Vol 6 Chapter 787: Unhealable psychological trauma

Although due to the self-regulation of various media, the details of the "that incident" were not arbitrarily reported, and the documents sent to the procuratorate only indicated the death of the suspect who robbed the post office with a gun.
In addition, no public trials were conducted, but since the home of Shinada Asada’s grandparents was a small city, what happened in the post office should be described in detail as rumors of various plots.
And the rumors spread very quickly throughout the city. In the remaining year and a half of elementary school, Shinoda Asada, who committed an inadvertent loss, has since been crowned with all the nouns that can represent "murderers."
And after going to junior high school, her surroundings became completely ignoring her existence, but the surrounding vision had no effect on Asada Shino because she had no interest in joining a group. .
It's just that after so many years, "that incident" still entrenched in her heart. The scars that "that incident" left deep in Asada Shino's heart still made her feel very painful, and there was no recovery at all. sign.
Moreover, Shinoda Asada will feel very painful as soon as she thinks about the original things. Since the "that incident", Asada Shino just sees things like firearms and will immediately cause vivid memories at that time.
Then she would be directly caught in the severe shock symptoms, whether you saw the toy pistol in the child's hand on the roadside, or the gun on the TV screen.
These conditions are very easy to cause Asahi Shinano to cause shortness of breath, causing stiffness, loss of orientation, vomiting, and even severe unconsciousness.
Therefore, Shinoda Asada could hardly watch a drama or a movie. She also happened several times because she watched a teaching tape for the social sciences course, because there were guns that she could not touch in the teaching tape.
Asada Shino's junior high school had a very hard time. She almost passed the time by looking at the literary work titled "White Fox Fruit" written in the darker corner of the library, which is a relatively complete full-length novel.
When Shinoda Asada said to her grandparents that she wanted to go to work far away after graduating from junior high school and was strongly opposed, she told her grandparents that she at least let her live with her parents when she was a baby Tokyo went to high school.
She really wants to go to a place where there are no haunting rumors and curiosity, because she can be 100% sure that as long as she continues to live in this small city, her psychological trauma will not be cured in her life. .
This symptom of Shinoda Asada has been diagnosed by the doctors in the hospital as a typical post-traumatic stress syndrome. She has also received countless psychological consultations in the past five years, and she has obediently followed the doctor's instructions to take the medicine.
But this has no obvious effect. The doctors who seem to have the same smile on their faces can only touch or scratch the surface of Asada's mind, and there is no way to reach the injured place.
The stupid doctors are sitting in the clean clinic, and they are constantly talking to Shinoda Asada: "I understand, I can understand your mood, it must be very painful, it is really hard for you, relax ."
No matter how many doctors Asada Shinoki has consulted for diagnosis, those doctors almost always said this kind of words. Asahi Shinoda was listening to them while he had heard these words that he had heard countless times, while being in his own heart. Despise them.
You speak so nicely, have you ever shot anyone?
To be honest, when Asahi Asada listened to those doctors who came to diagnose herself, she really wanted to ask them directly like this, but when she thought that the other party was coming to diagnose herself, she would endure. Down.
Nowadays, Shinoda Asada has made self-examination. She shouldn't think about that kind of thing in her mind at that time. It was because of her attitude that she couldn't trust the doctor, which made the treatment impossible.
But even if it is like this, "You said so nicely, have you ever shot anyone? "This is still the truthful words of Shinoda Asada, she doesn't know whether what she did is good or bad.
Perhaps Asada Shino just wanted to hear those who made a definite opinion about this, of course, no doctor can answer it, because all the doctors are talking in vain, they don't feel her mood at all.
But even if Asada Shino suffers from the memory and the typical post-traumatic stress syndrome that she has never been able to eliminate, she never had the idea of ​​ending her life because she did not regret that she buckled at that man. Lower the trigger.
When the man pointed his pistol at her mother, Shinoda Asada could only do that, and even if she returned to the moment of the incident, she would do the same because she wanted to protect herself Mother! ! !
And Shinoda Asada knew that once she chose the most foolish way to escape suicide, then the man who was shot by himself would die in vain, how could others not know, at least she thought so.