Chapter 49:

Ji Yuyan withdrew his mind from the memory, and saw Jing Xun's long eyelashes hanging down, and between her brows she was once familiar with Qiangren. She panicked, and realized that Jing Xuan might have misunderstood her silence.
"Axun." She said eagerly, "It's not what you think."
She has such an ugly face, not like that, what about? The mist in Jing Xiu's eyes was heavy.
No matter it was before or now, Ji Yuyan's help to her is the same as a snake.
When others give her a chance, Ji Yooyan will be happy and grateful. She gives Ji Yooyan a chance, and Ji Yooyan will only feel shame and hurt her self-esteem. But obviously, they are the closest people, the ones who should support each other and work together, right?
For a long time, Jing Xun felt painful. She didn't know what she should do to love Ji Yuyan better and save their precarious relationship.
She respected Ji Youyan's self-esteem, and left Ji Youyan aside. Ji Youyan deviated from her original aspirations, sold the song and acted in the play and signed Wang Junchan. She was distressed and scared, and she didn't know how much frustration and insult Ji Yuyan would suffer as she continued to stand by. So on the basis of ensuring that Ji Yuyan is proud, she silently released the wind to protect Ji Yuyan, so that people would not dare to covet Ji Yuyan, but Ji Yuyan still chose the most hurtful way to hurt himself, entangled with others, and continued to hype.
It's not that she didn't understand Ji Yuyan. She comforted herself that maybe Ji Yuyan was a kite, destined to fly high. Ji Yooyan doesn't want to be her own style, then she can be Ji Yooyan's matchmaker, even if they are far away, they are still connected.
But I don’t know when it started. Maybe it was from the time when she tried to communicate with Ji Yooyan but only got dodge and deceived again and again, maybe it started from Ji Yooyan’s time and again missed appointments with her, but then again and again with the rumored boyfriend of dating photos, Jing Xin began to doubt himself.
Ji Yooyan was still the kite, flying farther and farther, she stood still holding the line, but she couldn't see if she was still on the end of her line.
Her line seems not to be Ji Yoo's concern, but Ji Yoo's bondage? Ji Yoo didn't mention breaking up, was it just because she promised "I will be responsible" when she delivered her body and mind?
She was uneasy and apprehensive. She was eager to change the status quo, but Ji Yuyan was like quicksand in her hands. The tighter she held her, the faster she lost ground.
She was desperate.
And tonight, she mustered up the courage to believe in Ji Youyan's recent changes, and mustered up the courage to speak frankly. How could Ji Youyan's silence make her not disappointed.
Why didn't she help Ji Yuyan? Why did she help Ji Yuyan, but Ji Yuyan only thought she was wrong.
Born in Rome, it seems to be her original sin. If Ji Youyan will always be so clearly distinguished from her, even if they get back together, they will only experience mutual torture again.
Jing Xiu's nose was a bit sore, but she still gave Ji Youyan time. She looked at Ji Youyan, hoping that she might really give herself some comfort.
Ji Yuyan stood up, stepped two steps to Jing Xun's side, and squatted down beside her chair. She raised her head to look at Jingxun, her eyes were full of tenderness, and she explained softly: "Axiu, I just remembered something before."
She wanted to ask Jing Xiu about the previous life, but she immediately realized how Jing Xiu might know. Jing Xiu said that it happened that Tao Xing signed himself if he wanted to develop the company. This time one year earlier than the previous life may be because the previous life was secretly intercepted by Wang Junchan?
She tentatively covered Jing Xun's right hand on her knees, Jing Xun shrank slightly, finally indulging her.
Ji Youyan had a smile in his eyes. She sincerely thanked Jing Xiu: "Thank you A Xiu, thank you for helping me like this."
Jing Xiu stared at her, her eyes astringent. As if she couldn't believe it, she asked Ji Youyan in a low voice, "Are you serious?"
When she couldn't help Ji Yooyan before, it was not because Ji Yooyan knew that she hadn't thanked her. But she understands that Ji Yuyan is reluctant in her heart.
Looking at her expression, Ji Yuyan felt as if he was being pierced with needles in a dense manner. How many times did she make her girl feel aggrieved in this way before.
She squeezed Jing Xun's hand, looked at Jing Xun's expression, and leaned her chin on Jing Xun's knee a little bit, and said warmly, "I'm serious."
"Axun, I admit that if I know that I have been so-called self-reliance and still have not left your help, I am not embarrassed or disappointed at all, it is false." It is not easy to admit my inferiority complex. But compared to Jing Xiu once lowering her body again and again for her, she now puts down a little pride and nothing else.
She used to use fame and fortune to measure herself in the past, and she felt that everyone would measure herself like this. She was afraid that her humbleness and her upright breath would make Jing Xuan look down on her. She was paying attention to herself wholeheartedly, so that the lard was blinded, and she would turn a blind eye to Jing Xun's sacrifice and fragility.
Jing Xiu felt the weight on her legs and froze her legs.
