Chapter 2682: Old things

After Wang Yaxin’s words landed, Zhang Ling was finally taken aback. She seemed to realize that her previous thoughts might be a bit extreme. The woman standing in front of her was so gentle and kind. On the surface, she might be somewhat It’s hard to approach, even close to being cold, but in fact, when you come into contact with her, you will find that she is actually a very kind-hearted woman. The reason why she had those unconfident thoughts before and felt that she was coming to Wang Yaxin Saying that there is no use anymore, all of this is just because of his current situation, and has nothing to do with Wang Yaxin himself.
"Lingling, in fact, I have never told you about my past. When you listen to my previous stories, you will find that, in fact, I and you have such a similar experience. Even compared to you, I If you are not as lucky as you, then you will discover that in fact, the unfortunate person in this world is not only yourself. Whose life is not carrying a burden?"
Wang Yaxin said it very seriously, and Zhang Ling on the side was also listening carefully. Perhaps when she was in front of her house, she looked at the seal on her door. At that time, Zhang Ling really didn’t feel much in the mood to listen to Wang Yaxin’s words. But now, after seeing Wang Yaxin doing this for herself sincerely, Zhang Ling realized that Wang Yaxin really wanted to help herself out of the predicament. Moreover, after listening to Wang Yaxin’s words just now, Zhang Ling was also very concerned about Wang Yaxin’s past. Indeed, a strong curiosity arose. After all, she had never heard Wang Yaxin mentioned.
"When I was young, I loved a man deeply. At that time, I thought my whole world was him. Even I thought at the time that I couldn't live without him. Of course, it doesn't mean that I didn't continue. The ability to survive, but to feel that he is everything to me, I simply cannot accept the pain after losing him."
"Later, after we planned a series of marriage matters, I got pregnant unexpectedly. You should be able to understand it. For a woman, it should be a sad thing, but I didn’t think so at the time. I think there is a man who loves me so much, and I love him so much, I am willing to give birth to this child for him, and we will get married soon."
"But what I didn’t expect was that he didn’t agree to let me give birth to the child. I don’t know why, but I still stick to my own ideas. After all, it’s a life. I don’t want to let him disappear like this. Later, something more unexpected happened to me..."
Speaking of this, Wang Yaxin paused abruptly. Although so many years have passed, and although he has had so many new experiences, he should have forgotten those things a long time ago, but the scars of the past will always be there. It is a scar, like a mark engraved on the heart. It can never be erased. Whenever I mention the past, I remember how gloomy that period of time was, and how inhuman torment I experienced , Only with today's self, can I stick to the present.
"He disappeared suddenly, just like the world has evaporated. There is no news. I can't contact him. I can't find where he is. Guess what decision I made next?" Wang Yaxin turned his head and looked at him. At this moment, Zhang Ling, even though she had simplified her original experience as much as possible, she still felt vivid in her heart. In fact, Wang Yaxin didn't want to talk about the details.
Zhang Ling frowned, watching Wang Yaxin sternly and shook her head. She couldn't guess. It was just what Wang Yaxin said, which made Zhang Ling feel that this was an extremely tragic thing, how much it was at first Sweet, how miserable it will be afterwards. Imagine that Wang Yaxin was full of expectations for this relationship, but in the end she had to face such a result. What was her mood at that time?
"I still insist on giving birth to the child. I feel that since I brought him life, he has the responsibility and obligation to let him experience everything he should experience. No matter what kind of grievances and feasts between adults, one should not be allowed Innocent children pay for all this."
When Wang Yaxin said this, her tone was very firm. Until now, she has not regretted the decision she made at the beginning. Especially seeing Xiaoyu who is so sensible now, her heart is more relieved.
As Zhang Ling listened, her eyes flushed. This time, it was not because of her own circumstances, but because of Wang Yaxin's experience.
