Chapter 859: I really like her

Nan Yan looked at him and said in a desolate voice: "There are many, many things, but my concubine hasn't figured it out. It's like—"
Zhu Feng said: "What?"
Nan Yan said softly, "For example, why did she hurt the emperor? Why did the emperor hate her? If the emperor really hates her, why didn't he kill her? But he wanted to keep him, so that they could not recognize each other over the years? "
Zhu Feng said, "Is this all the questions you want to ask me?"
Nan Yan looked at him quietly.
The two people looked at each other like this for an unknown period of time. In the quiet Chen Gan Palace, she heard almost ethereal voices: "Actually, concubine, what I want to ask most is-does the emperor still love her? If the emperor still loves her, What about the concubine?"
Zhu Feng slowly stood up from the bed and walked towards him step by step.
He didn't answer her words, but looked down at her almost red eyes.
Not only for a few days and nights, staying up all night, covered with red blood, there is also a kind of tears about to come up, and it will be slightly red.
Zhu Feng raised his hand and stroked her cheek.
Then he said: "You ask these things, don't you think that what I have said to you in the past are all lie to you?"
"The emperor will not lie."
Nan Yan whispered: "The emperor can only speak, and will not finish the truth."
"..."
Zhu Feng's eyebrows frowned again.
Nan Yan looked into his eyes and said earnestly: "It's like the relationship between Concubine Ning and King Wei, it's like—like your past with Concubine Ning. In fact, these things have always been in my heart. A thorn, a knife, stuck in my heart."
"Nanyan..."
"The emperor, if you don't pull out this thorn and this knife, I don't know when, I will really be too painful, and I will really die."
"..."
"The emperor, the emperor once said that I may be jealous, but in fact, from start to finish, I am not jealous of anyone, I just--"
"Just what?"
"I just want a truth."
With that, her tears flickered.
Seeing her like this, Zhu Feng remained silent for a long time, and finally sighed, "Okay."
He looked back at Wei Wang, who was unconscious because of the high fever on the bed, asked to come in to take care of him, and then took Nan Yan out of the room.
Outside Chengqian Palace, it still seemed very deserted.
Even if Zhu Chengxuan came back, he had not had time to become lively, only the rising sun was faintly spilling on the corner.
As Zhu Feng walked forward, he said: "You know, I was a prince who was not liked by Emperor Gao."
"Concubine knows."
"But in fact, I am not only disliked by Emperor Gao, but also disliked by my brothers."
"..."
Nan Yan was stunned.
Thinking back to King Ning and King Jing's attitude towards him, it is hard to imagine that they didn't even like Zhu Feng.
However, when I think about it, the way I see him is that he has already succeeded in becoming the king of war in the north, and even after he became the Emperor of the Yan Kingdom after he became the king, but his past, I really don't know.
"From the beginning, when everyone is playing together, they almost never take me. Even if I go, there is a feeling of not being accepted, like an outsider."
"..."
"I have been here for so many years."
Nan Yan looked up at his back.
Zhu Feng is very tall and has broad shoulders. Every time he walks behind him and looks up at him, he feels like looking up at the mountain.
But today, seeing his back, I was shocked by his loneliness.
He has always been the support of others.
Few people know that sometimes he also needs to rely on others, but he can't tell.
Nan Yan whispered: "Why don't they like you?"
"..."
Zhu Feng let out a heavy sigh, as if holding back something, without speaking.
Nan Yan said: "Why don't you like you? There must be a reason. There is a right or wrong. You can't-alienate the emperor for no reason, don't like you."
Zhu Feng did not answer.
Just staying silent, he took two steps forward, and then said: "But when Qin Ruolan appeared in front of me, it was different."
"...!"
Nan Yan's heart suddenly sank.
Finally speaking of Qin Ruolan.
It also talked about her "different" and her "special".
Nan Yan's voice trembled slightly: "Why, different?"
"She is the daughter of the prince's young teacher and the niece of Concubine Qin's niece. Although Concubine Qin had already passed away at that time, because of this relationship, she often went to and from the palace and played with our brothers."
"..."
"She didn't alienate me."
"..."
"From the day I met, she has always been gentle to me. At that time, I was only seventeen or eighteen years old, and I was...very obsessed with her gentleness."
Nan Yan didn't speak, but clenched his fists hard.
The nails are about to pierce the skin and pierce into the palm.
The slight tingling sensation made her try to suppress herself. After a long time, she said softly: "Really?"
Zhu Feng continued: "Later, everyone grew older and began to have a relationship between men and women."
He stopped suddenly and turned to face Nan Yan.
With a serious and defenseless look, he said to her: "At that time, I did like her."
"..."
"I really like her."
"..."
Nan Yan could not speak.
Her palm hurts and her heart hurts, but she has nothing to say.
It should be said that in that situation, it is hard not to like Qin Ruolan, a beautiful girl who stays together every day, and she is the only person who is gentle to herself in the cold imperial city.
Imagine that even if it was yourself, if someone like him appeared when he was aggrieved in the Si family, then he would probably fall in love.
I just want to think so.
When I spoke, the voice was choked with a slight trace of tremor: "I understand."
Zhu Feng looked at her deeply.
Nan Yan took a deep breath, but turned her head away, avoiding his gaze, and then said, "Then, what happened later?"
"..."
"Why did she say again, she was sorry to the emperor, she hurt the emperor."
At this time, Zhu Feng's eyes trembled slightly.
It seemed that there was an old wound that had been torn apart abruptly. He slowly turned around, continued to walk forward, and said, "Do you still remember what I told you about Ye Quan? ?"
"of course."
Ye Quan is Ye Yi's brother.
Originally the prince sent to Peking Yanwang Mansion to monitor him, but because Zhu Feng rescued Ye Yu, he also regarded Zhu Feng as his benefactor and did not reveal any news about him to Jinling.
And then, he died.
Zhu Feng said: "He told me before he died that he was not the one who leaked the news to Jinling. I knew that there was eyeliner by my side."