Chapter 380: Yan Yan's Words

The scholar whose surname is Liu ... Shangjing ... Father of three children ...
There was a sudden buzz in my mind, all my thoughts were completely chaotic. And in the midst of chaos, those words that Liu Yi had told me at the beginning sounded very clearly in my ears--
In fact, in addition to me and Shemei, there is a third son in the family ... The original father was impoverished ... The third brother was entrusted to this old couple ...
Liu Saner-also entrusted to his aunt Liu by his father, isn't it-is Liu Saner, the child of Lord Liu Shizhou, the younger brother of Liu Yi and Liu Zhaoyi? !!
I asked a little tremblingly, "Ma'am, what was the name of the scholar who surnamed Liu at the time, do you remember?"
"No, I don't remember much. I just remember that he has a son and a daughter. The oldest son is very smart and has a good birth. The second daughter is especially beautiful. The first look is a blessed look." Not much to mention.
"Then, his father entrusted Liu San'er to you. Did he say anything?"
"When his father left, he also gave us a sum of money for us to treat him well. Later, when the three children grew up, we used that money to send him to private school. Seeing that his father is a scholar, we are not Have the patience to make this child like us, blind to one, and blind for life. "
"..."
"Three children are very smart and attentive. There are more than a dozen dolls in the private house. He is one of Mr. ’s favorite. Unfortunately, he did n’t let him finish, the family was too poor, and he did n’t say much, followed him. Dad went down the river to learn to fish, and when he got older, he went to Yangzhou City to find a job by himself, and made money to supplement our household. "
"So," I hesitated, and said, "Brother Liu, does he know about this?"
Aunt Liu smiled weakly: "How can you not say that the child is old, it is his own life. I told him long ago, but this child is filial and does not rush to find his own father, It only means that we raised him, we are his biological father and mother, and we must serve us to our old age. "
She said, and smiled comfortably: "San Er is so kind, he will take good care of you and take care of this child."
I was so shocked that I forgot about myself, all thinking back and forth in my head was Liu Saner. If I didn't guess wrong, then he-he is Liu Shizhou's child, Liu Zhaoyi's brother! Unexpectedly, there was such a coincidence in this world. Before his death, Liu Yi cherished his younger brother. He and his father, two generations, died after bowing for the Southerners, and it was also for the loved one left behind to live a better life.
Now, I actually met him!
Feeling that my fingertips were shaking, Aunt Liu thought I was still worried, and said gently: "Child, not aunt to say something wrong. We women, no one wants to encounter such things, but since it happened , Let's not practice ourselves, God doesn't feel bad, we hurt ourselves! "
"..." I looked at her silently.
"Find a man who hurts himself and married with peace of mind for the rest of his life. Wouldn't it be better than always suffering from himself?"
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Aunt Liu said a lot today, more than what I said when she lived in her home for more than a month. Later, I was a little bit asthmatic. I hurriedly looked after her to lie down and rest. It wasn't too early at this time.
With the orange light of the setting sun, I walked to the table in the center of the house and slowly opened the baggage I got from the embroidery workshop today.
Today, there are very few jobs, only one, but the pay is more than before.
I took out the white sweat towel, sorted out the embroidery thread, and started embroidery after thinking for a while. The needles fell, and the red leaves slowly appeared on the white sweat towel. Because the needles were used, the leaves appeared extra lively, and the red of the maple leaves gradually became denser. A touch of orange.
Maple leaves are extremely beautiful, and they are better than flowers, but such delicateness only appeared in Xiao Shou's autumn.
Red maple once a year, but how many people's heads were white.
I finished embroidering a bunch of maple leaves, looked at it for a while, but didn't put it away, but the ghost made a twist of another thread, and embroidered a row of small verses next to the maple leaves—
Autumn is the most nosy, red maple leaf white head.
After the last stitch was embroidered, the sky was dark. I raised my head and looked out of the door. The sunset had long since fallen. The sky in the distance was still a little red, and there were insects around. It's right until the fish, why Liu Saner hasn't returned yet?
I was a little worried that the fishing ban had not yet been resolved. He went to the river ditch to feel the fish in case something went wrong.
So I put down my needlework and went out to find him.
Not far from Jixiang Village is the big river, the sparkling waves are constantly trembling with the wind, as if the broken moonlight is breathtaking. I have been here for so long. It seems to be the first time that I come out at night. Listening to the sound of water not far away, I just walked a small path and touched the grass with my skirt. Then they saw countless fireflies hula lapping from the grass and dancing in the night sky.
What a beautiful view!
I couldn't help but get a little surprised, but by the faint moonlight, I saw Liu Saner squatting there on the other side of the path, and a fish basket around him was half immersed in the water.
What is he doing?
