Chapter 42: Forty-second day

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I remembered that a long time ago, Ling Jun told me that he was tired from work. At that time, I didn’t have a diploma, and I was still studying. What I could do was part-time job in a Chinese goods store, as a clerk, or as an hourly porter in an Italian fruit factory, for six or seven euros an hour. .
Occasionally, taking advantage of Sunday to look for change man to play, I also saw some hideous scars on his legs.
I was shocked and asked him: "What's the matter?"
Mr. Ling glanced at it, and seemed to remember, Feng Qingyun replied calmly, "Maybe it was cut while moving the wooden box. It doesn't hurt."
"How could it not hurt? There is so much blood."
"It's okay, I'll pay attention next time, be good."
No matter how painful he was, he didn't cry, but I was full of tears.
Ling Jun likes to spend one-third of the money to take me on dates, eat or go to other cities after working for a month. Sometimes they buy small snacks or small gifts to bribe me.
I felt very distressed and said, "Should you save up and give it to you? Buying this probably wastes your three hours of work. You have to work hard for three full hours to have this money!"
Ling Jun laughed out loud and rubbed my head, "Money is used to spend, spend happily, this money is considered worth, otherwise the currency is meaningless."
I nodded ignorantly, this is the first time he explained to me the value of material.
I still remember when I was young before, I was naive, and I was afraid that Ling Jun would starve to death if he had no money to eat. I said, "I can steal a few cans of rice every day at home and cook for you, and I will steal a few of the vegetables. Soy sauce, salt and sugar It will be brought out carefully, and you will get more tired every day. You will definitely be able to eat!"
Ling Jun listened, froze for a while, then burst into laughter.
How can it be so funny! off!
I felt humiliated and ignored him for ten minutes!
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English used to be very poor, and I didn't even remember a few grammars.
Ling Jun really had a headache and helped me make it up.
At that time, the only sentence I knew was: "Doyouloveme?"
"Yeah." Ling Jun answered in a perfunctory manner, tilting his head and turning his mouth upwards.
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Go to Lingjun's house in the afternoon, he is studying.
I know that once Mr. Ling starts to read, he won't listen to anyone no matter how he calls. This partner has a spirit of delving into the book. Once the book is there, I will be a junior, and their relationship is indestructible.
No, I can only act like a baby and rub Ling Jun’s face, "Will you play with me? Kiss me?"
Ling Jun was indifferent, and I continued to work hard, "Will you accompany me? Just kiss!"
Suddenly, he stood up, walked to the window and pulled down the curtains.
I was stunned and asked him stupidly: "What's the matter?"
In the dimly lit room, Ling Jun was reflected by the light-leaking curtains, faintly and indistinctly.
He turned his head and answered me with a chuckle, "The wind is blowing in, it's a bit cold."
"Oh, all right." Before I nodded, Ling Jun suddenly approached...
He held on to the desktops on both sides, leaned over, and kissed him... Lie, he clearly said that he was pulling the curtains because of the cold, but he was afraid that the people on the other side would see this.
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When I first met Ling Jun, I was actually very gloomy and not cheerful due to family reasons.
I don’t speak much in reality, like a mute, I’m afraid of hearing sounds, because my mobile phone rang and was smashed by my family members. Since then, I’ve been afraid of making sounds. The phone is silent all the year round. I don’t listen to songs or watch movies. He doesn't like to turn up the volume, which is in sharp contrast with the energetic Lingjun.
It may be that fate is true. The first time I saw Ling Jun, I had a strong affection for him, like a moth, constantly tending to the heat source and flopping on both sides of Ling Jun.
In other words, Mr. Zero at that time was like a ray of light into my life. Flowers and plants bloomed on my originally barren ground, full of vitality.
I feel inferior and feel that my somber personality is not worthy of Mr. Ling. He is passionate, sunny, and can build a good relationship with people around him. But I can’t. I don’t have friends. I don’t know how to socialize with ordinary people. I love living in a mask. I don’t know who I am.
So Mr. Ling delineated a shell for me. In this shell, I don't need to contact anyone, any dark side of society, and all information is passed to me after he has screened it.
So I can be happy every day, because my armor is Lingjun, with him behind, I am fearless.
I have been tight-lipped about my life for so long, so maybe I can tell you why.
There is no absolute happiness, only relative happiness. I have had great misfortunes, so I have the courage to embrace Ling Jun so great and lucky.
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In fact, Mr. Ling is not as gentle and kind on the outside, he has a dark heart, and he is used to bullying.
Tonight, under the pretext of taking me to practice skills, he spent the whole night with me SOLO (LOL singled out).
I haven't won the whole game. I don't know how many times I was killed.
He was always happy, and on the other side of the phone, he chuckled and asked, "Have you been bullied?"
"..."
"Don't admit defeat?"
"At least you have to let me kill for a while..." I was not convinced.
He nodded clearly, "Oh, don't think about it."
After speaking, he laughed again.
Who laughed with you! Beasts and beasts!
The author has something to say: Good night, I have read very few articles recently, do I want to change it to Zhou Geng