: Preface

The sun is scorching, and this summer seems to be hotter than usual. The streets and alleys are busy with people coming and going. The weather is getting hotter, people wear less and less, and there are groups of people waiting to see beautiful women on the side of the road.
Huo Hai, a teenager who should have been like them, was cold in his heart in the hot summer.
"Is there someone so unlucky like me?" Huo Hai muttered to himself, everything around him has completely ignored him. The ambitions since graduation have faded away with the cold words of applicants, and what is left is indifference and exhaustion.
Every night, my heart is always full of confusion, I don’t know where I am going, I don’t know what I should do. Every day, every moment, Huo Hai felt like a walking dead. It's really unfair for such a thing to happen to me. Huo Hai was not the one who blamed the heavens and the others, but he also complained.
The so-called good people don't live long and live for thousands of years. I remember that it was because of such a saying. Huo Hai's grandfather would have given such a name to Huo Hai. The harm of homophony, so as to be long-lasting and rich.
Huo Hai’s father and his grandfather weren’t the same idea. He taught Huo Hai from an early age that good is good for evil and evil is rewarded. This sentence deceived Huo Hai for more than 20 years. Being a good person is so easy.
Thinking back to the beginning, I was simply on the road, and when I saw the old grandma crossing the road, I went to help. When you see garbage on the ground, pick it up by yourself. There is no chance to do big good things, good things within one's ability, good things, do not know how much. Counting this way, I should have accumulated a lot of yin virtue, and my life should be better.
Of course, now, for some reason, the old lady dare not help. But he still does things like giving a seat to the old man when getting in the car. No matter who it is, I would say that Huohai is a good person.
But where is the reward of good people? Is that what happened to me? If you just set foot in society and it is hard to find a job, that's fine. This is nothing, and no one can get the appreciation of others from the beginning.
Without a job, there is still a psychological comfort. Since high school, I have been working with my girlfriend of eachother, and the money I earned from doing odd jobs has been spent on her. Sometimes I have to eat instant noodles for several days. I'm quite worthy of her this way, I can't even reach out and ask the family for money at this time, his face is not so thick.
But I got something. Last night, my girlfriend, who had been with me for six years, proposed to break up with him.
In retrospect, Huo Hai still feels that he is light and light. "Hehe, I am a good person, we are not suitable. Bastard, we are not suitable, are you and that old guy suitable." Huo Hai's heart seemed to be in the ice cellar.
Yesterday, when his girlfriend proposed to break up, Huo Hai thought she was both dissatisfied in her heart and was playing around. Today, he cruelly took out all the remaining money, bought a ring, and planned to give it to her to please her. But I saw something. The girlfriend who just broke up yesterday fell into the arms of an old man who could be her grandfather.
Why, people came in a sports car. Even if you are like yourself, even if you struggle for a lifetime, don't even want to drive such a sports car.
Not to mention the sports car, my own life has not yet settled. What can he do? He also wants to rush out and give the old guy a few shots like those protagonists. But can he really do this? Can he dare to do it.
That's right, that old guy is definitely not a young and strong opponent, but the bodyguard next to him. Besides, even if you fight, can you escape the opponent's revenge? Can those who have been lost come back? Even if you come back, what to raise yourself. What if this old man retaliates against his parents, what can he do?
The sorrow of the poor, what is going on in this world. Huo Hai didn't know, as if he was a walking dead, he didn't even have the idea of ​​coming out. In this way, he walked back like a walking dead and returned to the cabin he had rented.
Looking at the ring in his hand, Huo Hai smiled bitterly: "What about next month's rent?" After buying the ring, can it be returned. After a long time, Huo Hai took out an old book from under the bed and flipped through it.
This is what my grandma left for me. Grandma seemed to be a Miao, and she had a unique skill in raising gu and insects. However, with the development of reform and opening up, science has become popular, and my parents simply don't believe in these unscientific things. Only myself, when I was a child, was very interested in these magical things and studied with my grandma for a while.
Above, the official way of using aura to feed insects is recorded. Reiki? What is this, is there any more on earth? With blood, Huo Hai was afraid of pain when he was young, and believes that all children are the same.
