Chapter 604: Sacrifice, self-blame, feedback

"I really didn't want to be the savior (
Tong Ling refused the promotion order given to her by Qin Guang on behalf of the fleet command.
That was what she said at the time.
"Since 2685, I became a fighter for the first time in the Battle of Travellers. By 2713, I have been on the battlefield for 28 years. I have participated in seven major battles and performed special missions of 1,360. Twice. I'm still alive, and I have the credit of my own efforts to survive, but many comrades in arms gave their lives to cover me again and again is the most important reason why I am alive."
"My rank goes up step by step, from lieutenant officer to major general, but my comrades in arms have been changing. Few people have been able to fight alongside me until now. I often have the illusion that I have a military badge on my shoulders. The light is stained by the blood of my comrades. The more comrades I lose, the more dazzling the military badge."
"Others always praise me, saying that I am invincible, and the comrades in the Witten galaxy even gave me the nickname of the pioneer goddess. I am ashamed. But in the Witten galaxy, I belong to everyone. As an example, no matter whether I am calm or not, I have to accept these honors and titles."
"I'm becoming numb, thinking that I can do better so that I can be worthy of others' sacrifice for me. I think I'm used to sacrifices, and I think I've got a hard-hearted heart."
"But I have never experienced such a task. 267 people were dispatched, but I was the only one who returned in the end. I was wrong. Every comrade in arms has the right to live. No one is born to sacrifice for others. I shouldn't Numb, let alone calm. They gave me their energy and their lives, but I came back alone."
Tong Ling's tone paused briefly: "I...I really have enough."
"If I had given myself the ability at the time earlier, we could have prepared enough external energy modules for the T100 when we set off, or part of the smart weapons would act as a space tanker. Then we would have had the opportunity to avoid changes. If you sacrifice more, at least dozens of people will come back."
"I am too selfish, I am ashamed of my talent, ashamed of everyone's cultivation, and my faults are unforgivable, so I cannot afford the rank of lieutenant general."
Tong Ling's tone is very flat, but her attitude is extremely firm.
Qin Guang left angrily, and even the commendation meeting was cancelled because Tong Ling was unwilling to cooperate.
When Qin Guang left, Gao Xiaoqi and Opu tried to persuade them.
Tong Ling jumped down from the medical bed and waved her hand, "I'm fine. Go ahead with yourselves, I'm going to train."
"Ah! Big sister..."
Gao Xiaoqi seems to want to say something, but Tong Ling has already gone.
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Fanxing has stopped talking with Chen Feng and mobilized most of his computing power to cooperate with the analysis work of the Solar System Star Front Research Institute.
Yang Zhonghua has transmitted back a large amount of previously captured data related to the crystal water bear through a one-way encrypted channel.
The source of the data is not only Tong Ling’s slashing feedback, but also the dramatic changes that occurred when the zero space universe swallowed the water bear after the detonation of the fragmentation bomb.
The large creatures composed of virtual energy that can survive in the real-energy universe have extremely high reference value and are likely to bring a new technological change to mankind, and further narrow the gap between mankind and the master behind the scenes.
Both human scientists and Fanxing will go all out to perform deep deciphering.
Chen Feng wasn't busy, so he focused his attention on Tong Ling.
The analysis report placed in front of Chen Feng wrote that when Tong Ling had entered the "God of War", her mind was completely immersed in simulation training. The quantum storm of brain thinking was deeply integrated with Chen Feng's simulated combat personality in the T100 brain. Her intuitive reaction ability has reached the boundary of her ability, and her instant reaction, judgment, and nerve-controlled physical state have also reached the peak.
The process of synthesis and decomposition of adenosine triphosphate was accelerated to more than ten times the normal speed, and her body seemed to continue to explode with countless small nuclear explosions.
At this time, her logical ability, dynamic intuition, predictive ability, and reaction ability are the same as Chen Feng himself, breaking through the limits of the human brain.
This allows her to control the T100 to complete operations that others cannot imagine.
But she and Chen Feng are fundamentally different.
