Chapter 119: Gu Tingchen is still alive

Xi Zhan was invulnerable. He didn't shake my hand away, but asked me indifferently, "Forgot what I said yesterday?"
　　 I said: "I remember."
　　 Xi Zhan at this moment is very cold, I guess he regrets going to the police station to save me, I firmly grasped his palm and said: "I understand what the second brother means, and I also understand that I am not worthy of you..."
　　 I want to say something more, Xi Zhan suddenly interrupted me coldly and asked me a particularly fatal question, "I ask you, if Gu Tingchen was still alive, would you still say these things to me?"
　　 Xi Zhan is making assumptions.
　　 Assume that Gu Tingchen is still alive.
　　 Who would think about the question of hypothesis? !
　　 I don’t know how to answer him, but I understand that I have to answer, and my voice firmly said: "I will."
　　 Because the person I like now is Xi Zhan.
　　 Gu Tingchen is my past.
　　 Hearing this, Xi Zhan hooked his lips, very small. I have never seen Xi Zhan smile before, and it is not an exaggeration to be shocked.
　　 I rubbed his palm with my fingers in confusion, and heard his cold voice say: "Yoona, you still feel hesitated now, but I know, sorry, I can't rely on you."
　　 "Xi Zhan, then why are you treating me..."
He interrupted me like an unsentimental machine, and said lightly: "Stop asking me why I should be so naive to you, Yoona, don’t talk about my feelings for you! You have to figure out what you need. Is it Gu Tingchen or Xi Zhan?"
　　 Xi Zhan is always mentioning Gu Tingchen and making inexplicable assumptions. I looked at his deep eyes and asked: "If we don't mention Gu Tingchen, I will ask you a question. Are you happy with me?"
"I answered you yesterday." Xi Zhan looked at me holding his hand and said in a cruel voice: "I never like to repeat something. If you want to hear it again, I can tell again. You never! Remember, don’t take my indulgence as your laissez-faire capital, this is not an example!"
I shook my mind and suddenly loosened his palm. From the bottom of my heart, I just let it go, but remembering what Yuan You said to me, chasing him is a long way to go, don’t be afraid of Xi Zhan’s indifferent rejection .
I stared at the indifferent man in front of me with moist eyes, and said stiffly: "I don't care! I just want to like you now! I used to love others very forbearingly, and I have never taken the initiative to fight for anything, but silently followed him. Right! Don’t do what I used to do now, I should say out loud whoever I like!"
Xi Zhan’s complexion was faint, it seemed that I heard my declaration of love without any waves. I shook his palm again and said grievously: "You can reject me as you please. Anyway, I just want to follow you, unless you follow me completely. Disappear into the world!"
　　 He was silent, I threatened him on the contrary: "In this way, we will return to the bridge and the road, no matter what happens to me in the future, I will not accept your kindness. You want to get rid of me unless you break it clean!"
　　 "Shi Yun."
　　 Xi Zhan rarely called me Shi Yun, unless he was really angry, I squeezed his palm firmly, suddenly made a bold move, I stood on tiptoe and kissed his cheek.
　　 I did this just because I wanted to provoke him.
　　 I did all this because Yuanyou taught me.
　　 He said that holding on to Xi Zhan doesn't work.
　　 Because he can be more reserved than me.
　　 Xi Zhan, who was kissed by me, looked at me slightly wrong, and then was full of complexity, and his voice calmly seemed to come through the distant light years and said: "Gu Tingchen is still alive."
　　 I was stunned at the same place and suddenly released his palm. Xi Zhan looked at me with a clear gaze and said, "I have arrived in Wucheng."
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　　 Xi Zhan left me alone and left. Looking at the car shadow he was going away, I suddenly understood why he kept mentioning Gu Tingchen.
　　 Because he always knew that Gu Tingchen was still alive.
　　 I was ecstatic when I heard that Gu Tingchen was still alive. I wanted to see him immediately. What if I see him?
　　 Could it be that I told him that I am not in love?
　　 I finally mustered up the courage to let go of Gu Tingchen, and finally mustered up the courage to listen to Yuan You's words and take the initiative to Xi Zhan, but now I was beaten back to the original shape by a word of Xi Zhan, and there was no way to escape.
　　 But one thing suddenly became clear to me, and that was that Xi Zhan did not have no feelings for me. He did this only because Gu Tingchen was still alive, and he was afraid that I would still have illusions about him.
　　 Xi Zhan thought I would return to him if Gu Tingchen was alive.
　　 What should I do now?
　　 How should I face Gu Tingchen? !
　　 From the bottom of my heart, I know that I can only be with Xi Zhan if I solve Gu Tingchen's affairs! !
　　 Yes, I choose the latter between Gu Tingchen and Xi Zhan.
　　 I like to be taken care of, spoiled, and blessed.
　　 Only Xi Zhan can give these to me.
　　 Gu Tingchen and I will eventually become the past.
　　 I thought this way at the time. I thought I could go forward bravely as long as I settled the matter between Gu Tingchen and me smoothly, but I forgot about the impermanence of the world.
　　 When I was about to turn back to the apartment, a strange number called me. It was a local number in Nanjing. When I connected, I heard a familiar voice and asked kindly: "Sheng'er, where are you?"
　　 I said in shock: "Gu Tingchen!!"
　　 "Well, it's me."
　　 After a pause, he said, "I'm still alive, and come back to you in good health. I just drove to Tongcheng, where are you?"
　　 The emotions in my heart are very complicated, and I am overwhelmed with ecstasy, not sure how to face him.
　　 But he and I will meet again after all.
　　 If you can't escape, just face it calmly.
　　 I said my address, Gu Tingchen hummed a little and explained: "I have been in a coma for the past four months. I'm sorry I couldn't come back to you. I was wronged!"
　　 I shook my head and said apologetically: "It's okay."
　　 It should be him who was wronged from beginning to end.
　　 After he had a car accident, I vowed to forgive him in front of him, but in only four months I began to empathize!
　　 And just now I was still confessing! !
　　 Besides, I have to show him later.
　　 Gu Tingchen was in Tongcheng and arrived soon. He drove a black Porsche and parked in front of me. The window slowly came down, and I saw that dreamlike face.
　　 is extraordinarily handsome and full of life.
　　 He is appearing in front of me alive at the moment, I walked to him in tears and muttered: "It's great, Gu Tingchen."
　　 Very good, he is still alive.
　　 He tilted his eyes and curled his lips and said, "Do you miss me?"
　　 I nodded and said, "I really miss it."
　　 "Get in the car, I'll take you to a place."
　　 I shouldn’t have said anything that would ruin the mood when we first met, but now... I can’t hold back between him and me.
　　 Some things must be said clearly.
　　 I gritted my teeth and said, "I have something to tell you."