Vol 2 Chapter 523: Their growth

The Actors of the World Enter the Starlight Chapter 523 Their Growth As a node on the Silk Road, Dunhuang, in the past, the desert fortress that people have remembered, has reappeared green and covered with vegetation because of the government’s efforts to improve it. The rate has reached 70%. If you don't know the destination of travel, it is hard to imagine that the sky has been filled with yellow sand and refused to be easily spied by travelers.
　　 But there are still several deserts with ancient ruins that have not been rectified and preserved the ancient historical features, such as the Dunhuang Mingsha Mountain where Chen Dongsheng lived at this time.
　　 This is a deserted village in the desert. It is quite far away from the scenic spot. Basically all the residents in the village have moved out. Only a few old people who can't afford to leave their homeland are willing to accompany the village that has been gradually eaten by fine sand to its extinction.
At seven o'clock in the morning, the wind blew up in the desert, and the fine sand lightly slapped against the decaying door panel, awakening Chen Dongsheng who was still asleep, trying to drag his tired body to sit up, but after struggling a few times, he felt the rapid loss of physical strength. , He finally gave up the idea of ​​getting up, lying on the bed, gasping for breath.
Among the four students, his living environment is the most difficult. If it’s just a simple life of poverty, it’s okay to say that the most painful thing is the long-term low-grade fever and diarrhea caused by the inadequacy of the soil and water. It started from the second day after he came here. To this day, I still haven't recovered. Forget it, I'm afraid it's been nearly a month.
　　 Don't care what medicine to take and what bottle to take. As long as he takes a sip of water here, he will have diarrhea. Even if he has taken the bottle, his condition rarely improves.
　　 At this time, his face was sallow, his lips were chapped, and his eyes were no longer energetic. He looked at the ceiling hollowly, his hair had been trembled, and he could not catch a few lice in it.
His stomach began to gurgle again. He held on, gently rolled over and got out of bed, pulled some rough straw paper, carefully picked out the grass stems in the paper, and staggered towards the dry toilet. It took a long time before he came out of the toilet. With his legs spread apart, he walked back to the room with eight-character steps. Everyone could see this final wheel. His chrysanthemum suffered a lot.
Before long, the middle-aged female PD who followed Chen Dongsheng to Dunhuang pushed the door and walked in. The smell in the room was not very good, and the dust was obvious in the sun. She frowned slightly and walked motionless as if she was dead. Chen Dongsheng put his warm palm on his forehead and felt it carefully.
　　 "I didn't burn much today, is it still bad for my stomach?"
　　 "A little bit."
　　 "Take some medicine, the mineral water I brought, have you eaten this morning?"
　　 "There is no food at home."
She helped Chen Dongsheng up and leaned him against the wall beside the bed. She leaned over to the window and looked at the instructions of the medicine with the help of the sun. With her back facing Chen Dongsheng, she asked about life trivial matters, and squeezed three pills into his palm. PD I walked to the grain tank and opened it to take a look. As expected, the grain had already reached the bottom. This was because Chen Dongsheng was saving and having a fever and couldn't eat it. Otherwise, the grain prepared by the film crew should have been eaten clean a week ago.
　　 "Let me take you to the county to buy some food, and also eat some nutritious tonic for the body. Yesterday I told Teacher Lu that he approved me a note."
Looking at Chen Dongsheng, who was not energetic and sipped the mineral water a little bit, she was a little unbearable. Chen Dongsheng was originally a little thin, and now she was tortured with the skinny side. It was not that she had never thought of letting Chen Dongsheng give up shooting, lest she What was wrong with her body, the show team did not share the responsibility with her, and she really didn't want the body of this very talented young man to be ruined on this show.
　　 Originally, she had communicated with Lu Ze. If he still has a fever in the next few days and the local hospital can't solve it, let him come back. Otherwise, it will be troublesome if some root causes are left. Lu Ze is unwilling to have such a thing happen.
But this kid is still a bit stubborn, and he has to hold on here. No matter who persuades him, it’s no use. Repeatedly stressing that he can overcome all the problems and complete the homework assigned by Lu Ze. This kind of non-entertainment really makes the show. The crew had a headache, but the middle-aged group of film crews admired the young man's perseverance.
Hearing that PD would take him to the county, Chen Dongsheng hesitated and didn’t really want to go. He could clearly perceive how heavy his body was. Forcing his body to move is very difficult for him now. , But this is another thing that you must do when you experience life here. In the end, he gritted his teeth and stood up on the head of the bed. His head was a little dizzy. He didn't dare to shake his head to make his brain awake, so he could only close his eyes and wait. The dizziness passed.
