Vol 2 Chapter 1424: Sadness in the soul

"In fact, for a while, I also thought I was a monster." Ravenclaw said calmly.
Ai Wen did not go to look at her eyes. He never thought that Ms. Ravenclaw actually suffered so much.
He knows that all reactions of the other side are based on high IQ simulations. I know that Ms. Ravenclaw is the smartest wizard in the world. This title has been recognized by all wizards until the millennium, and no one can surpass it.
However, Ai Wen does not know what is behind this, what kind of pain and suffering are bothering this Ravenclaw.
Perhaps in the eyes of other wizards, such Ravenclaw is a monster, even she describes herself as such.
Abandoning the absolute wisdom of all feelings is really a terrible magical talent.
"Perhaps some wizards want to get this talent, which will make them stronger, become more cold and human, as long as they can achieve ambition, they don't care what to pay, but I hate it, say, this is probably For the first time in my life, I was able to feel my feelings, that is, I hated my talents and even disliked myself.
Ravenclaw said slowly, shaking his head again.
No, I don’t know if this is a feeling. It may be more appropriate to describe it with the aversion of wisdom. My people want me to use this talent to lead the Ravenclaw family, but all my reason tells me to abandon this talent, I don't want to be the most powerful or the most Smart wizard, I just want to be a normal ordinary person. Is this too much?"
Ai Wen is silent, yeah, is this request too much? !
This may be the humblest and most common wish he has ever heard, but it is extremely difficult for Ms. Ravenclaw.

When I was young, I was crazy about finding ways to abandon this talent, even thinking of death, ending my life, so that I could end up as a terrible monster...

"Professor, you are not a monster!" said Ai Wen, "You are, you are one of the greatest wizards."
Is Ravenclaw a monster? She is definitely not, she is one of the greatest wizards in the world.
Whether it's creating Hogwarts or trying to fight against evil spirits, it's enough for everyone to remember her credit.
A black wizard like Voldemort is a monster. He uses temptation as a means to bring suffering to the world.
Ms. Ravenclaw is not, even though her wisdom is enough to see the hearts of the people, she chose to use it as a more normal person and become an ordinary person. Perhaps this is the pursuit of Ms. Ravenclaw for most of her life.
"Thank you, Avon, you are kind and able to bring warmth to others. Like Godric, Helga and Salazar, I am very glad to meet you, maybe because of your existence, let me I feel more like a complete person.
Ravenclaw smiled and said,
Since you have been to the Titans, should you read the memory I left on the crown?

Ai Wen nodded, and he remembered very clearly. At the end of that memory, Ravenclaw jumped into the boulevard of Carribdis in order to find a way to give up his talent, where the sea madly rolled. The spray is splashing, the torrent is turbulent, and the powerful tearing force in the center of the vortex is enough to shred everything inside.
Despite this, after Ravenclaw jumped into the whirlpool, Gryffindor did not hesitate to jump in.
In the turbulent vortex, he held Ravenclaw's hands tightly and never released, no matter what the danger ahead.
Even if it is death, Gryffindor will be with Ravenclaw.
In that memory, Ai Wen as a bystander clearly felt the idea of ​​Gryffindor.
He believes that these ideas must be clearly and unambiguously conveyed to Ms. Ravenclaw, even if she has no feelings...
"In the moment when the big vortex sucked me in with Godric, I suddenly felt something." Ravenclaw closed his eyes and seemed to recall carefully. "That is a warm and strange feeling. They are I uploaded it from Godric’s body, and as my blood flowed slowly, I finally flowed here.

Put her right hand on her chest and put it in the heart.
"I think this is love, happiness, the feeling I always want to get. At that moment, my wish has finally come true!" Ravenclaw said, "even if this feeling is so weak, but they do Really appear on me, I feel warm, I become a normal person, my soul truly integrates into this world."
"Professor, did you finally find a way to abandon this talent at the time Titan?"
"No, I didn't ask him for this." Ravenclaw smiled and said, "At the moment when Godric and I jumped into the vortex, I had found the feelings. With these, I was satisfied. No need and no need to look again."
Is this already satisfied? It really is……
"After that adventure, I and Godric found Salazar and Helga. The four of us created Hogwarts. I think I finally found what I should pursue. One is better than getting emotions. "I have more meaningful dreams," Ravenclaw said. "Later, I gave birth to Helena. I thought I would be like a normal mother... but I didn't do it. I didn't understand what mother love, I just repeat the things I did when I was four years old, to imitate other mothers, but I never thought about whether I was doing it for Helena. Hey, even if I feel the feelings, I am still not a normal person!"
Helena’s tragedy is indeed related to Ravenclaw, but after I know everything, I think I should not blame her.
Ms. Ravenclaw does not want to do well, but she can’t really do it. In a sense, she is a poor person. She is more qualified than others to blame her destiny and blame the world, not the other. People blame her.
But there is a problem, Ai Wen still does not understand, he asked, "Why didn't you stop Barro just now?"
"Everything you see in the forest is a soul-level magic. Whether you or me, you haven't left Hogwarts, so you can't do anything." Ravenclaw whispered, "The magic of our soul follower's crown is to find another magic that exists in this world. This connection only exists on the soul level."
"If you use phantom visualization..."
"There is no magic that can make me appear in the depths of the virgin forest in an instant." Ravenclaw said, "I don't want to explain anything, Ivan, but I hope you can believe, I don't want Helena and Barro. The tragedy happens, this desire is far more than others. Maybe because I can't feel sadness, so the death of the two of them will hurt me even more. In places you can't see, my soul and that are insignificant. Feelings are being tortured by wisdom..."
Her voice is still so calm, but it hides the sadness of despair.
Instead of listening with your ears, Ai Wen is felt with the soul.