Chapter 669: Heaven and earth, but everywhere is not you

With that heavy silver in my arms, I felt that my steps were easier, and people didn't seem to be so uncomfortable. After a while, he returned to the street and walked to the place where Ye Fei had just met. Ping'er had already gone back. Many people looked around at the portrait on the wall and whispered. I glanced at my portrait again and said nothing, so I was ready to go back.
Just turning around and leaving, I saw a young woman in front of me looking up at the portrait on the wall. Her back was a little familiar. At this time, she turned around and met me.
Although it hadn't been seen for many years, I recognized the familiar face at a glance.
"rue?"
Before I reacted, I had already called this name-wasn't she the girl from Zhao family who lived in the auspicious village, which was next to Liu San'er's house?
When she heard someone call her by name, she immediately looked up at me, but was startled by my face, staring at me for a long while, and came over subconsciously: "Is it you calling me? You Yes--"
I also froze for a while, completely forgetting my current situation, but suddenly seeing an acquaintance was inevitable.
Seeing that I didn't say anything, Ruxiang frowned, and looked at me for a while, the more I looked at the frown, the more I said, "Yes, I--"
She remembered something, turned her head to look at the portrait on the wall, and suddenly opened her eyes in surprise: "You, you are-light-"
"Shh!"
I hurriedly reached over her mouth and pulled her into an alley by the street.
Ruxiang was still a bit lost, and kept staring at my face for a long while before she said, "It's you really? How are you-why?"
I pulled the scarf a little awkwardly: "I'm sick."
"..."
She looked at me unbelievably for a while, her brows never stretched.
Reunion does not mean that she will be happy. I also know that she doesn't like me. Although she didn't say it herself, I know that her feelings for Liu San'er are not ordinary. I ’m afraid she ’s there, otherwise every time Zhao Auntie sees me, she wo n’t be so cold-hearted, and my husband and I are married. She didn't show up, and for a few days, she never saw her go out.
For me, it was not a good appearance.
Thinking of this, I don't know if I just hurriedly called her name. Is it right or wrong?
The two stood in the alley, and for a while, no one spoke, and the atmosphere was a little awkward.
After a while, she turned to look at someone on the other side of the hutong who was selling sweet porridge, and said, "Let's go and have porridge."
I nodded and followed her.
Such a street stall is naturally not as good as a restaurant, and the weather is cold outside, but a bowl of steaming sweet porridge is still warm in my hand, but I do n’t dare to drink it, now my body is getting worse Under control, I don't know if there will be embarrassing scenes after taking a sip, I can only hold it in my hand to keep warm. It's rue. I don't know if the porridge is very warm. After she drank it, her face was a little red.
After a while, she seemed to have the courage to raise her head and looked at me: "He--brother, do you--?"
I also know that she must ask.
"He's fine now."
Ruxiang looked at me: "You two are still together?"
I hesitated for a moment and immediately remembered that what happened to Liu Saner and me before leaving Jixiang Village was impossible for a normal man to forgive me anymore. She asked me, but it was just a tentative test.
Looking at Ruxiang's surprised look, I thought about it and said, "I have experienced many things with him and these years-these things-in short, it is difficult to say. But what I can tell you is that he is fine now, in Beijing And also became a great official. "
"Ah ?! Is he an official?"
"Ok."
Ruxiang lowered her head and didn't speak, her long eyelashes trembled, and she had a look on her face that didn't know whether it was joy or sorrow. She murmured, "He's doing well ... that's good. In fact, I already knew , He will be prosperous ... I knew from an early age that he is different from us. "
I looked at her, only feeling sore and speechless.
After a while, Ruxiang raised her head and looked at me again: "I just saw the portrait on the wall-what is going on with you? How come I heard someone say that you are the emperor's side? In the end you- —? "
I was a little embarrassed, and a little nervous.
My identity, and the status of Qing Han, I did not intend to let her know that Ruxiang is just a quiet woman in a fishing village and should not be exposed to the unbearable things that flooded my life. But what's even more troublesome now is that-as long as you expose me and put me in the hands of the government, you can get thousands of gold. I look at Ruxiang now, it doesn't seem to be rich, just in case-
Feeling my nervous gaze, Ruxiang immediately understood and blushed.