Taking advantage of Chen Dongsheng's effort to get up and put on his coat, PD is also helping him to gather the items on the table. The square font is covered with manuscript paper. Her gaze swept across. There is no smearing of typos in the book. This is already the first time he has written here. Four personal biographies have been published, thinking about him under the camera, dragging a sick body to write a book, I can't help but sigh again for his perseverance and hard work.
In a short time, the two of them went out and drove by PD to the county. The bumps all the way made Chen Dongsheng's face whiter and whiter. At the same time, he began to sweat and swallowed saliva constantly. The PD who was driving intently did not notice his abnormality at first, but thought He closed his eyes and rested, and turned off the radio to make him have a quieter rest, but gradually, PD found that his breathing became heavier and he couldn't help worrying.
　　 "I feel uncomfortable? Do you want to vomit?"
　　 Chen Dongsheng did not dare to open his eyes, his hands were very dead, and he squeezed out the words from the roots of his teeth and replied: "It's okay."
　　 "Don't be okay, tell me if you want to throw up."
　　 "There is... a little bit."
At the moment of parking, Chen Dongsheng opened the door and jumped out, supporting the trees on the side of the road and vomiting constantly. PD handed over a bottle of water and waited patiently until he searched his empty stomach again. After being completely deprived of food, such The feeling of vomiting slowly faded, leaving only the weaker and weaker Chen Dongsheng being helped by the PD back into the car.
The vehicle continued to drive and finally arrived at the county seat, but it was intermittently driving along the way. From time to time, something went wrong. PD knew that he could not drag on any longer. Taking advantage of the effort of bringing Chen Dongsheng to breakfast, he quietly called Lu Ze and informed him. At the moment Chen Dongsheng's situation, Lu Ze also has no opinion on this, but the last time he persuaded Chen Dongsheng to give up, he failed once. This time the PD had to notify his parents again, hoping that he would listen to their parents.
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　　 "Dongsheng, answer the phone, your mother is calling."
try{mad1('gad2');}catch(ex){}　　 He was drinking soup. Hearing PD's words, his hand holding the spoon trembled, turning his head and staring at PD's eyes for a few seconds, slowly removing the spoon Put it next to the bowl and didn't respond, just put it to the ear after answering the phone.
"Hey."
　　 "Son, why are you uncomfortable?"
　　 "It's not uncomfortable anywhere."
　　 "I heard the teacher from the program group say that you have been sick for a long time, and you should come back if you don't work well. Your health is important. Listen to my mother. I just miss you."
　　 "I'm fine."
　　 "You are obedient, hurry home, the teacher of the program team told me that you are not going to eliminate you when you go back now, you can go to the audition after you recover from the illness, you listen to me, now go back and pack your things and go back..."
　　 "Toot..."
Without waiting for his mother to say anything more, he hung up the phone and returned the phone to PD. However, PD did not answer and saw that she did not take it. Chen Dongsheng put the phone on the table and drank the clear soup without raising his head. Soup moves much faster.
　　 "What did your mother say? You can go back with me to pack things after you drink."
　　 "I'm fine, just get used to it in two days. The five-week experience cycle is coming soon, and now I don't want to leave."
　　 "You also said that the day is coming soon, just a few days in advance."
"No need to."
The phone called again, playing soft piano music and pure music. Neither of them had the first time to get the phone. They looked at each other and looked at the familiar phone number. Chen Dongsheng finally took action. He didn't answer, and he just hung up. Up the phone.
Within thirty seconds, the phone came again, he hung up, then rang again, and he hung up again. In the next few minutes, Chen Dongsheng hung up several calls. Even though PD was dissuaded from the side, his action of hanging up the phone became more and more serious. Resolutely.
The call came again, and he wanted to hang up again, but he was blocked by PD, grabbed the phone, and didn't speak after connecting. He just held it in his own hand and held it in front of Chen Dongsheng, but what she heard was not what she heard. The expected mother was comforting, but she could clearly hear her anger without turning on the speakerphone.
"I'll let you come back! Give me back now! You don't want to participate in the show anymore! Chen Dongsheng, I'm talking to you, can you hear me! I'm talking to you! Don't go to college even if you do this! Book! Who taught you to hang up my phone? Go home! Did you hear me? Go home!"
The last shout to go home was hoarse, as if anger burned from the heart to the throat. The uncontrollable anger obviously made Mother Chen out of control. The swear words used in the past when he lost his temper were also scolded out of his head, without any scruples. Her child is being photographed.