"But later, I was more guilty and distressed. I was distressed that I kept making you so complacent. I felt guilty for accepting your kindness but didn't sincerely thank you. I don't know what to do..." The evil word hasn't been exported yet, Jing Xiu hit Broke her.
"You don't need to belittle yourself like this."
Ji Yuyan's heart has been warm. It doesn't matter what others think, what matters is what Jingxun thinks of her.
A word of "words" whirled in his throat, but Jing Xuan still did not call out. She said, "I didn't help you. You don't have anything to say that it is not self-reliant."
"Whether it was before or now I signed with Ran Wen, I have never intervened in the development of your career. The only time I hope you will make a movie with me, you also refused, right? A singer's achievement is a song, and an actor's achievement is a drama. At best, I only provide you with an environment where you can focus on your career. If it weren't for the pathological development of this circle, and talented people would come out with strength, wouldn't it be right?"
"You perform the play yourself, and the award is your own strength. What does it have to do with me if you can seize the opportunity to achieve success?" There are many people in this circle who can't afford to spend a lot of money, let alone. She didn't spend money to hold Ji Yuyan. Except for her lover's filter, she has always appreciated and believed in Ji Yuyan's talent.
Ji Yuyan's eyes were like water, and he laughed.
"Yes, it has nothing to do with you." But when she figured it out in the last life, Jing Xiu was no longer waiting for her.
"Axun, I thank you for letting me meet Wei Yizhen." The previous life left Wang Junchan's repressive control method, and after following Wei Yizhen, she slowly regained her confidence.
There was an unnoticeable moisture in Jingxuan's eyes. Her voice was soft: "Wei Yi was really not what I was looking for, and it has nothing to do with me." Once she was bitten by a snake for ten years, she was afraid of getting rid of the relationship.
Seeing her showing some familiar tenderness, Ji Yuyan's heart became restless.
"I see." She replied in a low voice.
She is so eager. Ji Yuyan bit his lip, his heart beating like a drum. She couldn't hold back it anymore, and under Jing Xiu's gaze, she tentatively printed her thin lips on the back of Jing Xiu's cold hand.
The warm touch seemed to burn into Jing Xun's heart from the back of his hand. Her body shuddered and softened with her heart.
The long-term desire was satisfied, Jing Xiu heard his heart sigh, and then he yearned even more, greedily wanting more.
Pulling between reason and emotion, Jing Xun stared at Ji Youyan dazedly, and stopped talking.
Her non-resistance, her tenderness nourishes Ji Yuyan's courage. Ji Youyan raised her beautiful neck, her eyes burning. She slowly got up, changed from looking up to looking down, trying to get close to Jing Xun's red lips that she had coveted.
Ji Yuyan's hand was pressed on the back of Jing Xun's chair, but within a short distance, their warm breath was already entangled in the air...
Jing Xiu's throat slipped and suddenly turned away.
Ji Yuyan was stunned and hurriedly stopped, his knuckles turned white with force, abruptly restrained.
"Axun..." she yelled dumbly, with a little pity.
Jing Xiu didn't dare to look at her, her voice rustling: "Why didn't you think this way before?" After all, her reason had the upper hand.
"Why did you never communicate with me before?"
why? Ji Yuyan followed in silently in his heart. For so many reasons, she didn't know where to start.
"Maybe it's a fan of the authorities." She said with difficulty. The longer she broke up with Jingxun, the more sober she became and the more regretful she was for betraying. No matter what kind of hardship she has had, it is not a legitimate reason for her to hurt Jingxun. But when she got stuck in the game, she couldn't see clearly.
Jing Xiu's line of sight was a little further away, and he said slowly, "So, distance allows us to communicate better, right?"
After the breakup, she has reflected on many times in the days when she was desperate for life. Was it because she was too eager to chase after Ji Yooyan, so that she didn't communicate well, and didn't give Ji Yooyan enough time to think clearly, so that Ji Yooyan rashly agreed to be with herself.
After breaking up, Ji Youyan never looked for her. If it weren't for this time meeting in the show, their story would have ended. Does she really want to be with herself?
To love or not, to be together, these are two things.
Guilt can make people dizzy and move forward courageously, but time will wipe out everything.
Did Ji Yoon really think about it this time? Will they really not repeat the same mistakes?
Jing Xiu had no confidence.
Ji Yuyan opened his mouth, trying to argue with nothing.
The phone's ringtone suddenly rang, and the sound came from Jingxun's pocket. Jing Xiu took out his mobile phone, and Ji Youyan saw the screen showing that the call was coming from Yanzhou.
Jing Xiu calmed down as he watched the call. Her gaze fell on Ji Yooyan's arms around her. Ji Yooyan quickly retracted her hand in embarrassment and stood up straight.
Jing Xiu nodded slightly, and while answering the phone, he got up and walked out.
Ji Youyan stood there watching her, raised his hand and stroked his lips blankly. After a long while, she bends her lips, letting go.
In any case, Ah Xiu's looseness was obvious.
It's a long day, she can wait.
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