Chapter 894: Bi Luochun (6)

Chapter 894 Bi Luochun (6)
Bi Luochun couldn't even maintain a basic life. As a last resort, he had to all the valuable things on his body, such as cellphones, brand-name watches, jewelry and even clothes. The assistant even sold him his car. All he had left was this. But it is difficult to change from extravagance to frugality. He can't get rid of the habit of profligacy before, and alcoholism has become an addiction that he can't quit, and the money is quickly spent. So in the end, he was desperate. He owed money while drinking and clashed with the bar security and was arrested at the police station. At that time, the only thing he could remember, and the only one who could help him, was Fang Zhiqiang. Over the years, he has never forgotten Fang Zhiqiang's number, which has become his last straw.
Bi Luochun spoke for a long, long time, and finally calmed down and stopped crying.
The rain outside also gradually decreased. Fang Zhiqiang looked at the remaining water marks on the car window and listened to Bi Luochun's experience. He was incomprehensible and confused. He didn't expect that Bi Luochun would be like this in the end, using illegal means to obtain ill-gotten gains. How he got it, how he would lose it in the end, destiny is like a big joke. After making Bi Luochun go round and climb to the top, he ruthlessly throws him back to the origin. No, it’s more bleak than before. They have nothing, but they are innocent and have a clear conscience. At that time, they had wine and brothers, and Liu Yan was beside Bi Luochun. Now everything can't go back.
Bi Luochun's voice was choked with the patter of rain: "Qiangzi, when I reported the number with the police station, I was really desperate in my heart. At that time I didn't dare to think you would come, no Dare to think that you can help me out from the police station... I really just felt that I had no face to see you at the time. I came back and hoped that you could forgive me, but everything I did might only make you more disgusting and look down upon you. ...I really wished to die..."
"At that time, I thought very clearly. If you didn’t come, I wouldn’t blame you. Everything was my own self-care, no one can blame... But I know, that means that the world cares about me most. People have completely ignored me. I live in this world without any difference from a puddle of mud. So I thought at the time, you didn’t come, and when you got out of the police station and entered the shelter, then I would die. ...I really figured it all out..."
"But you are here, I... When I saw you, I was really happy." Bi Luochun said and sobbed: "I am not happy that you came to save me, I am happy that I know you Still a strong son, no matter when or what the situation is, you are the strong son who has a stubborn temper, but refuses to let go of the brotherhood. You will never change, but I will never go back. ."
After Bi Luochun finished speaking, he couldn't help but lay down on the co-pilot again and burst into tears.
What Fang Zhiqiang didn't expect was that Bi Luochun's mentality had become so decadent, and he was also thankful that he didn't ignore it in anger at the time. Otherwise, Bi Luochun's appearance would really go to death.
"Why don't you die? Why did you break the jar like this! You don't want to think, you are relieved, what will your parents do? They have been suffering all their lives, and the only hope is you. In the end, what did you do wrong? I've done everything again, and let them send white-haired people to black-haired people. Will you feel at ease if you die?" Fang Zhiqiang sternly rebuked Bi Luochun.
"After you came back, haven't you been home yet? Haven't you met them yet? If you ever meet them, take a look at them and they still live in your dilapidated house. When working in the fields, young people can’t leave behind, not because they are willing to do what they like, but because they don’t do so desperately! Because they want to work hard to buy a house for their son and marry a wife! How about you, when you spend time and drink Have you thought about them a little bit? When you want to die, you never thought about cutting out a piece of meat from their hearts. How do they feel?"
"Qianzi...Don't say it, I'm not a human...I'm confused..." Bi Luochun cried so much that he couldn't speak, and he reached out to slap himself.
Fang Zhiqiang grabbed him and said sternly, "Enough, is it useful to hurt yourself like this?"
Fang Zhiqiang said, let out a heavy sigh, and then asked Bi Luochun: "Do you want to smoke?" After that, he handed one over.
In fact, he wants to smoke himself, but also desperately wants to use nicotine to numb and relax himself. The impact of Bi Luochun's experience on him was too great, and he couldn't relax for a while.
Bi Luochun tremblingly took the cigarette, Fang Zhiqiang lit him up and opened the window. The wind was wrapped in drizzle, and it hit his face coolly, making the heavy mood a little less annoying.
The two people smoked in silence for a long time. Fang Zhiqiang saw that Bi Luochun had calmed down, so he asked him, "Then what do you plan to do in the future?"
Bi Luochun shook his head blankly: "...I never thought about it, I don't know. I don't know anything now..."
Fang Zhiqiang sighed heavily, he could see that Bi Luochun had been completely abandoned.
"Then are you going to stay in Shanghai next, or go somewhere else, or go back to your hometown?" Fang Zhiqiang asked patiently.
As soon as he heard back to his hometown, Bi Luochun suddenly reflexed and shook his head again and again: "No, I go back like this, and I don't have the face to see my parents... The wrong things I did by myself, can't let them take responsibility for me. They also expected me to provide for them in the future. I went back like this, and it was difficult to even support myself."
"I also know that I don't have the face to stay in Shanghai, and there is no place for me... I don't have the face to see you." Bi Luochun said with shame, "Qiangzi, sorry, I'm causing you trouble. …I really didn’t mean to think like this. I will think about it these days, and when I think about it, no matter what decision I make, I will go on."
"You can help me, I'm really grateful, now like this, there is no way I can say to repay you in the future... I'm already very sorry for you, and I don't expect you to forgive me in my life. I can say sorry to you, and thank you."
"You go back, Qiangzi, I will find a place to live, let myself think about the future. Excuse me, Qiangzi." Bi Luochun said at last, looking at himself and Fang Zhiqiang. There was also the muddy water all over the car, and said with a bitter smile: "I'm really sorry, I'm really sorry to make your car like this."