Chapter 45: (one)

Chapter 42 (1)
There was a lot of tiredness in that voice.
"No need." I groped his face with both hands, "I am not someone else, but a wife."
Well, it's an insider.
I repeated it again.
His eyelashes are extremely long, and he feels that the blink of an eye is about to touch my face. Although it is almost no distance, I can't see his face clearly, I can only feel his hot breathing.
"My wife..." He also repeated my words, put these two words on the tip of his tongue and tasted it, and smiled: "These two words sound pleasing."
I also followed his way and touched his head, "Well, pleased and pleased, Yan Wuyan Xiaowu, I'm not here to disturb you to rest, go to sleep, I will watch you sleep well?"
"You, you..." He smiled, "This is not like the usual you. I wanted to tease you, but let's forget it." He tightened the hand around my waist slightly." Since you are willing to recommend yourself as a pillow, I am embarrassed to refuse."
I smelled the smell of medicine from his body, and my heartbeat gradually calmed down. On weekdays, I always fight him to death and life. Sometimes it feels good to hug him quietly like this.
He rubbed his chin on my head a few times, reached out his hand to pull my hairpin and threw it on the head of the bed. I understood the signal-he wanted me to stay tonight and not to leave.
He doesn’t need me to say anything to comfort him. Sometimes talking too much is a cruel reminder. If he is willing to talk, I will listen quietly. If he doesn’t say anything, I will be a quiet pillow. When lonely and helpless, I always hope to hold something, just like a drowning man holding a driftwood. When I was alone in those years, the only thing I could hold was myself, and that only deepened the loneliness.
I half-opened my eyes in the dark, feeling the temperature and heartbeat passing through my clothes, and the ups and downs of my chest between breathing-it seemed that after being awakened by me, it would be difficult for him to fall asleep for a while.
"Li Yingyu."
"Yeah." He called me again by first name and last name.
"Actually we look alike, right?"
"Yes." They were all adopted and faced the death of their relatives. My foster father died of incurable disease, but his adoptive father and master died unexpectedly.
"At that time, you were only five years old, what did you think? How did you survive by yourself?" He gently stroked my back and asked me in a gentle voice.
"I..." I thought about it, and replied, "I thought - revenge on society!"
He moved for a while.
I said by saying, "The unscrupulous doctor, because we didn't have the money, wouldn't heal the adoptive father. After the adoptive father passed away, my first thought was to kill him!"
"and then?"
"No more... If the foster father knew that I did that, he would definitely deny me. I picked two buckets of dung and poured it on their door."
Yan Wu sneered, "You have been so damaged since you were a child." He sighed, "No wonder you have always disliked doctors and prejudiced against me."
This...It is undeniable that there is a aging factor. I don't have a good impression of doctors.
"You are different." I comforted him, "The average doctor is not as hateful as you. He always wants me to look good, punish me, scold me, and frame me. You say I have to offend you for several lifetimes to make you resent like this. I."
"Hmph..." Yan Wu sneered, "If you don't reflect on yourself, are you too itchy? Have I ever treated others like this?"
"Well, well, your genius doctor is right, it's all my fault..." My lord has a lot of them, so I don't care about him.
He reluctantly agreed, and continued to ask: "What happened later? Go on."
"Later, I wandered alone for two years, and then I met my master. There is nothing commendable of heroic deeds." Those who dig vegetable roots and wild dogs grab food, snot and tear a lot of the past that chased the master. Nothing to mention.
But he seemed to know something, and he sighed: "You are as tenacious as a weed, and can grow in the poorest soil. Compared with you, I seem to be fragile."
I weakly asked, "Are you complimenting me?"
"Just take it." He smiled, "I am different from you. You have been dependent on your foster father since childhood, but I haven't seen a master for many years. I go back to the valley once every three years and accept the test of the master. Besides, there is no contact anymore. I always thought that the master and the mother didn’t like me, and she only left me at Baihong Mountain Villa that year. Although the medical book poisoned seal was passed on to me, they have not come to see me for many years. There are more than a dozen disciples in Tanaka. Except for Shengsheng, no one knows my name. They didn't even mention me to the disciples."
"This...is there any misunderstanding? How could they not like you? If they don't like you, how could they pass on your medical skills?"
"I didn't get the answer to what the master thought in the end, but at that time his skinny fingers clenched my wrists tightly, almost wanting to see through me. I looked at his eyes and thought, maybe I had misunderstood before. What, the master treated me very well. The three secrets of Huanghua Valley were not even learned by the shengsheng. The master only passed it on to me. After cremation of the master and the master, I remembered many things that I had always ignored in the past. The details gradually became clear at that time."
"The master is strict and treats his disciples very harshly, but the master is very gentle and loving. When she was a child, she memorized a medical certificate, and a wrong word was a cane. The master couldn't bear to look at it, but she didn't dare to intercede, because if she intercedes, the master will punish her. It was even worse. I only came to give me medicine at night. At that time, I depended heavily on the master, and I was terribly afraid of the master, but later I learned that the master secretly gave the master’s wife the elixir, and asked the master not to tell me It was also when they left the Baihong Mountain Villa later, the teacher told me with tears that I learned about these things."
"When I was thirteen years old, I was able to practice medicine independently. At that time, I only said that I was talented and I was full of grievances with the master. But now, if I didn't force me to work hard like that, I wouldn't have what I am today. It's ridiculous that I have always treated him. I was dissatisfied, if it weren’t for the sake of seeing my wife, I didn’t even bother to step into the valley of yellow flowers. Until that day I packed his relics and saw many toys from my childhood, kites, bamboo dragonflies, bows and arrows... At that time he blamed me for not learning. , The plaything was lost, confiscated and punished me for copying the book. I thought it had been discarded, but unexpectedly he still kept it... Now I know that he has a good intentions and is acting like a black face. I don’t blame me for not being grateful. He must always look forward to my return in the valley, but he never said, how do I know that now I want to thank Shien again, but it is too late..."
Yan Wu's voice gradually became lower and lower, and finally only the heavy breathing remained.
The son wants to support but does not wait for a kiss...
Some things, we finally understood too late.
My foster father, he is a very kind person. Although others have never treated him well, he has never been unkind to others. Even as naughty as I am, he also happily does things with me, never right. I have spoken harshly, which is very different from Master Yanwu, but when it comes to feelings, it is always the same. Perhaps Yan Wu regrets more than I am, because at least he once had the opportunity to be filial, but he understood it too late.
"Yan Li..." I called him softly and looked up at him.
"Don't worry, I'm fine." He rubbed my head, "I just thought, if I can't repay my favor, at least I must avenge this revenge. I will find out, those people, I want them to die!"
He spoke calmly, but I clearly heard the deep-seated hatred, and was so excited that he shivered. He hugged me tightly and asked, "Is it cold?"
There was still a bit of chill in the spring night, I nodded, and drilled into his arms, he helped me tuck the quilt, and hugged him tightly: "You have not fully recovered yet. Take care of yourself. If you catch a cold, you will be in trouble. ."
These words warmed my heart a little, and gave a soft hmm.
How could this person have no feelings for me? There must be, if he doesn't love me, who else can he love?
Thanks to the ghost doctor Fu for giving me a feud from Yanli and Huanghuagu. He wants to avenge it, so naturally I will not stand by.
"You want revenge, I will accompany you." I held his hand firmly.
Yan Li smiled faintly and shook his head: "You can take care of yourself. This is my business alone."