Chapter 61:

family.
To put it this way, it's almost like a marriage proposal--
Although the person speaking did not realize this, it is not important. For myself, it is enough to keep this hard-won commitment silently in mind.
Qi Xiao smiled in a trance. When the smile was not fully formed, his lips were gently burned by Shen Yan's breath at close range. After a while, his emotions overflowed, and he no longer smiled, and even stopped thinking about anything.
All you can do is close your eyes and end the last little distance between each other until the kiss is completed.
A kiss different from any time before.
More natural, quieter, more like a survival instinct of human beings.
At this moment, it seemed to have become his instinct to find and cover Shen Yan's lips. After finding it, he was even more persistent in asking. It seems to sink deep and deep, relying on the breath sent by the other party to maintain breathing, and in just a few seconds live only because of the other party-after a funeral in life, continue to survive The reason is more precious than anything.
Thinking this way, let the tears flow quietly, and silently penetrate into the place where the lips grind.
Bitter and salty.
It's true ... like the taste of the sea.
Xiaogui wakes up from the bewilderment because he feels the box shaking.
Opening his eyes, he found that another father was coming, so the hair erected because of vigilance lay flat and collapsed, "Meow" called, raised the meat pad, greeted and coquettish.
He crooked his head and found that another dad was watching, and the satisfaction after getting attention instantly rose to the maximum.
"We go home."
Shen Yan whispered, not only against the small return period, but also against the large return period.
Qi Qi silently watched his movement of picking up the carton, smiled silently, and handed out his hand in the dark alley, letting him pull himself forward and walk slowly towards the road.
The two stopped a taxi by the side of the road. After sitting in Qi Qi, they quietly watched Shen Yan holding the carton with the kitten in the car, and suddenly three words appeared: "The second time."
Shen Yan was slightly startled.
Qi Qi raised the corner of her mouth slightly, and asked him, "Don't you think this scene seems familiar?"
When Shen Yan heard this, she suddenly understood what Qi Po referred to as the "second time"-starting from the north of the city, she came to Qi Po and picked up this person with a cat. This happened before.
"That time ... we were sitting in a taxi this way, even in the same seat position." Qi Qi murmured, a bit of nostalgia in her eyes. Because of the crying before, his words sounded hoarse at the moment, but the laughter was very gentle, "At that time, I didn't even dare to let you hold my hand."
Hearing this, the taxi driver seemed to glance at them quietly from the rearview mirror. Qi Qi didn't care.
Perhaps today's helplessness and helplessness to the so-called "normal society" has caused him to develop a rebellious psychology.
Maybe after "dead" once, he saw things more openly and broadly, he didn't want to cover up his attachment to Shen Yan anymore.
I want to completely abandon the strange eyes around and live alive.
And Shen Yan's thoughts are probably the same as his, because that hand has silently held him like he used to. Very strong grip, without any meaning to avoid the sight of others.
Unexpectedly, the uncle of the driver saw that there was no special reaction here. After asking the destination, he stepped on the throttle and drove out of the avenue, heading north of the city-is it silently contemptuous, or not, and again Or is it something else? Qi Qi had no way of knowing that his state of mind became a still lake after he passed the wind and waves. All the intense emotions settled on the bottom of the lake, and only a slight light jumped and flickered on the lake.
The person who brought him these lights was beside him, holding his hands with him, and never gave up.
Other than that, he didn't care.
After dark, the city center is brightly lit.
The interior of the car is extremely dim, but it has a taste of isolation from the world, which can make people quietly taste the world. Qi Qi sits in a driving car and looks out, the night is like water, and the lights passing by hurriedly are swimming fish, traveling through the night, leaving a trail of fish waves across the glass.
And his fingers are also scratching gently on Shen Yan's palm.
One by one, as if silk cocooned, put the two people's feelings deep in the cocoon and slowly matured inside. And he wanted to speed up the process.
"Shen Yan," Qi Zi said suddenly, "I want to borrow a loan to buy a car."
This sentence came very suddenly.
Shen Yan looked up at him in surprise, but the confusion at that moment soon dissipated, as if she understood what it was. The deep black eyes were clear again, watching him motionlessly.
Qi Qi turned his head back to meet his gaze, calm and solemn, and began to elaborate his plans for the future.
"I have worked for several years, although the salary is not high, but my personal expenses are usually not large, I have n’t bought any luxury goods, and I still have savings. Now I can buy a good economy car for hundreds of thousands of people. About 30% of the down payment, plus handling fees, insurance fees, purchase tax or something, probably about 40,000 or 50,000, I should get this money ... After the installment payment, my current income level is a little tight , But life is more frugal every month, and slowly it will not be a problem. "
Shen Yan just listened quietly.
Talking about his not-so-optimistic economic conditions, Qi Qi still maintains an optimistic attitude: "However, if I can be promoted smoothly, then my salary will be increased accordingly, and the year-end bonus will definitely be more than it is now, so that the car will be provided. It wo n’t be too hard. "
Shen Yan heard this all the time and asked in a low voice: "Why suddenly thought of buying a car?"
Qi Xiao smiled faintly: "Aren't we talking about the topic of accommodation before? Originally, if I removed the plaster and started to go back to work every day, it was too far away to live in your place, it was inconvenient, so I must move back to my apartment. ... but ... if you have a car, you do n’t have to rely on public transportation to commute, and you can save a lot of time. This problem does not exist. "
In the past, he overdrawn too much on a person who did not cherish him, but ended with this sad and ridiculous ending.
And now, he meets a lover who really cherishes him. It is worth him to pay hundreds of times more feelings and actions than before to firmly grasp and manage their relationship with heart.
"I want to seriously consider our future and seriously solve the problems in front of me." Qi Xiao's expression was very persistent, and there was an indescribable sense of firmness standing between the eyebrows. He lowered his voice and said slowly, "I ... want to stay with you and keep you with me."
How much Shen Yan cherishes him, he will cherish it twice.
The two of them had a drink together that day, and Shen Yan murmured and begged him not to go after being drunk, and he was still deeply lingering in his mind.
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There are so many resistances in reality, there may be no way to solve all problems at once, but he can break through the dilemma little by little. Shen Yan has given him a "home", so he naturally has to work hard to "go home".
"My current apartment is signed for a one-year contract, which expires at the end of the year, and the rent for living cannot be paid. Anyway, there is no way to refund it, so it doesn't matter where I live." He took a deep breath and gently took it back with some anxiety. Shen Yan ’s hand, "If ... if I move out completely after the contract expires, and you are willing to accept me ... then the saved rent can be used to pay a part of the car loan. In this way, we can live together— —

