Chapter 44: Delusion

My brother's birthday is coming.
He has always been a lively person, and has a feast every year during his birthday, and he is always drunk with his family and friends. This time, Xiao Yan and I really spent a lot of thoughts to prepare the next gift for him. The predecessor's notes are contained in it. Jia Wei, a wealthy man, has a wealth of money and extensive knowledge. He once let the old man take a boat to go to the Yellow River and use the gourd to connect the water from the Kunlun source of the Yellow River. It can only hold seven or eight liters a day. . The wine brewed with this water is called "Kunlun", which has a sweet and aromatic flavor, which is rare in the world. Jia Jiang used the thirty-hundred "Kunlunyu" to offer to Emperor Wei Zhuang.
My brother once made a bet with me and didn't believe the legend was true. Now Xiao Xun has come to brew famous craftsmen. I personally tried it according to the ancient recipe.
The jade tincture was unveiled, and the wine was full of fragrance, filling the court.
"This is ... Kunlun!" The elder brother froze, looking at me immediately, moving deeply, "Ah, you still remember Kunlun."
"Yes, I always remember." My brother and I looked at each other without saying a word, and we could understand each other's heart. We are born rich and rich, and there are few rare things in this world, except for the legendary strange things. Because of this, my brother was interested in all the strange things in the ancient records. He yearned for Kunlun, but did not believe there was such a wine in the world. So I said to him, "I have what I have in this world, and I will do everything I can to get it. If not, I will make it myself."
At that time, my elder brother laughed after listening to my rhetoric and said to me, Grandma, I hope you will have this enthusiasm in your life.
Today is the family feast of the King of Jiangxia. There is more than half of his brother's Ji Ji on the seat. In each room, not only did the concubines and girls fight for the odds at the banquet, but they also thought about their birthday gifts one by one. With so many looks, I couldn't help but look at it, even Xiao Yan laughed.
I squinted at Xiao Yan and smiled low, "Look at someone sitting on the beauty and enjoying the beautiful blessing, can someone have remorse?"
He smiled sideways, "Even if there is Baimei Qianjiao, it is not as good as this one."
I looked down and laughed without saying a word, and my heart felt like a sweet drink, but I felt a little bit sad. For him, and for the sole guardian of me, how many storms in this life are waiting for me to stop?
He inadvertently turned his head and looked at his uncle's aunt and Qianer, but she saw Qianer's bright eyes, looking at me and Xiao Xuan, and she was full of enthusiasm and enthusiasm.
I was shocked and looked back at Xiao Yan. He didn't realize it and raised his glass with his brother. Turning again to see Qianer, she has already dropped her face, sitting quietly there, she has not yet reached her full size, and her shoulders are slightly lonely.
I do n’t know the girl ’s mind—this child, is it really Xiao Xiao's mind. My heart filled with taste, I took the cup, but lost my interest in drinking.
"Why, are you tired?" Xiao Yan's voice evoked my thoughts, raised my eyes to touch his concerned eyes, and I could only shake my head slightly.
After drinking for a while, everyone in the seat was a little stunned. The aunt suddenly chuckled and said, "The young girl is not talented, and she has a little gift for her life today."
The elder brother laughed, "My aunt is very kind. Qianer has this kind of mind, and it makes people feel happy."
Qianer stood up generously, and Xiaoyingying came to her face. "Meng Yun's brother taught, Qianer dared to graffiti, and congratulated his elder brother on his birthday. Please give her brother, brother-in-law and sister advice."
The elder brother claps his hands and applauses. A maid behind his uncle holds the scroll and moves closer.
"This child is smart and funny," Xiao Yan praised with a smile. I glanced at my aunt slightly and looked back at Xiao Yan with a smile. "It's almost fifteen. Where are you still a child, you look down on people."
He was thinking, "Fifteen?"
There was a smile in my heart, and there was still a smile on my face, and he held his breath and listened to what he said.
"When you married me, you were so young." He smiled and clasped my hands tightly. "You are so young, but I have made you suffer a lot, but fortunately I have no time to compensate."
I was sore in my heart that I couldn't speak, and only backhand clasped his fingers.
But listening to the sound of admiration, Qianer had unfolded the scroll in the hand of the maid. Seeing the paintings are two fairy maidens with high clouds, standing side by side, if fluttering in the clouds, although the strokes are childish and weak, they are quite expressive, and the figures look very familiar.
