Chapter 1465: [Updated on September 29] I am not kind, and I still hide a past

Now that there were only two of them left, she realized that his face was slightly red.
Yes, today is his birthday, and there is a banquet at night, and I want to come to the banquet and drink a lot of bars.
In her eyes, Ce Ling has always been gentle.
Someone said that he used various tactics to defeat the Qing Dynasty.
She also said he was violent, insidious, and bloodthirsty, she didn't believe him.
Seeing him angry today, she sent a group of guards to the grassland to feed the wolves. Now she believed.
But she knew that he was not a heinous bad person, he was just doing something from his perspective.
Ce Ling drank a small bottle of wine at once.
It can be seen that although the bottle is small, it contains the strongest wine.
Because it was only a small bottle, Ce Ling's drunkenness became more obvious.
He began to talk to her heart-stuffed.
"I'm not kind, and I still hide a past."
"When I was four years old, I saw the woman making trouble with my Eji. Later, she threatened to poison me Eji. At that time, I was so angry when I heard that, even if they scolded me for having a mother but no father. , I have never been so angry. So when I was four years old, I was so angry that I bit that woman's knee."
With his palm facing the ground, he gestured height with his left hand. "At that time, I was only knee-high, and the woman kicked me away and stepped on me. I didn't cry because I protected Eji."
"It didn't take long before I saw Eji suddenly died of poisoning. I cried for three days and three nights without eating anything. The woman said, Xiaoyezhong, you will end up just like your Eji."
"One night, a dark shadow entered my room. It was a burly man. He said he was me, Abu."
"Abu? Isn't my Abu Galdan?"
"He said you remember, I am your Abu, he said that I was ordered to take me out, otherwise I will die here. He said that one day, he will avenge my Eji and take those who bully me and Ji's people are killed."
"He said he would take me back to the tribe when he finished all these things."
Speaking of this, Ce Ling drank a few more sips with his head up.
The spirits swallowed with his Adam's apple, but he did not frown like water.
Then he continued to tell his story: "But after I left, I found out that I had been poisoned. Fortunately, Abu made Yinzi leave a gentleman by my side. That gentleman can do everything. He suppressed poison for me and taught me how to learn Chinese characters and martial arts."
"I asked him when Abu would pick me up, and he said that when I learn everything, Abu will come."
"I rely on this to support me. When I was sixteen, I learned everything, but Abu hasn't come to pick me up yet, and even the husbands who raised me and taught me are gone, but Abu hasn't come to pick me up yet. I."
"In order to make a living, I became a counselor, because I knew a little bit of strategy and gradually became famous in the Jiangnan area. Later, I heard that Gardan died and Abu ascended the throne and became the Khan king of the Junggar tribe. I thought he would come to pick him up. I am, but he does not."
"Later, there was a silly woman in my life. She was pregnant with my child. I plan to return to the tribe. If Abu does not come to find me, I will look for him. I want to tell Abu that I am going to marry a wife and have children."
"Abu's new wife, Ke Dun, is afraid that I will threaten the status of her and her son. Before we get to the tribe, she ordered people to hunt us down on the road."
"Ben Khan's Xiao Yuan'er was about to give birth, so they shot him to death, one body and two lives. When the doctor took it out, it was a girl, a beautiful girl like my Xiao Yuan'er."
Ruoyin has been sitting around listening to him telling stories.
She really did not expect that his life experience was so bumpy and he had gone through so many things.
It turns out that he has a wife and children.
His beloved woman is Xiao Yuaner, a sweet name, but she is like a sweet tooth.
She said that such a capable, good-looking, and gentle man is about 30 years old. How could there be no past? This is abnormal, unless he is not a man.
No wonder he always looks like a person without feelings and emotions.
Because he has experienced any pain.
Seeing his mother died of poisoning, his father promised to take him back to the tribe, but he never fulfilled his promise.
He brought his pregnant wife back to the tribe with enthusiasm and wanted to give him a surprise, but because of the great joy, he had great compassion, and the wife and daughter died and died.
Is there anything more tragic than this?
Ruoyin opened his mouth and persuaded: "Sweat, you drank too much."
In this tribe these days, she went to the countryside to follow the customs and shouted at him to sweat.
Otherwise, she is an alien woman with an ordinary status, but transgresses the rules, which will make people suspicious.
Ce Ling shook his head, "I never drink, so how come I drink too much."
As he said, he raised his head and took a few more mouthfuls.
This reminds Ruoyin of seeing him in the department store many years ago.
At that time, Si Ye was banned from the clan residence, and the Jiufu Jin Dong E clan stepped forward to make things difficult for her, and he came forward to relieve her.
He also held such a palm-sized bottle in his hand.