　　 "You are the one who asked me to sign the contract, and now you are also the one who asked me to go home. Why?"
　　 "I am your mother! Isn't that enough? Go home!"
Chen Dongsheng didn’t speak, but just glanced around. Many people in the restaurant watched him being filmed curiously. Now that they were caught in a quarrel, more people couldn’t help but slow down and look around curiously. The next second, PD got up and walked out. Outside the door, carrying Chen Dongsheng on his back, started talking with Chen's mother.
After a long time, PD returned to the seat, but her face was not very good. She glanced at Chen Dongsheng’s bowl, the soup had already bottomed out, she resisted her emotions and smiled at Chen Dongsheng: "Are you full? Come again. bowl?"
　　 "She's going crazy with you too, right."
　　 Chen Dongsheng sank his head and did not answer PD's words, but instead asked his questions. In fact, he already knew the answer in his heart.
　　 "It's okay, let me give you something more."
　　 "She has always been like this, never controlling her emotions. Once she gets angry, she will scold whoever she sees, even outsiders."
　　 "Your mother is just a little more anxious, but it is for your good. Your physical condition is indeed too bad. This time you will listen to your mother. Go back and pack your things later, and I will take you home."
"She always does things that make me feel embarrassed. Is this also good for me? She doesn't care about scolding me, I'm used to it, but she always scolds my friends, and then everyone stays far away from me. Yes, is that all right for me?"
He seems to have hidden a lot of thoughts. From childhood to older, a lot of things that embarrassed him or even became knots were caused by his mother. However, many elders, including PD at this time, said that his mother was very used to him, which made him very accustomed. Confused, until today, I still don't understand where his mother is used to her.
　　 He has a strong and violent and reckless mother, which leads to the coexistence of his cowardice and rebellious consciousness. The two are constantly intertwined. In the end, the cowardice will win with the help of filial piety and defeat his instinctive spirit of resistance.
Every time he experiences this kind of involuntary pain, his spirit and self-esteem will be tortured. Just like his father who always emphasizes that men must have backbone but is always silent and scolded, he will be blinded for life by this woman who is always full of swear words. Shadows.
In the end, he chose to accept, and he began to flee again mentally. He even wanted to escape PD's side as soon as possible, because his mother lost her temper at this aunt who had been taking good care of herself when she was in a frenzy. It's not the first time he feels faceless facing others, but no matter how many times he experiences it, he will feel shame of facelessness, and it will become more and more intense.
He didn't eat another bite of food, but got into the car on the way back with a low expression. There was no more words along the way. Perhaps this bowl of soup had an effect, or perhaps the medicine he had just taken was so good that he went back. He didn't vomit on the road until he returned to the room alone and gathered up all his little luggage.
　　 The four biographies of characters were grasped by hands, the pages flowed, and the text was neat and beautiful. He stared at the manuscript in silence for a while, and finally, he put all his efforts during this period into a woven bag.
When 　　 went out again, the young heroic spirit who appeared in the imperial capital under Lu Ze's hands was like bacteria, and was killed by the sun.
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　　 "Boarding of flight XX123 to Tianfu is about to begin. Passengers who take flight XX123 are requested to board at gate 6."
This time I was in a hurry and the program team had to deal with the scene, so only a cameraman was sent back with him. Chen Dongsheng was in poor health. The cameraman helped him carry his bag, and the confiscated mobile phone returned to his hand. Chen Dongsheng Wearing earphones, sitting in the window seat, visiting the busy ground crew.
try{mad1('gad2');}catch(ex){}　　 is fifteen minutes away from take-off, and the time of a few songs is comparable to other rushed passengers. At this time, Chen Dongsheng hopes that the time will go slower, and even stop there forever. It's also good here.
　　 But suddenly, the music stopped, the screen lit up, glanced at the caller, and he answered the call.
　　 "Ms. Lu."
　　 "Have you boarded the plane?"
"Ok."
　　 "It's not late, it's good, how are you?"
"I?"
"Yes, I heard Gao PD talk about this morning, I called, I just hope you don’t get low, you just experience life for a few days, it’s no big deal, people’s time is limited, you can’t pick one up. The script is to find a suitable place to find inspiration and live for a year or a half. The most important thing is what you can experience in a limited time. The so-called experience of life requires quality, not time, and your own personality. It’s more sensitive. I believe that your feelings will be stronger than those of the other three students. I heard Gao PD say that you have written four short biographies. When you go home, you can send them to me by express mail. As for you, take a good rest when you get home. Good spirits, what kind of mirrors can I try if I break down."
　　 "I know the teacher."