"Did you draw the beauties for me?" The elder brother laughed.
Qian'er looked up, her cheeks were flushed, and she quickly glanced at us and bit her lip. "This is the picture of Xiang Fei."
"E Huangyingying?" The elder brother looked at the painting for a moment, and his eyes changed slightly. Not only did his elder brother look different, but even Xiao Xun narrowed his smile and looked at the picture with a frown.
I stared at it. The two fairies in the painting were similarly faint in appearance, and they were carefully discerned. One was slightly like Qianer's eyebrows, and the other had my charm.
Someone in the seat was still unaware, and some heard the voice outside the string, and fell into a subtle silence for a while.
"Qian Er thinks that my house is not lively enough. Do you want me to include Zhu Yan's beautiful little girl together?" The elder brother laughed uncontrollably, and opened his mouth without any trace.
Waitress Zhu Yan is a woman with a straight temperament. Do n’t hesitate, so she immediately smiles. "My sister has already promised to others, does Prince Wang want to take the people?"
I touched the corners of my lips and cut her head and smiled, "I'm afraid that your grandfather would be affectionate and misunderstand Qian'er's intentions."
Qianer looked up at me, and a pink face was immediately ashamed.
"I look at this picture, it's not like making for your elder brother." I laughed and said, "Qian Er, I guess right?"
My brother and Xiao Yan looked at me together. Qianer was even pink with a flushed face, bit her lip, and drooped her head deeply.
I faintly swept everyone, seeing that my aunt couldn't restrain her smile, Xiao Yan locked her eyebrows tightly, and her brother kept talking.
"My brother might as well be a good friend, frame the painting and send it to the Wu family in Jiangnan, Yucheng has a beautiful thing."
Qian'er was shocked, her face suddenly pale, her brother was relieved, Xiao Xiao smiled and smiled, and his aunt was dumbfounded-everyone's expression clearly reflected in my eyes. I smiled to meet everyone's eyes, and did not flinch.
Want to be Queen E's daughter, unfortunately, you are wrong.
The banquet went back to the house, leaning alone in the car along the way, feeling sad.
Just before the scene, although I was stunned for a moment, but after my anger passed, I was not half happy. Why do sisters with the same surname and family come to this step, just for a man, or for the supreme power of this man? How triumphant my victory is on the bleakness of another woman. In front of the house, I went straight out of the car and waited for Xiao Huan to come over and walk straight into the inner courtyard without any thought or laugh.
After removing the Zhifenya ornament, I wore long hair, and I sat in front of the mirror, held the jade comb, and stared at a glazed palace lamp.
Xiao Yan did not know when he was standing behind me, silently looking at me in the mirror, without words, his eyes were regretfully guilty.
For a long time, he sighed and took me lightly into his arms. His fingers passed through my thick, long hair, and there was a hint of furrow in his fingers.
Supporting the stubborn spirit for a long time, at this moment, nothing is left, leaving only deep fatigue and bitterness.
Today, I can walk away one Qianer. How many people do I need to watch out for and how many times? Even if love is enduring, I can keep Xiao Yan's heart all my life, but the man in front of me is the master of the world, and my husband is the second. I and Jiang Shan, in his heart's weight, I never dared to speculate.
Those mountain alliances and sea vows were once placed in front of the Jiangshan club, but they were just Hongmao.
"I never told anyone about my family background." He said in a deep voice, and said irrelevant words at such times.
I was stunned for a while. If you say that the legendary origin of King Yuzhang of Xiaozhang is already known to everyone in the world-a humble Luzhou savage, his relatives died in the scourge of war, and he served in the army from an early age. Ultimate power
Over the years, I have never mentioned his life on his own initiative, and I am afraid that the opinions of the court will lead to his unhappiness.
"Actually, I still have people living." He smiled lightly and looked calm.
I raised my eyes suddenly and looked at him suddenly. His eyes drifted towards the unknown distance behind me, slowly saying, "I was born in Guangling, not Luzhou."
"Guangling Xiao's?" I was surprised that the well-known family, known for its solitary height and talent, has always disdained to attach to the power and wealth, and has lived in Guangling for a long time. The views of the court are probably the heaviest in many families.