She asked him if he liked drinking, he said he didn't drink, and he didn't know why there was such a small bottle in his sleeve.
Now it seems that he does not drink, what he drinks is loneliness, it is the loneliness in his heart.
Perhaps only when he is drunk will his heart not hurt so much.
In fact, she and him have not seen each other a few times.
Most of them were seen at banquets in the royal family.
In several private meetings, he either saved her from the snakes, or rescued her, constantly rescued her, and even rescued her from the sea of ​​suffering.
Ce Ling seemed to be caught in the sadness of the past. He continued to drunk and said: "After that, Abu didn't come to pick me up until he died. I still learned something from others. When Abu sent me away, he didn't think about me. Back to the tribe, they said, Abu is afraid that I will be unhappy when I return to the tribe."
"Oh, happy? As far as I can remember, I never know what happiness is, and what is so happy. The best and happiest thing I have is so broken, so happy to talk about it, do you need it?!"
"Boom!"
The sound of the glass bottle smashing on the ground was crisp and harsh.
Ruoyin was caught off guard by the man's sudden emotions.
She saw the transparent glass shattered into dregs.
Under the shining of candlelight, they exude a dazzling light.
In the air, there was a faint fragrance of wine wafting.
"Abu was defeated. After his death, the tribe was like a mass of scattered sand. I heard that those who chased me were grabbing the position of King Khan. They are also worthy?! I returned to the tribe and took over the tribe that Abu had been fighting for all his life. I killed all those who killed Xiaoyuan'er, and slowly made the tribe stronger."
"The year when I returned to the tribe was the year when Kangxi died and Yongzheng became the throne. I wanted to take you away, but you refused. Sometimes I thought, if I insisted on taking you away, Or if I met you earlier, will everything be different."
"The past is the past." Ruoyin said lightly.
"Yes." Ce Ling smiled bitterly. "But, fortunately, you didn't go back to the tribe with me. In the first few years, it was too difficult and too bitter. They saw that I had just returned to the tribe and wanted my life several times. , Do you know that there are all kinds of poisons in the meal, and the assassin breaks in during sleep at night, and it feels like you may fly into disaster wherever you go?"
"In fact, it's pretty good now, the tribe is stable, and you won't be so bitter by my side."
"Knowing that it's so bitter, why do you want to go back to the tribe." Ruoyin said: "You don't look like a person who cares about these rights."
"Because I don't want those people to live well. I want to avenge Xiao Yuan'er. I want to kill all the bad guys like Dad did when protecting me. I will not give up the tribe, just like Abu guarded the tribe. The land under my feet protects this tribe. I want to protect what Abu has failed to protect."
"Then you just need to protect Junggar well, why start a war against the Qing Dynasty?"
"This is a matter between the tribe and Daqing. Abu died in Daqing's hands. Of course, I have to fulfill his wish for him. In my life, there are not many people who treated me well. They all left me. As long as I'm still alive, there is only this I can do."
Speaking of this, he looked at Ruoyin and said deeply: "I'm sorry, I lied to you."
"..." Ruoyin felt inexplicable, what did he lie to her?
"I said that I would let you go with me. I will accompany you wherever you want to go. But now, I took you away, but I can't fulfill the promise that year."
Because of drinking too much, his voice is unusually magnetic, lazy, and gentle.
If the sound: "..."
If she tells him that she has never cared about it, is it too hurtful and cruel?
She is not his, and what right does she have to ask him to fulfill his promise.
Moreover, he is not idle, what he shoulders is the hope of his father's generation, and even the entire tribe.
After a moment of deep thought, Ruoyin said lightly: "Let's do this, let's make an appointment."
As soon as this word came out, the answer to her was silence.
Ruoyin looked at Ce Ling, he had fallen asleep leaning back in the chair.
To be precise, he should be drunk and unconscious.
If the male and female give or receive not kiss, if the voice is not good, help him.
As the door was broken by a kick, the cold wind from outside blew in.
Ruoin picked up the wine bottle on the ground and gently smelled it against the mouth of the bottle.
Suddenly, a pungent smell of wine rushed into her nose from the mouth of the bottle.
Tsk tusk, just by smelling the smell, you know it is a very strong liquor.
Drinking such strong spirits, as long as you eat a few peanuts and a few bites of wine, you won’t be so drunk.
It seems that wine is really untouchable. Fortunately, she didn't drink it. Otherwise, what kind of drink should be specified for such a strong wine.
At the same time, she was a little unscrupulously grateful. It turned out that she was not the only one who lost her attitude while drinking, but also others.
Ruoyin took a woolen blanket from the side and put it on his body.
She intends to make room for him so that his minions can carry him back.
However, when she was about to turn around and go out, the sleeves of her clothes were caught by the man.