Chapter 29: Definition of love

Xu Baichuan asked, "Is there a difference between what you do and what your mother does?"
Tang Jinxi said: "I never thought of hurting you ..."
Xu Baichuan raised his hand to stop Tang Jin from going down and said, "The problem is not here. Whether you or your mother, you have already done what you have done, have you never thought of apologizing to me?"
Tang Jin froze for a moment.
"In your eyes, in the eyes of your parents, in the eyes of your friends, what am I? A piece of clothing? Wear it if you want to wear it or throw it away. Or is it just a dog, you feel good and call me over I ’m going to shake my tail and beg for mercy? When you ’re hard-working and tired, I ’ll have to roll my tail slumped?
Xu Baichuan squeezed the bridge of his nose and sighed. I should tell you this. You can help me solve these things, and I thank you very much. I did ... I thought you did it, I misunderstood you, sorry. "
The apology is already well known. He can find his fault and apologize in every accident in which he participated. He hopes that it will be rewarded and others can claim his own. This is not the case. He acknowledged himself. In that case, others wanted him to take it all.
Everyone wanted to be white and flawless, and then scolded the world for crows.
Tang Jin grasped Xu Baichuan's hand slightly. He intuitively felt that the conflict between the two was different from the past. Xu Baichuan was too calm. Calmness means calmness, calmness means thoughtfulness, and thoughtfulness means difficulty turning around. If Xu Baichuan is gone this time, it is likely that he will never find it. Just a little imagination, let him panic, he quickly said: "It's me who apologizes, I'm sorry, you don't get angry. It's cold outside, you don't leave today, I will send you where you want tomorrow ..."
Xu Baichuan said: "No need."
He walked to the bed and wanted to get his clothes. Tang Jin suddenly hugged him from behind. People who never talked softly were aggrieved and coaxed: "I didn't come to see me when I was hospitalized the day before yesterday. You left For three months, I didn't make a phone call and said I wanted to break up with me. I can't be angry about these, can you not be angry? "
Xu Baichuan's gesture was quick and he asked, "Do you think we have been together?"
Tang Jin held his hand tightly, and the two were deadlocked for a while. Seen from the back, Xu Baichuan's ears hidden in black hair revealed a small and delicate white auricle. Every time Tang Jin hugs him from behind, he always likes to kiss there. At that time, Xu Baichuan will ask for mercy. hide. The closeness was blurred because of Xu Baichuan's words. Tang Jin's eyes widened slowly, turning him around, his face was full of doubt and shock: "Are we not together?"
"Isn't it?" Xu Baichuan asked lightly, and then said, "When have we been together? Have you said it, or have I said it?"
Tang Jin's eyes looked like Xu Baichuan was looking at a madman, otherwise how could he say these incredible words?
Xu Baichuan has been suppressing his emotions. After pressing it again and again, he couldn't hold back. In the eyes of Tang Jin, he finally decided: "Have you ever asked me what I want once in these seven years? Have you ever liked me? Did your parents and friends despise me when I humiliated me? "
"Nothing at all."
"If you are together like this, then your lover should be a lot, the driver, assistant, secretary ... there are fewer than eight hundred."
"You say I'm angry, I'm not angry. I'm just one of your thousands of lovers. What makes me angry?"
...
He wanted to say something, but he couldn't think of a shot that could not be cleaned up, one sentence after another, and he was about to get out of control. Xu Baichuan didn't want to get embarrassed by Tang, and didn't want to take his coat.
Xu Baichuan's series of questions seemed to be tuned to the fastest tennis ball server, one after another, hitting his heart one after another, making a deafening trembling sound. Tang Jin never thought that what was supposed to be in the past would become an obstacle between him and Xu Baichuan. Xuan Bai stopped Xu Baichuan subconsciously, and when he looked back, he found that his eyes were red. The last time I saw him crying, it was still seven years ago-Tang Jin rescued Xu Baichuan from the basement, Xu Baichuan's palm was blurred with blood on his iron ruler, and tears flowed unconsciously on his face.
He has never seen Xu Baichuan have such a fragile mood for so many years. One possibility made him chill all over: Xu Baichuan shouted to him before and would get close to him. At that time, Xu Baichuan had abundant emotions. Burn for him. Now that candle is about to burn to the end.
Tang Jin has never been so helpless. His tall body was shaking. He embraced Xu Baichuan and said arduously: "I like you, don't you know? If I don't like you, why should I stay with you for seven years? Why are you here? "
This is the first time Xu Baichuan has heard Tang Jin say he likes it, and he will still be excited. But he was too old to live by heart alone. Tang Jin is now willing to bow his head for him, one day he will always get married, maybe not, but the person who stays in the end will certainly not be him.
He wanted to hug Tang Jin, stretch out his hand and retract it, push Tang Jin away, and seriously said, "I don't know. You never said that, I never knew. And it's not me but Song Youyu that you like. You didn't come to me because you liked it, but you weren't used to it. We weren't fit together. We've been delayed for seven years. Don't delay any longer. "
There was no fierce words, but only ordinary statements, but it was too difficult for Tang to breathe. He suddenly became trapped like a beast: "I like who I do not need you to tell me! It doesn't matter if you stay with you. Well! "
Xu Baichuan was unmoved. Tang Jin was even more panicked. The feeling of loss made him cold for a while, and even some goosebumps appeared. His throat was pinched, and he had to touch Xu Baichuan's wrist carefully, then hold it, and whispered, "I like you. I like you only. Do you believe me, and go back to city B, please? ? "
Tang Jin had no confidence and held it loosely. He broke away with a slight movement. Just like the connection between the two of them, if Xu Baichuan didn't try hard to grasp it, he would soon break away.
Long pain is worse than short pain, Xu Baichuan said: "Not good. Even if you like me, I don't want to like you anymore."