Chapter 1409 - At First, I Didn’t Know What It Meant. Then, I Feel It is About My Past

Chapter 1409: At First, I Didn’t Know What It Meant. Then, I Feel It is About My Past
Translator: 
Nyoi-Bo Studio 
 Editor: 
Nyoi-Bo Studio

Zhang Zian looked up and saw that everything around him was still, but covered with a layer of misty gray.
The little girl ran to the pet store’s entrance and maintained her posture of pushing the door.
The pale otaku girl hovered near the pet shop door and hesitated.
The frowning expressions of the two boys who were talking about Xiuxian’s novels had frozen expressions on their faces.
The policewoman had just pushed the wheelchair out of the carriage, but it was not enough time for the disabled girl to sit on it.


The exhaust of the bus was diffused around the exhaust port and hadn’t dispersed yet.
Pedestrians, vehicles, birds, mosquitoes… even the wind remained still.
Everything froze except for Zhang Zian himself, four cats, a bird and monkey, and a mute disabled girl.
Of course, there was also Zhuang Xiaodie standing in front of him. Her gorgeous Chinese costume looked even more gorgeous in this gray world.
She stood upright and stared down at him.
As the elves approached their enemies, they became fully alert.
The golden and tea-colored cats bowed and flexed their claws, while the blue-gray cat clenched its fists. The little monkey was unarmed for its only weapon, the keyboard, was smashed yesterday. Thus, it had to pick up a branch and hold it in his hand. The gray parrot held up its ass, ready to use chemical weapons in violation of UN conventions …
The mute girl who couldn’t do much was a little further away could do nothing but look. In this dream world, she was unable to even talk, so her invisible high-frequency sound waves that were capable of harming people couldn’t be used.
However, their struggle was futile in this dream world. As long as she waved her hands, they would either be wiped out or forced to withdraw from the dream world.
The black and white kitten knew this and didn’t intend to put up any unnecessary resistance.


She was the absolute master of this world. In the past, she always held herself back to prevent Zhang Zian from detecting her irrationality. Now that was no longer necessary, and there was no need to use the butterflies to do her bidding. She was able to freely unleash her powers.

Acting? You call it that, but what’s the difference? Life is like a play and a dream at the same time. As long as you want to live comfortably, you must learn to lie to yourself,
He didn’t seem to notice her face. It was as if a storm was coming. He calmly looked elsewhere and admitted his actions.

When did you know about this?
She asked simply.
When did he start doubting that this was a dream, and when did he start to make sure that it was one?

I don’t know the exact time, but it was likely when I saw the posters in the cinema. I had long been suspicious of them, but I didn’t think of them as a ‘dream’. Instead, I suspected that something was wrong with my brain, which was then confirmed a while later,
He replied.
She looked up at a dog-shaped cloud in the air, but the cloud didn’t move.
This problematic dog truly gave her plenty of trouble.
Zhuang Xiaodie had his memories and learned how well he could disguise his emotions. The way he accepted the accidental death of his parents was too calm, so calm that she could sense his deception. Thus, she used this as an entry point. She thought it was a success; as long as no elves broke into her dream, she was confident that she would have succeeded without being detected.
Even if the elves’ appearance led to accidents and deviations, what she regretted most was that she could not see behind his act.
Why was that so?


When she browsed his memory, she easily saw his lies and falsehood at a glance, but in this dream, she was deceived by his spectacular acting …
Why…why was that so?
She already knew the answer to that question, but she didn’t want to accept it.
At first, she did not know what it meant. Upon hearing it once again, however, she realized that it was about her past.
She remained unbiased while watching from the perspective of a third party, but when she participated and became part of the dream herself, she can no longer remain calm and impartial. Instead, she was lost in the dream.
It was indeed sad and regrettable.
She couldn’t forgive herself, let alone the elves who caused this series of events to occur.
She shifted her gaze and glanced at them coldly. Although this was only their consciousness, they were also connected to their bodies. If their consciousness was severely damaged, how could their bodies continue to exist?
It was too late for them to leave the dream now. If they waited for her to attack, it would’ve been almost impossible to retreat once she made her move…

Thank you.



Zhang Zian suddenly had an idea without thinking about it too much.
Besides the gray parrot that only spoke a few words, Zhang Zian and Zhuang Xiaodie were the only ones who could speak. Given that, he was clearly talking to her.

Thank me? Thank me for what?
She furrowed her eyebrows, trying to determine whether he was acting or not.
He led the slaughter of hundreds of millions of her compatriots, and she forced him into a dream to have her revenge. If he couldn’t escape, the only thing waiting for him was death. They should’ve hated each other, so there should’ve been nothing to thank her for.

Thank you for allowing me to say ‘goodbye’.
He said,
Although this might not be what you intended to happen, I still want to thank you.

Yes, he wanted to say
goodbye
. He could not say it with a smile. He didn’t have the chance to say it before, and he thought he would never have another chance to say it.
No matter why she brought him into the dream, she had given him this opportunity. He wanted to thank her for that.
Zhuang Xiaodie was left speechless. She should have sneered at this, but why was she now experiencing mixed feelings in her heart?
She laughed at herself. She came for revenge but unintentionally freed him from the biggest regret in his heart.
With his biggest regret gone, he was able to lead a new life.



No need to thank me. I just want you to tell me something. Since you were merely acting in front of me, why couldn’t you act more realistically? You should know that if I’m not happy, I can end this dream at any time and never give you the chance to say ‘goodbye!’ she answered coldly, glancing at the black and white kitten.
She already lost some of her dignity by begging him to be with her. However, he still refused her and preferred to chase a kitten instead. She couldn’t believe this.
He nodded and said,
I’m sorry, I wanted to say ‘goodbye’ at the right opportunity, but I didn’t know if, the elves’ physical bodies would be affected if they were injured or killed here. Their powers in this dream are greatly weakened, and can’t protect themselves well. I can’t just sit back and not care about them.

Knowing that there were cat abusers in this world, he wasn’t assured that the powerless black and white kitten would be safe when running around. He had to chase after it. However, if the dream ended early because of his decision, there was nothing else he could do about it.
Every minute and every second in this dreamland was a bonus for him.
He wanted to spend more time with his parents, but Zhuang Xiaodie’s anger could longer be suppressed. Instead of making her dream come to an abrupt halt out of anger, she thought it was better to close it off soon and say
goodbye
decisively.
Fortunately, she had been fine with that until now.
No matter when the dream ended, he no longer had regrets.