So for so many years, Huo Hai has not cultivated anything, until Huo Hai remembered the things in this book clearly. In addition, some acupoints and meridians related to the movement of Zhen Qi are firmly recorded in the brain.
"Hey, what's the use of these?" Huo Hai shook his head helplessly, the bitterness on his face more serious. Raising insects, can you afford to pay the rent? Don't say you can't raise it, even if you really raise something, what can you do? According to the previous understanding of Gu worms, besides it can be used to harm people, what use is there.
In modern society, it is not as effective as a single shot to kill people. After reading it again, Huo Hai put the book on the table.
I shook my teeth, bought a bunch of beer and some side dishes, and ate for myself. "
Tomorrow, I will go home and never come to this place again." What Huo Hai ate was vegetables, but all he swallowed were tears.
I don't know how long it took, Huo Hai felt dizzy, and then fell asleep on the table.
The next day, the sun fell through the window and fell on Huo Hai's face. Huo Hai, who had a hangover overnight, slowly opened his eyes. "It's dawn, hey, the past is over, there is nothing left to let go. Go home, even if you go home to farm, you won't come to this place." Huo Hai's expression was relaxed, and all the suffering was in his heart. .
Leaving the big city is easy. Those who come to the big city, who wants to leave. Don't look at the rich and powerful people, who are running down all day. But those who need to support their families can't give up the income brought by big cities.
Huo Hai feels that he is incompatible with part-time jobs in big cities. Of course, what he sees is the betrayal of his girlfriend. In the face of money, everything can be betrayed. Not wanting to see her sad again, Huo Hai decided to leave this place.
After tidying up things, there was actually nothing to tidy up. Huohai pulled his luggage and left his temporary rental house. No need to go to the landlord. The landlord will come to collect the rent a long time ago, and when he finds he has left, he will naturally rent it to others. Huo Hai didn't want to look at the disgusting face of the landlord.
It's only a few days of rent loss at most, I still lost it. From a distance, Huo Hai saw an old man sweating on the tricycle to resist cargo. Instinctively, Huo Hai wanted to step forward to help.
But the leg that had just stepped out, unconsciously retracted. "Hehe, I can't even help myself, but I still help others. Is it good? I have been a good person for so many years, and in the end I get a good person card."
Huo Hai laughed at himself, enduring the thought of wanting to help, turned his head and left. In essence, Huo Hai is still a good young man who has not been polluted. But a good young man, this kind of creature cannot survive in this society.
Huo Hai felt very uncomfortable when he saw that other people needed help and did not help. After all, unlike the education I have received since childhood, my outlook on life is shattered by my own hands, no matter who it is, my heart will be very uncomfortable. Huo Hai, who was in a trance, did not notice that the green light in front had turned red. Still walking forward in a daze.
"Squeak..." The sharp brake sound suddenly sounded in his ears, and Huo Hai raised his head blankly. Suddenly the body hurts, and the whole person is flying up like clouds and fog. Huo Hai, who was in a trance, finally reacted.
"I, I was knocked into the air." The words of the car accident appeared in Huo Hai's heart. When he was dying, Huo Hai didn't think of other things, but thought of the good things he had done in the past. No matter how big or small, the good things I have done before have been scratched in my mind. Unexpectedly, this is what I remember most.
Because of my kindness, I have a girlfriend that others admire, and because of my kindness, I give up all opportunities to others. Up to now, he even has a problem with his work. In the end, this is actually the case.
I don’t know if my parents will be sad if they know it. In Huo Hai's mind, the faces of his parents flashed past. Then grandma, then grandpa. "Xiaohai, you have to live like your name forever."
Grandpa's kind face slashed in front of him. "Yes, yes, my name is Huo Hai. I swear by Huo Hai, if there is an afterlife, I will be worthy of my name. Good people don’t live long, and harm to live for thousands of years. I swear that I will never Be a good person." Huo Hai turned his last breath into his vow with anger.
After that, the body seemed to be hitting something, and the eyes went dark and I didn't know anything.