Chapter 765: His face is as yaksha, his heart is like a bodhisattva

Although the official didn't know who I was, he saw that I had no scruples in front of Pei Yuanxiu, and probably guessed that my status was not normal, then he knelt and turned to me: "Yes, Xiaguan did hear, those Some of the entourage called him Lord Liu. "
I walked in front of him and looked at him nervously: "Who is Liu, what is his name?"
"This, Xiaguan doesn't know."
"I don't know? What about him, how does he look? What is his character?"
"This--"
The official looked at me with a little embarrassment and said, "Xiaguan is not of sufficient grade to attend the reception of the hostess, but he only glanced at the side hall. Lord Liu should be a young man with a small body. It's tall, it's just a little thin, but his appearance, Xiaguan really didn't see-- "
My face went dark.
The official was very cautious at first, and probably already knew that I was not in a low position beside Pei Yuanxiu, and then looked at my sadness now, and tried hard for a while, and suddenly seemed to think of something, clapping: "By the way, Xiaguan remembered it. Before Xiaguan secretly left Yangzhou, he heard that the adult had issued several new decrees in the Yangzhou government, officially deposed the people's inferior citizenship in Yangzhou, and he was in a tax campaign. There has also been a great change in the system. I heard that the people in Yangzhou are clapping their hands. They call this adult "the face is as strong as a yak, and the heart is like a bodhisattva."
I heard my heart move.
His face is as yaksha and his heart is like a bodhisattva?
Is this cold?
In any case, there is no way for me to associate him with "Face is like Yasha". In this room, in this yard, his smile is as warm as a spring breeze. How could it become like Yasha? And above the night banquet, the thunder means like that, five words in one word and one blood flow, is it really cold?
However, if it were not for him, the new orders issued by the Yangzhou government to abolish the inferior citizenship, especially the reform of taxation and bondage, he had proposed here.
Not his words, who is it?
Who is Master Liu, who can go deep into the tiger's lair like this and use the danger to take Yangzhou back from the rebel's hands?
I just feel confused.
Just then, Susu walked in from the outside. When she saw that I was lost and pale, and saw the ground fragments, I hurried forward to help me: "Miss, what's wrong with you?"
Her anxious voice and warm hands gave me a real sense of jerk.
Look at her, and look at Pei Yuanxiu with a somber face. I hesitated, and said, "You're here just right, help me clean up."
"Ok."
She nodded hurriedly, then leaned down to pick up the debris on the ground, and I have turned around and walked out, Pei Yuanxiu saw me going to leave, hurriedly holding up the table and stood up: "Green baby!"
I looked back at him with a blank look.
"where are you going?"
"I? I want to go out for a walk." Then, I smiled at him: "You should have something to discuss, I'm inconvenient to stay here. I go out to relax, just by the river."
To my smile, Pei Yuanxiu's look seemed a little dazed.
Silent for a moment, he said softly, "Don't go too far,"
"Ok."
I turned away.
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The first month has not yet passed, and the village is full of New Year's joy. There are also many red papers on the ground, which are left after the firecrackers. These things are said to be cleaned after the first month, so I dazzled Look, the whole village is like a red carpet, full of joy.
In the air, there is also the scent of fish flew from the kitchen of every household.
I walked slowly along the path, and soon came to the river.
Compared to the bustle in the village, of course, it is much colder here. It is still the New Year, and no one will go down the river. The river is cold, as if frozen by the coldness. In order to hear the gurgling water.
I walked along the river, aimlessly, and my thoughts were as chaotic as my steps.
Suddenly, it was cold underfoot.
I looked down and found that I had stepped on the water, the river wet the skirt corners, and also wet my ankles. I hurriedly tiptoed to a big rock by the river and sat down, wringed the skirt corners, shoes I can't take off my socks, but I don't want to go home now, I just have to sit and hang them like this.
As soon as he looked up, he saw a vast sky ahead.
It's Yangzhou City ...
I still vaguely remember that when I was standing in the yard on New Year's Eve, I saw the fireworks in Yangzhou City, thousands of reds, and fire trees and silver flowers. I just thought it was beautiful, but I never thought of it. The firework illuminated more than just mine The eyes also illuminated his eyes.
Is it really him?
Is he really the one who decided to kill in the city of Yangzhou and even spread five steps in one sentence?
But why did he come to Yangzhou?
At the time when he was at the Uncle's Dulaiguan, he promised me that he would not easily go to the south of the river. Why did he say so to me so quickly? Yangzhou City, how will this city where Liu Shizhou and Liu Yi sacrificed their lives have an impact on his future?
