Chapter 361: Makes me feel alienated

This letter is heavy in my hand. I found it just now, but I never thought of opening it. After all, it is Gan Shuang's relic. I am not interested, but Shi Nuo is left here!
　　 And I’m surprised that Gan Shuang actually wrote a letter!
　　 It seems as if I knew my life was not long ago!
I put the letter in my handbag and went into the old house. Under the leadership of the servant, I went to the hall. Xi Zhan had already put her mother in the coffin. Because the mistress was buried last time, I can’t invite any more seats this time. The family's collaterals can only silently bury Gan Shuang beside my father, although I don't think she is qualified!
　　 But the person has passed away and left in such a cruel way, I will no longer judge who is right and who is wrong, who is right and who is wrong.
　　 I was guarding at the entrance of the hall. Xi Zhan knelt in front of his mother's coffin as a vigil for him. The past two years have been really not peaceful.
　　 Too many people have left us!
　　My biological father, Xi Zhan's two mothers, my biological mother, Xi Zhan and I have all come to preside over the funeral four times.
　　 I returned to Xi Zhan’s courtyard not long after staying in the hall. The bunch of narcissus had withered, and the maple leaves in April were red.
I sat in front of the threshold looking at the artificial lake in the courtyard and kept thinking about things. Whether it was my biological parents leaving or Xi Zhan’s two mothers leaving, I didn’t feel much sadness in my heart. I just felt sorry and sad for my mother. , After all, we have only met a few times and there is not much affection, but I know she loves me!
　　 I sighed: "I am not coldhearted."
　　 I never feel cold, because this blood is very hot.
　　 Otherwise, I wouldn't have loved Gu Tingchen like that.
　　 Jing Yi was on his side and heard the question: "What did the master say?"
　　 "It's nothing, I just lament the impermanence of the world."
　　 I never thought I would be the only blood of the Xi family.
　　 I never thought that the Xi family would be my power.
　　 I took out Gan Shuang's letter from my handbag. I was hesitant to open it, but I touched a hard object.
　　 I opened it and saw a necklace inside.
　　 pendant is a diamond tear.
　　 There are some ages.
　　 I opened the letter and found that Gan Shuang had written a lot of last words.
　　"My Zhaner,
My mother killed Shi Sheng’s mother. This is the mother’s long-cherished wish for many years, so the mother does not regret it, even if she knows that Shi Sheng will not let me go, even if she knows that the woman’s adopted son will not let me go, the mother does not regret it because the mother Finally, but the big hatred in my heart, there is no longer a concern in this world, including you.
　　 Zhan'er, don't blame your mother for being cruel.
　　You are a wild species born by your mother.
　　 Even mother doesn’t know who your biological father is!
　　 Mother really, really, really never loved you.
　　 Even if my mother died, my mother never loved you.
　　 The mother's love is Xi Fu from beginning to end.
　　 are my brother Shen Nian.
　　 Mother loves him, I love him to the bone!
　　 His mother followed him silently for more than ten years when he was young, and finally became his wife. He even went to Tibet to pick me Gesang flowers to please his mother!
　　 So you have to say that he doesn't love his mother...
　　 My mother would never believe it.
　　 If he doesn’t love me...
　　 How does he treat me like this?
　　 Zhan'er, you always say that he doesn't love me, you always say that I live in my own world, you always persuade me to let go of everything...
　　 But how can I let it go?
　　 Mingming said it was him who had only married me.
　　 But he was the one who picked up his aunt and wife later!
　　 He even came in to marry that woman later, he even wanted to divorce those concubines and even divorce me...
　　 Has the mistress of the Xi family ever been driven back to her natal family?
　　 Would you let me accept the insults of the world and pierce my backbone?
　　 Mother didn’t do anything wrong, why should she bear this?
　　 Zhan'er, Brother Shen Nian really loves me!
　　 He just has a bad memory...
　　 He just easily forgets our feelings.
　　 In fact, he loves me!
　　 He really loves me...
　　……"
　　 There are still a few pages behind, and I will never read what Gan Shuang wrote, because the perfidious person is really my father!
　　 Ganshuang is paranoid, but it is also my father who made the mistake first!
　　 But her sentence...
　　 Mother really, really, really never loved you.
　　 Say important things three times.
　　 Gan Shuang does not love Xi Zhan...
　　 Let Xi Zhan see it, it will be chilling.
　　 But this letter was written to Xi Zhan!
　　 and Ganshuang also called Xi Zhan a wild species.
　　 I sighed deeply and asked Jing Yi beside me, "Gan Shuang wrote in the letter that he doesn't like Xi Zhan, do I want to show Xi Zhan?"
　　 Jing Ye hesitated back to me, "This is a letter for Mr. Xi."
　　 Jing Yi secretly persuaded me to personally give Xi Zhan.
I asked him incomprehensibly, "Is there really a mother in the world who doesn't love her children? I want to give birth to Yun'er and Yooner, even if I take my life, how can she pay it back when she is dying? How about Xi Zhan? Gan Shuang, this woman is really cruel and heartless!"
Jing Yi thought for a while and said: "The master of the family can think about the problem from another angle. Maybe the mistress said this because she didn't want Mr. Xi to worry about her anymore! After all, how can there be parents who don't love their children in the world? Maybe it’s a lot of guilt."
　　 Jing Yi said that, I felt better!
　　 I continue to look down the letter
　　 "Mother is too stubborn in this life!
　　 stubbornly separated from him for decades; stubbornly quarreled with him on the day of his death, still asking who he really loves; stubbornly stubborn that he was about to die, he was determined not to let him go.
　　 Mother is too stubborn.
　　 stubborn to do too many things wrong in this life.
　　 But my mother really never regretted it.
　　 I have no regrets even if I die.
　　 Zhaner,
　　 Mother really sensed that the danger was approaching.
　　 is more aware of your disappointment in me.
　　 You shouldn't shelter me anymore, right?
　　 You really won't shelter me anymore!
　　 Because your mother's eyes are thin and cold.
　　 But even if you no longer shelter your mother, I will not blame you, after all, I have never treated you more than half the time!
　　 Zhaner,
　　I hope we will no longer be mother and child in the next life!
　　 I hope you will no longer be a wild species in your next life.
　　……"
　　 No wonder Gan Shuang wrote this suicide note!
　　Because she noticed that Xi Zhan gave up on her.
　　 I have no interest in reading the content at the back. Instead, I collected this letter and gave it to Jing Yi, "You can return it to Xi Nuo."
　　 Xi Nuo will give this letter to Xi Zhan!
　　 After Jing Yi left the courtyard, I got up and walked to the hall. Xi Nuo was accompanying Xi Zhan, and I did not go in and disturb them both!
　　 But Xino turned around and saw me inadvertently.
　　 She nodded to me and then left the hall!
　　 Xinuo now knows how to advance and retreat.
　　 In fact, she always knows how to advance and retreat.
　　 never oversteps the moment.
　　 After Xi Nuo left, I walked to Xi Zhan's side. I hesitated for a long time or knelt beside him, "Sorry."
　　 I kneel to Ganshuang, just for Xi Zhan.
　　 But it does not mean that I forgave her.
　　 I will never forgive her in this life.
　　 Xi's thin and cool voice returned to me, "You are right."
　　 Xi Zhan said I was right.
　　 He never blamed me no matter when and where.
　　 Even if I directly caused the death of his mother!
　　 I whispered: "Xi Zhan, you can blame me."
　　 Xi Zhan Ningyin, "Why don't you call my second brother?"
　　 I was startled, "Huh?"
　　 "When you call me Xi Zhan, you will make me feel alienated."