Chapter 2375: Am I going to do this merit?

Just as I stared blankly at the words with wide eyes, she seemed to have noticed something, and stretched out her hand before me.
"Mother, what's wrong with your eyes?"
My eyes are invisible.
Actually, I have realized it since last night, only now I have thoroughly confirmed that my eyes are broken, not completely blind, but I can still see some fuzzy shadows, I can feel the light, but the face of my daughter near me , But it has been invisible.
I had this experience before. It was the first time I followed Pei Yuanzhang to Jiangnan. I was injured after being arrested by those thieves. My eyes were briefly blind for a while. It was also the first time that I encountered light cold. .
I don't know how long I will be blind this time.
Or will it always ...?
I do not know why, there is no sadness in my heart, and a little bit of itching after the severe pain, indeed no one cares. I was so calm that I didn't even breathe. It was only when my daughter became more anxious and gave me a firm shake. Then I said gently, "My mother just looked a little fuzzy and it was okay."
I heard the good words and took a sigh of relief: "Mother, your eyes-are you blind?"
"Lightness!"
Pei Yuanzhang, who was standing aside, was also shocked. He said, "Your eyes are invisible. Why don't you tell me?"
I told you, what's the use?
On this vast snowy field, what other medical doctor can come to cure me?
Besides, I don't care anymore.
I looked at them calmly and said, "I'm fine."
It's invisible, all right.
He's gone, not many people deserve my eyes, not to mention, even the daughter in her arms is about to ...
There are too many sadnesses in this world. I don't have enough strength to see them one by one.
Although I could not see their faces clearly, I could feel the sad eyes of the father and daughter. I looked down at Miaoyan again and said, "Miaoyan, you go with your mother to go for a walk. The mother has something to tell you. "
"……Oh."
Her voice was trembling. Obviously, she found that her mother was blind. This incident dealt a great blow to her, but I was as bland as if nothing had happened, and she was a little bit confused. She looked back at Pei Yuanzhang, and Pei Yuanzhang whispered, "Go with your mother, be careful."
She was holding my arm in both hands, and carefully carried me forward.
So fast, I got such care.
Because it is not completely blind, there are still many shadows in front of me, which makes me not as careful as ordinary blind people, but after striding for a while, but after a few stubborn falls, I still learned a lesson, slowly With his toes, he tried the road ahead, and his wonderful words guided him intimately.
After walking for a while, the vocals and horseshoes in the camp were thrown far behind.
In the wilderness, it seems that only our mother and daughter are left, but no one speaks. Walking and walking, I heard the weeping weeping and sighed, and said softly, "What's wrong? Mother said that everything is fine, Why are you crying? "
She looked up at me and choked, "Mother, how could this be? Yesterday was OK?"
"..."
"What the happened?"
"..."
"Why did you come back last night, Father Huang wouldn't let me come in to see you."
"..."
"Today, your eyes are--"
Speaking of last night, my hand still couldn't help but shudder slightly. I raised my hand to feel her face, stroked it for a while, and then said softly: "Mother lost something very important So last night, my mother was uncomfortable. "
"What is it? Can I get it back?"
"Look? I can't find it."
"..."
"But it doesn't matter, I remember in my heart."
She wasn't a naive child who didn't know anything, and she clearly heard the words of this sentence, looked up at me, and said softly, "Mother, what are you talking about?"
I took a deep breath, cut the topic here, and said, "Well done, mother, I have another thing to tell you."
She was silent for a while and said, "Is that what Uncle Tieqi said yesterday?"
"Ok……"
"You guys, do you want me to marry Yangchu's brother?"
I was shocked. I didn't expect she knew it, and immediately frowned: "Who told you? Yang Chu? Or Tieqi Wang?"
"They didn't say, I went back last night and thought about it for a long time before I figured it out."
"..."
"Uncle Tieqi Wang said that in order to establish a union with his father, there must be a person who can be united. Is this right? If I marry my brother Yangchu, I will be uncle Tieqi Wang's daughter-in-law. We The two became in-laws, so that the Emperor and him could trust each other, right? "
I really didn't expect that after this evening, she made the ideal.