I dare not think about it.
Just as my heart was numb, a gentle voice rang beside--
"Lightness?"
I looked back. It was Ruxiang. She was wearing a jade-colored jacket and Tingting stood by the river. When she saw me, she came over immediately: "How are you here?"
"I, I come here for a walk. How about you?"
"me too."
When she saw my wet skirt corner, she knew what was happening and did not leave. She sat on the stone like me and helped me hold the skirt corner and shook.
I could not help looking at her.
These days, she has been with me all the time, and unknowingly, we have become good sisters who talk about everything. However, to talk about everything, in fact, she and I are impossible. I know there is still a place in her heart, it is me, not even herself.
The two were so silent, and the sound of the water flow gradually became abrupt. They just felt like the experiences of two people, remembering that these years have gone with the water. I thought for a while, and suddenly asked, "Ruxiang, how are you doing now?"
She glanced at me and couldn't help laughing.
I thought about what I asked and laughed.
I got along with her almost every day and night. Only in these days of the Chinese New Year, I didn't see each other. Now suddenly I asked, anyone should laugh.
But after laughing for a while, gradually, she seemed to feel something, her smile faded, she was silent for a while, and said softly, "OK."
"What a good idea?"
She lowered her eyelids, and her long eyelashes reflected the light. After thinking about it, she said, "It's much better than in the past. Her hands are much looser. Since the second brother came back, Gou Er is more honest and dare not move Hit me, and went to find a serious job. The home is getting better day by day; as for me— "she thought, and suddenly smiled, and said to me," I'm a little boss now. "
I smiled and nodded.
"I'm telling you secretly—" She whispered in my ear and said, "My private house money Gou Er also knows, but he dare not ask me. He is afraid of my second brother."
She said, with a shrug on her shoulders, and I laughed with her.
"Also, I'm learning to read characters now. Don't tell others, I already know hundreds of them. In the future, I can help you go out and talk to people and sign contracts."
I looked at her with some surprise.
I did not expect that Ruxiang was so motivated, and she began to learn to recognize words secretly. To say that she is not too young now, and has no background in studying, and that the world has a recognition that "women are talented is virtue," she is willing to work hard like this, which really surprised me.
It seems that she has really integrated the embroidery workshop into her life, and will be so devoted.
She rested her head on my shoulder and sighed softly: "It's okay for a woman to do this. I have nothing to complain about."
She said that, even I felt that the money was more abundant and she was doing her own work. Her husband was also lost, and there was nothing to be dissatisfied with.
But in her heart, she was still at a loss, even looking at her, although her face was laughing, her eyes were empty.
I looked into her eyes and asked for a long time: "Do you feel happy?"
"happy?"
She muttered these two words, and after a while, she smiled slightly, but there was a little more in that smile, and she said, "Forget it. It's happiness."
Count ...?
I became more confused and looked at her.
Can happiness be counted? It ’s better than the past, it ’s more affluent, and it wo n’t be beaten by her husband. The husband has found a job and is no longer idle ... so that he can be considered happy?
But what is the original happiness? Do you remember Ruta? It was because of her previous badness that she shattered her original expectations. She didn't even remember what she originally wanted, so as long as a better one appeared in front of her, or if it was not good, it was not so bad. Well, you can accept it, even if it is not what you originally wanted, it can be regarded as happiness?
My heart was getting more and more chaotic. Ruxiang looked at my eyebrows and wrinkled into a Sichuan word, and said gently, "Lightness, what happened to you?"
"..."
"Why do I feel like you haven't had a good year this year? Have you encountered any problems? Who are those people in your family? What happened to you on New Year's Eve?"
Confronting her concerned eyes, I hesitated for a while, and finally said gently: "Ruxiang, light cold-Liu Saner, he is back."
"what?!"
Ruxiang jumped in shock, her eyes widened, and she looked at me endlessly: "What did you say?"
I also slowly got up, and some slightly cool skirts dropped down, bringing a coolness. I looked into her surprised eyes and said calmly, "He is back in Yangzhou."
"He--the others? At your house? Or--"
"In Yangzhou."
"Yangzhou?"
"Yes, if I'm not mistaken, it's him who took office last night in Yangzhou Prefecture."
Ruxiang had an unbelievable expression on her face, she couldn't speak for a long time, and when she spoke again, she was still stuttered: "He-you said he was a big official, he really was such a big official ? Yunzhou House Yin ?! "
"Ok."
"... Master Fu Yin ?!" She was still a little unbelievable, repeating muttering. Suddenly, she seemed to remember something again and turned to look at me: "So, why didn't he come to you?"
