Chapter 669: Encounter in Lhasa (1)

Chapter 669 Encounter in Lhasa (1)
"In the past few months I have been out, I have been walking around by myself all day, and I have come into contact with completely strangers in a completely strange environment, making my heart feel very calm. I like this feeling very much, what can I do? I don’t think about it or care about anything. There is only myself in my world. After a few months, I feel that I have almost forgotten you. I feel that you don’t seem to be that important in my life. At this moment, you tell me that you are divorced." Li Xiaoxiao looked at Fang Zhiqiang and said.
"Originally I was desperate for you, but you told me that you were divorced, the love for you in my heart, the desire for you, instantly burned again, I started to be unable to restrain myself, especially I know that you and After Wang Yaxin's divorce, you must be very sad. I really want to return to you, take care of you and comfort you. I was almost ready to drive back to your house to find you at that time, but in the end, I controlled me. Myself. I know, your heart is not here with me, I know, I shouldn’t be with you anymore, I shouldn’t give you any more chances and I can’t give myself any thoughts, and I don’t want to get hurt anymore. For me Say, you are a dangerous man, I shouldn’t be close to you. I forced myself to cut off all contact with you. I changed my mobile phone number, I changed the place, and restarted my trip. I’m going to forget you."
"After coming out of the county town of Qumalai, I walked very slowly this way, wherever I went, I saw and played wherever I went. No matter which town I passed through, I would stay for a few days to see the life of the locals. Take a look at the surrounding scenery. I will take pictures, I will take pictures of the people here, I will also set up a drawing board to paint, paint in the deserted ice and snow, paint aimlessly, paint a featureless The snow-capped mountains may be just a few ribbons of prayer flags. One painting is a whole day, I think this is very good, I like it very much. Or maybe I will stay in a shabby guest house for a few days and be locked in In the guest house, I write my own diary and essays. I can write a few hundred words for a whole day. After I finish writing, I will find that I don’t know what I wrote, and then tear it off. I like this life very much. , This kind of aimless life, I live in my own life, I don’t have to think about other people’s feelings, and I don’t have to think about love or not. I only live my own life, and there is only myself in my life." Li Xiaoxiao continued.
"But, at this moment, you called me again, you found me again, and you once again shattered all my persistence and all efforts. You know, I cannot forget you in my heart. I can’t say no to you, and I can’t stand any of your temptations. Your phone call once again made my months of hard work come to nothing. I said I didn’t want you to find you, you said you’d find me How hard and tired you are, do you know, when I heard you say that you drove around in Hoh Xil for four days and three nights in order to find me, I couldn’t help crying I’m just so useless, even if you treat me a little bit nicely, I think it’s a great gift. You say you want me to tell you where I am, I can’t say no to you, I can’t tell you Cruel, I can’t be as unfeeling as you are to me. But I also know that I can’t be with you, I can’t be with you. I found comfort for myself, and found myself a Reason, I just agreed with you on this Lhasa encounter. I hope that God will decide whether I choose to be with you or completely forget you and leave you, because I can’t make a choice myself. I There is no choice. I can’t say no to you. I can only rely on God to say no to you. If God really lets us meet, then that’s God’s will. God wants us to meet again. My heart is I think so."
"But, you don’t follow the rules of the game. You are here to block me. You didn’t even wait for me to enter Lhasa, so there was no promise of encounters. Moreover, you let me see you again. What I fear most is When I meet you, as long as I see you, all my feelings will be poured into you. There will be only you in my heart. I will be unable to extricate myself from you again, just like me now. Strong son, tell me Me, what should I do? Tell me, now we are together, are we met or not? Tell me, what should I do?" Li Xiaoxiao looked at Fang Zhiqiang and said, talking with tears It flows out again.
Every word of Li Xiaoxiao hurt Fang Zhiqiang's heart. Fang Zhiqiang never thought that on this road, every word he said to Li Xiaoxiao in every dialogue with Li Xiaoxiao made Li Xiaoxiao like this. Struggling with such pain, he had always thought that Li Xiaoxiao was headstrong before, and he also felt that Li Xiaoxiao playing such a child’s game was too naive and tricking others. Only now did he know how helpless Li Xiaoxiao was. pain.
This girl, this gentle, kind and innocent girl, was supposed to be her own daughter at home. She should stay at home and be loved by thousands of people, but at this moment she is tortured like this, and all of this, regardless of whether she insists on it or not. Acknowledge that he is all responsible. He said before that the person who is loved is always wrong. He is the one who is loved by Li Xiaoxiao. He has to bear responsibility for all the injuries suffered by Li Xiaoxiao for love, because even he himself is the same. thought.
However, he could not answer the question asked by Li Xiaoxiao, nor could he answer. He has only one idea now, that is, to bring Li Xiaoxiao back to Shanghai. The rest are trivial matters, and the rest are just things. This is the most important thing.
"Hey, hello, can you give me some face? Now it's midnight, you are sitting here and crying to me. The waiter thought I did something to you. If you call the police, wouldn't you make a fool of yourself? Wipe your tears quickly, and when we return to the hotel, we will cry how we want, I will never disturb you, okay?" Fang Zhiqiang said with a smile, then took the tissue on the table and handed it to Li Xiaoxiao.
"You think I'm a crying ghost." Li Xiaoxiao was amused by Fang Zhiqiang's words, gave Fang Zhiqiang a white look, then took the tissue that Fang Zhiqiang handed over and began to wipe away the tears, but his mood was obviously better than before. .
"You don't want to eat?" Fang Zhiqiang asked when Li Xiaoxiao hadn't eaten anything.
"I don't want to eat, I'm full, I can't eat anything anymore when I see you, and I'm full." Li Xiaoxiao said again, but the words were full of tenderness.