Chapter 144: Always prosperous as a dream (2)

After explaining our intention to the abbot, we were placed in two adjacent courtyards. After all, it was a temple and it was inconvenient for men and women to live together. Coincidentally, the yard I lived in was also the one I lived in, and even the mattress was no different.
When I arrived in a hurry, Shen Xiyao stepped out of the room door with one kick, and I left without even taking a change of clothes.
At this time, I simply washed and screamed in my stomach. At this time, the little monk brought the fast food. I thanked him, took it into the house, thought for a while, and brought it to the stone table in the yard. I'm going to eat it next.
Suddenly, I felt a moment of gaze, and subconsciously looked towards the wall. Behind the eyes of the betel nut, a man dressed in white stood silently. The moonlight hit him with a soft halo, and the dust was like an immortal.
Rubbing his eyes, looking over again, there is nothing left. It seemed that it was just my illusion before, or maybe it was the reappearance of that figure deep in my mind.
I smiled faintly, and continued to eat.
The dishes are very simple but comprehensive, such as stewed mushrooms, spinach pine, crisp tofu, golden and silver sprouts, a cup of winter melon soup and a bowl of mixed rice.
I picked up a chopstick of sprouts and was hungry for a day. At this time, the light taste of the dishes was delicious. I don't know that this will be the best meal I have in a long time.
I was eating, and there were footsteps behind me. I followed the reputation and saw Shen Xiyao in a cyan cotton robe carrying a wooden tray and walking over.
"I knocked on the door, didn't you hear it?" There was a slight anger in his voice.
I hurriedly took the tray and replied: "The emperor calmed down. The lady in the courtyard did not hear your knock."
He glanced at me lightly and sat on the stone bench.
I took a look at the tray in my hand. It also contained four dishes and one soup, but it was slightly different from mine. Shen Xiyao’s dishes are sauteed burdock, vegetarian food, mushrooms, green vegetables and crispy tofu, and a cup of Babaozhai soup. The rice is white rice.
"Let's eat together." He said, picking up the bowl of mixed rice that I had just used.
"The emperor, that bowl of me..." I exclaimed. After all, I took a bite, which is still leftovers. How can I let him eat it.
"What's wrong with you?" He glared at me: "It's so late, aren't you hungry? Come to eat quickly and stop talking nonsense." There was obvious impatience in his tone.
I hesitated for a moment, and finally walked across to him and sat down in his displeased gaze. At this time, only the bowl of white rice in his hand was the only rice in his hand. I saw that he was eating the bowl of miscellaneous rice and it was delicious, so I had to embarrassed it. White rice, lower your head and eat slowly.
Suddenly there was a chopstick of burdock in the bowl, followed by a mushroom, and then a few greens.
I looked up and Shen Xiyao was holding a chopstick of tofu to put in my bowl. I looked at him in surprise, but he didn't look away.
"Help me try the dishes." He said grimly: "If others are not there, you can only do it."
I hold down the smile in my heart, but feel that his actions at this time are not like a king. However, I try not to let him discover that I have seen through.
"Yes, the emperor." I said in a low voice, took a bite of burdock, and then gave him a bite: "This tastes good, you use some." Then I tried a bite of all the dishes on the table, and then gave him one by one. "The Zhai dishes at Qinglong Temple are also well-known in Beijing. Although simple, they are better than the taste. At this time, they simply cooked for us. If you come as the emperor, the food will be even more different."
Shen Xiyao "humbled": "What's the point of that." He tasted the tofu and nodded: "But the taste does not change."
"The emperor has been here before?" I said casually.
"Well, it's been a few years." Shen Xiyao took a deep look at me: "I remember, the cherry blossoms that year bloomed beautifully."
"The cherry blossoms in Qinglong Temple are indeed beautiful. It is the most prestigious place for viewing cherry blossoms in Beijing." I didn't care. Shen Xiyao is an emperor, but he is also very free to move. It is normal to play in the micro server, not to mention the Qinglong Temple is in the suburbs of Beijing, and he can go back and forth in one day.
"Yeah." Shen Xiyao seemed to be a little disappointed with my answer, but didn't say anything more, and didn't need me to arrange dishes for him, just eat silently.
In this way, we didn't say a word to the end of the meal, and the atmosphere was slightly embarrassing. When I saw Shen Xiyao put down his chopsticks and saw that the plates in front of me were empty, I knew that he had finished eating, so I also put down the bowl.
In fact, I was full before, but I was sitting at the same table, so naturally I couldn't put my chopsticks first, so I only left a bite of rice and waited for Shen Xiyao to finish. At this time, although there are eight dishes and two soups, the amount of dishes is not large, so with Shen Xiyao's habit of being outside, he will definitely finish eating.
"The emperor, you should rest early when you have finished eating." I put the tableware on the table into the tray and whispered to him.
At this time, Shen Xi looked at the cherry tree in the courtyard without making a sound, as if he didn't hear me, but was immersed in his own world.
I didn't dare to disturb him, so I placed the tray lightly by the door-a little monk would come to collect it early in the morning, and then I would sit on the stone steps and wait for Shen Xiyao to recover.
"Why?" He said suddenly. At that time, I was thinking of the encounter that year, when I suddenly heard his voice, I was shocked.
"What does the emperor ask?" Actually, I know what he wants to ask.
"Why leave? Why are you with Xihe?" He turned his back to me, but his fist on the table was clenched.