It is true that everyone has different experiences. Zhang Ling has never contacted Wang Yaxin’s experience. She herself has never, and has never contacted anyone with such an experience. Therefore, when Wang Yaxin finished speaking, She felt both novel and heart-wrenching. After all, such a thing would be a huge tragedy for any woman.
"I originally thought that I was strong enough at the time, even if I was alone, I could raise my child smoothly. As long as I can watch the child grow up healthily, no matter how much I am wronged, everything does not matter."
"But then I found out that what I was going to bear was completely different from what I imagined. When raising a child, I can't help but want to give him the best. Naturally, I need to improve the quality of life. Therefore, I need to work hard. To make money without life, of course, all of this is not so difficult for me to do. What makes me even more unbearable is that I have to bear the name, and others point to my backbone and call me a morally corrupt woman. Scolding me for pregnancy when I was unmarried, scolding me for being unscrupulous, etc... Now that I think about it, these are nothing, but they are just comments made by people who don’t understand themselves without authorization. I don’t need to take it seriously. At that time, those words really caused me great harm. I can’t figure out what I did wrong? Why should I bear these slurs? Why didn’t anyone mention the scolding?

"It doesn’t matter. After making a choice, I naturally have to give up other choices. I brought this child into this world. No matter what difficulties I encounter, I can’t forget my original intention and can’t choose to give up. But as the child gradually When he grew up, he began to have his own mind. He began to think about why he didn't have a father. How do you think I should explain to him?" Wang Yaxin looked at Zhang Ling and asked.
However, Zhang Ling still shook her head with red eyes. At this time, she seemed to be staring at Wang Yaxin more seriously than ever before, as if she didn't want to miss every word Wang Yaxin said next.
"In the beginning, I lied to him that Dad was on a business trip and needed a long period of work to be able to return, but how long can such a lie be maintained? In school, all children have their own fathers, but he does not. How did he face the ridicule and teasing of other children? Later, I found him a fake dad, which made him feel that he was also a child with a dad. Compared with other little friends, he was no different, but I also knew at the time that this was only effective for a while. After a period of time, everything would return to the past. This lie cannot last a lifetime."
"Sure enough, even the time was shorter than I expected. Everything was over. With the end of it all, he got depression. A ten-year-old child got depression. At that time, he never had anymore. In the past, lively and lovely, and frowning every day, this world is so big, but nothing seems to be worthy of making him happy, do you know how I felt in my heart at the time? If I could replace him I will not hesitate to bear all this."
"Until now, you have seen my life, do you think my life is good?"
At the last question, Zhang Ling did not rush to answer. She lowered her head slowly, and after a long period of thought, she raised her head to look at Wang Yaxin again, and said softly: "Yaxin, sorry, I know these must be deep in your heart. You must rarely mention the scars of my heart. In order to comfort me, let you tell these past events again. Your heart must be very painful, right?"
Zhang Ling did not answer Wang Yaxin’s question, but what she said made Wang Yaxin feel a touch of warmth instead. Sometimes, the kind of gentleness that a woman can give is just what a man can’t do, because a woman Born to be a careful species, they can always find the root of the problem and the key point in a seemingly normal conversation, just like Zhang Ling at this moment.
A faint smile appeared on Wang Yaxin’s face, and then said:
It’s already something old and old, and now that I mentioned it, it’s no longer the sadness of the time. After all, everyone is no longer the same. On the contrary, after speaking out, I feel more comfortable in my heart. Perhaps, no matter what, it is the same, bit by bit, slowly and completely let go."
"Well, Yaxin, thank you for telling me this. I really never thought that you would have such an unfortunate experience before. Now after listening to it, I even feel that compared to your experience, my things are not worth it. Just to mention, you can rest assured that I will be able to adjust my mentality and try my best to get out of this haze!"
Zhang Ling's determination made Wang Yaxin nod his head with satisfaction. As long as it can help Zhang Ling re-energize, what does it matter even if it is to sprinkle salt on her scar? At least, this scar has other effects besides heartache.