Xiao Yan smiled indifferently, revealing a little self-deprecating, "Yes, Luzhou is the hometown of the first mother. She is indeed of cold origin."
"The mother-in-law didn't even count me as a waiter. Somehow she was able to give birth to me and was considered a disgrace to her family. She died at the age of 11. I was 11 years old and my father died two years later. I stole some silver and ran out. The Xiao family went all the way to Shengzhou. Lost their entanglement halfway, starved for cold and cold, and happened to meet the recruiters, and then joined the army. Originally, I just wanted to be full, but the unknown is today. "He said in a few words, with carelessness. Indifferent, as if only telling a story, has nothing to do with himself. My heart was sore and inexplicable, and I clearly felt the loneliness and sadness of that stubborn teenager. Although empathy, it is difficult to express. I can only hold his hand silently.
"I've had some servants, and every time I sleep, I'll give medicine." Xiao Yan's voice sank. "I hate the difference between Hanshi in life and the difference between grandma. If my children have the same status as a biological mother, In the future, I will inevitably suffer the same injustice. I would rather not leave the children of others until I meet the woman who can become my wife. "
I couldn't speak, holding his hand silently, my heart was indistinguishable.
"How much God cares about me, I have a wife like you in this life." He lowered his head and looked at me deeply. "But the world is not always satisfactory. For many years in the army, I have killed countless people. I do n’t know how many young women died tragically .If Heaven has lowered the punishment and made me lifeless, then there is nothing to blame. "He said this, obviously to comfort me deliberately, the more so, the more embarrassed in my heart.
"I've thought about it." Xiao Yan looked at me with a smile and said lightly. "If we don't make a difference in life, we will adopt a child from the clan. Would you like it?"
I closed my eyes, tears like a broken pearl.
He even gave up the blood of my uncle, and he was willing to have nothing behind him.
So affectionate and so righteous, even if it is a lifetime, it is not enough to pay for each other.
Aunt Xu reported to me in the morning, saying that after Qian'er was humiliated, she was wronged. She almost cast a vote last night and would rather die than marry Jiangnan.
I was holding a small silver scissors to repair the flower branches. After listening to her, with a little hard work, I broke a branch with a click.
"If you really want to die, I'm afraid it's not almost, but it's already." I left the broken branch indifferently, indifferent. I always hate the woman who threatens death at will. Life is given by parents. If you don't even value yourself, who will value you. Such a stupid woman is really not worth pity.
"Then, the slaves are going to prepare for the wedding." Aunt Xu never said much, but owed herself to wait for me to show her.
I was silent for a while, in the garden the pink peach blossoms fluttered with the wind, sprinkled all over the ground, and turned into mud. For thousands of years, probably the fate of women in the world is as fragile as this.
I sighed, "After all, it's Uncle Wang's daughter. Although he was a prostitute, he can't marry so anonymously."
Aunt Xu smiled slowly, "The princess is kind-hearted."
I remembered my aunt ’s ever-calculating eyes, she could n’t be kind to her, and said lightly,
Choose another one who matches and marry her from afar. It ’s irrevocable. The aunt just stays in the town government. After her wedding, she was sent back to her hometown. "
After Qian'er, I really feel cold. Threats from relatives really scared me and made me wonder who else to believe.
I do n’t know how many people are holding me all in the light and in the dark. In their opinion, I have unlimited scenery and have everything that women in the world desire, but I do n’t know how much I hold in my hand, the other How much is lost in the hand. One Qianer can go away, if there are ten hundred Qianer in the future, what should I do?
Without a son-in-law, after all, it is my fatal underbelly, I am afraid it is also Xiao Yan's underbelly. If there isn't a child who inherits everything we started, who will be blessed by his country and my family after a hundred years?
I was not willing to give up on this, thought over and over again, and finally made up my mind for a blog.
Everything went quietly under my calculations. I quietly reduced the amount of medicine daily, and finally stopped the medicine completely. Over the years, I have never resisted taking medication. Xiao Yan has already relaxed his alert and stopped paying attention to this matter.
For the rest, I can only pray silently to heaven and ask for another chance, for which I will live ten years without regret.
Two days later, Xiao Xun received a volume of playlists. I happened to serve tea to the study, but saw that he had his hands up there, frowning thoughtfully.
"What are you thinking?" I grinned and set the tea on the case.