I don't know how to answer. His question disturbed my heart. All this is too complicated, and it is almost impossible to start, and I don't know where to start. At this time, I was surprised that my feelings were so confused.
"The emperor," I paused, and sorted out my state of mind. "It's good for all of us only by leaving, isn't it?"
"How do you know that leaving is the best?" Shen Xiyao still turned her back to me, but his tone was angry.
"The emperor, I hate you for killing my father. You must be hard to forgive my assassination of you. What's more, our children are gone, and I have no reason to stay in this world."
I sighed and said again: "But God's favor, want me to abandon the past and give me a way of life. To be honest," I smiled faintly and bitterly: "To be honest, when I wake up, I know that the child is gone. At that time, I felt that death is actually the best relief."
I made a cup of tea for myself. If I say everything from the bottom of my heart at this time, is it also a relief?
"But I'm dead. I'm sorry to raise my parents, and I'm sorry to love my brother, and I will also let down the love of the queen mother. When I was out of the palace, I was thinking that it might be good to live again with a new identity. "
"But you are my person, this can't be changed!" Shen Xiyao's voice was obviously suppressed: "Why didn't you find me, do you really think that I left you because of a child?"
I shook my head: "Emperor, of course I know that being just a child can't eliminate the mistakes I made. But, I can't be by your side, I can't forget." A tear struck across my face, with a cold feeling. The cheeks are astringent.
"Living again!" Shen Xiyao sneered: "Living again, marrying people, and having children with a new identity, don't you think this is contempt for me?"
I know what he is struggling with, I am his woman, and unless I really die, it will never change. The emperor's woman cannot be owned by other people.
"Emperor, I don't know how to get married, I just want to live my life alone. Maybe Jingchai sarong, maybe Tsing Yi ancient Buddha, but I never thought of marrying someone else." I explained.
"But you and Xihe!" Shen Xiyao's anger was ignited.
I lowered my head, yes, Xihe and I, this is something I never expected, and Shen Xiyao will never forgive it.
"Emperor" I gritted my teeth, even if Shen Xiyao would kill me immediately, I would ignore it.
"When King Yu came out of the palace to find me, I refused at first. However, he left his identity and wanted to be a villager for me, and he persevered in chasing after him. I couldn't help but be tempted. What's more, he was actually before entering the palace. , I have promised him, but I never knew that that person was him."
"Before entering the palace?" Shen Xiyao turned around, twisting her thick black eyebrows.
"Yes," I closed my eyes, a faint fragrance in the air, just like that night.
"The first time I saw him was in the bamboo forest. It was a chance encounter, but his talents made me admire." I said with a sweet smile: "After that, I went through hardships, and he saved me from danger. Although I don't know him. His identity, but at that time my heart belonged to him. Later, my father and I searched around for him, but to no avail. Coincidentally, I saw him in the Royal Garden on the day of the royal banquet."
"Then what?" Shen Xiyao's voice was extremely suppressed.
"Later," I said with a wry smile: "Later, before I could determine his identity in the future, I was appointed by the Queen Mother to become your queen."
"So you don't want to become a queen?" Shen Xiyao's voice was cold, without a trace of emotion.
I lowered my eyes: "The emperor, I am a queen, it is something we don't want."
"Do you like him so much?" Shen Xiyao's eyes seemed to have a fire: "So like the person who chanted poems with you in the bamboo forest, saved you in the fire, and finally met by the river?"
I covered my heart, for fear that the heart that was shocked by his words would jump out, I looked at him with incredulous eyes: "You, how did you know we met by the river? Xi He told you?"
"Hahaha" Shen Xiyao looked up to the sky and smiled, then he stared at me closely, his eyes frightened me.
"How do I know, you ask me how do I know? Have you confirmed those things with Xihe?"
"You don't need to confirm. Their voices and figures are the same." I looked away, the voices lost emotion, suddenly repelling the topic.
"How do you know that I don't want you to be my queen?" Shen Xiyao turned around and looked at the cherry tree: "You always think wishful thinking, but how do you know that what you think is true? ?"
"Isn't it?" At this time, I didn't care about anything, and didn't think much about what he meant. "The emperor, you dote on Concubine Liu, you want her to be a queen. This is something everyone knows. My Ling family is even more affected. You hate it. How could you want my daughter of the Ling family to take the position of your beloved and be your queen?"
"Yeah, how could I like you and want you to be the queen?" Shen Xiyao was almost muttering to himself, his body trembled slightly, but the figure from his back gave people a sense of loneliness with extreme sadness. .
"The emperor made atonement, and the women of the village had lost a word for a while." I knelt down busy.
"Fine, nothing." Shen Xiyao did not turn around, and said after a long time: "You go to bed, we will leave tomorrow morning."
I slowly withdrew, only to hear Shen Xiyao's whisper: "Yes, you love him as much as you should. But, you never thought, did you love the wrong person?"
I was stunned. I didn't understand what he meant, and didn't want to think any more. After all, what I was about to face was not the past, but the unknown future.
I walked out slowly. Tonight, for us, is destined to be a sleepless night.
The next morning, Shen Xiyao called me up, thanked the abbot and hurried to open the gate and returned to Beijing. When I entered the capital, I only saw the city that hadn't been awakened in the early morning flashing by in the smoke raised by the horseshoe. When the towering red wall and golden tiles of the Forbidden City appeared in front of me, I sighed silently, and I finally returned here.
The prohibition of riding is a great disrespect to the emperor. From a distance, there was the Imperial Guard shouting "Who?" and the voice of Jin Ge.