After finishing speaking, Qi Chen bowed her head slightly, subconsciously not observing Shen Yan's expression at this time-he was a little afraid to see embarrassment or hesitation.
Suddenly, I have not forgotten to give the other party a step down.
"Of course, the premise of this is that you are willing to ..." Formally let me be a part of your family.
That house was where Shen Yan and his grandfather had lived together before. The meaning for Shen Yan is not just a residence. Letting a person move in formally involves both his life and his past, which is tantamount to treating this person as a "family", not an easy decision.
"Qi Qi," the man beside him murmured softly, evoking his name gently, as if laughing and sighing, "What is my answer, you should have already known ... I said, let You treat me as your family, which naturally includes the living part. "
In fact Qi Qi really knows the answer.
It's just that the feeling of hearing the person speaking is different.
"You don't think I'm too abrupt." Qi Zi's nose was slightly sour, and she had to grin reluctantly, so as not to make herself look embarrassed.
"No, not at all." Shen Yan held his right hand tightly and smiled bitterly. "Actually, I was very happy to hear what you just said ... I thought it would take a long time to really leave you behind. For a long time, and the current situation is not allowed, you are in a critical period of your career, I do n’t want to delay your future because of my own selfishness. However, I heard that you are seriously considering these, and think so long ... I am so happy. "
How could it be unhappy.
In the past, most of his "family" chose to leave him, or let him leave. His grandfather was the first person willing to accept him, and now ... Qi Qi is the first person willing to be accepted by him.
"I only worry about one thing, that is, your financial burden will be very heavy." Apart from being moved, he did not forget the gap between reality and ideal. It ’s not that Zizi ’s ability to work is doubtful, but it ’s really hard to ask for a car alone.
If I can, I want to share the loan with you.

