Chapter 42:

Not local, and not contacted for a long time.
Divorced family? Ning Xiaoxiao's first reaction was this.
I heard that children with unhealthy families may be influenced by their parents. When they grow up, they may easily have a feeling of mistrust or anxiety about their partners. Some people even have a tendency to domestic violence-how to look, it is not very good.
While worrying, Shen Yan suddenly stood up from her seat, but she was terrified. The chopsticks fell out accidentally, hitting a "ding" on the side of the bowl, and Gu Lugu rolled to Shen Yan's table.
The atmosphere freezes for a while.
Seeing her shrink back, Shen Yan should clearly reach out to pick up the chopsticks, but withdrew it instead. He looked a little embarrassed and stood a little embarrassed when he was afraid of his sudden furious look.
"Chopsticks fell." For a long while, he smiled as gently as possible, picked up the pair of chopsticks with a very light motion, and did not return it directly to her, but just slowly rested next to the dish for her. Keeping a suitable distance from start to finish will not make her feel any threat.
"Ah, thank you ..." The imaginary fury did not appear. Ning Xiaoxiao recovered, and quickly thanked while compensating for a smile.
"Sorry, I'll go to the bathroom." Shen Yan is still smiling, his attitude is still gentle. It's just that these two features appear on a somewhat pale face at the same time, and everyone can see it very reluctantly, including Qi Qi.
"Shen Yan." Qi Zhen's position was leaning against the aisle. When Shen Yan was going out, he had to stand up and make way first. Not only did he not let go, but he also grabbed Shen Yan's wrist and closed his eyebrows.
"When I put the material just now, I accidentally spilled the soup on my hand, and I went to wash it." Shen Yan had a very reasonable reason.
Qi He hesitated for a moment, slowly letting go of his hand, and moved away without a word to let him pass.
Shen Yan smiled slightly at him, apologetic and grateful, then politely gestured to Ning Xiaoxiao and left the table, disappearing at the corner of the corridor.
"I seem to have asked what I should not have asked." Ning Xiaoxiao waited for him to walk away, squeezing his eyes across the table.
Qi Xiao looked serious, and looked at her without a word.
"Brother, don't you think he is a bit strange?" Ning Xiaoxiao whispered.
"Xiao Xiao," Qi Zi interrupted her and put her right hand on the tabletop, a gesture of clenching fists. His tone was rare and cold, "If you continue, I will be angry."
She didn't know at all. Originally, he thought that Shen Yan would never be invited to meet and eat together.
Obviously not good at dealing with strangers, but because Ning Xiaoxiao is his relatives and friends, Shen Yan hesitated for a while, and finally chose to accept. "It's better to see your friends. It would be better if they could fit into your circle of friends," he said then, with an optimistic smile on his face.
Ms. Pang, the head nurse in the hospital, once said that people who do not understand Shen Yan often think he is indifferent.
Qi Qi didn't think he was indifferent at first, only that he was speechless.
However, as the puzzle pieces in the hand accumulate, the colors on the pattern become warmer and closer to spring. Qi Chen can't wait to prove it to others, but he underestimates the resistance in reality.
"He is your boyfriend under review, can I ask you more questions?" Ning Xiaoxiao was aggrieved.
When Shen Yan answered, although Qi Qi didn't express her position, she was noticed with surprise in her eyes, and she knew that it was the first time he heard it. After scrutinizing back and forth, she deeply suspected Qi Qi was deceived.
"He-" had already passed the audit.
Qi Qi's mouth opened half and closed again, and decided not to say this to her, so as not to have extra branches.
"You certainly didn't know his education before?" She asked.
"I don't know, it's because I didn't ask." Don't care. Qi Qi frowned, and turned back gently.
"Don't you know what happened in his family?"
"I didn't ask in detail."
Ning Xiaoxiao's face is full of worries, and he can't help but lower his voice to persuade: "Brother, you don't ask anything, you don't know anything, how much do you know this person? Although you used so many good words to describe him, you will not Will it be a fan of the authorities, and he was fainted by his romance? I think ... he may not be very reliable. "
Qi Xiao looked cold and looked at her motionlessly: "You said, why is he not reliable?"
Ning Xiaoxiao said with a lip: "He can't go to the undergraduate course, it can be seen that the education level is not high. And brother, you graduated from a famous university, can you really talk together when you talk?"
What's more, that person doesn't even like to talk.