I was silent for a while and said, "He won't come to me."
"why?"
I smiled slightly in my heart. "He, he has something he wants to do."
"That, that—" Ruxiang seemed a little helpless. She held my cold hands, looked around, looked around, and suddenly said, "Don't you want to see him?"
"..."
This time I didn't say anything, my lips were slightly pursed.
He has what he wants to do, because he will not live for love, so he can desperately rescue me from the prison, or he can push me down the moat heartlessly, let me leave the Imperial City completely, and leave him . He asked me to find my own happiness.
But he may not know that leaving him, happiness, may just have to forget it.
And the happiness I really want should not be considered ...
Ruxiang looked at me as if she felt something, holding my hand tighter, and said, "Lightness, I don't know what happened between you, and you don't tell me if he lost you, Now how did you become such a big official. But if you still want to see him, you should go see him. It does n’t matter if he is sorry for you, or if he loses you, you have to say it in person to make it clear. what!"
Then, always say it in person ...
Looking at her anxious for me, I felt that my heart didn't seem to be so uncomfortable. In fact, there were many kinds of feelings between people, even if I had suffered, and there were other people, Good people soothe me with their tender emotions.
Thinking of this, I smiled slightly: "Thank you."
She froze and looked at me: "What do you thank me for?"
"..."
I just smiled, didn't speak, and held her hand slowly back along the river. The sun was just right, and a sparkling wave was reflected on the river. The slender figures of me and her were reflected in the light. Although slender, it seems to have a warm power.
Maybe it's because of what she said ...
Yes, I want to see him.
I should also see him.
No matter what happened this year, how much he changed, but my mood has not changed. I still love him and feel heartache for every good or bad news of him. I want to know what hurt him and how he is now. Even if the road between me and him really can't go on, I don't want to end with the ice and fire that night.
When approaching the entrance to the village, Ruxiang and I were going to split up, watching her turn and leave, but it was not as brisk as when I came, I suddenly called her: "Ruxiang."
She turned to look at me.
"You—" The words came to your lips, but it was even harder. I whispered for a long time, and finally whispered, and carefully asked, "Do you still miss him?"
Ruxiang's complexion suddenly turned pale.
She felt to me as if a scar that had been healed, and even she had forgotten her injuries, was suddenly lifted open, and blood suddenly flowed, and the kind of piercing tingling made her overwhelmed.
I also regretted my words and hurriedly said, "I'm sorry."
"..."
She stood there silently, and the whole person seemed to condense into an ice sculpture. After lingering for a long time, she slowly raised her head to look at me, and her voice was cold: "Light."
"..."
"Don't ask again."
"I'm sorry, Ruta, I'm not--"
"I know." She interrupted me, and her voice seemed somewhat weak. For a while, she and I couldn't say anything, and couldn't move. The two were so silent and opposite, but not as quiet and calm as before. On the contrary, it seemed that it was not just her who had the scars, but also me. Even the pain was slowly spreading between the two people.
I don't know how long it took before she raised her head to look at me and said gently: "Lightness, I won't mention it again in the future, you don't have to ask again. This page should be turned over, okay? "
I nodded hurriedly, and couldn't wait to bite my tongue.
Because she had had a mild cold on the premise of me more than once, which made me think that she had recovered and had forgotten the past, but it was just an unintentional question, but I found out that she had not completely come out of the memories .
Ruxiang slowly walked over to me, and her voice was as light as the sound of flowing water next to her. Once she went, she wouldn't look back.
She looked at me and said gently: "I just said, I am now happy."
"..."
"But happiness shouldn't be considered ..."
"..."
"Yes, no, no. Knowing that it is not, knowing that it is not reached, you can only count it."
When she was talking, her throat also choked up, and she swallowed hard for a long time, and finally blocked something stiffly, but her eye circles were still red, and said, "But I really can't think about it .Even if Gouji is still idle and hits me, I can't think about it anymore. "
"..."
"Lightness, as long as one is married, nothing is different."
"..."
"I don't want to be scolded as a water poppy, I still look down on myself."
"..."
"You still have the qualifications, so you should see him. No matter how you choose, even if you are qualified to choose each other, even if the decision is wrong, at least you do it yourself."
After speaking, there was a stream of light in her eyes, she let go of my hand and turned away.
I stood still, watching her figure, Ru Xiang took a few steps, hesitated, stopped, and slowly turned back to look at me: "light."
"rue……"
"If I could, I could live this life earlier ... I wouldn't marry someone at the beginning."
"..."
"At least, when I think of him, he's bright and upright and won't let me underestimate myself."