Chapter 29: Hate

In September of the second calendar year, Emperor Chengzong collapsed in the Qianyuan Hall.
The world was in grief, the Chongde Hall of Fengzi Palace, the king's hundred officials and all the wives gathered together outside the gate of Tianji. The next day, the widow was conferred and crown prince Zilong was enthroned. King Xiaozhang of Yuzhang County, Wangxun of the town government, and Gu Yong of Yunde Hou were ordered to assist the government. On the fifth day, Fenglong Temple came out of the palace, and Anzi Palace was in Jingling.
Thousands of years later, only a few short lines of text remain in the annals of history, as behind every throne replacement, with a wonderful pen of historian, the stormy waves and winds have been cut off, leaving only the peace in the line.
But I can never forget the thrilling day of this day ... and I can't forget that I lost our child on this day.
When Aunt Xu told me with tears, I was not quite awake, I just remember that when the medicinal juice was fed into the mouth, it was full of thick and spicy taste. As if I could hear what she said was "little child", I couldn't help it, and looked around blankly, looking for Xiao Xiao's figure. Aunt Xu said that Lord Wang could not enter, and the fierceness of the sword soldiers would collide with the blood, which was not good for me. She didn't say a word, but exclaimed when she heard the screen break outside the curtain. Regardless of the obstructions of the crowd, Xiao Yan rushed into the inner room pale. Aunt Xu hurriedly stopped, saying bad luck, and he suddenly became furious. "Nonsense, get out of me!"
I have never seen his thunderous rage, as if to burn everything in front of him into a fly ash. No one dared to rebel now, and Aunt Xu trembled back. He came to the bed, leaned down on his knees, and lay his face deep against my pillow, and remained silent for a long time.
Xu Aunt's words resounded in my ears, and I gradually came to understand, but I couldn't believe it ... "Is it true?" I began, asking him softly. Xiao Yan didn't answer, looked up at me, his eyes were faintly red, and ordinary people were never in disgrace. At this moment, there was no concealment of grief. His eyes caught in my eyes. If only the news of the genius was just across the board, and even made people have no time to hurt, but at this time, countless dense needles were stuck in his heart, and the pain was so extreme that he could not speak.
I raised his hand silently to grasp his hand, clinging to his cheek, but tears could not help but fall on his palm.
"I can open up new territories and kill the land, but I can't protect a woman or a child." His voice was extremely low, almost broken. I wanted to console his sadness, but he couldn't say a word. He could only clasp his fingers silently, passing each other's courage, and resisting the cold from all directions.
When we were all still ignorant, a child had already quietly arrived, and as we marched south, siege the city and swept the land until the horse stepped into the sky. So many critical situations came with us, but at this time they left silently. The Taiyi said he was less than two months ... we never even knew his existence, and by the time we knew it, we would have lost it forever.
I have been lethargic for two days and two nights, during which I have been bleeding continuously, and my life is almost in danger.
Xiao Yan said that the mother had been by my side for the past two days, never sleeping and eating and drinking, and was not exhausted until two hours ago, and was forcibly returned to the government to rest. He helped me and gave me a sip of his own medicine. The medicine is extremely bitter and astringent, but it can't bear the pain in my heart. But between two days, it turned out from bliss to hell, like a nightmare. Vaguely remember the joy of gathering together at the birthday party that night, but in the blink of an eye, the emperor drove, the aunt rebelled, the father met Xiao Xiaobing Rong, and we lost a child ... life or death, true or false Fake, I'm a little hesitant, maybe this is really just a nightmare. However, when I closed my eyes, I still saw the gloomy dragon bed, saw the heavy swordsmen, the cold light was like snow, the aunt's stern laughter still rang in my ears, and I remembered more clearly that she pushed me hard and hit the screen ...
Regardless of the obstruction of his prince, Xiao Kun forcibly confined his aunt in the cold palace. The people in the medical palace of Qianyuan Hall have been executed, and no one knows the truth about the aunt killing the emperor himself. On the same day, his father was defeated and was placed under house arrest in Xiaoguo's government. His elder brother temporarily took over the embargo. Song Huaien closed the gates of the palaces and cleared the queen party feathers. By night, the overall situation in Central Beijing has been set.
