Chapter 538: Green childhood (3)

In those few days, when I had time, I took a mirror and looked at it. When I saw it, I felt that I was not looking good. Then I fell into the mirror with anger, and the mirror that was so innocent was broken one by one.
Finally, my mother couldn't stand it, and specifically asked me to talk. I think she was probably heard from Ye mother. After thinking for a few days, I decided to talk to me deeply.
She said that I am still too young, and now it is important for my studies. I should not spend my time in other places.
I know that other places he said refer to things I like Ye Haowen. I am still quiet in Ye Haowen’s dissatisfaction with my emotions. When she listens to her, she asks her if she is too young, so Ye Haowen Will reject me.
Mom almost nodded without thinking, saying that it must be like this, saying that boys do not like girls who are younger than themselves, saying that they like girls who are similar to their age.
I naively thought it was like this, and blamed my mother for saying why I should be born so late.
But even if my mother told me a lot, let me focus on the current study, but I still think about Ye Haowen, thinking about what he will do, when he thinks that he is with other girls, he feels uncomfortable with the monkey. of.
I still used to go to school at home every day, but I didn’t happen to meet it once.
I am very upset, I don't understand why he must hide from me so tightly. Does he really like the Chinese school flower girl?
I was not happy during that time, especially unhappy, I even secretly went to the store to buy beer, and learned to lose love on TV.
It was the first time I drank alcohol. When I drank the first bite, it was difficult for me to vomit, but after all, I resisted it because I wanted to forget those unhappy things through the wine.
However, after a bottle of wine, I have slowly adapted to the taste of beer. When I drink all the three bottles I bought, I don't know what I did last.
When I woke up the next day, I only felt that my head was cracking, and I only wanted to knock it with my hand.
When my mother came in, I trained me a bit. I was drunk. I sang and danced all night. I made the whole family sleepless all night, but I still gave it to me. After the drink, I really feel a lot more comfortable.
Maybe my brother told me about my drunkenness. After I left school that day, he took the initiative to wait for me at the door of my school, but his expression was very serious, and there was no such thing as a normal sling. I looked at some real fears. a feeling of.
He said that he had something to tell me, took me to the park near the school, we sat down on the stone bench in the park, I asked him where he had been in the past few days, he did not speak, just looked at the front.
I pouted, some grievances, and asked him why he was hiding from me. In fact, I knew why he was hiding from me, but he was not willing to ask me.
He looked at the sky for a while, turned his head and looked at me seriously, and then said that he really only used to be my sister, let me not do those naive behaviors, he would not like me.
When I heard him say this, I feel so uncomfortable. My heart really wants to crack. I bite my lip, don't let my tears fall, and ask him why? Is it because I am too young?
He nodded and said that, as his mother said, he said that he likes to be older than me. He also said that he watched me grow up and always only used to be my sister.
I am not willing to say that the feelings of childhood will be good.
He shook his head and said that I was not a green plum or a bamboo horse with him because the two were too old.
I am very angry, shouting at him, age, age or age! Ask him to say that others do not say that love is not divided into height and age, why do you always use age to make an excuse to reject me.
He looked at me for a long time, then gave me the simplest list and asked if I would like a boy who is still in the third grade.
I didn't respond. He was setting my words. I didn't think that I didn't think about it.
Then he smiled and said that I was the third-grade boy who I didn't like for him.
I have the feeling of lifting my own stone and licking my own feet. I can’t say anything about the rebuttal. I can only glare at him.
The ‘negotiation’ got the result he wanted. He smiled and reached out and licked my head, so that I would stop stealing alcohol in the future.
I was still angry because he set my words, unhappy to open his hand, and yelled at him that I didn't want to be his sister!
After shouting, I immediately ran the sprint and ran. I thought he would follow me behind me as soon as I was a child, but when I ran for a while and then turned around, I realized that there was no such thing behind me. His figure.
The grievances in my heart rushed up, and the tears could not be controlled.
When I got home, my mother and Ye mother chatted in the yard. When I came in, I stopped talking.
I didn't have the heart to guess what they said before I came in. I was still saddened by the words that Ye Haowen had told me before.
Did not say hello, did not speak directly back to the room, closed the door, fell on the bed, some uncomfortable crying.
Mother and Ye mother finished talking, came in, saw me crying in bed, then helped me to follow me and I like Ye Haowen so much.
My rebellious grievance buried my head in her arms and cried and told her what Ye Haowen had told me.
My mother didn't say that she hated it. She only said that I was still young and would meet someone I really liked in the future.
I pushed her away, and some of the temper turned over. I hate them saying that I am small. I am sure of my own feelings, and my feelings are not related to my age.
Finally I sighed and left. I don't know how long I cried that day, but I knew that I was crying and sleeping.
When I had breakfast, my eyes were red and swollen. When my grandfather saw a distress, I was not worth a few words for Ye Haowen. Even my brother was beaten by him.
After eating breakfast, Dad called me into the study room. He asked me if I really decided to feel good about Ye Haowen.