I said subconsciously: "You, you must not tell me the news you saw me."
"..."
"I beg you."
Ruxiang raised her head and looked at me with a slightly angry expression: "Who do you think of me?"
When I heard her, I felt relieved. No reason why, maybe, I believe more in a person's self-esteem, especially in front of me, she is even more reluctant to be taken lightly.
I smiled embarrassingly, then I switched the subject and looked at her dress. A blue silk had been pulled up and was obliquely obscured by a wooden clog. Although simple, it gave her a much more delicate face. A few differences. This dress is obviously not the dress of the girl who did not leave the cabinet at the beginning. I asked, "Are you married now?"
"Um." She nodded, but for some reason, a look of shyness flashed on her face. Before I understood it, I heard her whispering, "I am married to Gouji."
"Gou Er?" I froze, immediately thinking of the unskilled person, frowning, and immediately understood why she was so ashamed just now.
How come, marry him?
Although it's hard to say that the flowers were inserted in the cow dung, but looking at my eyes, Ruxiang herself understood, and only smiled bitterly: "After all, just marry someone."
"..."
In the end, though, it was marrying.
A simple sentence, but I do not know why, I heard a sore heart.
For many women, life is actually two and a half lives, the first half is given by heaven, and the second half is given by someone. Whoever you meet and who you marry determines the joy and sorrow of this half-life.
If you meet the right person, you can fall in love together, then you will not live in vain life; if you ca n’t meet or miss it, it will be hard to reach the end of your life. Some people may persist in loneliness, while others may just confess their fate.
Recalling my life, countless people told me countless times that they must confess their fate.
But who is really willing to do so?
After Ruxiang said that, she didn't even know what to say, she just bowed her head in silence. I don't know how long after that, she looked up and looked at the sky, and said, "It's getting late, I'm going back. Otherwise he will--" Then she looked at me and shut up.
Although I heard something, I didn't ask, I just said, "Why did you come to the city?"
"I'm here to sell some needlework and home-cooked food. These days we won't let the water go, and many people in the village can't carry it."
"what……"
She said, remembered something, and said to me, "Can you come out tomorrow?"
"tomorrow?"
"Well, I have something to give you. Earlier tomorrow, will you be here waiting for me, okay?"
Although I didn't know what she would give me, I nodded immediately. Ruxiang drank the sweet porridge left in the bowl, put a few dollars on the small table, nodded at me, and got up. Hurrying away with a basket.
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I went back that night and Qiqiang didn't find anything. They still trained the children as usual, kneading the dough and filling the stuff, and preparing to make buns the next day. He often wanted to ask me what happened today. , But they all got rid of me.
The next day, when Qixi went out, I left Ping'er, who had been pestering me, and went out.
For example, I waited for the sweet porridge stand on the corner of the street and waited for a while before I saw Ruxiang coming over. As soon as I stepped forward, I saw her face faintly red and swollen, and even her eyes were red. .
I hurriedly said, "Ruxiang, what happened to you?"
She kept her head down and listened to me. Her face turned redder. She wanted to cover it with her hands, but she also knew that she couldn't cover it. She could only take me to the Hutong Palace. I kept asking: "Your Why is your face swollen? "
"You don't ask."
She said, and found a small cloth bag from her sleeve and shoved it into my hand: "Here you are."
The cloth bag was heavy, and I could hardly hold it. What was it? I touched it as if it was hard, and untied the rope and looked at it, it turned out to be a big bag of broken silver!
I looked up in surprise and asked her, "Why, this is--"
Ruta still bowed her head and said, "Don't get me wrong, this is not for me."
"that--"
"Before, the third brother contracted the land behind the village. Later, the land was taken back, and the government replenished the money. The money was taken down by the village chief, and I have been helping him-collecting for you."
I looked at her with a stunned look.
There is not much silver in it, but there are also seven or two. It is not a fortune for an ordinary family, but I did not expect that Ruxiang actually took it this way, it just took it. After seeing me, I will give it back .
