Chapter 20:

The plan is like this, Peppa said.
On the plane at 10:32, they will go to the airport to complete the formalities one hour earlier. The domestic flight boarded 30 minutes early. We could not call Tao Jialin who was already on the plane. He had probably turned off his cell phone by then. So we will call him at 9:45 to report the news of your suicide. If he still cares for you, he will come back desperately. It was an hour's drive on the road, and he happened to miss the plane. There is only one flight from City C to Beijing a day, and the train takes two days and two nights. Missing this class is equivalent to missing the one to the United States.
Yes, five sleeping pills are very safe, and the dose is only enough for you to fall asleep for a day. I have consulted with authorities. Today the lethal dose of sleeping pills is thirty-two bottles swallowed at once. Even so, the success rate of suicide is only 8%. The rescue process includes gastric lavage, intubation, ventilator, ECG, medication, blood filtration, sequelae, and treatment and rehabilitation costs of about 30,000 yuan.
Remember to put a tape recorder under your pillow. If Jialin has any repentance and confession, even though you are asleep, you can still hear it later.
Don’t worry that Jialin will see through. I have a friend at the hospital, and he will try to make your condition extremely serious.
...
To be honest, Pepe and Xiaoju said something Pippi didn't listen carefully.
After two days and two nights of tears, her eyes were injured, as if cataracts had developed. Everything looks blurry, especially the human face.
Then she kept sniffing, and the napkins in front of the table piled up like a hill.
To show that he was listening, Pippi took a sip of coffee and looked straight at the two faces in front of him: "So, neither of you thinks this idea is stupid?-Did I cross a friend, or Have you watched too many Qiong Yao dramas?"
Pepe and Xiaoju immediately stated that they were fully aware of the stupidity of this idea. But they all said together:
"It doesn't matter whether it's stupid, it's important to be effective."
"Pippi, you are now entering a period of war from a time of peace. The war talks about the insatiable deceit of soldiers. Moreover, you are love Jialin. There are thousands of fakes, this is not fake." Pei Pei held her hand in an attempt to calm her : "In extraordinary times, you have to use extraordinary methods."
Pippi almost sneered: "Will I do this? Am I so pitiful for Pippi? Tell me, can I beg him with death?"
Regardless of Peipei and Xiaoju's persuasion, she walked outside the door emotionally. The sun after the snow shone dazzlingly, like a cold light. There is a bitterness in the air, and the floating crowd is like a mirage. She stood for a moment, not knowing where to go. At this moment, she suddenly realized that Jia Lin was leaving her tomorrow, leaving the country, and never going back in this life. That heart suddenly disappeared, as if falling from a high altitude, falling into the deep valley.
Without thinking about it, she went back to the table just now and stretched out her hand to Pepe: "Where is the sleeping pill? Give it to me."
That night, with a sleeping pill, Pipi got a stable sleep.
Before going to bed, she told herself that tomorrow she would figure out a way to get him back. After all, tomorrow is another day.
That is the last sentence in "Gone with the Wind".
Sleeping pills are really effective. It wasn't until 8:30 that Pippi was awakened by the ringing of the phone. I'm late for work.
Pepe’s voice filled with action came from the other end: "We are going to call Jialin. Have you taken your medicine?"
"No, not yet." The medicine bottle was on the head of the bed, and she grabbed it in her hand, not knowing whether it was timid or guilty, and a cold sweat broke out on her back: "You are sure I can't die, right?"
"Absolutely can't die. If you are really scared, take two less, you won't have a gastric lavage. Take it quickly, it will take a while before the effect of the medicine starts. If he comes back, you will be in trouble if you haven't fallen asleep. Too fake I can’t perform the drama."
The white pill rolled in her palm, and her hand was shaking so badly that one fell to the ground and rolled to the bottom of the bed. She bent down quickly to find it.
She didn't think that.
She remembered that Jialin had lost a few catties in the GRE test; remembered that he had finally applied to a school that was willing to give him a full prize; remembered that although Jialin's home is much richer than Pippi's, his parents are just ordinary state officials, no The fat man is not a corrupt official, he can at most give him air tickets and pocket money, and he simply cannot afford his tuition and living expenses abroad.
She cannot destroy him at the last minute. Even if he doesn't admit that they are lovers and lovers, there is at least friendship between them.
The person who has been holding her hand to protect her since childhood, the person who carefully protected her dignity and confidence in the twisted school where all the scores have the final say. The one who visited her on her first day in college. The person who played with her since childhood, picked glass together, watched juggling together, and gave him lucky money.