"Ama, come here." Xiao Ai looked up, looked at me with a solitary expression, and handed the instrument to me. I stared at it, and there was a sudden leap into my eyes-"Heavenly conquest, but in Yuanrong, far away from the world, but both deterred. Immortal sincerely, the Heavenly King gave the daughter of the Wang family, and since then entered into a marriage alliance, peace and peace Sigange will be in the future ... "I was shocked. I picked it up and looked carefully, but listened to Xiao Yan aside and said quietly," He Lanzhen. "
I froze and stared for a long time on the five words "Giving the Concubine".
Whenever I was about to forget the name forever, he would always appear in an inexplicable way, as if to remind me that there is such a person in the far north, and I cannot let him forget it. He is already the Turkic king, and even if he wants to ask the royal family for marriage, he should also ask the royal family daughter. The generation of Wang's generation is thin. Both Peer and I have been married to women. Only one Qianer is still in the boudoir. He Lanzhen This is the cousin who specified to marry me.
The marriage between the two countries is a major event for the nations. How can they be so motivated? Whoever marries in the past, where he can name his last name. It was originally a good thing to enter into a marriage alliance, but it was deliberately so arrogant.
In my heart, there was no sense of sense, and I turned to look at Xiao Yan, and smiled bitterly, "Isn't he specifying Qianer?"
Xiao Xie laughed, "Although as the Lord of Puppets, this tone is as arrogant as ever."
"Then do you agree or not?" I hesitated for a moment.
"What do you think?" Xiao Yan frowned slightly.
I froze for a moment, disturbed my thoughts by this sudden variable. Qianer is no longer sensible, after all, is also a woman with the same surname as me. If she marries Turk far away, will it ruin her life.
The light outside the window shrouded us, and tiny dust floated in the air, and time seemed to freeze.
After a long time, he said lightly, "It's a good thing to be with my dear. I'm looking for a chance to send another person over to recall Tang Jing."
Tang Jing has always been his beloved general and was deeply respected. He also helped He Lan to seize power and control Turk to make great achievements. Now he defends northern Xinjiang and holds hundreds of thousands of military power. He is the only official in Xinjiang, second only to Hu Song. Under the two.
I was slightly surprised, "Tang Jing was not at fault. Why was this sudden recall?"
"Tang Jing is engraved and has always been unhappy with his colleagues. Recently, more and more people have been impeached in the army. Although it is inevitable to be jealous, everyone is holding the same word. It may not be because of something." Worry.
I silently, it is not a trivial matter to replace the northern Xinjiang officials, not to mention the Turks are on the side, the hundred-footed insects are dead but not stiff. At this critical moment, Xiao Xun didn't want to have more troubles, since He Lanzhen wanted Wang's daughter to marry, just as he wished.
The matter of letting Qianer and her relatives be settled here, I told them to enter the house the next day, and I would tell her personally.
After bathing, I was dressing up, Qianer had arrived, and I let her wait in the front room.
After a while, A Yue hurried in and told me that despite the dissuasion of her servants, the second lady broke into the study and found Wang Ye crying. She seemed to know the news of her relatives.
I was taken aback, and my relatives revealed it so quickly that I thought it was the brother-in-law who had a good relationship with my aunt and passed on the news. In desperation, I had to order Ayue, "Go there and see, if there is something back and forth immediately to me, if there is nothing, bring her to the inner room to see me."
Only a moment later, A Yue returned, his face flushed, with a look of laughter and forbearance.
I looked at her in surprise, "how?"
"Miss Er really ..." A Yue blushed and finally couldn't help laughing, "She was crying and crying in front of Wang Ye, and almost bumped into the screen!"
I frowned, "What's next?"
A Yue chuckled, "The prince just said one thing, it is the rosewood that the princess likes, don't break it!"
When Qianer came in, she was still red-eyed, and when she saw me, she immediately fell on her knees, crying and begging me to let her stay, preferring to send her home rather than marry Turkic.
I looked at her quietly. For a long time, when she was a reckless child, her heart would never go bad. At this time, she looked intently, remembering the scene she often appeared ... For the first time in the town government, she was brilliant and throwing snowballs at Xiao Yan for no reason; she sent autumn waves to the birthday feast and admired her; Wangfuli Grievances cry, refusal to marry ... It seems that every time it is just right, or naive, or infatuated, or pitiful, enough to arouse the man's love. If this man is not Xiao Yan, but his brother, son-in-law, or someone else ... I can't imagine what the other result will be. There are some temptations, and not every man is willing to refuse.