If his brother did not try to dissuade him, delaying his father ’s troop dispatch, let Hu Guanglie make an emergency troop deployment, stay in the capital of Beijing, and control the situation outside the palace, fearing that it was a big mistake at this time. My father mistrusted my aunt, my sister-in-law and my ally for decades. If he waits for the prince to take up the throne, with the power of Wang's intricate roots in the middle of the DPRK, sooner or later his father will slowly weaken Xiao Yan. But her aunt's ambitions went back, not only betrayed her father, but also pushed her father and herself into a desperate situation. Starting troops and forcing the palace is tantamount to attacking one another with one's own shortness. Once they meet on the narrow road, it is Xiao Xiao who has the upper hand.
His father was savvy for the rest of his life and was ultimately defeated by his most trusted ally.
The aunt's office did everything she could, and she would betray her without hesitation.
The next day, the prince read the widow of the emperor to the Baiguan in the Taihua Hall, and formally inherited the throne. The widow ordered the king of the Emperor Xiaozhang, the king of the town, and the emperor of Yunde. Hundreds of guards, housekeepers, and palace men involved in the rebellion were executed as insurgents. The rest of the civil and military officials, who support the crown princes who have merit, have all been promoted, with numerous gifts.
A palace change, so it was erased lightly, no trace of history.
I can't and I don't want to imagine what the state of mind is when my father learns of his aunt's betrayal, falls into a betrayal, and is forced to leave. With his father's pride, he would rather die than be humiliated; however, if he committed suicide, he would ruin the family's reputation. No matter how angry and desperate, he must continue to live, and still retain the false title of Zaisuke, sit in that awkward position, accept the kindness and vicious mockery of others-this is the most cruel punishment for him .
On the fifth day of October, the ceremony for the ascent of the new king and the new king was held in the Taihua Hall.
The emperor dynasty served out of the East Palace, led the battle, and drove the cars together.
The funeral was stopped and the ceremony was followed by three whip whistles, and the book of the Ministry of Rites was kneeling in the book. King Yuzhang of the Emperor Zhang Xiao, Wang Guo of the Zhen Guo Gong, and Yunde Hou Gu Yong led the crowd to kneel and bow.
Ji Zhongchangming, under the bowel, Baiguan bowed his head.
The new emperor ascended the throne, Xiayi respected the queen as the queen queen, and her crown prince and concubine as queens.
When the new emperor's ascension ceremony was held, my mother and I were recuperating at Tangquan Palace in Xingyuan, the suburbs of Beijing. Yuxiu was just injured, and he came to serve me desperately.
My mother also became ill for some time after this incident. The emperor died, my father forced the palace, and my accident, so that my mother could no longer bear these many blows, hiding in the house and crying all day long. Since I gave birth to a child, I have been sick all day long, and my body is good and bad, and I wake up from nightmares every night. The Taiyi said that if it is not possible to rest peacefully, no more elixir is useless ... I know that going to Tangquan Palace with my mother is another cowardly escape, as it was to avoid Huizhou in the past. But I was really tired, exhausted physically and mentally. Not only was I worried about my mother's condition, but I also hated being caught up in daily disputes. I felt overwhelmed by staying in Beijing for a day.
On the day of departure, Xiao Zheng put aside the complicated affairs and personally escorted us to Tangquan Palace. When he departed, he repeatedly asked and worried.
In the palace, away from the grievances and grievances, time seems to be quiet.
Every day I just play chess with my mother, gossiping and talking about childhood fun ... I even started to learn the most rusty female workers from my mother again. We will never mention those sad things again. My father and elder brother often came to see us. My father lived a few days, but his mother always treated him like a passerby. Every time Xiao Yan hurried up and down, he could see his busyness and exhaustion. But as long as he came to the palace, he would never bring attendants, and no one was allowed to report to him on politics. He asked the doctor to report my condition to him every three days, but he never urged me to return to my home.
After the new emperor ascended the throne, the queen queen lived in Yong'an Palace with her illness. Her father was still a prince, but she said she was ill at home. Wang still maintains the glory and beauty of the surface, even higher power. However, the embargo has been gradually controlled by Xiao Yan. His father's close relatives in Zhizhi Dynasty were either cut off from office or transferred to Xiao Yan. The relatives' children are also afraid of being implicated. Lun's family of 200 years has suffered the biggest setback since the rebellion of the kings. The disastrous defeat of Wang's frightened all the families. The king of Yuzhang swept away the pattern of anti-ceremony in the left and right two-phase chambers, and held power alone, greatly inspiring the Han officials and military men in the army.