She even regretted hitting him.
All of this can only prove that he is a child who demanding nothing. It can only prove that children's play cannot be taken seriously.
Maybe love has never happened, he is just her elder brother next door, sooner or later he will be a passerby.
Those wishful dreams, specious flirting, and unrecognizable mountain alliances...
Even Tian Xin's conspiracy of friendship has supported her through the hardships of three years in high school. She and Jia Lin made everyone think that Pippi is unique, so unique that the best boy and the best girl in this grade will be her friends at the same time. Everyone looked down on her score, and everyone was in awe of her.
It's not that she's not profitable for the exchange of unknown origin.
"Hey Pepe," she squeezed the microphone, her palms and the backs of her hands sweaty, "I changed my mind. Don't call him."
"Hey hey, what's the matter with you? Is your heart soft? I tell you Guan Pipi, you can't miss the opportunity, and you won't come back. After passing this village, there will be no such shop. Tao Jialin will not be there for five or six years. Will come back. Even if he comes back, he will become his father."
"Peipei," she closed her eyes, tears falling down, "does it need to be tested? He has already made a choice. He chose not to me, to Tian Xin. Let me face reality. "
"You are really a dead brain! His Tao Jialin has taken too many exams, and the exam became a batter, and he was fascinated by Tian Xin's little goblin. Do you remember how he treated you well? Is that fake? Damn, all the girls in C City No. 1 are jealous of you. He likes Tian Xin? Why didn’t I find out? Why didn’t I see? Jia Lin only goes home with you every day, not cold to other girls It’s not hot. Back then, Wang Xuan chased him so blatantly. In order to invite him, she invited us from Peach Blossom Island to the water park party. What happened? Don’t you remember? Jia Lin just refused to be close to her and stayed in the park. I taught you two hours of swimming and Wang Xuan was half angry. You said Jialin doesn't like you, I don't believe it!"
You are also a batter, Pippi cursed in his heart: "Stop talking. Think about it, all the girls in the class went there that day, but one person didn't go."
"Hiss" Peipei was gasping, "Tian Xin!"
"Do you remember that Wang Xuan and Tian Xin have never spoken since that day. We guessed at the time that everyone had invited Wang Xuan, so why didn't they invite Tian Xin."
"...Yes. I thought they quarreled. Wasn't they good before? One first and the other second. I'm still surprised, then how did Tian Xin suddenly become your good friend? I praise her every day."
"Isn't she kind to you? She has taught you maths and asked you to eat ice cream."
"Damn! Bah! Sinister viper!"
"How should I put it, she is also well-intentioned."
"Just forget it, it's too cheap for her!" Pepe now has POWER, and her personality is developing towards a strong woman. "I will find someone to check if she has forged her scores when she applied to the school. Damn, as long as there is If a score is false, I will sue her to an American university." Pepe yelled over there.
"Hi Peipei, forget it." Pippi said, "she is Jialin's wife after all. Maybe she really loves him, and I have nothing to say."
"Can't stand you, even if you want to be noble, you don't have to lose your fighting spirit so quickly. Good cut?"
"I'm hanging up, I have to go to work today. Goodbye."
Pippi went to the bathroom to find eye cream, and when he returned, the phone rang again.
Xiaoju's voice came: "Pippi, Pepe said you are not doing it?"
"Quit it."
"If I quit, I won't do it. I have a new idea. I called my last brother. Now I will go to the airport to beat Tian Xin and put her into the hospital. Jialin can't get on the plane, so the rest changed his mind. Whatever, think of your own way. — You too, you should have called me yesterday and beat people, I'm better than you."
In the past few years after graduating from high school, Xiaoju is rapidly developing in the direction of a local ruffian, and she is still in love with her.
"Hey, you guys are endless? Read more martial arts novels!"
"Isn't this to vent your anger? To be honest, I don't like to play any emotional scenes. To vent is to vent, and to vent is violent."
"Why should you go."
"Why don't I take you to the movie today. Shaobo gave me two tickets. It is a dome movie at the Science and Technology Museum. It's about outer space. Can't you? After watching, let's go to Xiaotaoyuan for a big meal, Pepe said about her Please. Go to Jixiang Bird K Song in the evening..."
"I'm sorry... these days I want to be quiet by myself."
