Chapter 89: chapter89

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A word made Xiao He's eyes widened, and he was shocked.
What... what do you mean?
Fan Shen whispered: "Since I have memory, I can hear the secret voices of others. Whether I want to hear it or not, I can hear them all. Even in the dead of night, even if they all fall asleep, I can hear them in their dreams. The sound, absurd, weird, embarrassingly, inaccessible, everything... all can be heard. I plug my ears, I play music, I want to make myself deaf, but it’s useless, all useless, Nothing can stop..."
Xiao He had never seen Fan Shen's painful expression, but at this moment he felt the same way.
All at once, everything was understood, completely understood.
It turned out to be like this, although it was incredible, but... Xiao He miraculously had no doubts.
Because he can hear other people's voices, Fan Shen has received much more information than ordinary people since he was a child, which will allow him to grow quickly, but it will also put him under too much pressure than ordinary people.
Hearing the voices of others, this sounds like an ability that many people desire, and this ability is indeed powerful enough to make people fearful.
But I have to say that with such power, it is easy to succeed, after all, no one can guard him.
But... the side effects of this ability are also powerful enough that people can accept it.
People's hearts are cross-sectioned, with many thoughts.
No matter how kind people are, there are moments when they are occupied by negative emotions. Even a really good person will have their own dark side.
They don't show their dark side, so others can't realize it, but Fan Shen can.
He perceives the kindness, the malice, the shamelessness in the heart of the amiable elder, and the brutal bloodthirsty of the seemingly gentle and harmless people...
Under all kinds of contrasts, people question human nature.
No wonder it.
Fan has deep loving parents, a complete family, and has never suffered from childhood, but his personality has split, even to the point where he does not want to wake up.
Those days were full of gloomy pain and despair, and I was afraid that Xiao He would go crazy if I only realized that one day, but Fan Shen held on like this for decades.
I was so tired that I couldn't wake up at last.
Xiao He was trying to wake him up, but when he woke up, he would continue with that kind of life, kind of cruelty, kind of unreasonableness, kind of endless days.
Finally understood, Xiao He finally understood.
Why would Fan Shen say: After waking up, he will lose him.
In the spiritual world, Xiao He and Fan Shen get along well, thinking that Fan Shen doesn't know what Xiao He thinks in his heart, and he cannot hear Xiao He's inner voice.
Although this will be disturbed, misunderstood, and nervous, but it tastes the happiness that ordinary people should have.
It is precisely because of this that Fan Shen can easily fall in love with Xiao He, a Xiao He who loves him wholeheartedly.
If you wake up, if you return to reality.
Then there is no doubt that Fan Shen can also hear Xiao He's voice.
There is no doubt that Xiao He loves Fan Shen deeply.
But...Human heart, human heart.
Even Xiao He couldn't stop his own thoughts, his own thoughts, his own thoughts.
He loves him, but he will think of other things inadvertently, when he doesn't care, or in that one-thousandth of a second.
Some private matters that shouldn't be known by lovers.
However, if he is with Fan Shen, there is no privacy.
Whole body trust cannot exist if one party can easily listen to the other party's voice.
They love it now, but return to reality, with the accumulation of time, with the flow of thoughts, and with such an unfair environment.
No matter how deep the love is, and no matter how deep the feeling is, it will be tortured to death.
At that time, it is not a parting of life and death, but a more terrifying love and death.
Xiao He was startled, a little scared in his heart.
He couldn't imagine... that kind of day, that kind of ending.
Fan Shen couldn't hear Xiao He's heartfelt voice, but looking at his expression, he also knew that he understood.
The bitterness spread in his heart, Fan Shen embraced him, whispering in his ear: "You understand, right? If we will get there in the end, then I would rather stop at this moment."
Xiao He didn't say a word, but he realized Fan Shen's mood.
If they are destined to be strangers and even disgusting to each other, then he is also willing to retain the most sincere feelings, so that their love will always bloom in the brightest time.
Why is this happening? Xiao He couldn't describe the despair in his heart.
Although in reality, the relationship between husband and wife will gradually fade with the passing of life, but Xiao He understands that he and Fan Shen will not. If there is no ability to'hear the heart', he and Fan Shen can go to the end. No matter the hardships, no matter the sufferings, they will always be accompanied until gray hair.
But... they can't.
Even Xiao He couldn't believe in himself.
He is a person, and a person will inevitably have such a dark side for a second or two in his heart.
That kind of dark side, alone can easily adjust.
But if it is spied on...
can not imagine.
Xiao He's body trembled. He thought that if he found the crux, he would be able to cure it completely.
But he forgot that Fan Shen is a hundred times smarter than him. If there is a solution, Fan Shen will not give up.
Is there really no way?
Xiao He hugged him tightly, and suddenly spoke with a low voice: "I'll be with you, OK?"
Fan Shen's body suddenly stiffened.
Xiao He spoke continuously: "Fan Shen, since this is the case, we won't wake up, okay, I will stay in your world for a long time, forever, and be together every day."
Xiao He said softly, slowly as if he had seen hope, his eyes flashed brightly: "Yes, Fan Shen, if this is possible, we can be together, and we will not be separated."
He said this, but Fan Shen's mouth overflowed with a bitter smile: "Xiao He, I don't think so all the time, trapping you here, imprisoning you here, depicting a world that belongs to us, forever and ever. Live in it."
"This is great, I am willing!" Xiao He said anxiously.
"But...Xiao He." Fan Shen looked at him, with a pair of blue eyes full of affection, "You will die. You should die for decades because of such a deep sleep..."
Xiao He was startled, and suddenly realized the crux of the problem: "If you don't wake up, you will die, right?"
"Yes, for a long time indulged in the spiritual world, the vital signs of the body will gradually disappear. Without you, I might have died long ago. You saved me, but...I really don't want to wake up."
"Sorry, Xiao He, I love you, I love you very much, so I can't wake up even more. If I wake up, I will lose you forever. Then I would rather sleep like this."