Do not.
Looking at her lowered face and the flickering eyes under her eyelashes, I immediately understood.
She kept this money for Liu San'er.
At this time, looking at her red and swollen face, I also understood: "You, you were beaten, didn't you?"
"..."
"Who hit you? Gou Er?"
"..."
"Because of this silver, you want to take it out, so he hit you?"
"Don't ask."
When she said this, Ruxiang's voice was choked, and she turned her head away from my eyes, but it made me more clearly see the fingerprints on her fair face which were slightly swollen, and even her ears were red. . I can't help gritting my teeth: "How can he hit someone like this?"
Ruxiang reached out and gently stroked her face. Her pale and thin hands grew so swollen that the redness on her face looked so stubborn, but she just sighed helplessly: "He's right."
"..."
"I'm not good, I'm obviously married ..."
I froze.
And she couldn't keep talking, her original red and swollen cheeks became redder and her head bowed.
The atmosphere in the hutong suddenly became freezing, and a gust of wind whistled past, letting me stunned, as if returning to the cold bitter north.
Ruta she ...
I was silent for a long time, and my throat was rattling all the time, but I swallowed it several times, and finally opened my mouth and said, "Ruxiang, you-you don't think about him anymore."
"..."
"It's really bad ... I'm not saying you're bad, but rather, it's not good for you."
"..."
"He, he is not the same as he was ..."
I still remember the young man with dark-skinned and white teeth in the fishing village, who smiled exceptionally brightly, and also remembered the valiant minister in the chapel. My deepest memory is that night, he lit the collection The fire of the temple of shrine, with a fierce look like a beast.
Obviously, I am familiar with the people who are entangled in my dreams every night, but I can't gather him like that to the same person at all.
He is far away from me, not to mention Ruxiang, not to mention, maybe he already has--
Thinking of this, I just felt a throbbing pain in my chest, and I didn't dare to think about it.
At this time, Ruxiang also choked and said, "I know, I know I shouldn't think about it anymore, so-I told you to come here today and give you all these things to you, just to stop thinking about yourself."
She said, the thin, bare-bodied hand gently reached into the sleeve, pulled out something from it, squeezed it hard, and said, "This is for you too."
"..."
I don't know if she has anything else to give me. She reached over and took a heavy thing. She wrapped it in a piece of parchment. I carefully opened the handkerchief and saw that there was a long-life lock inside.
Above, there are a few words--
Lightness ...
Liu San ...
Inseparable from ...
I stared at the long-life lock dullly, the bright silver surface almost reflected my appearance, but the silver light flashed my eyes blurry, I just felt a rush of heat coming up, I do n’t know how Something, already heard the sound of clicking.
Tears, as if there were no feelings, the broken beads fell on my palms, silver locks.
This is the long-life lock that Liu Saner hit Lier then!
I still remember now, although at the beginning, I only glanced at that day, the day when I was forced to be separated from him, only to let me see how much he did not want to be separated from me, how much he looked forward to our future Days.
But everything is broken.
I just felt a heartache, and even twitched my breath. I didn't know how long it took to speak, and my voice was so broken that I couldn't believe it: "Why ..."
"..."
"Why, in your hands? I--"
"I picked it up." Ruxiang looked at me and said gently: "That day, the two of you were suddenly gone, the child was gone, and even the lunatic at your house was gone. Many people in the village went to find it. And I was in the corner of your yard and saw this as if I had been lost. "
Lost?
By the way, I remembered that day when I was completely fainted, and when I woke up, I was already in Pei Yuanzhang's residence. Naturally, he handled those things, and the silver lock on Lier—he hated me The relationship with Liu Saner will naturally not remain.
"I don't know what happened to you, but I still want to keep it for you. Maybe one day, you and your child will want it."
I looked up at Ruxiang's kind and gentle face, and smiled, "Thank you, thank you, thank you."
When I said these words, I didn't cry, I didn't even have a grateful smile on my face, but the tears were completely out of control, like a broken bead, dropping drop by drop, madly raging on my face, By the time the throat was completely blocked. I could only bury my face in the palm of my hand, the cold silver lock stuck to my cheek, and it hurt me, and my tears were low, and I ended up not in the handkerchief.
