Chapter 1872: I, I will always look at you

But as soon as Li didn't hurt him, he stretched out his hand and put on the bed behind her, forcing her to face herself, and said in a depressed voice: "You treat him so affectionately?"
"..."
If it were in the past, Nan Yan might still think that Li is not hurting to ask "something."
However, after that time, after that nightmare night, she had fully understood that Li would not hurt her feelings.
What he asked was himself.
It's my feelings.
He may have confessed his fate and accepted the fact that he married Zhu Feng and became the noble concubine of Yan Country, but he still could not calmly accept his feelings for Zhu Feng, especially after experiencing those torments and hardships.
At the beginning, he wanted to save himself because of his own suffering.
Thinking of this, Nan Yan took a deep breath.
She raised her head and faced the wolf-like eyes that were close at hand, and said as calmly as possible: "Li is not hurt, I know what I should do."
"..."
"Should love, should hate; should resolute, should forgive, I am sober."
"..."
"Everything I do is emotional, but it is also the result of repeated deliberation."
After listening to him, Li Bushang's face also paled.
If just now, his question was like a heavy punch, which hit Nan Yan's body heavily, then at this moment, every sentence of Nan Yan's answer was also like a heavy punch, hitting him with one punch and one punch. .
His breath became cramped.
Nan Yan said: "If you want to ask those questions yourself, then what I just said is an answer."
"..."
"in case,"
Having said this, Nan Yan's eyes flashed slightly: "Those questions, you are asking on behalf of that person, then I can answer you too—"
"..."
"What I want to do is my own decision."
"..."
"No one can order me, no one can use me!"
Li Bushang was caught by her firm voice and the sharp gaze in her eyes, and she couldn't speak for a while.
Just stared at her blankly.
One of his hands was still supporting Nan Yan's head. At this moment, his fingers trembled slightly, and his joints were stretched white.
It was he who wanted to move and suppressed himself so hard that he was not allowed to move.
His hand unconsciously wants to touch her, wants to touch her, even if it only touches her breath.
These days, there are countless, invisible barriers between them. He can only look at her from a distance, for fear of shocking her. That night, she was crying under him, like a frightened and frightened look. , He never wanted to see it again.
Sometimes, he regretted it.
Regret should not be so impulsive, should not desperately want to possess her.
Even now, when two people face each other like this, she can no longer see her gentle and smile, even if it is just an illusion to himself, he is willing to drink poison to quench his thirst.
Now, there is nothing left.
Li Bushang let out a heavy sigh, and almost broke his fingers before he suppressed the urge to touch her and put his hand back.
He said, "I, I know."
At this time, Ran Xiaoyu's voice came from outside the door: "Have you finished talking? Hurry up after talking. It's dawn. What if someone wants to come over and see?"
Li Bu hurt's breath sank again.
He looked at Nan Yan, but saw that Nan Yan only lowered his head and did not meet his gaze, as if he didn't want to see him anymore, and said, "I have already given you the answer you want."
"..."
"But if you want something else, I have nothing!"
"..."
"You, let's go."
Li Bushang clenched his fists.
At this moment, the strength of his whole body wanted to condense on his fist and smash his impulsive self with one punch to get her.
He said solemnly: "I see."
After speaking, he straightened up, turned and walked out.
Nan Yan looked up at him.
This child, every time he is separated, when he meets again, he does not recognize him. After a few years, he has been completely reborn, and the same as the one who would steal a steamed bun to prevent his mother from starving. , The black and thin little boy is different.
Before I knew it, I went so far.
She knew that this child could not go back to the past.
That kind of heartache that couldn't look back was really real, and it afflicted her and both of them.
Li Bushang walked to the door and suddenly stopped again.
He didn't look back, only lowered his head, his back even slightly rickets, making his tall figure look at this moment, even showing a trace of fatigue.
He said solemnly: "You can rest assured."
"..."
"I don't want to hurt you, nor do I, I won't hurt you again."
"..."
"Just now, if it weren't for those sand bandits who appeared life and death, I wouldn't have come; if it wasn't for you almost fell, I wouldn't show up."
Nan Yan's heart was tingling again.
She said: "Don't hurt..."
Li Bu hurt one hand on the door and said: "I just hope you are well, look at you well, I, I am enough."
"..."
"I, I will always look at you."
After speaking, he opened the door and walked out without looking back.
The wind, bringing the cold in his heart, blew in.
Nan Yan only felt the sorrow and sorrow in her heart that could not be resolved, and even forced her to blush.
It's Ran Xiaoyu.
She couldn't wait to rush in, walked to the bed and asked: "Manny, he--he did nothing?"
Nan Yan lowered his head, only shaking his head.
At this time, she only felt chills all over her body. The chill was not caused by the cold wind pouring in from the open door or rising in her heart.
Intertwined with the sorrow and sorrow in the heart, it is indescribable.
Ran Xiaoyu stretched out his hand and stroked her shoulder, suddenly remembering something, and looking back, Xue Ling was still standing at the door, looking at them in disbelief.
Ran Xiaoyu's heart sank.
Just now, she only cared about not letting Li not hurt her, but she didn't care that Xue Ling was still there.
She witnessed the whole process.
Thinking of this, Ran Xiaoyu didn't care about Nan Yan, and immediately stood up, walked directly in front of her, and said solemnly, "What did you just see?"
"I--"
Xue Ling was still immersed in the shock just now, when Ran Xiaoyu asked suddenly, she couldn't react at all, and she stammered.
Did not wait for her to react.
Ran Xiaoyu said with a cold face, "I tell you, you didn't see anything."
"..."
"No one else saw this."
"..."
"If anyone else knows what happened today, I can't spare you!"