Chapter 2639: Frustrated woman

At 5:30 in the morning, Wang Yaxin finally found Zhang Ling on the street. Zhang Ling was sitting on the side of the road at the moment. Wang Yaxin’s rapid footsteps did not seem to attract her attention. At this moment, she still buried her head in her hands. Between the knees, it seemed that everything happening around me had nothing to do with me.
But after Wang Yaxin walked in, he discovered that a large number of beer cans and cigarette butts were scattered on the ground.
In Wang Yaxin’s impression, Zhang Ling has always attached great importance to her image, so she never smokes or drinks. She has told herself about this before, and Wang Yaxin at this moment can’t help but feel very surprised when she sees this scene. , A woman who has never smoked or drank, now turns into this way, how much sadness and pain does it need?
"Lingling... why do you torture yourself like this?" After Wang Yaxin approached, he patted Zhang Ling on the shoulder, and comforted.
Although Wang Yaxin also had very anxious things in her heart at this moment, but seeing this scene of Zhang Ling, she couldn't care about anything else.
However, Zhang Ling did not react at all. It looked like she was asleep. She couldn't hear what Wang Yaxin said. Wang Yaxin also pondered for a moment again, bowed her head, glanced at Zhang Ling, and continued to speak softly. : "It's okay, everything will pass. Those who are destined to leave, don't have to deliberately stay. They don't belong to oneself, and they are not their own after all."
Finally, as Wang Yaxin's words landed, Zhang Ling finally had a slight reaction. She slowly raised her head and glanced sideways at Wang Yaxin at the moment. From her eyes, Wang Yaxin saw a trace of indifference and indifferent.
This made Wang Yaxin suddenly feel that she couldn't help trembling all over. This kind of look made Wang Yaxin feel a trace of fear. She had never seen such a look before. To her, Zhang Ling at this moment is like a It was like a machine without emotions, or rather, like a walking dead, with just this look, Wang Yaxin had already clearly felt all this.
"Lingling...you...what's wrong with you?" Wang Yaxin took a step back subconsciously. The sense of distance and fear that Zhang Ling made Wang Yaxin feel at this moment, even Wang Yaxin himself couldn't tell what was going on.
"Nothing, I think I'm pretty good now..." Zhang Ling finally showed a smile on her face, but it looked so weird. On the street at 5:30 in the morning, there was no one, and there was no one. In a passing vehicle, there were only two people on the street, Wang Yaxin and Zhang Ling. Listening to Zhang Ling's calm words, Wang Yaxin felt a chill in his back again.
At this moment, Zhang Ling slowly took out a cigarette again. After lighting it, she took a deep breath, then slowly exhaled a puff of smoke, and then coughed twice. It can be seen that she is not yet She is used to smoking, but she has already smoked nearly a pack this evening.
When Wang Yaxin saw this, she wanted to stop Zhang Ling from going on like this, but she felt that she didn’t have the qualifications and status. What’s more, Zhang Ling has become like this now. No matter what she says, she shouldn’t Used it?
At this time, after Zhang Ling coughed, she turned her head and glanced at Wang Yaxin. Through the lingering smoke in front of Zhang Ling, Wang Yaxin saw the tired and desperate face behind the smoke. She knew that if it weren’t for despair to the extreme , Zhang Ling will not be what she is now.
"Didn't you say that you are looking for something to do with me? What's the matter?" Zhang Ling looked at Wang Yaxin indifferently, and said to Wang Yaxin absently.
When Wang Yaxin heard the words, she was stunned. She really wanted to say everything Jack did before. At least Zhang Ling knows Jack better than herself. Maybe she can help herself out, but now she looks at Zhang Ling. With this look, Wang Yaxin knew that this idea of ​​her own seemed to be a fantasy.
After pondering for a while, Wang Yaxin continued to speak: "Lingling, I am really sad to see you like this. If I can help you, you must tell me and I will do my best."
"Hehe, I don’t have much to help. I think I’ve never been as relaxed as I am now. Did you know that when you’re completely desperate for someone and no longer have any expectations or fantasies about him, your heart It will be extremely relaxed. No matter what the TA does, it will be as if it has nothing to do with him. He will never feel heartache or disappointment again. That feeling is really refreshing and easy."
Zhang Ling turned her head again, continued to smoke a cigarette, looked at the street, and said to herself.
At this moment, Zhang Ling made Wang Yaxin feel a little normal, and Wang Yaxin finally understood why she was so helpless, even scared, after seeing Zhang Ling tonight. In fact, all this was due to the gap between Zhang Ling’s front and back. It's too big. She was the way she was, and she didn't look like a person at all tonight.
At this moment, after Zhang Ling said these words, Wang Yaxin felt that she seemed to have returned to the way she was before.
Therefore, after Wang Yaxin pondered for a while, she continued to speak: "Lingling, there is nothing wrong with your thoughts, but you can't hurt yourself like this. Since it's someone else's mistake, why should you use it to punish yourself? How silly to be!"
"Did you come to me tonight to persuade me?" Zhang Ling turned her head again, glanced at Wang Yaxin, and her eyes were once again feelingless and calm.
Wang Yaxin suddenly realized that she seemed to be a little impatient. Zhang Ling's heart was at the most vulnerable time at this moment. The more she was like this, it would be counterproductive.
However, when Wang Yaxin realized all this, it was already too late.