"Pippi, you have a father, a mother, a grandma, and our unconvincing sisters, don't think about it.... Besides, maybe Jialin and Tian Xin had a bad relationship, and they were divorced. You don’t have it again. Count on it. The divorce rate abroad is high. The United States has more than 40%!"
"Xiaoju," Pippi quickly changed the subject, "how did you and Shaobo talk last night?"
"No...nothing."
"You guys... well, how do you communicate?"
"No communication. We have been communicating online for months."
"Then what are you doing?"
"We kiss. He stammers too much, what else can he do except KISS?... Hey, why are you crying again?"
"Neither I nor Jialin have kissed!!! I have held his hand twice!!! Uuuuu..."
Pippi burst into tears, feeling too strong of failure.
"How do you say it, no wonder people. You are too bad!-I mean technically."
"..."
Schopenhauer said that human happiness has only two enemies. Pain and boredom. Fortunately, you are away from the pain, and then you are close to boredom. If you stay away from boredom, you will be close to suffering.
Analyzing his pain carefully, Pippi suddenly became bored.
Life turns out to be such a thing, waking up from a big dream, he is a fool.
Nietzsche said, idols always have dusk. In dreams and drunkenness, tragedy was born.
At this moment, Pippi accurately experienced the wisdom of the sage.
She applied a thick layer of foundation cream on her face, and as usual, bought soy milk and went to work at the newspaper. Entering the large turnstile on the first floor, the philosopher's teaching disappeared, and the nameless despair emerged stubbornly from the bottom of my heart. She followed the turnstile around in a daze, then turned out again. Following the crowd, he went to the subway station in a daze. Once the monthly pass was drawn, following the slow movement of people, he entered the subway.
The last stop of the subway is the airport.
She just stood without a seat. I felt that my cheeks were hard along the way, as if my mouth was inflamed.
After exiting the platform, there is a gentle slope, the ground is still wet, but not slippery at all. A taxi driver asked her if she wanted to take a car, and she shook her head. Cover your face with the scarf and walk forward in the cold wind.
The gate of the airport is automatic. She regretted that she didn't bring anything, neither picking up nor giving away, she was sneaky like a hijacker.
In fact, Pippi has never been on a plane. Do not say it is Pippi, even her father, mother, and grandma have never sat down. Once I went back to my hometown with my grandma, my father insisted on buying a sleeper for my grandmother, but the grandmother resolutely stopped.
The airport is really big and grand. Above the head is a tall glass canopy with numerous crystal chandeliers hanging on it.
She only dared to walk along the wall, where there was a shop with people coming in and out, not easily noticeable. Across a few huge concrete pillars, she quickly spotted Jia Lin who was lining up with Tian Xin to go through the formalities. With a graceful silhouette, slender legs, Yushu is in the breeze, fluttering in the air, even with a piece of gauze on his nose, he is a handsome man. Waiting next to him were Jia Lin's parents and another pair of elderly people. It is probably Tian Xin's parents.
In order to be more concealed, Pippi walked into a cafe and asked for the cheapest cup of coffee for thirty yuan, and looked at them from a distance away from the crowd.
Everyone could see that it was a newly married couple, neither arm in arm nor shoulder to shoulder, but they were intimate in every move. Accompanying them are four huge suitcases with a red checkered box-breaking belt.
A tall man hurriedly passed in front of them, the buttons of the trench coat caught Tian Xin's draped hair. Tian Xin gave a soft cry, and the person repeatedly apologized. Jia Lin quickly supported Tian Xin's head and unbuttoned her long hair with his hands.
His movements are very light and careful, for fear of hurting her.
Pippi looked at him ignorantly, as if the top of his head was also moved by his breath.
The despair is deeper.
They were talking, but the low voice no longer belonged to them. That gentle hand no longer belongs to me. The thin and tall figure no longer belongs to him.
That thought was short, but it was like death.
Will Jialin think there is someone here to see him off? Will you know how sad she is?
Will he see her? Will you find her?
The way they were so intoxicated made Pippi feel that he was watching the finale of a romance film. And she looked like an assassin hiding in the crowd rather than coming to see her off. Her eyes are cross-shaped sights. If her eyes were bullets, Tian Xin would have been battered and fell to the ground.
Sadly, apart from her angry gaze, she could only gulp coffee.
Time passed quickly.
The two people in the distance checked their luggage, embraced the parents one by one, and disappeared into the security gate.
The moment my sight disappeared, bursts of sadness came. Fearing that people would see it, Pippi ran to the toilet quietly, sitting on the toilet and crying.
