Chapter 2310: If you do n’t see each other, all right ...

Like my mother said, I am already so big, and even already the mother of others. I should be firm, strong, and rely on others. However, from the first time I came here to see her, my tears were out of control, like a helpless child who just wanted to talk to seek comfort.
When it came to the last two words, tears rolled down again like broken beads.
The mother's fingers were wet with tears, and she suddenly seemed to be scalded, and she suddenly retracted the hand.
I could feel her trembling, and the moment of suffocation, more and more scattered white hair drew from her forehead, a trace of strands, like white snow, covering her layer by layer Eyes.
Her eyes became old and withered.
I cried, "Mother ..."
"I know."
Her old voice came from under the white hair, and a faint breath blew the white hair, but it gave people a sense of silence like a dead heart.
"mother……"
"I know."
We repeated what we had already said, and my tears burst into tears, and her fingers with my tears slowly retracted, but did not put them on my knees as before, but slowly Yes, he slowly covered his chest.
There, it seemed that something was almost cracked, and there was pain she couldn't bear.
I was speechless, and she said hollowly, "I see."
I cried and asked, "Did the mother think of this day when she was doing that?"
"..."
"Hiding-when the langur artillery."
At this time, if I'm still calm and still have a sense of reason, I might not ask this sentence in front of Pei Yuanzhang, but when the light was just lit, I almost already knew that there were some things already I can't hide it anymore. Although we may not be able to open the huge machine and take a peek at it, but the dense shadows around me, if I want to, otherwise, I can't deny their existence.
Folang machine artillery, all hidden in the Sanjiang Dam, hidden next to his mother!
It was because of this incident that she broke up with her father.
And it was because of this incident that she stayed at the Sanjiang Dam for so many years!
The mother was silent for a long time, and then said slowly in a husky voice: "It's not that you didn't think, but that you can't think."
"..."
"There are too many people to worry about, so I can't bear anything."
"But why do you have to give up! You have other choices!"
"..."
"Since there is something wrong with the Sanjiang Dam, you can destroy it! Since you don't want to let the Folang artillery appear, why don't you destroy it?"
If you do, we don't have to separate these years.
You don't have to give up on me, you don't have to give up on him.
And can we still live as happy as we did in the past, and my life does not have to be so painful.
Mother raised her head slightly and looked at me, her eyes flashed slightly: "Destroy the Sanjiang Dam ...? Then?"
"..."
"Destroy the Folang artillery? Then?"
"..."
"Lightness, I can give you up, but I am not willing to give up on you, now, it is the result of my mother's most helpless choice."
"..."
"When the Sanjiang Dam was destroyed, the crisis was indeed lifted. Do you know what will happen to Xichuan?"
"..."
For a while, my breathing was disturbed.
However, my mind was so clear, I knew what she meant almost instantly.
The Sanjiang Dam was destroyed, and the strategy of Emperor Gao failed. Indeed, the crisis was gone.
However, without the effect of this crisis, Xichuan would be more inclined to be independent and even opposed to the imperial court. At the moment, under the circumstances of the conflict in the Central Plains, the imperial power was weakened to the minimum, regardless of whether Pei Yuanzhang or Pei Yuanxiu unified the Central Plains. They all have a lot of vitality, and even I can be sure that in decades, they will not be able to take any measures against Xichuan, and they will lose the best time to win Xichuan and unify.
By that time, division will become a norm.
And the evil consequences of division, I have heard too much about that argument in Xishan College.
Therefore, this method is ruthless and shameless for her, but she still acquiesces in this matter.
"And Folang artillery, do you think it's enough to destroy it?"
"..."
Of course ... it's not.
I mumbled, "Everything is born with a cause and effect. The reason why the Fanglang artillery appears because it is needed, and we want to destroy it. In fact, it destroys the natural purpose of the Taoism."
Mother nodded slightly.
"My mother hates the way of Emperor Gao, but considering the unification, this is perhaps the worst, but the most peaceful method; my mother also doesn't like this weapon, destroying it is only a trivial matter, but she can't destroy people. It needs. "
"..."
"Lightness, a lot of things, mother can't decide on likes and dislikes."