Qi Xiao suddenly sneered at this moment: "Famous university? What can a famous university explain? To say education, wasn't that person my classmate at the time, the result?"
result? There is no result at all, only bitter results.
He thought that his steel-like will was squeezed and deformed under the pressure of real reality, almost broken, but fortunately pulled out in time to not completely collapse.
And when he finally couldn't support it, he found that the other party withdrew earlier and faster than him.
Of course, he alone can't bear the heavy load.
"Sorry, you are serious."
The most hurtful is undoubtedly that after he has taken each step seriously, the other party suddenly draws a terminator on the road, throws away such a sentence, and then pushes him back to the starting point. Like a cold winter, a pot of water poured coldly.
Clearly frostbite, but only able to pretend to be chic, smiled and walked away.
Over the years, he has not been able to persuade himself to go out again until Shen Yan dragged him across the white line of the starting point.
Ning Xiaoxiao remembers.
The night Qi Qi confessed her sexuality, she also confessed that unbearable feeling, and the two drank and drank together all night. She cried ten packs of tissues that night and spit out half of her life in her bedroom the next day-precisely because of this, when she knew Qi Qi, she had someone she loved again after many years and had to be extra cautious, replacing everything. He checks.
Right now Qi Qimei raised a bit of pain between Yu and Yu, apparently thinking of the past.
Ning Xiaoxiao regretted his speech and quickly comforted him: "Senior brother, that guy is an exception. To be honest, you and the guy are quite suitable in every aspect, that is ... At that time, you were too young to bear public opinion. Now The environment is much looser than before, maybe, maybe he is now ... "
"Now, he has a wife and a son." Qi Chen Shen Sheng interrupted, saying one word at a time, "Okay, I don't want to talk about this person, nor have I ever thought of reuniting with him. Don't mention him again. "
The dialogue is deadlocked.
I only heard the soup in the hot pot gurgling, and the steam rushing around caused the suffocation to spread again and again, making breathing difficult.
Ning Xiaoxiao bowed her skirt, her mouth flattened.
Qi Xiao calmed down a little bit, and her expression of aggrieved expression softened. He knew that Sister Sister's intention was good, so he sighed softly: "I understand your thoughts. You are worried about this because of my goodness. However, regardless of Shen Yan's education, at least he likes and respects his own very much. Work-This is not what I think alone, but the actual result tells me. "
Whether it was the process of rescuing the cat before, or the small return period. Shen Yan's medical ethics were impeccable, which convinced him.
He is engaged in news, and there are many negative reports from related parties. He has seen too much.
So he is very aware of how rare a person like Shen Yan is.
"Neither a colleague nor a volunteer of the Animal Rescue Association can testify on this point." With an argument, there must be an argument. Qi Qi's argument is not just his own.
"Okay, even though his academic work is okay, his family background seems to be not quite appropriate." Ning Xiaoxiao feared that he would be angry and hesitated for a long time, still insisting on expressing his own views. After all, Qi Qi had suffered a loss before, and she hoped he could be more cautious, "This is not my own nonsense, but it has been proved by many examples. Children who have problems between their parents may be lonely and have a tendency to abuse Yes ... You should have heard of these examples every day when you go out for interviews? Brother, I can see that you like him very much, but you ’d better inquire and think carefully. "
Shen Yan himself seems to have said so too-"Think well and reply again."
He said he would wait patiently and wait.
Wait until you say yes.
"I don't know exactly what happened to his parents. I don't know how much he was affected by this." Qi Qi's fists slowly loosened on the table and placed in the position where Shen Yan had just sat, palms covered Above, it seemed to save the temperature that had not completely dissipated there. "The only thing I know is ... He has been taking care of me all the time and sharing the trivial things in my life. Moreover, I have never been forced to do it."
His voice was hoarse, trembling slightly, trying to restrain his emotions.
Ning Xiaoxiao's face was white and she whispered, "Brother ..."
Qi Xiao sighed for a long time, probably realizing that she was a little sick, and shook her head. After all, Sister Sister is a girl who needs to go down the steps. Too cold for her speech will make her embarrassed. So he flattened his tone again: "I know that you said it for my own good, thank you."
Ning Xiaoxiao had the courage to raise his head to look at him at this time, although the hands twisting the skirt still didn't stop.
