Chapter 1279: The memory of the nightmare covered in dust, she collapsed (1)

There was a wet mist in his eyes, and his lips trembled lightly, "You get out of here! I won't believe what you say, get out of your way, get out of me--!"
In the end, she was holding her head and shouting at him hoarsely, her voice was so hoarse, she couldn't say a word, choked and hugged her head, slowly slid down the wall, and sat on the ground. .
The past hits like a nightmare.
Suddenly, it seemed that a lot of things were pouring into my head.
Although my childhood memories were not so deep, there were still a few pictures and a few blurry shots in my mind. They were so deep and so clear.
The memories of being dusty when I was a child, as if opening the gate, one by one nightmare rushed into my mind.
My mother was mentally abnormal. When she was rescued by others, the people who settled in the family had already hated her, because their son died to save this woman. For the sake of her pregnancy, they looked forward to their son. The only species left.
As a result, the fact that after the child was born, the two births were two people, it simply brought a deep shame to An Jia’s stereotyped and self-serving officer family.
And this is not limited to this, the younger brother of the two births, Anjia's own son's blood, also died.
She was the only one left, the kind that was forced out.
It is conceivable that my mother suffered from Anjia during her pregnancy, especially Grandma An’s cold eyes and indifference, but after giving birth, Anjia hated her more than anything! ?
It's not that she never thought of leaving, but she loves her father and doesn't want to leave the only place with him.
What's more, how can Anjia allow her to leave? If she is thrown out of a family like theirs, she will definitely be talked about outside. The ugliness of the family must not be publicized. Grandma An will let her die at home. .
but.
An Ge'er thought, what does all this have to do with her mother, she is also a victim, why should she be treated like this?
My mother suffered from postpartum depression and was often insane, but she did not beat or scold herself, and was very gentle to her, but they were two of them. In her memory, she and her mother rarely left the small attic of the house. .
Never go out, go out, face them, it is another world.
When she was young, her face was yellowish and thin, and she was full of weakness. This remained so until that day when a boy, a 13-year-old brother, came back from the outside and saw him by the window of the attic.
He was so indifferent. He didn't smile when the family members gathered around him to speak. He appeared in the corridor of the attic that day and secretly opened the door to see him.
And who is that person who looks like his brother?
An Ge'er's heart was already clear at this time, but her heart was more depressed and more painful, because not long after he came back, her mother committed suicide.
The reason for suicide was that I was so hungry that I went to fetch her food, but was beaten up by Grandma Ann. Her mother rushed to defend herself, but Grandma Ann viciously told her that she was not the son of her and their family. Her child is the kind of her and others!
It turns out that my mother never knew about this.
So after that, she was shocked and she looked at herself incredulously--