nasal sound, he rang low above his head—
"All right."
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"I know."
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"You—" His voice snorted slightly, and then paused for a while before he said with a heavier nasal voice: "If you want to cry, cry here with me, and after you cry, forget this. Now. "
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"Remember, I'll help you remember, but you, you forget."
As he spoke, he reached out and stroked my head lightly, adding a little more tone: "Forget it."
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I couldn't speak, just gritted his teeth and wept, shaking his head vigorously in his arms.
He lowered his head and said, "What's wrong?"
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"What else do you want to tell me?"
I really have too many words to tell him, but after finally telling him this fact, my whole body seemed to be empty, and my heart-felt emotions reached the end, but it turned into endless tears on my face. Raging, I can't say it, I can only choke softly and say, "I'm sorry ..."
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"Light cold, sorry ..."
You gave everything to me when you were poisonous and endured that kind of pain, just to keep me from being hurt, but I-I still have bruises all over the body, if not for my loss due to Xue Yi's death Reason, thinking that he could kill that man, how could he be taken away in Gantang Village, Yan's own shrine? If I could listen to you well and stay in Nishikawa, how would I experience everything that happened after that?
How could it end up like this now?
sorry Sorry……
When I met you back then, I was no longer the best I was, and now I even—
sorry Sorry……
As I kept repeating this sentence, his breath slowly became lighter, but the hands around me were not relaxed at all, but they were more forceful than just now, almost hooped me a bit unable to breathe, but It was this almost suffocating hug that made me feel a little docked.
I don't know how long it was silent, he finally said softly: "So, you have to tell me this tonight? Sorry?"
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"What are you sorry for me?"
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"Just because you can't have any more children, so after we are together, you won't have a child for me, are you sorry for me?"
My eyes were completely obscured by tears, and even his words were a little chaotic in his ears. He subconsciously wanted to raise his head, but his head hit his chin at once, and he immediately reached out and stroked my heart. , Still took me in his arms, sighed, and said, "Light, you don't owe me a child."
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I trembled slightly.
He continued: "Even if we have worshiped the heavens and the earth, even if-I have also thought about what kind of future the two of us may have, and in that future, there is indeed a child ... I have thought a lot , I have been thinking from the beginning, when I ca n’t think, I will also dream in my dreams ... "
My body shuddered even more, and tears burst into my eyes again.
He felt it, but did nothing, just sighed again and said, "But that's just what I think."
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"What I want, you can't give, but it's not your fault."
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"You don't owe me."
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"You condone wonderful words, and I will not blame you, because she is your daughter, the only daughter, half of your blood is flowing in her body, she is the only continuation of your life in this world, and I treat her It's also different to others. Not to mention, I can't ask you to alienate her for me. "
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"I'm a man. It's not me who's wrong, it's me who's bearing it."
My tears flowed even harder.
You are a man, you have already endured too much for me, there are some that you should not have to bear, and I, I can not do what a woman can do.
I owe you not a child, I owe you too much ...