"Relax," Qi Qian smiled faintly. "I have struggled for a long time before starting again this time. But I don't regret making this decision. I believe he is human."
Ning Xiaoxiao finally stopped and pouted: "Okay, as long as you are happy, Brother."
One thing she has to admit-Qi Qi now looks at least much better than she was in the time of the accident. Although she has always believed that Qi Po has better choices and a more decent life, but what the spectator says is useless, the mood of the person is the most important.
"Then you eat the hot pot obediently, don't check the hukou and ask others." Qi Qi raised her eyebrows, knocked twice with the chopsticks on the side of the pot. Ning Xiaoxiao nodded like garlic.
After persuading her sister, Qi Qi glanced in the direction of the bathroom. Still did not see Shen Yan back.
He thought about it for a moment, silently took out his mobile phone, imitating the text message Shen Yan wrote to him before, and sent a similar past: [You think you can come back, I will wait for you. 】
auzw.com Shen Yan did not see the text message because he could not hear the prompt tone from the text message.
The faucet in front of me had been screwed to the maximum, and the sound of the clattering water was rapidly scouring his hearing, his ears humming, and no other sound could be accommodated.
He closed his eyes and couldn't remember the first few times he scooped up his hands and splashed two or three times on his face.
The water penetrated into the eyes and caused a tingling pain, which could not be opened, only to feel the water traces on his face continued to flow down one after another, and he rolled down from the tip of his nose when he lowered his head. He had to wash away the negative emotions on his face with water, let them be emptied by the drain pipe, and sink to a deep, deep floor.
In this way, you can make a good impression.
In this way, I can return to my seat and continue those topics.
But the sounds in the memory refused to stop, let him go, even if he turned the water to the maximum, so large that even the water pipe was slightly oscillating, those sounds were still irresistible, stubbornly, and cruelly entered.
That was probably the first time he heard his father's voice.
Across the door, in the tearful cry of the woman outside the door, angrily sounded: "You shouldn't have given birth to him!"
The woman's cry gradually turned into laughter, bleak and desolate: "Yes! I regret, I really regret giving birth to him!"
At that time he was sitting alone in the room, silently holding a pencil to write homework.
No matter what kind of voice came from outside, cursing, crying, or breaking things, he just lowered his head and wanted to finish the exercises arranged by the teacher wholeheartedly, and then drilled into the bed and covered his ears. Take a nap. As long as you get through the next morning, you can go to school and leave the voices far away.
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But I can't finish the exercises.
Not because he doesn't understand, but because every time he writes the answer, there will always be something that wets the handwriting of the pencil and pastes one drop or two into one piece, which can't be seen clearly. Can only be repeated over and over.
Later, the woman grabbed the door and dragged him from the chair, shouting, "Let's go! Let's go!"
He still desperately wanted to continue until that moment, the action was too hard, the pencil tip pierced the paper, and the person was pulled back fiercely. ground.
He never handed in the assignment that time.
The homework was not handed in, and he never even went to that school, and returned to the town where he was born with the woman.
There are people in the town that he should call his grandfather and grandmother, and some relatives he has never seen. Those people looked at him like a woman looked at him in a rental house, and he knew the meaning of this kind of eyes. He closed his mouth and made no sound. He sat quietly in the corner alone.
The houses in the town are connected one by one, and the backyards of the two families are often separated by a low wall or a hedge.
During the time he temporarily stayed with his grandfather and grandmother's house, without studying, he would move the stool alone to read under the wall, and sometimes he would encounter a cat from a neighbor's house.
Cats are old cats, old bells, their stomachs drooping heavily, and the fur color is no longer shiny. It occasionally walked up and down the wall, and even turned down the wall, lazily basking on the floor. Every time, he would sit and watch without moving, afraid that he would run away as soon as he moved.
But the cat didn't run, and after a long time, he would take the initiative to come and rub his feet.
"Meow meow meow……"
He will even talk to him like this, and he will reply, both sides can't understand what they are talking about, but they can maintain it. Unlike those who live in the house, they can get along naturally.
"My name is Shen Yan." He said softly.
"Meow."
"My mother is going to marry someone soon." He told him the conversation he heard from his grandfather and grandma across the wall, three months after he came here. The woman succeeded in a blind date as a divorced person. The other party does not mind that she has an ex-husband, but she does not want the ex-husband's child.
"Meow." The old cat couldn't understand him, but raised his head and looked at it with his paw.
