Chapter 309: Countless firsts

"But I think I'm so cruel. I don't want to see you feel sad and sad because of the past, because then my heart will hurt."
Ouyang Ruixi stretched out a catkin to gently comfort his frowning eyebrows. She didn't like the way he frowned, because that would mean that he was trapped by something, and such a He would make himself feel extremely distressed, so for a while he also forgot the shyness he had always felt, and boldly expressed his deep love for him.
"I'm not sad, it's just a little helpless, so don't worry about me." Mu Jiyun can clearly feel the trembling sensation from her cold fingertips, and sighed. Under her indifferent coat, there will be such a passionate heart, and her enthusiasm will only bloom for herself. In this way, how lucky and happy she is, then he still has Why can't we help her in the same boat?
"Well, if you really feel uncomfortable, don't force it. Although I also want to know everything about you, I don't want my starting point to become a trouble for you, so don't think about my mood." Ouyang Rui When Xi said this, her heart was aching, because she too knew what it was like to be ignored by her relatives, because she was one of the victims, so She is more able to consider issues from Mu Jiyun's standpoint, rather than blindly arrogant and unreasonable.
"Maybe you won’t believe it. Ever since I was a child, I never knew what it was like to be held by my father, and I don’t even know what it would be like to be pampered by my father. I have a deep feeling between the envy of the happy atmosphere of other people’s families and the resistance that I unconsciously later on. Although my mother loves me a lot, but After all, in her heart, I will never be more important than my father, so when they sent me to live abroad alone, I no longer felt chills, but quietly breathed a sigh of relief."
Speaking of this, Mu Jiyun still vaguely remembered how excited he was at that time, wondering whether he was far away from them, and he would become the only concern in their hearts, so he was very learning. It is hard work, try to show them the best side of themselves, thinking that father will always like him! But in the end he was still disappointed. Because of Wulun's performance, he was always a superfluous one in that extravagant home, and he couldn't change his indifferent fate in their hearts.
So he slowly showed all of this, and after a long time he no longer longed for the care and love that could not come to him, because some things are yours and yours, if not yours, how can you go? Forcing it is in vain, so why should he devote his time to these impossible things?
"From then on, I made a determination in my heart. If I really can’t perform the duties that a father should have, then I won’t be involved in that minefield in my entire life, so although I tell different women Gossips, but few can really have with me. All the licentious and promiscuous lives are just to conceal an illusion of who I am. I think that only by doing this can stimulate my parents. At the same time They also took revenge on the marriage they imposed on me, but what I didn’t expect was that my radical approach would indirectly hurt the innocent you. This is a mistake that I can’t estimate. Very sorry."
Mu Jiyun looked at Ouyang Ruixi very seriously. He did owe her an explanation and a late apology. The reason why he was so angry at the time was because he had never thought that he had never cared about himself. The parents would suddenly pay attention to his marriage, so under a moment of annoyance, they would unacceptably yell at Ouyang Ruixi, who was still in a state of ignorance at the time, and then turned around without hesitation. go with.
Ouyang Ruixi replied with a shallow smile, but did not make a sound, because she knew there were many more things he wanted to say, so she could just listen quietly, without intervening in her own evaluation. Because no matter how beautiful the words are, it is impossible to make up for the paleness in his heart.
"I had a relationship with you in a daze. This incident made me feel scared, because I suddenly realized one thing. It turns out that this world still has medicine. At some point, it's not that I can discipline myself. I did not give birth to my own child with any woman, so in order to prevent future troubles, I did not hesitate to let Shuhan perform sterilization on me, but I didn’t expect that you would be pregnant in one night. My child, this is something I never expected."
For this Mu Jiyun, I don’t know whether he should be happy or sad, because he almost became a man like his father, and without knowing it, he became an irresponsible father. Fortunately, she has been so many years. She never contacted herself, but no matter what, she finally let her life not leave much regret, personally sent her son to her side, so that he should thank her, if not for her generosity With Yin Ren, not her rationality and kindness, then she is likely to pass this family affection.