Ruxiang didn't speak, so she looked at me so quietly.
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I don't know how long it took for me and her to calm down, Ru Xiang said gently, "I'll come here today and give you all this, and I'll give it to you."
Then, she seemed to make up her mind: "It's all for you!"
I looked at her and understood the meaning of these words, and only said gently, "Thank you."
She added: "Although I don't know who you are or what you are doing now, but-since the government is looking for you, you should hide. Your face-"
I didn't laugh, but just bowed my head: "I know. I plan to leave."
"Oh……"
Ruxiang didn't ask me where she was going. Seeing that I didn't even feel like talking, she was cramped and just reluctantly said, "Your house is still there. I'm fine-I'll be fine before, I will clean it If you want to come back, you can still come back. "
When she finished, she saw me looking up at her, and said, "Many old people in the village have left ... many things, and no one remembers them."
"..."
"That's it, I'm going back."
"..."
"……take care."
After that, she nodded, and turned away in a hurry.
It seemed like a gust of wind, coming and going, but leaving heavy marks in my hand.
I was standing in the empty alley, and the wind chilling through the winter was blowing through my face, and it was obviously a gentle southern country, but it gave me a feeling like a knife cut.
Perhaps because of this moment, the heart is like a knife cut.
I lowered my head and looked at the silver lock with a faint smile on my face. Such a smile might be like a ghost on my swollen face, but my heart has never been so helpless . Tears poured out of the eyes again, dripping recklessly, each one was so hot that it fell into the palm of the hand, almost melting the silver lock.
Haha, hahahaha ...
I laughed.
The more he laughed, the more he couldn't breathe, and he could only lean on the cold wall to prevent himself from falling down.
The wind blew through the empty alley. There were bustling crowds on both sides. There was no one staying, like this empty alley. The empty me in the alley was another world. Everyone knew where they were going, but I I don't know what I should do.
I looked down at the silver lock, just a few small words, but it stung me.
why?
why?
Aren't you letting go?
Don't you just let me go like this and let me find a better person?
Do not leave? Do not leave!
But why did you show up again?
Why is the sky and the earth everywhere, but you are everywhere? !!
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I do n’t know how I got back to Qilian ’s house. I felt uncomfortable and nauseous. When I got home, my eyes were dark. When I opened the door, I almost fell to the ground. .
Fortunately, when he heard the sound of my door opening, Pinger ran out.
"You're back?!"
When he saw me, he seemed to be fainting, and hurried up to help me: "What's wrong with you, is it uncomfortable?"
I bit my lower lip and forced myself not to pass out, holding his arm firmly and walking back, Ping'er helped me to return to the room all the way, and kept saying, "I said I would accompany you out, you don't want to Look at you like this, what if you faint on the street? "
My eyebrows are frowned tighter.
At this time, I just want to immediately fall into bed and take a hard night's sleep, to forget the pictures in my head that are as crowded as a horse, or to forget all the memories that almost drive me crazy. Ke Pinger's loud voice really didn't give me such a chance. He finally returned to the room and sat by the bed. He immediately brought a cup of warm water to me and asked, "What the did you do today?" Do you see anyone? Why don't you tell me? Can you cross the river? "
"..." I didn't speak, and my face grew paler.
I took a sip of water, and the talent was a little better. I looked up and looked at him: "You—I'll take a break before I tell you, okay?"
"Oh ... oh."
He nodded, took the cup in my hand, saw that I was forced to lie down while holding the bedpost, and walked to the bed again, looking at me, I saw that he was a little bit restless, but he was really No mood to speak, just said, "I'll take a break."
"..."
Seeing that I was about to lie down, Pinger still didn't walk away.
Although he is a junior to me, but a boy of sixteen or seven is not too young. I lay down in front of him like this, and I was a little embarrassed. I could only raise my spirit and look up. He: "What's the matter?"
Ping'er looked at me and said, "I want to tell you that you're late, and someone came to see you just now."
"Find me?" I was a little puzzled. "Who came to me?"