"You have already left the" room ", and of course I can't let you out of the" car "." Qi Piao half-jokingly refused his kindness.
At this time, the uncle of the driver who has been driving silently suddenly interrupted: "Boy, if you want to buy a car, I recommend you a few local dealers, the handling fee is not expensive, and the service quality is good. In cases like yours, it is recommended To buy a car that can maintain value, usually open for work at work, or go on a short trip on vacation or something. The maintenance is good, and when the living conditions are up, I want to change for a better one, and it is easy to throw away. "
Qi Qi and Shen Yan both froze for a moment.
They are not afraid that the driver hears their conversation, but the driver takes the initiative to talk, and it seems that they have not shown a little discriminatory attitude, but they are unexpected.
Qi Qi has always believed that people in society view this relationship and wear colored glasses.
So he smiled slightly after recovering, and corrected his sitting posture: "Master, compared to the problem with the car ... don't you think we two are weird?"
Now that the other party has taken the initiative to talk, he might as well say it. The reporter who usually conducts interviews instinctively comes up, and can't help but explore the other party's mentality with curiosity.
The driver uncle smiled apologetically while driving: "I'm sorry, I've been staring at you since you got in the car. At that time, I felt like you were a couple, but I didn't dare to make a conclusion and listen to you along the way. Only now have you confirmed that you are a young couple. "
Young couple--
For the first time, I heard such a substantive adjective from a stranger who was completely down.
Qi Qi suddenly had a hot cheek and couldn't help but look away, but Shen Yan held his hand and gently gathered it, fingers firmly holding him in his palm, as if to affirm the other's words.
"Oh, if you feel that my eyes are discriminatory, that's really embarrassing." The driver has apologized for the second time and kept talking, "Because I haven't seen you in reality except my girlfriend Such a person ... so say ... "
Qi Qi is a person who is good at capturing information. At this moment, he was slightly startled, and shortly ah.
The driver realized that he had inadvertently spoken, so he patted his head and smiled helplessly: "Yes, my girl, she ... well, that's the case. Although there are many people who don't understand this thing now, but I still understand, after all, this is also the case in my own home. "
Qi He was reminded by the driver's words that he and his family had a piecemeal memory at that time.
"Actually, not every parent at home who understands this situation will understand." He whispered. The driver's uncle's daughter is really lucky, at least compared with himself.
But the driver sighed: "Well, boy, just tell you this-when my maiden confessed to our couple, I couldn't accept it. After many years, I slowly figured it out, and the child's Mom does n’t quite understand it yet, but as parents ... we still want our children to be happy. "
The previous words are okay. After arriving at these sentences, Qi Zi's emotions were somewhat irrepressible, and she held Shen Yan's hand slightly trembling: "My parents ... didn't think so."
"Boy, this can't really blame your parents. The people from our time sometimes have really special ideas, which can't be ridiculed. Parents are like this, as for those things in the society that are not related to themselves Do n’t even mention the people who only look at the lively people.
The driver said half of it and turned the topic back to him and Shen Yan.
But to be honest, I just felt very emotional just listening to your conversation. Now among young people Even if there are really a couple of men and women, it ’s not much that we can carefully plan the future with these two people. It ’s good, come on—

Qi Qi was stunned for a moment, and suddenly felt that his chest was filled at once, especially full.
Shen Yan, who has been listening to their conversation in silence, also said at this time: "Thank you for your encouragement."
The driver laughed when he heard the words: "You're welcome. My girl is now moving out and staying with her companions. Both of them have a good job and live very well. Just because there is such a child at home, So I pay special attention to this matter. Today, I have a guest like you. It ’s a fate. I ca n’t help saying a few words.

Since the topic is no longer sensitive, they also slowly chatted with the driver. The half-hour drive passed in a blink of an eye, and the taxi has been transferred to Chengbei District.
When getting off the car, the uncle of the driver said he would not charge their fare, and escorted them to the door of the house and drove away.
"I can't think of it ... I can meet such an open-minded and kind-hearted person." Qi Qi stood at the intersection of the community and watched the taxi leave, with a lot of emotion. This world really has a cold side, and it must also have a warm side-the helpless emotions that I have accumulated in my heart today are suddenly temporarily liberated, and I feel a little relaxed.
"There may be more people who can accept us than imagined." Shen Yan's words are exactly what he realized, never before.
"Well, this is the first time I have confessed my sexual orientation in front of a stranger." Qi Qi smiled self-deprecatingly, "but it feels very good."
Shen Yanjing looked at him quietly for a long time, and he stopped talking.
"Qi Qi, have you ... ever thought about talking to your family again?"
The author has something to say: one out of the house, one out of the car, is this the rhythm of the young couple's proposal to each other? ? Hurry up and get married! !
I feel that in this chapter I am spreading the positive energy of society ...
ps: The condition is not very good these days, after a while you can beat me but do n’t hit your face (hello)
Then I finally want to understand why I can never write attack as the protagonist, because: 1. I physically hate attack; 2. According to the consistent style, I will write the attack too realistic so that the readers come to my door to kill me ( Referring to the situation of the predecessor, I think this kind of consequence is very likely ...)