I walked carefully and shouted, "Liu Saner?"
As soon as he heard my voice, the whole man bounced off the ground, looked back at me, and said in surprise: "Why did you come out?"
"You haven't been back so late, I worry about you."
"I'm here to touch the fish. It's you, how can you come out so late, what if you can't see the fall?"
As he said, he stretched out one hand to help me, to help me back, and I noticed that his other hand was still behind his back, and he was puzzled in his heart. ? "
"No, nothing."
"Nothing to show me."
"Don't look--"
He hurriedly dodging, but let me see at a glance just where he was squatting, and he made a lot of handwriting on the ground with small branches.
"You are--"
He couldn't hide it at first sight, and sighed. He took the hand out a bit awkwardly. It turned out to be a broken book, and it looked like an ancient book.
I couldn't help but mumble, "You, are you reading?"
"Ok."
"Why, why?"
He glanced at me, as if a bit embarrassed and scratched the back of his head, and said, "I see you help people write letters and obituaries, so well written ... So-"
The more awkward he was, the embarrassing expression appeared on his face, and I immediately understood.
"Don't you read a private letter too?"
"I've almost forgotten what I learned ..."
I couldn't help but smile: "So sneak out to learn at night?"
He became more and more embarrassed: "I was asking the old scholar to buy his pens and pencils at home, but there are still some books left by his family. Anyway, his children are useless, and it ’s better to read them if they are burned." Then, muttered, "It's only five bucks, so I sold a bundle."
Seeing him like that, it seems to be rather unsettling for those books. I smiled and stretched out my hand, "Let me see, what book do you read."
He handed me the book, and through a faint moonlight, it turned out to be an ancient poem.
I laughed and said, "How many songs have you read?"
He shook his head: "It's too hard to understand without a gentleman."
By the way, I forgot that he had only just heard of college in private education. The foundation is laid, but these have not yet been learned.
However, looking at the rather charismatic words on the ground made me a little embarrassed. It's really difficult to learn this way, and he has to pay more than others, but he didn't tell me at all, he just learned it silently.
In my life, I have met many outstanding people, but few of them are powerful.
The young man who can't even afford to eat, is one of them!
I don't know why. I felt a little hot in my eyes. I went back behind him in a cover-up, picked up the stick and said, "Do you want to learn? I will write a song for you."
After that, I wrote two lines on the beach.
Although Liu San'er has been learning to write in his back, he has n’t been taught, and his progress has been slow. Looking at what I write is also in the fog:
The most ... is the autumn wind ... nosy, red him ... maple leaf ... white head? "He finished reading intermittently, frowning again for a moment, or asked me," Light, what do these two poems mean? "
"It's the most autumnal nosy, red maple leaves and white heads." I whispered, facing his eyes, in such a dark night, but as bright as two obsidian, it makes people a bit inseparable. .
At this time, my eyes fell on his arm again, and the injury was already well, leaving a scaly scar. Just looking at the scar, it seemed that I could feel how painful he was when he was injured.
And I will not forget why he chose to be injured.
Thinking of this, I smiled and looked up to him and said, "You still don't want to learn these two sentences. I will teach you another poem."
After saying that, before he asked, I was already scratching on the ground again. He stood beside me and silently said, "Chou Qinghan cuts wind and wind, apricot flowers drift snow and little peach. Diagonally at night Swings are in the haze and drizzle. "
After reading it, he frowned again: "This poem ..."
"how is it?"
He was silent for a while, saw me slowly stand up and looked at him, and smiled: "It's beautiful."
"..."
I certainly know what he means.
Even if he didn't learn much, but after so many years of private education, he still can see whether it is good or bad. This poem is really beautiful, but if he only writes some flowers and snow, there is nothing more to say.
He thought about it and said, "I still like the first song you wrote."
I smiled lightly: "But you better not like it too much."
"why?"
"Because," I said softly, "The more you learn, the more you think; the more you think, the more you have to do; the more you do, the more you get wrong; the more you get wrong, the pain is also more."
He looked at my pale face under the night, seemed to understand something, and seemed to have more doubts.
"Many times, people just make themselves miserable just because they're in charge of some gossip. If you don't want that much, it's not good to just be yourself?"
After that, I smiled at him and motioned him to go home.
But as I turned around, I heard him slowly say, "I don't think so."
"...?" I turned and looked at him.
He stood there with frowning eyebrows, thinking hard, and struggling to say, "Sometimes, although it is nosy, it should still be done. As long as it can help others, it can help more people, eat a little What are you afraid of? "
I looked at him blankly, and he smiled at me again: "It's not a bad thing to help people."