This time, Ouyang Ruixi kissed him on the forehead. It turned out that the person he wanted to target from the beginning was not himself, but rather dissatisfied that he was designed by his parents. Unfortunately, she just happened to be the target of his venting. She can understand all of this, but has he really never thought of himself for so many years? She really wanted to know about this.
"Is it very strange why I haven't looked for you once in these years, and even almost forgot your existence." Mu Jiyun seemed to be able to detect the thoughts in Ouyang Ruixi's heart, not waiting for her When he had the opportunity to ask, he gave it out in advance, so this action made Ouyang Ruixi stunned for a few seconds, could it be said that this is the kind of love between lovers that others say ?
In fact, I can only say that it is Ouyang Ruixi who thinks too much. Where is Young Master Mu's heart-to-heart connection with her? That's because all her thoughts have surfaced in her face, and she has seen countless people in business Young Master Mu, how could he not see it? So it's not hard to guess that little thought in her heart.
"Hmm! Can you tell me the reason?" In fact, she felt that no matter how forgetful a person in Wulun is, it is impossible to forget such an important thing. Even if he really hates himself, he has experienced nothing or nothing. It should be completely erased from his mind, so she was really puzzled about this.
"If you subconsciously resist something, then as long as it is related to it all will be rejected by you, and I am in that state because of rejection of my parents Sense, so even you are excluded from your own heart. It’s not that you really don’t remember someone like you, but you subconsciously choose to forget. It is even more impossible to find you actively Things, besides, I thought that you have always lived in Fenglin for evening appointments, so I just need to call the money, and other things are not within the scope of my concern. Of course, this is not for you personally, only Because you are the woman they found, so I will implicate you together, so you will become a little poor."
Mu Jiyun squeezed her little nose. In fact, it was not as uncomfortable as he thought when she said it. It was just that the thought was buried too firmly, so he thought it was because he could not go. A scar was uncovered, the door opened, and he wouldn't want to continue to lock, at least in front of the woman he loved so much, he didn't want to have reservations anymore.
"It turns out that I became a victim of the battle between the two armies, and you obviously chose the side that wanted me to die in the battle. In this way, you are really cruel to me." Ouyang Ruixi deserves to be. A soldier can actually compare such a thing to a battlefield. I have to say that she is really dedicated to her work. At this point, she should be given extra points.
"Yeah! I was really cruel to you. I won't quibble on this point, because it is really that I did something wrong first, but you also let me make it in these short three months. I have many firsts. The first time I stayed quietly somewhere waiting for you to appear. For the first time, I have a sense of unease about a woman's gains and losses, and for the first time I let a woman play unscrupulously. She kissed her lips. For the first time, I understood how wonderful it is to love someone. For the first time, I knew that I could lower all my arrogance and bend my waist just for a woman."
If these were all punishments that he had to accept for the cruelty he had shown to her before, then he also obediently admitted, because he owed her all these, so there was no slightest reluctance. On the contrary, it is very sweet, because the woman is called Ouyang Ruixi, the woman he wants to spoil for life in the future.
"Are all these things you said true? And the woman you said is me?" Ouyang Ruixi looked at him with a cheerful smile, his smile was intoxicating and warm, and Mu Jiyun's eyes dazzled for a while. , With a stunned expression, because she had never seen such a face in these days, so he was very surprised. When she really laughed, she was so charming, like a gentle breeze. Brushing his heart, his years have been splendid. Even if he remembers many years later, he can still clearly capture her today's beautiful bloom.
"Who told you that the woman is you? I didn't expect Colonel Ouyang to be such a narcissistic person. I really don't know how shy." Mu Jiyun's first reaction when he came back to his senses was to start teasing his little wife. , Because she rarely has such tender moments. Under normal circumstances, she will either kick herself or her cold expression. The feeling of spring breeze like this is really never before. I haven't seen it before, so I made fun of her on a whim.
"Is it really not me? What about this?" Before Ouyang Ruixi's words fell, he kissed the extremely soft thin lips of Young Master Mu, but she heard him mention that his lips were made by other women. She hadn’t explored the field, so she was very excited about this. It turned out that what he told himself before was true. He would never give any woman a chance to kiss his beautiful lips. She was very excited about this. I feel relieved, at least there is a certain place on his body that no other woman has ever touched.