Chapter 901: A simple heartbreaking past

I have to say that the simple wines are not very good. Her stubbornly working body relaxed after entering the Yanzilou, as if a string broke tightly on the battlefield. It was immediately relieved.
The simple wine list is too bad.
Gao Leng watched silently as soon as he entered the room and then crouched on the bed, giggling and laughing frantically, shook his head, reached out to help her take off her shoes and asked softly, "Do you want to drink water?"
"I'll be very good, mother, a bottle of water is enough." Jian Xiaodan said vaguely, even with the tone of childish language, looked at Jian Xiaodan coldly, and saw she curled up Lie his body, bury his head deeply in the quilt.
Hehehe, Jian Xiaodan laughed again.
"You're drunk, drink some water first." Gao Leng frowned, holding a wine glass in one hand and supporting her body in the other. When she sat up, she found that Jian Xiaodan was in tears. It was true that she was in tears, all over her face. It's the kind that keeps tears falling and can't stop the tears.
It's just that her face is still smiling, with a decent smile, even a cute smile.
It seemed that someone struck a string in Gao Leng's heart, and it sounded a pain.
"It turns out it's not my mother, it's my father." Jian Xiaodan looked at Gao Leng and wiped away tears. He smiled, but his eyes were very misty and he was very drunk. Gao Leng understood what she said, and he nodded: "Well, it's Dad, you can go to sleep."
In the memory of the original owner Gao Leng once went to a social welfare institution. The children there saw that all the staff were called moms and dads. They must have been drunk and remembered their childhood. Gao Leng helped her to wipe away her tears, thinking of her expression at the entrance of the orphanage this morning, and couldn't help but become worried.
Just knowing that Jian Xiaodan grew up in an orphanage, what was her childhood like?
"You..." Gao Leng hesitated for a while, he was a little afraid to ask, it was like trying to uncover someone's scars.
"It's Gao Leng." Jian Xiaoshan fixed his eyes and recognized Gao Leng again. After crying and laughing for a while, lying on the bed was quiet, lying there motionless. Gao Leng helped her cover the quilt gently, and saw the small single nestled in the quilt, with his hands and feet curled up together. This is the sleeping position of extremely insecure people.
"In the future, when I have money, I will open a social welfare institution." A simple, soft voice came from the bedding, choked: "In the welfare institution, I will forbid anyone to visit. Anyone who engages in activities to bring children to experience the feeling of family, I will refuse all these activities."
Gao Leng sat down and looked at Jian Xiaodan, who was only half of her head exposed. She closed her eyes and kept tears.
"Do you know? Every time someone visits or visits, every time someone from a company or organization comes to help us, it is a catastrophe for us." Jian Xiaodan sniffed: "We are classified Right."
Classification is closed.
This description made Gao Leng feel painful.
"I am a able-bodied child, and I live with other able-bodied children on the first floor, and on the second floor are children with cerebral palsy, disability, autism, etc. Every time someone organizes a visit, I always bring a lot of things, small toys, small clothes, and many books. . We want all of them, but we can’t give them all. The children on the second floor are strictly prohibited from going downstairs. It would be bad if they scare the people who come to sponsor. So the ones who choose to greet the guests are sound and obedient Children. I am one of them."
Jian Xiaoshan stretched out her hand, a small brown mark on the palm of her hand looked like a trace of a fire burn.
"Once I sneaked into the kitchen and wanted to give my brother a piece of cake. My brother was on the second floor. He never had the right to go downstairs on this occasion. Every time I looked up in the yard, I watched my brother leaning eagerly. In front of the window, there were several children with cerebral palsy smiling silly. I wanted to steal a piece of cake for him, but I was burned. I kept silent and kept smiling to greet the guests. Fortunately, no one noticed."
A smile appeared on Jian Xiaodan's face, and that smile seemed innocent and cute as if he had been trained.
"Those who come to send warmth, they are kind, but they don't know it is charity. In order to get this thing from them, we started to fight a week before we learned that the other party was coming. We always call the staff as our father. Mom, in fact, some staff members have very bad tempers. It is common to be scolded. But even if scolded, we will laugh."
Jian Xiaodan giggled.
"Those who send warmth will always say,'These children are so cute, so sensible.' They don't know, we don't smile, don't behave cutely, and those who send warmth will lose your part. "
"Then why should you refuse others to bring children to experience family life?" Gao Leng resisted the heartache in his heart, and wondered: "These children have never experienced the warmth of a family. If a family can bring them to experience the experience, no Is it good?"
Jian Xiaodan didn't speak for a long time and closed his eyes.
For a long time, Gao Leng thought she was asleep, struck her under the quilt and prepared to leave, but suddenly heard Jian Xiaodan sobbing in the quilt. She kept crying and crying, and couldn’t stop sobbing like a wound. The little animal, crying coldly, the heart is broken.
"Okay, okay, I don't want it anymore." Gao Leng patted her back gently.
"The staff who can take us out have to undergo rigorous assessments and are now open to the society. At that time, only staff who had worked in the orphanage for five or six years were allowed to take the children, and only one could be taken out a month." Jian Xiao Just sniffed: "There are more than fifty healthy children in our orphanage. Only two or three can be taken out a month. Do you know how much I paid to get this place?"
"Spending the weekend outside was the luxury life I wanted most at that time. How big is the orphanage? Everyone wants to go outside to see. So those staff who can take children out, we will all shout sweetly Mom and Dad will behave very well. So that everyone will stand together on the weekend. Mom and Dad can call their names. Every time they call their names, they will be taken out for the weekend. My heart is at that time. It's about to jump out."
"You were only sent to the orphanage at the age of five, and there are many opportunities for able-bodied children to be taken out?" Gao Leng asked.
Jian Xiaoshan shook his head: "I was taken out once."
"Why is it only once? You look lovely and smart."
"Well, in order to be able to go out for the weekend, my mouth is sweet. Sometimes I can't eat anything and I can eat it all, and I also help the staff mop the floor and clean the toilet. Everyone likes me. Unfortunately, I am number one. I behaved badly when I was taken out the next time." Jian Xiaodan shook his head: "That time my dad took me out to experience family life. He passed by the canopy and asked if I wanted to eat lollipops. I said yes, and he gave it to me. One, but I want two, and he frowned. When I was sent back to the orphanage on Monday, my father said I was too greedy and didn't like me. Then no one took me out. Later I learned , As long as the children who are taken out will speak very sweetly, and if they ask them if they want to eat, they will only need a little bit, so that they will have a chance to be taken out next time. And I actually want two lollipops... "
"Two? Did you give it to your brother?"
"Yeah." Jian Xiaodan suddenly cried again: "My brother is just sick and his kidneys are not very good. He is neither cerebral palsy nor autistic, but he is locked up with those people. He also has emotional needs. I also want to be able to come out to play. I just wanted to bring him one more, but I didn’t expect..."
High cold nose sore.
The simple childhood memories hit the softest nerve in his heart.