He smiled so much, standing in the night like this, his tall and tall body seemed so solid and reliable, but I seemed to see another person, thin and ill-Lord Liu Yi, all for the south The people were wounded by the assassins, and they did not change their original intentions before dying. Although they were ill, their spirits were still like giants, standing in the south!
He is indeed a member of the Liu family!
As soon as my eyes became hot, my eyes became red.
Although it was dark, he still felt something strange to me, and he came over and held my arm: "Lightness, what happened to you?"
"No, it's nothing." I rubbed my eye socket and said gently, "I just have a little regret."
"What? What a pity?"
I looked up at him, looking at those eyes still bright in the dark night, no less than any bright star in the sky. I smiled and looked up to him and said, "It's nothing. Let's go back soon, otherwise the aunt should be worried."
He seemed a little puzzled, but when he looked at me and turned away, he didn't ask much. He picked up a fishing basket and ran up to walk back side by side with me. Neither of them spoke again.
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The next morning I got up early in the morning and packed up a few smaller fishes he caught yesterday to make a pot of fish soup. Liu Saner smelled the fragrance and ran to the kitchen, watching the milky soup in the pot The inside rummaged and laughed, "It's so fragrant."
As I stirred the soup with a spoon, I laughed, "Go wash your face, wash it over and drink soup."
"Hey!"
He promised, hurried to the other side of the yard to wash, and then ran back again like a gust of wind, I filled a bowl of hot soup from the pot with a smile, and handed him: "Hurry up, drink up Let me take a trip. "
"where to?"
"I did the work I took back from the embroidery workshop yesterday, but I'm weak now and can't go that far. You can give me the things to the boss and get the wages back."
As soon as he heard it, he said, "Are you up all night? This is bad for your health."
I smiled and said, "I didn't stay up all night, I just caught a few stitches."
In fact, I didn't really stay up all night. The owner of that sweat towel had no requirements for the color, so I also embroidered it casually. A bunch of maple leaves and two ancient poems were quickly finished.
Liu Saner said seriously: "Lightness, don't pick up these jobs anymore. Now you have to take a good rest and raise your body. Other things I will--"
Without waiting for him to finish, I interrupted him with a smile: "Don't worry about it, I won't do it after finishing this one."
He said happily, "Really? You really didn't do it?"
"Ok."
I nodded and promised, he immediately said happily: "That's good. You have to talk!" After finishing, he drank the soup with a smile and told me a few words, then picked me up to work That burden is going.
Watching him walk out of the courtyard door, I suddenly couldn't help but call him: "Liu Saner."
He turned around and looked at me: "Huh?"
I stood at the door, looking at him with a smile on my face, without realizing it.
At this moment, I suddenly felt that there was a lot of things I wanted to say to him, but when I reached the mouth, there was only a little choking caused by sourness, and I couldn't say anything.
Feeling my silence, he wondered, "What's wrong?"
"..."
"Lightness, are you uncomfortable again? If you feel uncomfortable, go back to the house to rest and don't stand on the wind."
"..."
"I'll be back soon."
"..."
My nose was sour, listening to his usual words, but suddenly laughed. As I spoke, my voice shuddered a little: "You, be careful on the road."
"I know." He smiled again and waved at me: "Hurry back to the house to rest. I sold the fish today and bought some meat to return. Let's have a good meal at night."
I nodded, no longer able to speak, I could barely support the smile on my face, watched him happily turned and walked out, and soon, his back disappeared at the end of the path in front, the faint morning mist in.
As soon as his back disappeared, I couldn't help it. The hot tears suddenly filled my eyes, but a drop couldn't flow out. I just stubbornly moved around my body, and it hurt my heart.
I do have regrets.
I regret that I didn't meet him earlier.
If I had n’t suffered these injuries and suffered those things, how could I have met such a man?
No filth, no affection, no child, no irreversible life today ...
How good would it be without all this?
It would be nice if I could meet him earlier, if I could fall in love with him.
He and I, as well as Aunt Liu, can really live a peaceful life here, although he and I may not have any earth-shattering love, although I have to count the copper plates every day, although I am tired of working and have a hard life , But my heart is peaceful, sweet, no conspiracy, no flattery, he will not hit me for anyone, anything, give up on me, I will not beware of him, afraid of what will happen to the sweet life next moment Terrible prison.
If, I am still the original I, I really hope to stay, and return the wish he made in Hongye Temple-I am willing to stay with him and be his wife.
However, this man, who is as clear as water and bright as a mirror, but has a rock-like tenacity, is long gone.
Moreover--
I lowered my head and looked at my belly in tears.
There is already a child there, a child who should not appear after the end, a child who may be the bane, and the government will check the household registration immediately, which means I know what it means.
That man still refused to let me go.
I don't hate him, I don't hate anyone.
I just hate not meeting the right people at the right time.