Chapter 1453: [Update on September 25] I will never wrong myself anymore

At this moment, the backlog of anger and grievances that had been accumulated for a day just erupted like a volcano, out of control.
Ruo Yin just fell to the ground and didn't cry, she just kept tears.
Soon, Banmei came in.
Seeing Ruoyin sitting down on the ground, Banmei helped her and sat back on the chair.
Ruo Yin just hugged Banmei's waist and bury her face in Banmei's waist and wept.
Banmei is like coaxing a sister, holding her in her arms and stroking her hair with one hand.
"Banmei, I want to leave him." She muttered choked, but it was not an angry word, but from the heart.
Banmei's loyalty all these years, Ruoyin can see, so she speaks the truth.
She really needs someone to talk to.
She really really feels wronged.
These days, she paid so much for him, but he didn't trust her at all.
The former Fourth Master will give her enough trust.
Even if she is planted and framed by the harem concubine, if a man approaches her, the queen mother wronged her.
But he trusted her from beginning to end.
It is not an exaggeration to say that it is unconditional trust.
He always said that he trusted her to manage the fairness of the harem.
Especially after he became the throne, once during the Chinese New Year, Er Gege publicly said that her aunt treated the emperor's heir harshly. He said, I believe you.
William presented a red diamond pendant to her in the presence of Mongolian kings and hundreds of civil and military officials. He also said, I believe you too.
Nian Shi planted her to frame the emperor's heir on the Queen Mother's birthday. He opposed the ministers, concubines, and even the Queen Mother. He still said, I believe you.
Over the years, what he said the most to her was believing her.
But now, he doesn't trust her at all, not at all!
No matter how difficult and ups and downs they have experienced before, their hearts are together.
Now, she felt so fragile between them.
It seems that it can't stand a little wind and rain.
He used to give her a sense of mental security.
Later, mentally and emotionally, he gave her a full sense of security.
Now, he can't give her a sense of security.
It only gave her endless anxiety and sense of crisis.
With trust and a sense of security, stay by his side, no matter what happens, as long as he is there, she is not afraid.
But she doesn't even have the most basic trust, so what else does she insist on.
Waiting to die?
Before he believed her so much, she walked on the verge of death several times.
Without his trust, the consequences would be unimaginable.
In the harem, there is a mixture of fish and dragons, all places with good acting skills lack the trust of the emperor.
Anyone who framed it would be an abyss.
"Niangniang, this kind of nonsense can't be said casually." After Banmei reminded Ruoyin, she looked around and carefully looked around.
"I'm not talking nonsense, I'm serious."
At this moment, Ruoyin really thought of fleeing.
Run away from him, run away from the queen who makes her breathless.
Recall the years when she came to Qing Dynasty.
In the hidden residence, with a title of Fujin, in fact, he lived a miserable life.
You must honor the royal in-laws.
Zhong wants to have a good relationship with his wife.
The next step is to take care of the palace.
Also serve the Fourth Master, and extend the heirs for the royal family!
When he gave birth to a brother, he was still framed.
Later in the Old Summer Palace, the days were a little easier.
But the fight between the women in the backyard never stopped.
Later, to the Forbidden City.
The queen's name is so beautiful, everyone feels that she is infinite, graceful and luxurious, and enjoy endless glory and wealth.
But only she knew that there were too many people watching this position.
In the past few years in the palace, she has also had the most tiring life.
Think about it carefully, have you ever felt tired after hitting her in the Qing Dynasty?
After being wronged, thinking about the overall situation of Gu Quan, I bit my teeth and swallowed it.
Unhappy Fourth Master, if you want to accommodate everything, be a virtuous wife.
It is normal for the emperor's harem to cut the Hu, and the emperor's harem beauties are normal. Watching him be intercepted, she also pretends to be indifferent and forceful.
The concubine is pregnant, she wants to reward her with a smile, this is the attitude that the royal family should have.
The mother-in-law is not clear, and the younger generation can't go beyond the rules, can't be rude, they should kneel down and serve with filial piety, serving tea and water.
There are countless things like this...
Throughout the year, I don’t know what I’ve been busy with, it’s ten years in the blink of an eye.
Over the past ten years, she swallowed her breath, walking on thin ice, never really being herself.
I have always wanted to be a female of the Qing Dynasty.
Be the good daughter of the Ulanara family.
Be a good wife of the Fourth Master.
Be a good mother of elder brothers.
However, she seems to have forgotten how to be herself.
Who is she.
Her character.
Her dream.
It was worn away in the years, and forgotten.
Who is she for and why?
Isn't it for Si Ye, for the peace of the harem?
Now she thinks clearly.
From now on, she, never live like this again!
Never live like this again! ! !
Hearing Ruoyin's words, Banmei was silent.
She probably heard the determination and sadness in Ruoyin's words. After she was silent for a moment, she loyally and gently said: "No matter what decision the lady makes, as long as the lady is happy, the minion will always follow you."
Ruoyin: "Well, I will never wrong myself again."
She never cares about his happiness anymore.
As long as you are happy and happy.
If she sacrificed the ego, she got a happy life.
Then, she felt that everything was worth it.
But now, she is not happy at all.
As a foodie who loves food, she has no sense of happiness in the face of food, and her appetite has been greatly reduced.
Sleeping so well that she fell asleep as soon as she touched the pillow, she actually started to lose sleep.
When he was in Suzhou and Ningbo, he heard Si Ye's promise, and for a time he dreamed about a better life in the future.
But reality gave her a heavy blow.
Yes, they are empresses, how can they live as freely as ordinary people.
At first, she jokes about why the original owner could not figure out why she was suffering from depression.
Now she understood.
If this continues, I'm afraid she will follow in the footsteps of the original owner.
Haha, go to his rules, shackles, and restraints!
How will she be happy in the future.
If one cannot be happy, what is the meaning of life.
"But Empress, have you ever thought about the consequences of annoying the emperor."
"It annoys him, and at most it puts me in the cold palace. No matter how bad it is, it will abolish my back position. That's right, so I don't have to face him."
Anyway, she didn't even bother with this post that caused her great pain.
But no matter what, Fourth Master would not kill her.
No matter because she is the mother of three elder brothers.
There is also the Ulanala family as backing.
"Then shall we contact the admiral and the five masters?" Banmei suggested.
Ruoyin shook his head without hesitation: "No, let's use our own talents and cultivate a group of useful minions in private. In addition, before leaving, the palace must take care of some things."
She didn't want to use the Ulanara family to escape.
In this case, she is freed, and the entire family will have to punish the Nine Clan.