"They said they would take me to my dad's side ... As for whether it was necessary or not, it was his business." He repeated what he heard, and finally smiled slightly at the old cat. "I may not see it in the future." is you."
"Meow." The old cat was lying on the floor. And he gently stroked the hair on its back with his hand.
The day the woman married, the house was empty.
Everyone went out to watch the ceremony. He was the only one left in the backyard. He also spent the whole day face to face with the cat.
When he was hungry, he went to the refrigerator to find leftovers, heated it with a microwave, and slowly ate under the wall with a bowl, and gave it to the cat.
"Your mother is married."
"We are going to send you to your father's side."
Grandpa and grandma said these words to him, after the wedding. Although he already knew.
They packed his only few items into a duffel bag, and sent him to a bus back to the city. He told the driver that someone would pick him up when he arrived at the station, turned around, and left without looking at it. .
He spent hours in the car without a word, returning to the city where he had been away for a few months. At the terminal, the passengers on the bus had already got off the bus and the whole compartment was empty. He slowly walked down and dragged the bag out of the shelf with difficulty, looking at the station in a daze.
He didn't know where he was going.
Surrounded by strangers, strange scenery, messy words twirling in the ear, bringing a sense of dizziness.
Perhaps there was no food on the road and dizziness.
But he didn't have much money, and he didn't know how long it would last after spending it. Concentrating on saving money, he did not dare to buy things at the station to eat, he could only hold the duffle bag dimly and sat alone in the waiting hall for two hours.
Then he realized that maybe he would wait another three hours, four hours, five hours or more, and no one would come.
Because ... he is Shen Yan.
"Shen Yan."
When he thought so, someone called the name.
Not the man he should call his father, but an old man.
The old man came out slowly from the gray crowd, and everything around him seemed to have a little color, and he jumped gently in his eyes. He trembled and unconsciously stood upright, and the old man still smiled kindly: "Are you Shen Shen? It looks like your father when he was a kid."
He clutched the shoulder strap of the duffel tightly, not speaking for a while, but just nodded.
The old man sighed long, "Your dad can't come."
He still nodded. This was originally expected, because the man said that he should not be born, and naturally should not be accepted.
The old man slowly bent down in front of him and touched his head, with a bitter taste in his smile: "But you can follow me-Shen Yan, I am your grandfather."
The voice in my brain didn't suddenly calm until this moment, and was gradually overshadowed by the violent sound of running water, returning to reality.
"call……"
Shen Yan gasped in a low voice, frowned, and gently wiped the drops of water on her face with both hands, and finally got a moment of relief. He turned off the faucet, the sound of the water came to an abrupt halt, and all sounds in the bathroom were silent.
"Thank you, Grandpa." He said dumbly.
Thank you, Grandpa, for pulling yourself back from the past to the present.
Because life can only go forward, not backward. In front of him are the people he was destined to meet, the feelings he was destined to give.
Shen Yan raised his head, his face in the glass mirror was pale, but his eyes had recovered his composure, wiped his face dry, and could go out after tidying up. While he was looking for paper towels to collect the water stains, he took out his cell phone to watch the time, only to find that Qi Qi had sent a text message before, and he quickly opened it to see.
If you think it's okay, then come back. I'll wait for you.
Seeing the last three words, Shen Yan felt warm in his heart, and his lips bent slowly up involuntarily.
Don't let him wait too long.
Shen Yan wiped her face in a hurry, sorted out the collar and sleeves, and left the bathroom. When he returned to the table, Ning Xiaoxiao saw him first, with a stunned expression, but he was not as careful as before he left, and he could greet him more normally.
It seems that during his departure, Qi Qi should have said something to her.
"It's slow, I've eaten up your share." Qi Qiao turned her head slightly and met his sight. The attitude he showed was no different from that of usual. The words took him away halfway.
"I'm sorry to keep you waiting for a long time." Shen Yan held his hand on his shoulder and apologized in a low voice.
Qi Xiao's eyes stayed on his face for a long time, like looking for something to confirm. Shen Yan looked back silently without any dodge. Qi Qi watched it, suddenly he laughed twice, and reached out and patted gently on the back of his hand, as if comforting: "Fool you, eat it quickly."
Shen Yan responded naturally: "Well."
The hand placed on Qi Qi's shoulder was not put down slowly, and Qi Qi also left the palm there after patting his hand, holding it firmly.
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