Even as far away as Xing Yuan, I still heard all sorts of gossip. Some people say that the Wang family will never recover from it. Some people say that Yuzhang ’s Wang Genji is still shallow. Perhaps the Wang family still has the opportunity to turn around. After all, the emperor has half of the blood of the Wang family, and the queen mother is also from the Wang family. The princess is also a woman of the Wang family. One day when she is there, Wang Yuzhang will not kill the Wang family.
Although there are empresses and queens, many people know that the queen has no ability to influence the political affairs of the court, and the emperor is the king of Yuzhang. I was seen as the last connection between Wang and the peak of power. Regarding my rumors, Beijing Central has already been enthusiastic. Some people say that the marriage between Xiao Yan and the Wang family is worthless and that the princess is about to be abolished; some say that the princess has fallen out of favor and has been left out by the king of Yuzhang for a long time; others say that the couple of Yuzhang and Wang are in love ... Believe that I did not appear at the ceremony, leaving the capital at the most delicate time is bound to be a bad omen.
When I was very young, I already knew the cold and warmth of the palace palace. No matter how beautiful you are in the power struggle, the family will immediately fall to the point where 10,000 people trample on it.
Xiao Yuan did not give me any promise, but I understand that he has done his best to protect my loved ones.
When the yellow leaves were everywhere in the late autumn, the doctor said that I had gradually recovered, and I finally decided to go back and face everything I had to bear.
Arrived at the palace at dusk, the dressing was settled, Xiao Kun had not yet returned.
I started to be impatient. I was in the room, but I always kept an eye on the movement outside the door. Every time there was a footstep approaching, I was shocked with joy, but always disappointed. I secretly thought I was funny. I didn't feel the acacia when I was separated, but now I am looking through Qiushui ... Kamama, once again I heard the familiar footsteps. This time, I can't be wrong again. He is back.
I dropped the scroll in my hand, and before I could put on my robe, I hurried toward the door. The waitresses hurried to catch up and immediately fell to the door. At the opening of the door, Xiao Xuan was crowned with a royal robe, and the wide sleeves fluttered without wind. He was stepping into the door swiftly. I stopped and looked at him, but after a short time, I felt that he had changed a little.
"Ama." He called me softly, his eyes lost for a moment.
In full view, I lifted myself into his arms, no longer half-decent. He lifted me up without a word, straight into the inner room, and kissed me suddenly and enthusiastically from nowhere, from the forehead, eyebrows, cheeks to the neck ... Finally, there was a long entanglement between lips and tongue.
The palace lights swayed, the glazed lights turned, and I was staring at him, and time seemed to sink into the eternal obsession at this moment.
No one was willing to open his mouth to disturb the silence at this moment. He rested his chin lightly on my forehead, his eyes narrowed, and sighed, "I thought you resent me and thought that I would lose you."
I laughed quietly, staring at his clear face.
"So I thought, if Aunt Ken would forgive her again, I would give her whatever she wants, as long as she is good ..." He couldn't go on, and his deep eyes were full of guilt and pity. A plain knife-like person also changed at the moment It's soft.
Leaning on his warm embrace, I squinted and smiled, knowing how to treasure it. What else is there today, and what else have I never gained or lost? The most beautiful and the most ugly in the world, the most precious and the saddest, I have gotten and lost. Jinzhiyuye, a famous family, after all the flashy things have disappeared, it is in the palm of his hand that there is a love letter, parental affection, brother and sister affection, and his unforgettable true feelings. I thought that the strongest was vulnerable, but it was supposed to be the most vulnerable, but still in my hands.
Just three days after I returned to Beijing, the palace ushered in a happy event. Queen Xie gave birth to a thin baby boy and gave birth to the first saintly emperor. The palace after the catastrophe, because of the arrival of this new life, once again restored joy and vitality, and the haze of a long time seemed to gradually spread. According to the system, the maidens and their relatives of three minions and above entered the palace three days later, and the little prince was born.
However, news quickly came out in the palace, the queen fell ill, and the young prince was also very weak, and the prince of the medical doctor usually went into Zhaoyang Temple ... until five days later, the maidens were called into the palace.