"I want to open it now. What you said yesterday was right. I should indeed learn to let go. Otherwise, I will be his pet at any time and I will never have my own life, so thank you Yaxin, I already know what I should do."
Although there was no emotion in the eyes, what Zhang Ling said sounded like a normal person's thinking. After Wang Yaxin listened to it, he immediately said: "Actually, Lingling, I'm like telling you. Everything on the back is not as simple as you think..."
"What's the inside story? Do you think I am not miserable enough now? Do you want to tell me more of the truth that makes me worse off?" Zhang Ling said, turning to the ground, looking at those on the ground The still rolling beer cans pointed to them and said to Wang Yaxin: "Did you see it? I want to get drunk, I want to make myself unconscious, but this god, I don't even get drunk...Haha!"
Zhang Ling’s emotions seem to be out of control again, and Wang Yaxin is also getting more and more anxious. She originally wanted to find a chance to say all that, but now looking at Zhang Ling’s state, it is obviously difficult to find another opportunity like that. .
"No, you think more about Lingling, not what you think..." Wang Yaxin hurriedly explained, but felt that the more he said at the moment, the harder it would be to explain things clearly.
Looking at Zhang Ling’s calm expression, Wang Yaxin continued:
Lingling, everyone will encounter the ups and downs in their lives, and when we face the ups and downs, we can choose to ignore them, or we can choose to face all of them, no matter what we encounter. We should actively think of ways to solve any difficulties. If we choose to be decadent, we can only become slaves to difficulties, and it will never be difficult to come out again."
"You also think that I am too much now, right? Haha, but I don't care anymore. Anyway, no one cares about me. Who cares what I am like now? I feel happy as long as I am happy." Zhang Ling said Gu Zi said, as if there was still no one beside her at the moment, as if she had directly ignored Wang Yaxin beside her.
It is true that for Zhang Ling, she knows what she wants and who she wants to care for most. Although Wang Yaxin was also very important to her before, after all, she was just a friend who met occasionally, and Jack In comparison, it is obviously incomparable. Therefore, even if Wang Yaxin is standing in front of her right now, even if she is cold and warm to herself, what she is now entangled with is not at all, and Wang Yaxin's concern for her is not at all felt.
As for Wang Yaxin at this moment, Zhang Ling is in such a state, let alone want her to help her out, she seems to be unable to listen to any persuasion.
Therefore, the words that were originally prepared to be spoken were swallowed by Wang Yaxin. Now she realized that she was really a person without any support by her side. In this foreign country, once she met With such a problem, when I looked up, there was no one of my relatives or friends around.
Before, Wang Yaxin had thought about it. When she first got the news that she was able to be discharged from the hospital, she was almost dying of happiness. At that time, she felt that as long as she was still alive to see her children, and she could continue to take care of them and watch them. Every moment of growth, this is already a very happy thing for myself at that time.
But at that time, Wang Yaxin also knew that human desires are always endless. After getting this, she wanted to get that again, but she didn't expect that all this would come so quickly.
Now that Xiaoyu has something like this, Wang Yaxin's inner thoughts are naturally that he hopes that Xiaoyu can be safe, no matter what he gives, he is willing, as long as he can make Xiaoyu safe and safe.
Even before, Wang Yaxin made a few more calls to Jack, hoping to discuss with Jack, but it is obvious that now Jack will not answer Wang Yaxin’s calls at all. For Jack, he has already told Wang Yaxin that he wants to All that said, as for what Wang Yaxin will do next, it is Wang Yaxin's own business, and what I have to do now is to be optimistic about Xiaoyu, and I will never let it go until I make sure that my own interests will not be lost. This kid, because he is now the only bargaining chip in his hand, a bargaining chip used to threaten Wang Yaxin.
After seeing Zhang Ling’s state, Wang Yaxin knew that she could no longer do anything for herself. Originally, at this time, she should have chosen to leave without hesitation, but she did not leave in the end. Instead, she chose to stay. Although Zhang Ling was not drunk, her state after drinking was obviously completely different from usual. Seeing her in her current state and still on the street, Wang Yaxin was obviously not at ease. What accident happened to Zhang Ling is not what Wang Yaxin would like to see.
Sitting down quietly, like Zhang Ling, sitting on the cliff next to the road, turning his head to look at Zhang Ling's mouthful of smoke into his lungs, Wang Yaxin couldn't help but remember the time when Fang Zhiqiang was still smoking.
At that time, he stood on the balcony at night more than once, looking at the night view of the pearl downstairs, smoking a cigarette in his mouth. At that moment, it seemed that everything in this world had nothing to do with him. Wang Yaxin also had it at that time. Have you ever imagined what it would be like when you smoke smoke into your lungs? What are the thoughts in your head?
That kind of curiosity made Wang Yaxin almost fall in love with smoking, but perhaps because of Xiaoyu's health at that time, or perhaps because of the sudden arrival of Xiao Xinsheng, Wang Yaxin gave up this idea.
But now, watching Zhang Ling next to him smoking like this, Wang Yaxin once again had this idea. Now he has no idea about Xiaoyu, and there is nothing he can do about it. Perhaps, smoking can Make yourself feel better?
Thinking of this, Wang Yaxin couldn't help but touched Zhang Ling's arm, then looked at Zhang Ling's puzzled expression, and said softly: "Can you...give me one?"