Chapter 198: The child is gone

I had a dream in which there were my two children. They could not walk yet, crawling around on the ground unconsciously.
　　 And the man I love is sitting on the sofa.
　　 A family of four, happy.
　　 "Miss Shi, wake up..."
　　 Someone is calling me.
　　 I slowly opened my eyes and saw the doctor's anxious face, I exhaled heavily and asked anxiously: "Where is my child?"
　　 The doctor did not speak, and the nurse on one side comforted me: "It's stitching, you can see them later when you go out."
　　 I heard that I could see the children in a moment, and I was instantly at ease, grinning and wanting to see them impatiently.
　　 After finishing the stitches, the doctor pushed me to the advanced ward. Song Yiran rushed over and held my palm with moist eyes.
　　 There were tears in her eye sockets, which seemed to be pouring out in the next moment. I shook her palm back and smiled and asked, "Is the child beautiful?"
　　 "Pretty, the most beautiful child I have ever seen."
　　 I asked happily: "Two daughters or two sons?"
　　 She replied with tears in her eyes: "Dragon and phoenix, one male and one female."
"Miss Song, you are not very happy when you look at it." I closed my tired eyes and said joyfully: "I'm so tired. The doctor said I can't move for the time being, and the child can't leave the sterile due to not having a full term. Room, wait until I wake up to see them."
　　 I fell into a coma again, dreaming dazedly, there were no two children in the dream, only the indifferent man was left.
　　 He was only a few meters away from me. I remembered that I was scarred by going to Finland twice to find him and I did not dare to approach him again.
　　 The man in the dream called me, "Yoona."
　　 I shook my head, never daring to approach.
　　 I am afraid, I am afraid of him.
　　 I never have the courage to approach him again.
　　 "Yoona, where's the child?"
　　 He asked my child coldly.
　　 I opened my eyes abruptly, and Song Yiran saw that I was awake and squeezed my palms tightly. I was breathing heavily and did not relieve for a while.
　　 Song Yiran sadly asked: "Did you dream of something?"
　　 After a long time, I asked, "Where is the child?"
　　 Song Yiran hesitated and said, "I'm sleeping."
　　 I relieved and said, "I want to see them."
　　 Song Yiran called me with tears, "Miss Shi."
　　 I asked her patiently, "What?"
　　 "The two children are sleeping in the morgue."
　　 I got up abruptly to get out of bed, Song Yiran hurriedly ordered Jing Yi to stop me, I snarled and said, "Let me go!"
　　 Jing Ye did not hear what she was moving, and I cursed: "Get away!"
　　 Maybe my aura was too strong, Jing Yi let go, I hurriedly got up and ran outside to ask where the nurse's morgue was.
　　 I went to the morgue under the guidance of the nurse.
　　 Entering this cold space, my heart suddenly calmed down, I smiled and asked the nurse, "Are they still sleeping?"
　　 "They..."
　　 The nurse stopped to point me to their location.
　　 I used to see two pale-faced villains. They are so small, probably only three or four kilograms. I hugged them in my arms and coaxed softly, "Hey, mom is here."
　　Good boy, my mother is here with you.
　　 They didn't respond to me, they didn't even cry.
　　 I sat on the ground holding them and smiled and asked, "What do you think you should take? I suddenly don't want you to follow my father's last name. Will you follow my last name? It seems that my mother is also from the Xi family."
　　 Their bodies are cold, and I suddenly burst into tears: "Actually, you left Mom, right? Is it because I'm not good enough?"
　　 In my heart, no matter how much I deny it, I can't go against the facts.
　　 The fact is that I am separated from the two children.
I tightened my arms and wept, so Song Yiran slowly came in and squatted beside me, comforting me with a gentle voice: "Miss Shi, don't feel sad, they are asleep. Can you go back to the ward to rest first? Your wounds It's all cracked and blood is flowing everywhere."
　　 I didn't take care of Song Yiran, and fell into my own grief, unable to extricate myself. I worked hard and cautiously for ten months, and even broke with Xi Zhan, but after all, I did not keep them.
　　 I murmured: "What shall I do from now on?"
　　 How to face the future life.
　　 I have no hope of living.
　　 Song Yiran said bitterly: "Miss Shi's future is still very long, and the two children are with you, everything will be fine."
　　 I cried heartbreakingly, my arms held the child tightly and refused to let go, and finally fainted and was carried back to the ward by them.
　　 It is already three days after I wake up.
　　 Jing Yi said that the two children have been buried.
　　 Jing Yi also said that he was buried in the grave of Xi's family ancestor by Tan Wen.
　　 I stared at him in a daze and asked, "Have I had a baby?"
　　 Hearing this, he changed his mouth and said: "No."
　　 Yes, never.
　　 I have never had any children.
　　 I closed my eyes and said, "Go back to Tongcheng."
　　 Jing Yi went down to arrange, I got up and stood by the window looking at the scenery outside, the beautiful sunset light shining down the sky.
　　 The sunset is infinitely good, but it's almost dusk.
　　 Infinitely good, but it’s almost dusk.
　　 I smirked and said goodbye in my heart.
　　 Goodbye, my babies.
　　 Mom's sadness is unparalleled, and it hurts to death when she thinks of you, so she can only suppress herself and stop thinking about you.
　　 Jing Yi is reliable and can leave soon.
　　 I did not say hello to Song Yiran and quietly returned to Tongcheng.
　　 I'm afraid to see Jiu'er when I say hello.
　　 When I see Jiuer, I think of my two children.
　　 And two children were born in August, Leo.
　　 No name and no surname.
　　……
　　I have been in the apartment since I returned to Tongcheng. Two months later, the wound had healed and I quickly found a tattoo artist to tattoo the scar from the caesarean section with a purple eustoma flower.
　　 The overlapping petals bloom, small and exquisite, burying traces of the past.
　　 I have been staying at home for the past two months since my child died. My parents, Yu Luoluo, Gu Lanzhi, etc., when they sent me messages asking about my child, I replied one by one that they did not keep it.
　　 I didn't save it, I still had my soul.
　　 I smoked a cigarette and sat by the floor-to-ceiling window staring at the rain outside the window, dimly, and soon I received a call from Tan Yang.
　　 I hesitated and never answered.
　　 Then she texted me, "Drinking?"
　　 The person who poured her glass actually invited me to drink.
and many more!
　　 She invited me to drink?
　　 I replied and asked: "Have you returned home?"
　　 "Well, Xi Zhan's power in Europe is stable and has returned to its previous state, and now he is beginning to rectify his domestic power."
　　 After eight months, he came back.
　　 seems to be faster than expected.
　　 But so what?
　　 I did not reply to Tan Yang's message, but sent a text message to Yu Luoluo.
　　 I remember she said that she was on a business trip in Tongcheng a few days ago.
　　 She returned to me soon, "Sister Shi Sheng, are you looking for me?"
　　 I asked her blankly, "Drinking?"
　　 I'm so depressed, drinking can be considered excretion.
　　 "Well, where can I come to find you."