Tong Ling’s "God of War" is not innate. Part of it comes from her own hard training, and the other part comes from Chen Feng’s simulated personality in T100. This belongs to the hard work of acquired and forcibly done what she could not do. Like the ancient young swordsman, he has mastered a peerless magic weapon that does not belong to him.
The advantage of this is that it gives Tong Ling a personal ability that transcends the times, and proves that the value of humans can also surpass technology, but the disadvantage is that it makes her thinking immersed in simulated personality and gradually loses chaotic thinking. Diversity, judgment unconsciously relies on intuition, thinking slowly becomes quantized and mechanized.
Her mentality suddenly collapsed, she was sinking into self-blame and refused to relieve her spirit. This was the reason for her firm refusal to promote and commend.
She should have realized that others sacrificed for her not for her.
As long as there is a choice, everyone wants to live.
The martyrs went to death generously, just because they believed in her ability and believed that letting her perform better would be more beneficial to the entire fleet and more beneficial to the race.
Sacrifice in the war is inevitable, but if the purpose of the martyrs' sacrifice is forcibly locked to the individual, it will appear disrespectful to the martyrs.
Tong Ling can survive and accept the rank and commendation calmly, then her deeds with the 266 martyrs of the Han Jie will continue to inspire others.
In the eyes of the members of the Unknown Fleet, Tong Ling is no longer a separate entity. The spirit and will of the 266 martyrs will always live on her lieutenant general's epaulettes.
Tong Ling didn't realize all this.
Qin Guang indulged her too much.
Chen Feng could intervene strongly and force her to change her mind, but Chen Feng did not intend to do so.
Some things have to be realized on your own, and others' compulsion will only backfire.
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"Lieutenant General Tong Ling, please wait a moment. We need to conduct an emergency inspection and debugging of your armor. After all, it has just been restored and we have installed a tenfold energy module. I am very sorry, we did not expect you to come so soon. Shouldn’t you be honored in the Fleet Radio channel now?"
The technical person in charge of the logistics department said nervously to Tong Ling, who was still wearing casual clothes.
Tong Ling shook her head, "I'm not a lieutenant general. What you just said are all external equipment? I only need to use the whole brain link cockpit, is this okay?"
"Uh, this is fine."
"Okay thank you."
Tong Ling sat in the cockpit of the T100 again.
Compared to seven days ago, some minor changes have taken place in the cockpit, and some equipment has been upgraded.
Some modules that could clearly see the splicing traces became more natural, and the entire cockpit seemed to have grown like this by itself. UU Reading www.uukanshu.com
Countless biological links slowly twisted along the special metal surface, like a rainbow.
The neural link board has also undergone tremendous changes. It is no longer a tablet, but a deep penetration device covering the whole body.
Tong Ling whispered, "Start."
In the next instant, the chair under her quickly softened, and then spread upward, following her feet to the sides of her cheeks.
She was wrapped up like a mummy, and countless molecular-level nerve links penetrated her skin along the organic battle suit, connecting her neurons and nerve endings in the body.
Tong Ling quivered slightly before closing her eyes.
Her consciousness is once again merged with Chen Feng's simulated personality in T100.
Compared to the last time, there is a slight difference.
She no longer comatoses, no longer loses her active consciousness, but keeps her reason and thinking.
"Hello, Dear Pinnacle Soldier, and welcome. The armor is under commissioning and is temporarily unable to move. What are you going to do now?"
Chen Feng's simulated personality imitated Brother T's voice according to the preset instructions, and said to Tong Ling.
Tong Ling whispered in her heart: "For simulation training, I want to challenge the ultimate assessment again."
"You have not fully recovered, there is a certain risk of injury, please confirm whether you want to start the assessment?"
"determine."
Chen Feng saw everything in his eyes and shook his head slightly.
This girl is devilish.
Five minutes later, Chen Feng's expression changed instantly.
He discovered something very strange.
As Tong Ling reinvested in the ultimate assessment there and began to make various simulated maneuvers, his own thinking could not help but produce corresponding reactions.
Tong Ling's fighting instinct is being fed back to him through the resonance between Chen Feng and the simulated personality!