Chapter 113: Look for him in the public thousands of Baidus (Part 2) (2)

After hearing this voice from me, Aunt Huang relieved the expression on her face. She glanced at me with relief, joy and meaningfulness, "Xie Niang, do you recognize him?"
I couldn't help but I didn't know how to answer, but Xihe spoke: "Aunt Huang, I think Xie Niang hasn't responded for a while. Let her tidy up for a while."
His voice is still so gentle. When I heard this voice, I finally woke up from the chaos and looked at Aunt Huang with a calm smile, "Auntie, look at me, it really is..."
Aunt Huang nodded: "I know, silly boy, you must be so happy." She gave me a push: "Go in."
Inside the house, Aunt Huang found a reason to go to her son's place, only me and Xihe. The sky was slowly fading, and there was only a light red cloud on the horizon, and every household lit up the lights. We stayed silent for a long time, and finally Xi He spoke.
"Why are you leaving?"
I shook my head: "Xihe, you know why."
There was another long silence. I saw the last piece of light disappear from the sky and the room became dark, so I got up and lit the lamp. The oil lamp was placed on the square table in the middle of the room, and the small one was lit with dim yellow candlelight, but it was indescribably dim. Turning my back to him, I quickly wiped my hand on my eyes, and turned around while protecting the lampstand with my hand.
Xi He got up for some time and stood behind me, his eyes looked at me almost obsessively, a little sad in there.
"Ville, don't refuse me."
With a "click", I don't know when, the tears fell, I didn't wipe them off just now.
I walked past him with a smile to myself, placed the lampstand where we were sitting before, and carefully watched the light beating up and down, and said gently and leisurely: "He, we are doomed, we can't."
I heard a long sigh, then my eyes went dark, and I fell into a warm embrace. I suddenly felt like a drowning person, and suddenly grabbed a straw. I want to have this embrace so greedily, how greedy I want to keep this warmth by my side forever.
His solid arms encircled me, and his slow and affectionate voice rang softly in his ears: "Don't refuse me, Vera."
The voice seemed magical, and my heart ached, and tears fell for no reason. But I can't shake my head anymore, my heart is struggling, contradictory, sorrowful, but also sweet, relieved, and open...
For a long time, I was motionless in his arms. I can even feel his breath, gently brushing on the back of my neck, I can feel the ruin of his heart, and his deep feelings.
But because of this, I can't accept it even more. He should return to his place. I broke free, just about to speak, but Xi He spoke.
"Vir, I know what you are thinking. I also know that you are for my good. But, do you know that for my good is to let me be by your side. We don’t need to be a couple, just let I am guarding you, it is enough for me."
I opened my mouth, and Xi He stopped me with a gesture. He seemed to think for a while, and then hesitated for a moment before continuing: "That day the queen mother went to Pengdao Yaotai and happened to hear what I said to you. Knowing my feelings for you. Maybe this is what she wants. Why are you out of the palace?"
He stopped, sat on the stool with me, gave me the calming smile he used to, and told me what happened that day. In fact, everything in this world has definite numbers.
When Xi He went to the island that day, he was ordered by Shen Xiyao to take a hand scroll. I didn't pass by the lake where I was, but because I wanted to see me, I went around specially. But he happened to see the nurse pushing me down into the lake, so he saved me. When I was in a coma, when there was no one around, he said the words he buried deep in my heart.
No, the Queen Mother learned the truth about Shen Xiyao's injury, and knew that I was pregnant, she came to the island to see me, and happened to hear what Xi He said in the outer hall.
Originally, Shen Xiyao kept me because of the child. At this time, the child is gone, and the only thing of value to the royal family is gone. What's more, Xihe is deeply attached to me. In this way, the queen mother has no reason to keep me, and naturally can't keep me in the palace.
Sending me to the Buddhist hall may be the best way to be clear-hearted and free from desires and stay away from the chaos.
However, even if I would, her two sons would certainly not.
No one can guarantee that Shen Xiyao and Shen Xihe will not visit me. No one can guarantee that when I go to the temple, Shen Xiyao and Shen Xihe will break their love for me.
Moreover, Shen Xiyao is the emperor. After the queen mother a hundred years later, he will definitely pick me up to the palace.
Shen Xihe's most powerful prince, will he clash with Shen Xiyao for me a hundred years after the Queen Mother, and affect the country?
In this world, many things are visible, but the less you can get them, the better you feel. The only way to make Shen Xiyao give up and be his mastermind is for me to disappear forever. But because of her son and my family, she couldn't kill me clearly, nor could she break me in the palace. She had to let me go out of the palace quietly and think of a way.
But maybe it was because the jade magnolia hairpin she took back reminded her of her father's intentions, and she let me go after all.
I looked at Xi He calmly, his tone was very weak, as if he was saying something irrelevant.
"The queen mother called me that day and asked me about my feelings for you. I couldn't hide it anymore, so I confessed." He said shallowly: "The queen mother didn't say anything, just made me think twice and asked why I went to the island. Want me to go."
I poured him a cup of crude tea, and he took it and drank it.
"I went to the emperor's brother, but the more I thought about it, the more I felt wrong. The mother was too calm. There must be a problem. I was afraid that she would be against you, so I sent my confidant to the on the island to see what the mother would do. "
He looked straight at me: "As a result, as I expected, the mother will not keep you. I received a secret report from my confidant, but at that time I was discussing military affairs with the emperor brother, and I did not want to be discovered by him or the queen. I didn’t leave the palace until the evening, so I immediately went to find you."