Chapter 1314: (Fan Wai) I love you, goodbye

Chapter 1314 (Fanwai) I love you, goodbye
(This is a letter from Xiaoxia to Qiangzi before getting married)
Hadron, before the most important moment in life comes, I want to write you a letter.
When I wrote this letter, it was actually my most tense and busiest moment. Because I am about to face a major turning point in my life, because tomorrow I will put on a crown of flowers, put on the wedding gown he designed for me, walked to him in front of everyone's gaze and blessing, waiting for him to hold my hand , Became his favorite bride.
Even I still have the opportunity to re-experience the purest childhood time, and the ups and downs of each, and the love that reunited after separation. Yes, you gave me a wedding that far exceeded the wedding I had hoped for in my life. Even so good that I feel that even for this wedding, getting married is a worthwhile thing.
However, the irony is that such a wedding has nothing to do with you. You can only appear as a bystander, a witness. I don’t know, when I walk by your side in a wedding gown, what kind of feelings you will have in your heart, will you have such a little regret, regret that I can only rub shoulders with you in the end, in my most beautiful At the moment, we become each other's guests in the form of rubbing shoulders, and even the time I pass by you will not be even one second longer than the time passing by other guests.
In the eyes of everyone, I should be envied, because I have a person who loves me the most, a love that is almost legendary, and finally blossomed, and the most romantic that makes the whole world envy and hate, also The wedding that best reflects our love, for many women, this is enough and should be content.
I think I should actually be satisfied, and I will also be moved to tears for my happiness at the moment, but even at such a moment, thinking of what I have lost, I still feel that there will probably never be two perfections in life. Words, especially for me.
It was already late at night, but I still couldn't sleep. I knew I should rest early and be the most beautiful bride tomorrow, but I was at a loss and couldn't sleep. They laughed at me saying that the wedding was immediately hit by happiness and excitement. Only they knew that the mood at the moment was very complicated.
Therefore, writing to you has become something I must do at the moment. Because the new happiness is about to unfold, the old feelings must be broken.
When I wrote this letter to you, I didn't actually think about giving it to you. You will not see this letter in this life, and you don't know that there was a person in this world who loved you, and left this text to you. Therefore, this letter is actually meaningless. It seems that many things, especially feelings, actually have no meaning. But I still did. I am a businessman, and every thing I do, every bit of effort I put in, must have results and let me see the benefits. Only in the matter of loving you is something that I know that there will be no results, but I still insist on it.
There are just some things, I can't tell you anymore, it's impossible to destroy you and Xiaoxiao's, and my happiness and Yuming's. Yuming and you are two completely different people. I know that I have completely different feelings for him and for you. You make my heart move. When I am with you, I can feel a heart. I want to move anytime and anywhere, wanting to jump out of my chest; but he makes me feel at ease, every time he hugs me, no matter what the situation, sadness, disappointment or anger, I can calm down in his arms.
Qiangzi, I think I know in my heart why Xiaoxiao was the one who was with you in the end, not me. Because I don't have the passion like her, don't have the enthusiasm of her, I won't be like her, I only need love, and I can give everything for love. I have always told myself that love is never what I am after, so even if I don't get it, I shouldn't complain. Really, I have bought a lot of luxury goods, clothes worth tens of thousands of dollars, bags and necklaces worth hundreds of thousands, but the only real luxury, which I have never gotten, is love. I can love me upright. The person who loves, he also loves me, and at the same time we can walk together in an upright manner and declare to the world our right to love each other deeply.
I looked at my feelings for you with the calmness and rationality of my businessman, and finally found out sadly that this was probably the worst defeat in my life. What I invested was all I had, but the result was lost.
Qiangzi, you are also a businessman. You know, if your business fails, you can start all over again, but where can you get the piece of sincerity you have given you?
Qiangzi, tomorrow is my wedding. For most people, the wedding should be the happiest, most sacred, and most memorable moment in their lives. For me, this is not necessarily the case. The person I marry must be the one who loves me the most in the world. He will spend more than ten years waiting for me and accompanying me in an invisible corner. I will definitely spend the rest of my life to give me promise and happiness. I believe he can definitely do this. It's as if I always knew that you could never do it, or that you could not do it to me. Because from the beginning, you are not destined to belong to my happiness. From the original Nie Qian, to your favorite Wang Yaxin, to Xiaoxiao who loves you the most, and Huang Wanting who has been waiting silently behind you, everyone, you have a reason to love them and give them happiness. I alone, there is only one mistake... and mistakes should not be the rope that fetters our life. Especially, if such happiness comes at the cost of betrayal and hurt Xiaoxiao, then I will never have the peace of mind to enjoy a little happiness. Forever and forever, can only live in deeper pain. Strong son, you are passionate, and you tend to love deeply and sincerely, but you don't know how to love someone. In the end, all those who fall in love with you will get hurt.
Because you can't read this letter, I can tell you everything I want to say here. I love you, even though I don’t know what is the cause of this relationship. Obviously you are not the type I like. We are always tit-for-tat when we are together. There is almost never a time of harmony. But those moments are indeed the happiest, most presumptuous and happiest moments in my life. In front of you, I can stretch my teeth and dance my claws, like a female devil who will bully you underground, or I can be arrogant and unreasonable, relying on you to do anything for me, but the most important thing is I can In front of you, I truly expose myself. I am safe in front of you. I can indulge my weakness and helplessness, and collapse in front of you without any scruples. The me in front of you is the real and complete me. So, I am in love with you...
The day is about to dawn, Qiangzi, this letter, and the feeling that I have paid for you but cannot get back, come here to draw an eternal end. In the years to come, without each other's company, we must each be happy. I will, and you will definitely, because the people who accompany us are the people who love us the most, so we should all be happy, right? I only hope that at the wedding, when I pass by you, we will not look back, just like this, we will go away...
I love you, goodbye.