Of all men in the world, nine out of ten always like meek and weak women, not everyone can let go of common opinions like Xiao Yue, and sincerely appreciate a woman who is on their shoulders.
The thoughts drifted away, and the past suddenly floated into my mind. At that time, when I saw Xie Guifei being weak and indisputable, she was deeply grieved for her and asked her aunt why she could not let her go. My aunt answered my words at the moment, clearly echoing in my ears at this moment-"No one in this house is innocent. When you grow up, you will understand that the most terrible woman is not someone who speaks and acts, but everyone else thinks that the innocent and weak people."
The coldness gradually intruded into the body, and the wind fluttered his sleeves, causing a chill.
Qianer stood in front of her, and she was afraid to look at me with a pair of tears. Hong Ling's lips bit and gnawed again, and she choked and choked for a long time. "Qianer knew that she was wrong, but she didn't dare to punish her sister Half a complaint, just ask Qianer to stay with her mother! She was lonely all her life, she only wanted to live in peace and stability, nothing else ... Now that my sister has married away, if I let my mother suffer the pain of separation Sister, how can you bear it! "
Seemingly a poor little man, every sentence was straightforward, and under the appearance of the submissive lamb, the teeth of the little beast finally appeared.
I slowly said, "Qian Er, can you think about it, are you really not willing to be married?"
"But with her sister as the master, even if Qianer makes another promise, she dares not have any more complaints." She turned her eyes slightly and still choked softly.
Another marriage may be a good way out. In this way, you have all the face. I smiled a little, the child was so young, and he was so deep-hearted that when he saw the situation was unfavorable, he knew how to retreat.
"You're a clever boy." I looked at her. "It's too late to find a retreat at this time. I gave you a choice. It's your own greed."
Qian Er froze for a while, unexpectedly I would suddenly drop my face, talk everything through, and suddenly speechless.
"You and I are not outsiders. Those false words and false words are also avoided." I still smile, but my voice is cold. "You still have two choices at present, either with pro-Turks or by cutting home. . "
Qian'er's face was pale and pale in an instant, and finally realized that I was really angry, and once I turned my face, I would show no mercy.
Today, a Wang Qian dares to provoke me. If you don't kill a hundred, there will be more people in the future who think they can deceive me and soften my heart.
I bless my family, although I can do whatever I can, naturally I dare to remove the hidden dangers at any cost.
She fell to her knees, bumped her knees on the hard ground, and tears rolled down. "Sister, Qianer was wrong! I had a bad idea in the past. Now that I know repentance, I want my sister to read for the daughter of the same Wang family. Go, forgive Qianer! "
"It's a foregone conclusion, you should prepare early." I stood up, my heart was upset, and I no longer wanted to entangle with her.
She grabbed me by the sleeves and cried, "Are you going to kill everything?"
I smiled without looking angry and looking back at her, saying slowly, "If you kill everything, you are no longer here!"
She was shocked by the chill in my words, her face full of horror, staring directly at me, as if she suddenly didn't recognize me.
"Sister, how are you doing ..." Qian Er smiled smirk, her face gradually grew desperate, her cowardice faded, and her needle-like coldness appeared in her eyes.
She raised her head, bit her stubborn stubborn stubborn stubbornly, and stood up-at this moment is the real Qianer, a good daughter brought up by her mother-in-law, and the innocent girl is nothing but a shell.
"No matter how beautiful and vicious you are, there will always be a day when you grow old. You can't have children, no children, and women will replace you in the future and take away everything you have now! By then, loneliness and old age, and the desolate evening will be your retribution. She laughed suddenly, and the more she laughed, the happier she was, as if she saw the best thing to laugh at.
What makes a fifteen-year-old girl so worldly, so that a young girl has such deep grievances.
Cold sweat leaked out of my back, and my hands and feet were cold. I tried to keep the chest from tumbling, and Shen said, "Come here, send Miss Er back home!"
Watching Qianer's back gradually drift away, I just felt dizzy, opened my mouth to A Yue, but suddenly fell into the darkness.