After a while, the phone rang.
It's Jialin's number.
She did not answer.
The phone rang continuously. It has always been his number.
By ten o'clock, it stopped ringing.
They boarded the plane.
Packed up the spirit and returned to the newspaper. This month was the annual file inspection, and Pippi hid in the warehouse to organize the files.
After staying in the warehouse for too long, I forgot to eat at noon. When I got off work, Pippi found that it was already dark and all my colleagues had gone.
She didn't want to go home, nor did she want to go back to the dormitory. One person wandered the streets.
She first went to a restaurant and ate a bowl of beef rice bowl. I didn't have an appetite, and I gave up after eating a little. He also ordered the buddy to wrap up the rest and prepare for tomorrow's lunch.
Then she watched a movie alone. Titanic cried again with the plot.
It was midnight out of the theater, and she folded into a bar again.
She is not very familiar with that bar, but she heard her colleagues mention it. It's very big and lively. There are regular singers to perform. It's a good place to kill time.
At first she just wanted to drink some cold drinks. But I can't find the feeling. So she asked for wine. Whiskey with soda tastes really good. There is a little numbness at the entrance, and it feels comfortable when it enters the throat. When it reaches the stomach, it turns into a ball of heating and rises from the abdominal diaphragm. Up to the top of the head. There is an ecstatic taste.
She drank one drink after another, and she was so drunk that she quickly became drunk. When someone asked her for her address, she stumbled on the house number, and the driver helped her into the taxi.
Pippi was awake from freezing.
I opened my eyes and saw the moon, a full moon hanging on the treetops. She found herself lying in a bush, and behind her was a giant pine. Someone took off her down jacket, and the cold came from there.
She suddenly woke up from the drink.
[The following four hundred words are harmonized...]
She hurriedly put on her clothes and ran to the distant lights.
It is a big and quiet park. The location is a bit off, not many people usually go. But there is a big lake in this park, but it is a great place for the people of C city to escape the heat. Pippi still remembers that half of the primary school in City C would choose to come here during the spring outing when he was young. Sure enough, the light is the street light of the trail by the lake. She ran over desperately and found that there was no sound, except for a pool of black water.
What should I do?
Call the police? She didn't even know how she got out of the bar or how she got in the taxi. She didn't know the rental brand, she smelled of sweat and smoke from a strange man.
There is nothing around, except the air of nothingness.
Her head hurts, cramping pain, and her face trembles as she drags her. By the light, she took out the mobile phone in her pocket.
There are ten missed calls on it, probably all of Jialin's. She wanted to call Pepe and check the time, three o'clock in the morning.
Suddenly, a figure jumped out of his head.
Helan Jingting.
He came out at night. I don't sleep much at night, at most I take a nap while basking in the moon.
But after the realgar incident, they have not contacted for a whole month. Will he care about her?
Besides, she shouldn't tell a strange man such a thing either.
She wandered sadly by the lake. The heart is insulted, and the body is also insulted. She was insulted so thoroughly. She shivered in the cold wind. Holding his chest with both hands, a sudden surge of despair came. She saw a wooden bridge and quickly walked along the wooden bridge to the depths of the lake. That is where people swim in summer, and those who are good at swimming will dive from the end of the bridge. Pippi can also swim, but after just watching Titanic, she believes she will never struggle in the cold water for too long. The down jacket soaked in water will become very heavy and will carry her to the bottom of the lake.
She walked to the end of the bridge without thinking too much. At the moment when he was about to throw away the phone, the ghost made a call to Helan Jingting.
She didn't want to disturb anyone, just wanted to listen to the voices of others at the last moment of her death.
The phone rang and was connected.
"Hey?"
It's him.
"I'm sorry," Pippi said calmly, "I'm just trying to say sorry when I called you so late."
"It's three o'clock in the morning," Helan Jingting's voice was very clear, "Pippi, where are you?"
"I...I..." She sneezed into the wind, "I'm outside. You... how about you?"
"I'm in the car."
"Then, I won't disturb you, goodbye." She planned to turn off the phone.
"Wait," he said suddenly, "I want to see you, if I have something to do with you."
"let's talk tomorrow."
"It's important, I must see you now."
"Then speak on the phone."
"Guan Pippi," he said coldly, word by word, "you are not allowed to hang up."
She was irritated by his brutal tone and smiled faintly: "Helan Jingting, if you really live for nine hundred years, what else matters to you?"
Before he could answer, she threw the phone straight into the lake.
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