"In addition, I want to talk to you about your mother. I don’t want to excuse her. Today, your mother did not do the right thing. But you also have to know that human thinking is limited, and all extreme personalities have limitations. It is caused by the stress response after being hurt. If you understand your mother’s life, you will actually find that the irritable mother in your eyes is actually a victim of life. Although her stress response will also bring It hurts you, but you have to believe that she is definitely not intentional, just like the person who brought her trauma can hardly realize what kind of harm he has caused to others, and her desire to control must come from treating you Absolute love. These words of mine are not just for your mother. I just hope you can understand. When you understand the reason for a person’s emotional change, you can prevent his emotional change in advance. Your mother is getting older, and I am afraid that you will change it. Nothing, but you can help her. You are her son. She needs you to save her. Her inner wounds can only be healed by you, and no one else can. Why is she so impatient? It's nothing more than life. Too many grievances hurt her self-esteem, just like when she hurts you, you will also have that kind of powerless anger, eager to find other people to vent, I hope you can understand what I am saying, and you must stand out. You and your mother are holding this breath, come on, I'll be waiting for you in the imperial capital."
　　 Lu Ze hung up the phone, leaving Chen Dongsheng who hadn't recovered his mind. His thinking gradually returned to himself and his eyesight regained. The ground crew left at some point and disappeared. The flight attendant reminded him to turn on the flight mode.
　　 Maybe big data eavesdropped on the conversation between him and Lu Ze, or it may be a coincidence that the song in the earphone was broadcast to the end just before the flight mode was turned on, and the next song that was loaded was a song about mom.
　　 The plane began to accelerate and flew to the sky. He watched as the desert that he could see from standing in the village became the size of a fingernail from what he thought was endless. For some reason, a tear suddenly fell down.
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　　 "If you see or don't see me, I will be there, neither sad nor happy."
　　 "If you love or don't love me, love is there, not increasing or decreasing."
　　 "Come in my arms, or let me live in your heart."
　　 "Silent, fall in love."
　　 "Silence, joy."
　　 The phone hung up, Lu Ze walked out of the corridor and looked towards the playground. Wu Chun stood on the stage and softly read the poem "The Silence of Banzaguru Baima" that appeared in "If You Are the One 2".
When Li Xiangshan was about to pass away, the appearance of this poem was paired with this slightly melancholic light music. The uneuphemistic sadness gradually made the children in the audience cry. It was another movie and another school. Wu Chun and several other TV hosts stood on the stage. After accepting the heartfelt applause of the children, they slowly stepped off the stage, took the children by the hand, and led them back to the classroom.
　　 "Sigh...whoop."
Before leaving the scene, Lu Ze didn't let the cameraman follow him. He walked to the car he was driving over, leaned back against the car door, stepped on the pedal with his left heel, lit a piece of tobacco, took a deep breath, looked up at the blue sky, and slowly exhaled the smoke. , There are footsteps in my ears.
　　 "Teacher, although you are handsome, you are suspected of being handsome."
　　 "Let’s stop talking nonsense, let’s get on the bus at www.uukanshu.com, it’s okay today."
　　 "Really? Thank you teacher!"
　　 Wu Chun grinned, and hopped into the co-pilot carrying a small schoolbag. Lu Ze put out the cigarette, started the vehicle, and drove towards the hotel where Wu Chun was.
　　 The little girl was praised today. She was obviously very happy. She sat in the co-pilot, leaned her head against the window and fiddled with her mobile phone. She laughed from time to time and didn't know what she was looking at. Lu Ze glanced at her and asked.
　　 "Have a boyfriend?"
　　 "Please, sir, you asked it all the time last time, and I said no~~ I will set a script for the next time with Brother Chen. They said that next time I will read a character with more lines."
　　 "Are you nervous? Dare to take on the big job."
　　 "I'm nervous, so I must seize all the time to rehearse, so I think it's better to let go of finding a boyfriend first. No hurry, no hurry."
　　 "Didn't you say that you wanted to find a boyfriend? Why are you not in a hurry now?"
"Because I have been thinking about what you said to me last time these days. I also think that now I can help more people. I feel it... can make these children happy and touched because of me. It’s much more fulfilling than finding a boyfriend to take care of me. I want to do more meaningful things like this when I have the opportunity. As for boyfriends, I’d better step aside.

Her vocabulary is a bit general, but it is understandable. Seeing her serious expression of this sentence, Lu Ze looked at her a little, his mouth curled up, his eyes were relieved under the sunglasses, and he was driving past. After the ramp, the speed increases.
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