Just thinking about it, I feel that the dull pain in the chest is even worse.
This is not what we told her, but what she wanted to understand. During that period of time, how was her heart suffering, and would she be disappointed with us parents?
I whispered: "Wonderful words ..."
"Mother, I'm right, right?"
"Yes, the clever words are very clever. You think about it the moment you think about it."
Feeling that the child's breathing is a bit heavy, I still caress her face and said softly: "Well, as long as you don't want to, you can tell your mother, no matter what happens, the mother will not force you, more It won't make you forced. "
"..."
She didn't answer me immediately, but the quietness that followed didn't seem to be contemplating. I felt her breath tight, as if hesitating, and after a long hesitation, she said, "Mother, if I marry Yang First brother, it's good for you and your father, it's good for everyone, right? "
Although she was just asking questions, this question almost broke my heart.
I had a stubble in my throat and said, "Isn't my mother telling you, sometimes you can be willful, and you don't have to think for others, you have to think for yourself."
"..."
"What you like and what you want are the most important."
She looked up, as if smiling at me, because at this time I felt that the light in front of me was brighter, and I heard her voice said with a smile: "I know that my mother is afraid that I will be wronged, I'm afraid I'm sad. "
"..."
"But, mother, I'm not a kid anymore."
"..."
"I also know very well that even if I am a princess, the child of the father and mother, there are some things that I can't get."
"..."
"I understood the meaning of Uncle Tieqi yesterday. They are going to fight anyway. The father and the emperor are going to return to the capital and they are going to regain his throne. They are going to fight. Power also has to fight. "
"..."
"These brothers have told me a lot these days. He said that war is certainly not good, but at this step, many things are certain and only through war can they be settled."
"..."
"So the battle must be fought."
"..."
"But I figured it out. If I were to marry Yangchu's brother, there would be fewer battles, and many people would reduce casualties because of this, right?"
My throat was stubborn and speechless at this time.
She held my hand and rubbed her cheeks in my palm, saying softly, "Mother, you have taught me since childhood, that war is the most sinful thing in the world. It can avoid war and is a great virtue. . "
"..."
"Mother, am I going to do this merit?"
My hands are shaking, and my voice is shaking: "It is the bodhisattva who does merit, what kind of merit do you have when you are young?"
She whispered, "But the mother has a bodhisattva heart."
"..."
"I have it too."
"..."
"Mother, I hope the war under the sky can be ended sooner. I hope those refugees I saw on the road can return to their hometown earlier and hope that they can lead a stable life."
"..."
"I hope the father and mother can have their own happiness."
"Mother," she took a deep breath and looked up at me: "I do."
A strong sorrow came from my heart, and my eyes couldn't be opened for a moment, and the good words whispered, and hurriedly said, "Mother, don't you cry!"
She reached over and wiped my face with a warm wetness, and I couldn't speak, just choked and held her hand.
My daughter is so young, even her hands are still young.
However, with her thin shoulders, she had to carry such a burden.
What am I doing? After giving birth to this daughter, she did n’t give her a little care to her mother since she was a child. She finally reunited. When she should be loved, she said these things to her. Now, she is really willing to give up because of my teaching to her. In this grassland, exchange for the union of Pei Yuanzhang and Tieqiwang!
What am I doing? What did I do?
At this moment, I couldn't support it anymore, and the familiar cramps on my chest let me down again, and the good words hurriedly hugged me. I was helpless to call someone, I reached out and hugged her, tears fell On her hair.
I cried, "Wonderful words, I'm sorry for you."
She shivered and looked up at me: "Mother?"
"I'm sorry for you."
"Why does mother say that? Why does mother cry?"
"Wonderful words ..."
"Mother, I'm okay, I'll be fine, mother should also be good. What I worry about most right now is mother's eyes."
She hugged me and comforted me incoherently. In such ice and snow, I embraced the last bit of warmth in the world for me, and refused to let go for a long time, although I know that this warmth is also destined to leave me Already.