"..."
"Maybe my decision was wrong, but I have already made a decision."
"..."
"As for the others ..."
With that, her voice suddenly choked.
"Everyone else ... do you think of it?"
I looked up at her, strong tears slipped from my eyes again. No matter how hard I tried to control, the sound of sobbing still showed the indescribable suffering and grievances. I cried and asked, "My mother is willing to bear me. Can you bear him? "
"..."
The mother did not speak, as if she could not answer.
It seems that the meditation over the past year has made her see everything in the world, but she cannot see it.
I asked, "Mother, don't you really regret it at all?"
The mother was silent for a long time, and then said slowly in a husky, strange voice: "I don't regret the words between you and your father, you can say everything."
"..."
"Actually, if she does anything, she will think very clearly."
"..."
"But he alone, even if I thought about it for two years and then half a lifetime, I never thought about it."
"..."
The two years she said were the two years when she was locked up. The half-life she said was the half-life spent with her father.
Even for such a long time, she didn't want to understand it.
But she was caught back by the fearless uncle who was still a mountain thief. In just one night, she saw all the people, figured out all the countermeasures, completely destroyed the robber's den, and earned the fearless uncle. Your followers.
is that really so difficult?
I cried and asked her, "Is it so difficult?"
My mother looked down at me. Behind those strands of white hair were her eyes that were old and unconscious for a moment, and she said slowly, "In fact, in the past, for my mother, there was nothing difficult in this world."
"..."
"Even if it is to establish the study style of Xishan Academy; even to fight the wisdom of the old patriarchs of Xichuan; even to find the truth hidden by Emperor Gao, even-to steal your father's things halfway, under their eyes, put These things are hidden. "
"..."
"Mother never felt sad."
"..."
"But he--sorrows his mother."
"mother……"
Her voice slowly returned to calmness, but the calmer she was, the more painful I was, and even crying like a child, holding her clothes on, she seemed to feel nothing, even seeing in those eyes It is no longer me, there is a vast sense of boundlessness in it.
She said gently: "Maybe, I regret it."
"..."
"It would be nice if we didn't meet each other."
"..."
"If you don't see each other, all right ..."
I went to her arms on my knees, hugged her strongly, tears wet her clothes, but felt that her body was extremely cold, and at this moment, she even lost her heat.
I hugged her strongly, crying, "No, mother, dad, he already regretted it."
"..."
"He actually regretted it. In the last few years, he had already resigned, and he already knew it was wrong."
"..."
"But he couldn't find his mother. He couldn't talk to anyone."
"..."
"He even went to find a clay statue of Tang Ting as his mother, and put his family's seal in it. I know that he has regretted it, and he regrets treating his mother like that. He regrets not cherishing our family together. He wants to go back in time. "
"..."
"Since then, he has been seriously ill, he--"
I cried with trembling all over my body. When I said this, I couldn't say a word.
At this moment, I seem to hear something.
It seemed to be the sound of tears flowing, but my tears had all melted into her clothes, and a large amount of wetness and coldness came out. I looked up and wanted to see her, but I only saw those pale whites. Hair fell on her face, and shuddered slightly with her breath.
It took a long time to hear her voice, a little hollow, as if with a trace of trembling.
"is it?"
"Yes, mother," I cried. "Father, he must have a lot of things to tell you, but he just can't say any more."
"..."
"Mother, he's gone!"
At this moment, I finally said this sentence.
The mother I was hugging was still still, but I clearly felt that there was something on her chest, as if at this moment, it was broken.
She sat there, as if everything around her could no longer shake her for half a minute. At this moment, something left her body.
I don't know how long, I heard her old voice slowly ringing in my ears-
"I have something to say to him."
"..."
"In this life, he and I had too many words to say and couldn't tell. Even if I did, I couldn't believe it."
"..."
"However, when he waits for Yincaodifu, he can believe me, and I can probably believe him."
"Mother, do you believe in Yincaodifu?"
She looked down at me with a little smile on her lips: "Of course, if not-"
She hesitated for a moment, but was a little stunned, and murmured, "Where shall I go, to find him?"