That day, Mrs. Yunde Hou and I led the lives of women. I saw the middle palace where the queens of the past lived, and stepped on the familiar Zhaoyang Hall from a young age, where the aunt spent more than thirty years ... This silent palace door sent away the previous master and welcomed him again New dynasty queen. If these carved beams are painted, you can see, hear, and think. I wonder what they will remember. Dozens of imperial concubines and maids in court clothes have gathered outside the palace, and Mrs. Gu has arrived, all of them are waiting for me here. When I saw my car coming from a distance, the palace supervisor sang a newspaper and everyone snorted, everyone's eyes gathered on a thin curtain. The maid lifted the curtain. I greeted everyone's eyes, slowly got up, and stepped out of the car. Inquiry, curiosity, ridicule, jealousy ... a complex look fell on my face. I lifted my jaw slightly, without squinting, walking calmly, wherever I went, the Gong Hou's main room and the inner women below the second grade all narrowed their eyebrows, bowed their salute, and stepped back aside.
However, only the female palace officer came out and accepted the congratulations on behalf of the queen, saying that the queen was sick in bed, and the little prince did not hold out to meet everyone. The mortal women looked at each other, and had no choice but to congratulate, dedicate, and sing, and as the ceremony, Zhaoyang Hall did not have the expected joy and excitement, but shrouded indescribable dullness.
The crowds withdrew in sequence, and suddenly heard the front lady ’s official saying, "Princess Yuzhang please stay, and the Queen announces that the princess will see you." I followed her into the inner hall, just stepping into the layers of drape, and heard a weak call to Dan Feng Chaoyang came after the screen.
"Ah, Ah!" Su Yi exudes as if her elder sister was greeted by the court daughter, and she hadn't seen her for months. She was as pale as a dead leaf, as if being blown away by the wind at any time. I hurried forward to help her, and before she touched her sleeves, she knelt straight at me, with long hair and a pale face, seizing my hand quietly, "Ama, please save my child ! "
"Queen!" I was taken aback, holding her arm, but couldn't help her. She shivered, tears rolled down, "Please save him, save the little prince, they will kill him! No one believes me, the emperor does not believe ... Grandma, I beg you! Save the child, don't Let him kill him ... "
"No, no one dares to harm the little prince. Look, isn't the child good?" I was at a loss, and I had to lean over and hug her, while softly counseling, and motioned to the female officer to carry the child over. Only then did he not look closely in the outer hall. At this time, he took the little magpie wrapped in bright yellow brocade, so small and so soft. I sank in my hands, and my heart was aching, and I couldn't bear to look at the child's face.
Just then, the child cried with a wow, and his throat was weak, which was not much stronger than that of a kitten. It was as if her elder sister had taken pictures of the child, but the child cried even more. A little face turned red and her little mouth turned blue. I was so anxious that I couldn't help reaching out to hug the child, as if I suddenly looked up and screamed, "Don't touch him!" She stared at me alertly, stepping back, her expression instantly becoming fierce. I resigned helplessly, stayed away from her, softly persuade. She looked at me for a long while in suspense, and finally calmed down, her body still trembling, her tears in her eyes, and she was holding her baby tightly.
I was busy summoning the doctor, and I called in the female maid of the palace. The housemaid was also panicked. She only said that since the young prince was ill, the queen had become suspicious. No one was allowed to take the young prince away, and no outsider was allowed to approach the little prince. Since the night before, the little prince has been crying, and after taking the medicine prescribed by Taiyi, it is not good. Instead, she cried more and more during the night. The female officer said hesitantly, "The queen keeps saying that someone wants to harm the little prince ..."
My heart tightened, "Does the emperor know?"
The female official said busyly, "Your Majesty knows, but ... just that the queen is over-anxious, and you shouldn't talk nonsense."
It turned out that the night before, it was as if her sister had a nightmare. She dreamed that someone was stabbing at the little prince, and when she woke up, she heard the little prince crying. From then on, she suspected that someone had harmed the child. Of course, no one believed this, even the doctor said that the little prince is all healthy, but the newborn baby is inevitably weak. It was as if my sister had told me the nightmare herself, begging me to believe her ... I was so helpless looking at her face. She carefully handed me the little sister-in-law, "Ah, you hug him, he is very good ... lightly, don't scare him."
The newborn baby was so delicate, his parents' shadows were faintly visible in his eyebrows, and his small hands and feet made me afraid to touch him. He was lying in my arms, no longer crying, but choked with a small face. As if suffering great grievances. I shed tears unknowingly, my heart was inexplicably affected, I felt sorry for all regrets, and I wished to pay no price to alleviate his sadness. At this moment, I began to understand what it was like. It turned out that this was the mother's heart ... At least she had a chance to worry about the child's heartache, and I never had such an opportunity.
The prince arrived quickly, and after consulting the little prince, she looked confused and groaned for a while. She only said that the little prince was not a big deal, but she was too weak, for fear of congenital deficiency. The queen asked again and again, and he whispered again, "Wei Chen rashly speculated that the little prince seemed to be scared ..." After saying this, the Taiyi doctor dared not look up, and I looked as if I was looking at my sister. Zhaoyang Hall is the queen's confidante. All the maids and grandmothers carefully wait for the young prince all the time. No outsider has approached him. It's hard to believe that a child is frightened.
"Is it a curse!" Just as my sister screamed, the word curse came out, and I also changed my face. Everyone in the palace knows the serious consequences of "mantra". The queen immediately ordered a thorough search of the harem, digging the ground three feet, and charged every female officer in the concubine palace for questioning.
I carefully checked everyone around the little prince, but there was no suspicious place. The grandmother and the maid were like old people around the sister for many years, especially the two old wives were old friends around Xie Guifei in the past. After entering the East Palace and becoming a princess, Xie Guifei sent her to serve her. She was an old friend of her mother's family ... I paused under the window, and Xie Guifei's elegant figure appeared in front of her, as if she did not eat fireworks. The fairy gradually turned into another shadow with a similar appearance. It's been a long time since I remembered that person, and at this moment his figure suddenly appeared, but it gradually made me cool with my fingertips.
"Huiyan." I whispered to Yin Huiyan, the head of the escort, "You start tonight as a guard and stay in the Zhaoyang Hall. Don't show anything ... Pay close attention to the people around the young prince, especially the two Position. "
Li Gong returned to the palace, and I was restless along the way. I regret leaving Hui Yan in the palace, afraid of what she really found, and that was the result I was least willing to see.
I paused for a moment at the door of the study to calm down my confusion, and then I came in. Xiao Zheng was bowing his head, focused on reading the case-like text on the hill, and looked up to see me, and his deep eyebrows stretched out. I will briefly talk with the little prince's choices, and I only left out a section of Huiyan, not to mention the two puppets. Xiao Yan listened quietly, his eyes were indistinguishable, and he only said lightly, "The little prince is also worrying."
I sighed, "You haven't seen that child, it's pitiful to be thin and small ... I was born in the royal family, and I don't know if it was his luck or misfortune." I can't keep talking. He took hold of me, his eyes were tender and pity, and he didn't need words to know each other's minds.
After dinner, he guarded me and took medicine as usual, and he had to watch me drink to be satisfied. This medicine is very bitter and hard to drink, and I can't help complaining every time, but I can't help it. As soon as the maid gave me the medicine tonight, someone came to tell me something, and while he wasn't ready, I quietly poured the medicinal juice into the flowerpot. In the future, I still have to hide the remaining medicine residue, Xiao Yan has stepped back into the room, and Kankan hit me and poured the medicine.
I knew my guilty conscience and laughed, "This medicine is too hard to drink, and my doctors say I'm fine, so I don't need to drink it in the future!"
"No," he said, expressionless, and turned to tell the maid, "Fry another bowl."
Seeing him be so serious and serious, I was a little displeased and simply stubbornly said, "I say no to drink, I don't drink!"
"No!" He raised his face more and more.
I blurted out, "I'm not a kid, don't leave you alone!"
He suddenly dragged me, leaned over and kissed him harder, deeper and deeper, holding my lips for a long time, until I was softened and unable to struggle.
"Do not let me care?" He looked at me with a smile, and still had anger in his eyes. "Even if you are 70 or 80 years old, I will be in control of this life." The waitress brought the medicine again, and I had to drink it, but couldn't help asking, "What's so important about this medicine, do you have to drink it every day?"
Xiao Xie smiled, "It's just tonic, you're too weak. Unless you're raised to fat, you have to drink every day."
I screamed, "You want to torture me to death!"